Okay everyone here it is chapter 3 of My sorry life, but before I begin I have a few announcements to make. first off i won't be able to update during Christmas, sorry. Secondly if your reading my other story What Now I'll try updating soon, I was having a small writers block.
Started: December 10, 2011
Bella's Pov.
I woke up in the forest again a large headache on the rise. Shaking my head I noticed I must had phased while I asleep. Taking advantage of my new form I went for a small walk, around the forest. I had yet to test my strengths or my speed. So I was amazed when I bolted off like flash, I was nothing but a blur to the people I passed by. Coming to a stop on a bolder my chest was heaving, but I wasn't tired. I was panting at the adrenaline that was pumping through my system, it was better then drugs I'll give you that. A bird flew over me and I chased after it, we played around the small robin testing my speed, and strength. Before I knew what was happening I had jumped and snapped at the bird.
My predictor instincts quickly kicked in and I continued my chase after the bird that had flown high. My muscles tighten like a spring and pounced, high. I must had at least reach twenty feet into the air. My teeth rapped around the tail of the bird and I dragged it back down to the earth with me. My paw held it to the ground as I hissed at it. It wasn't long before the robin had died from no air and when I lifted my paw a smile came onto my face, before I realized what I had done. I scurried back from the dead animal, and ran the opposite way. I didn't know where I was going I just knew that I had just killed something.
This feeling was new to me, I had never killed anything before, not even a worm. I never had it in me to kill something. So you can see how much of a shock this was to me. Before long I was back at the river I had first gone to when I phased. But on the other side was a gorgeous white leopard much like myself. I became cautious as I walked closer to the river to get a drink. When the other leopard made no move to attack at me I took a drink from the clean water, but as I continued I became much away of the leopard moving to sit in front of me. When I looked up at the leopard she titled her head in a questioning way before, she swiped her paw at me. It was playful gesture and I gave into it jumping to the other side we began our game of tag.
She was far beyond my speed and strength which was good because I felt I could be myself, but a few candlemarks later and we both had become tired. I laded in the grass, my head on my paws, she looked at me for a second before she curled around me, almost like a mother would with their child. I learned a few things about myself from this. First off we were incredible fast much faster then the werewolves, and our strength was on pair with the vampires. Not only that but we had... special abilities just like vampires did too. I had seen how she had vanished and appeared not far away in our game of tag.
Suddenly there was a howl that broke our peaceful rest, and the female Leopard jumped to her feet and bolted away. I cursed myself for forgetting that we were still in fact on werewolf territory, I stood to my feet just as Jake, Leah, and Seth all came out of the forest in their wolf forms. Growls were coming from their lips and the only thing I knew how to do was to run away. I was quick on getting out of there but Leah and the other were right on me. Suddenly there was another howl and I saw a black wolf come onto my path, it was Sam. I pounced and I was able to use one of the trees to continue jump to another one across from it. My sharp claws digging into the wood.
It was long before I reached the border and I knew they wouldn't cross it even though the treaty had been abolished some time ago, much to my pleasure at the moment. Once I was across the border I was home free and I used my full speed to get back home, but just before I got there Sam had been able to scratch me.
I made it back to the forest just in time to watch as Jacob and Leah pulled into our drive way, they rushed into the house, and my acute hearing was able to pick up them talking about if everyone was safe, and were was I. It was hard but I was able to phase back again, this time but faster and less painful. Pulling on my coat, I was just about to put pull a cig from my Altoids box when the slip of paper I had gotten from Peter fell out. Looking down at the number and address, I looked at the the plastic bag of white powder, and my mind floated back to my time with the leopard today. It had felt as if nothing was holding me back and I was just at peace with life, but as I stared at the bag of Cocaine it reminded me of how my life was being controlled by something else, and that I wasn't even capable of thinking on my own.
It was then and there that I made a decision that would probable change my life forever.
Leah's Pov.
It was good to know that charlie and mom where safe but I couldn't say the same thing about Bella. She had yet to come home, which scared me. But night was coming and a day was about to past since she had been home, the longest she had ever stayed out. I gave Jake a peck on the cheek before walking up to my room. Soon hours passed and I decided it was about time I go to bed; just as I entered I caught sight of Bella walking across the street a wide smile on her face. It was contagious because soon I was smiling as well. It wasn't long before she walked into our room, and grabbed her things and went to the bathroom.
I sat on the edge of my bed as I listened to the running water, and as I remembered our chase after the leopard earlier today. The thing had been fast I'll give it that, but there was no doubt in my mind that we would get it the next time it passed through. Sam told me he would talk to the Cullens about it, and asked if they would be on the look out on their side of Forks. Finally the water stopped and I heard Bella give a hiss of pain, I had to resist the erg to go and see what was wrong.
Finally she came back into the room in only a pair of basketball shorts and a tank top. My mouth went completely dry when I saw the tight muscles ready to explode from her body. It was actually hard to tell when she had gotten them because she was always wearing that big wool coat. She must have caught me staring because she gave a confused look. I waved her off though I knew that I actually wanted her to take me up into her arms and kiss me, but that would never happen. I was with Jake, my boyfriend.
Bella's Pov.
I was hasten to knock on the door, of the huge mansion before me. It felt like I was meeting the Cullens all over again. But finally when I knocked on the door it wasn't Esme that greeted me it was Lucy. She welcomed me with a warm hug before leading me into the house, we walked up a pair of glass stairs before we finally reached a office just across the beckon. Upon entering in I wasn't surprised when I saw that Carmon, Peter, and David were all in the room.
Lucy lead me to a seat and I took it giving her a nod of thanks. She took a seat on the arm of Peter's chair behind a desk. I was nervous and I had to fight the erg to pull out a cig, I knew if I wanted to get through this I would have to find a better way to deal with my nervousness other than smoking my life away.
"So Bella what was it that you wanted to talk about." Peter said leaning forward in his chair a little.
I gave a small nervous chuckle, I didn't know how to say it so I just pulled out the plastic bag of white powder. Getting up I walked over to Peter and set down on his desk, I felt like a caged animal, and my eyes darted anywhere they could without looking at the four people in the room.
"Is this what I think it is." Peter said looking at the bag for a second before giving me an astonished look.
"Well Bella you sure do have yourself in a pickle that's for sure." Peter said. But he smiled to show he wasn't mad at me.
"We can work through this" he gave a chuckle and tried to hide a grin, "We can also help you with your romance problems."
I don't know what happen but I couldn't hold it in any longer, tears came freely like someone had opened up the flood gates. Through my blurry vision I could see Lucy stand and walk to me, arms so in circled me. And I felt at total peace, and I knew I has been given a second chance. I could start all over and get out of the hell of a sorry life I had. There was no other way to explain how I felt except total bliss. Lucy whispered soothing words to me as I clung into her like she was my life line. Carmon and David were silent but I could feel the hope and welcoming feeling rolling off them in waves. David handed me one of his black handkerchief and I took it gladly. Whipping my eyes and face clear of tears I took a deep breath and licked my lips and quickly found the salty tast of tears addicting. Lucy sat on the arm of my chair but didn't stop rubbing soothing circles into my back.
"Then we'll start right away if that's what you like." Peter said. I didn't need to think it over and quickly nodded my head before I changed my mind on the whole things. Taking the plastic bag and Altoids he put them into one of the draws and locked it.
"Well all you can do now Bella is try resisting the ergs of doing anything to get more Cocaine and Heroine."
"You did the right thing." Lucy whispered into my ear. I nodded and she stood.
"Would you like something to eat, a girl your size needs to eat you know." she said and to get her point across she gave one of my arms a squeeze.
"I don't know you guys are already doing so much for me, I don't want to seem as if I'm taking advantage of you guys." I whispered, through sniffs of course.
Carmon shook her head and stood before guiding me into the extremely large kitchen. All the appliances where stainless steel, and the refrigerator, the refrigerator was huge. The counter tops where made of black marble and the knobs on the cabinets were also stainless steel but with gold trim. It had a modern style to it that seemed to pull it altogether. If this was what the kitchen looked Like I couldn't wait to see what the rest of the house looked.
Carmon sat me down at one to the chairs at the counter as she took a seat next to me. Lucy on the other hand pulled on a dole black and gold apron before getting set for cooking.
"So Bella tell me about your self. You'll be over here a lot now, might as well get to know each other." Carmon said after a long pause of silence.
"Uh well as you know I work at a casino, I don't have a favorite color, and well there's not much to know about me." I said nervously. Had it really been this long since I've talked to some one.
"Oh and I'm majoring in foreign languages. I guess that's got to count for something." I quickly added on. She smiled and laughed as my discomfort.
"That's cool so what can you say so far." Carmon said. Instead of telling her I decided I could gain some points and my pride back by showing her.
"è piuttosto difficile ma credo che sono sempre stato bravo in lingue che è facile per me" I said quite fluently that it all probably blended in together.
"That's so cool, I can only speak Romanian and Spanish." she said. From the corner of my eye I saw Lucy staring shocked before smiling and going back to cooking.
It wasn't long before my food was finished and through that time me and Carmon got to know each other very well. Lucy sat a plate of steak, smashed potatoes, carrots, and other veggies down in frot of me. I ate at a slow pace but continued to answer question from Carom and sometimes Lucy. After that David and Peter gave me a tour of the house and I finally noticed that Mary, and Mark weren't here. I questioned them on this and they said they were just friends visiting for the weekend. It was already getting hard to resist the temptation of finding some Cocaine no matter the size it could have been the size of rice and I would probably jump in joy. But I knew that- that was just my addiction talking, not
my heart ; the thing that wanted to walk free if a handicap or wanting to hold the one I love.
The heart is a fragile muscle and shouldn't be put under stress or kept from it's needs and most want. So this is what I thought of as I sat on the couch in the Jackson's home. It was about time I left and began my journey back to Charlies house.
"Be safe." Lucy said and gave my cheek a small kiss before pulling me into a hug.
"And stay away from anything you use to hang around when you smoking." Peter added on in a fatherly tone. I smiled and waved them goodbye before making my way to my motorcycle sitting on their drive way.
I took many twist and turns as I went the long way back home. Pulling into the drive way I saw Jacobs motorcycle in the drive way and knew he was most likely still here. I didn't question it though. Pocketing the key I walked into the house I said a small hello to Charlie and Sue before heading up to my room. God hadn't prepared me for what I saw next, there on Leah's bed was a half naked Jacob and Leah in nothing more than her undergarments. They seemed to be just as surprised because they pulled out of the heated kiss they were having. I knew there wasn't much I could do since neither of them knew if my feelings for Leah; so instead I balled my hands to the point I could feel my nails sharpen and dig into my skin drawing blood.
Jacob scratched his cheek in embarrassment before he stood and started to pull on his shirt.
"Now Bella it's not what you think." Leah said walking towards me. She seemed worried and when she took my hand I pulled it out of her hold.
It burned to be touched by her, and it wasn't helping that Jacob was still in the room too. I shook me head and just gave her small smile before walking into our walk in closet and pulling out a pair of shorts and a tank top. My scars had healed up by now so it was safe to start wearing them again.
"No it's fine." I said walking towards the door, "I'm sorry for interrupting, please continue." I closed the door to my room just as I saw Leah open her mouth t speak further lies to me, but I didn't want to hear it.
Leah's Pov.
Oh shit, Bella did not just see me making out with Jacob on my bed, in our room, in my underwear. What has the world come to! I had tried to explain but we both knew there was nothing to explain, she had seen it with her own eyes and she knew what we had been doing. I sat on my bed with a huff and pulled the covers of my mostly naked body. Jake had pulled on a shirt but had yet to leave the room, instead he took a seat on the edge of my bed.
"She's not going to tell anyone if that's what your thinking." he whispered into my ear as he stroked my hair.
"And how do you know that!" he jolted back at my sudden outburst, "She's changed Jake, can't you see that, she's not the fragile scarred Bella we once knew. She's daring, mysterious, and not afraid to speak her mind." I said to her trying to show him reason.
He seemed shocked by this new information, before his eyes widened in realization. He finally understood what I was trying to get by, what I had been trying to keep out of my mind for the past two weeks. He paced the room, before finally getting close to me.
"We'll talk to Sam about this tomorrow. She's obviously hiding something." he whispered. I nodded and he stood before giving me a kiss and walking towards the door.
"She really isn't the same is she?" he said, looking over his shoulder his eyes connected, I nodded. He gave a sigh of frustration before making his way to his motorcycle.
As soon as he left Bella walked back into the room murmuring something in a different language. It was really unfair that she knew all the different languages, and we would never know what she's talking about. She could be planning on to kill right in front of us and we would never know, but I knew it wasn't that she was murmuring about. I decided I would confront her on what had happen that day two days ago.
"Bella?" she whipped around and looked at me shocked, almost like she hadn't seen me sitting here, "What do you dream about."
She seemed even more shocked at my question, and she stuttered and stumbled over her words. And it made no since on what she was saying because as usual when she got nervous or was avoiding answering one of my questions she switched to any language but English.
"W-cosa vuoi dire, io sogno di qualsiasi cosa una persona normale farebbe"
"Bella...Bella." she was still going on in her chosen language. So I grabbed her by the shoulders and shook her a little bit. "Bella! English please." I finally asked.
"Sorry." she said. Her muscles went tense under my hands and I could see how they shifted in her arms. I let go of her before I did something I would regret and I could also hear the sigh of relief she let out as I stepped out of her bubble.
"So what do you dream about?" I questioned her again.
"Things." was all she said before she turned off the lamp on her side and crawled into her bed for the night.
Review please and sorry, but I'm way to lazy to translate what the language says, and any mistakes in this chapter are my own fault, i still don't have a beta and i didn't read through this one like I usually did, so Sorry Sorry, Sorry.