Here it is my friends chapter 4 of My Sorry Life. in this chapter I have a even bigger surprise, hope you like it, and think of it as a Christmas present or what every your celebrating right now. Also Seth is finally introduced in this chapter, as well as Charlie gets some screen time.

Started: December 10, 2011

Leah's Pov.

As Jake had promised me last night we went to Emily's house where no doubt Sam would be, night time had come quickly. He knocked only once before the door opened wide and Sam motioned us in. From what Jake had told me Sam already knew of why we were here. The Cullens as well had been suspicious of Bella's action lately, and had come the meeting. I sat tense next to Jake who had put his arm around me, I knew he was trying to comfort me but I just could deal with the closeness right now, not after what Bella saw.

"Well for those of us that don't know why we're here." Sam said looking around at the faces that were in the living room, "This meeting is about the up coming serious matter on Bella's changed self, and the werewolf that had been seen last week."

Everyone but the Cullens, Jake, Sam and me seemed confused and I couldn't help but stare in shock. They hadn't noticed, they had been so lost in their own lives to even worry about the one girl that had brought them all together. Rage raised in me and I didn't understand why, I had done the exact same when I had started my relationship with Jake. My attention then flickered over to Charlie and my mom who sat almost as confused as the others, but there was also a hint of fear in their eyes at the mention of the werewolf.

"What's wrong with my girl." Charlie said, it was the first time I actually heard worry in his voice for Bella. Mom gripped onto him as he started to fidget.

Of course though Charlie had to know about us shape-shifters since her married my mom. It would seem weird if I phased in front of him, we couldn't have another father dieing from a heart attack.

"That's why we're here, we don't understand what's wrong, but she's withdrawing from us. Have you noticed anything different about her lately." Sam asked.

Silence set in instantly as everyone started to think over what could be happening with Bella. From the corner of my eyes I saw Alice and Edward having a small argument that was getting worse by the second. Bronzy was obviously anger and Alice seemed close to hysteric as she continued to tell Edward her side of her story, or get her point across. Jake followed my line of vision and soon everyone was staring at the still arguing leeches.

Suddenly Edward jumped to his feet making the house shake. "Tell them!" he screamed at Alice.

"I can't I promised, this is none of our business! She wants to get through this on her own, why can't you see that!" Alice screamed back jabbing her finger into the other leeches chest.

Edward growled and I felt Jake pull me closer and tense up in case something went bad, and he needed to defend me. Edward slapped Alice's hand away, and stared her in the eyes. "Tell. Them." he hissed through clenched teeth.

"Edward, Alice what's going on."Carlisle said taking his role as the father figure and stepping in before things turned out bad.

"Tell them!" Edward continued to scream at the smaller vampire. Jasper had by now taken his place next to his mate, his jaw locked, tight.

"I can't we don't even know if it's true yet, she could have just been messing with us." Alice said.

I don't know how, but I think I know what was wrong as it suddenly all came together in my head. The smoke smell the baggy eyes, the irritated behavior, the fancy new cars, and the call. I bolted up as my eyes widen, I stalked over to the pixie leech and looked her in the eyes with a cold stare. Behind me Jake had stood but when Sam held up his hand he sat back down. I gave a nod to him, This was my business and mine alone.

"Alice." I said my voice coming out colder than I meant for it to, "Is she.." I trailed I couldn't say it.

Alice looked at me eyes as wide as the moon when she figured out what I was asking. She hung her head and I knew I was right. My hand went to cover my mouth instinctively, and I turned to Jake.

"Lee-Lee what's wrong, what's wrong with Bella." Jake whispered into my ear as he wrapped his arms around me.

The room went completely silent as I the next four words left my mouth, "She's addicted to Cocaine." there was a thump and my head snapped to where Charlie sat. He was now on the floor, knocked out.

Bella's Pov.

I had gotten zero sleep since all I could think of was what I had seen Jacob and Leah doing last night. So it's safe to say when I arrived at the Power's house I was completely drained, and it didn't help that I was dieing for some cocaine. Pulling into the drive way of their house, I hopped off my bike and walked the short distance to the door. Pulling the spare key out that they had given me I let myself in, I walked into the living room and flopped down on the couch. Now that I was at peace in the comforting home of my new friends I fell into the my dark and mysterious world of dreaming.

I jolted awake and sighed happily when I noticed that I was still on the couch in the Power's house. But I could hear the blaring sound of music, and cooking coming from the kitchen, and I became aware of the hand running through my hair. I looked up and my eyes locked on with Carmon's dark green eyes. She looked like she was in a daze but the smile that appeared on her face told me other wise.

"Sorry, you where having a nightmare, and I couldn't help myself." she said, but she never stopped running her hands through my hair.

I closed my eyes tight as I remember my dream. I had it a lot but it was still a nightmare, I was standing in the forest by my house watching a motorcycle pull in but it wasn't Jake on it with Leah it was me. As we had gotten off we suddenly got into an argument and she had obviously said some hateful words, and then I started screaming at her and she screamed at me. Things just went terrible and then she said the worse words and left me, romance wise and physically. I screamed after her but she never did, and then I heard a gun shot and everything would go black, and I would wake up.

"Lucy's making some lunch for you." Carmon said bringing me out of my monstrous thoughts that were suffocating me.

"Thanks...for everything." I said, sitting up and getting off the couch. Carmon followed me and we soon found ourselves in the kitchen with a plate in front of me.

"So tell me about this girl your in love with." Carmon said with a small smirk when I blushed.

"Well to start her name is Leah Clearwater."

Leah's Pov.

After we had gotten Charlie to wake up the questions started to come from everyone like water. Alice sat over whelmed in her chair but her eyes never wavered away from me, like she knew my questions where the most important or some secret cause to all this mess.

"She does." Edward said cockily, and I growled I wasn't in the mood for this crap.

"Edward don't irritate her, she's already stressed out about this." Alice said her voice was small like a mouse, but thanks to my hearing I caught what she said.

"So what are we going to do, my little girl is somewhere sitting getting high with he druggie friends, and maybe even over dosing." Charlie grounded out through clenched teeth. Everyone was annoyed and angry at themselves.

"Well Charlie not to make matter's worse but she's already overdosed before, a few times in fact it's hard to believe she's even alive." Alice said with a matter of fact tone, this only made matters worse. I heard Charlies heart speed up and I knew this wasn't good for his blood pressure.

"How long has it been going on?" it was the best question we could start at the moment, and it could lead to more questions, which could come to the solution of our problems.

"Since the Newborn battle so about three years, and it's only getting worse, she's killing herself."

"Why didn't you tell us earlier?" Jake growled out, though he didn't show it Bella was still very much his friend, and he was still very. very protective of her.

"She made me promise not to tell, I had made so many promises to her before that I went back on, I couldn't do it again, not when i thought things were getting better." Alice said, and I saw her eyes fill with tears that could never fall. Jasper wrapped his arms around her and kissed her temple.

"Why is she doing this?" I finally asked. I was surprised by her answer.

"Love, unrequited love, and to punish herself." Alice said, her eyes stayed clued to me.

"Love...Love, she's doing drugs because somebody won't love her!" I said my voice laced with anger, and I gripped the arm of the chair so I didn't do something I would regret.

"Leah I'm sure you understand more than anyone here what it feels to watch the one you love be with another," he eyes flickered over to Same and my heart clenched as I relived those days. It had been hard, and I was on the verg of going insane, I needed an outlet and beating down on everyone had seemed to help. I knew I was hurting everyone in some way, but i decided not to acknowledge it.

"The only difference with Bella is that she didn't have anyone to turn to when this happened, you did. You had Seth, your mom, and your father, she has no one, and it doesn't help that not even her own father was there to help. she had once again been selfless and let Charlie have the time of his life dating your mom."

"Who is it." I finally asked after sitting in silence for a while thinking over this new information.

"I can't tell you, you'll have to ask her yourself." Alice said. Great more mysteries, just when I thought we were starting to solve our problems, shits about to go down soon.

Bella's Pov.

"So let me get this straight you left Edward when he fell for your old friend, Angela but then you realized your love for Leah who hooked up with this kid named Jacob and Leah's also your step-sister and you caught them about to do it in your room." Carmon said her voice dramatic and shaking her head.

"Your life my dear friend is messed up." she added on. I nodded in agreement and I looked over to Lucy who had taken to cleaning the house, or the kitchen more specially to clear her mind.

Looking at the clock on the stove I took notice that it was about time for me to head back to Charlie's house. "I should be on my way, every ones probably worried." I murmured off towards the end. I knew no body would be waiting for me when I got back, even if they did figure out I was addicted they wouldn't care. My only hope to survive is with the Jackson's.

"Do you really." Carmon said pulling me into a big hug. I rested my chin on top of her head and nodded.

"Yea but I'll be back tomorrow." I whispered and she laughed before pulling back so Lucy could give me a hug and a kiss on the forehead. She was really like my other mother now, and it had only been a few days since we met.

"Tell Peter and David I said bye okay." they nodded in agreement and I walked out of the house to my motorcycle.

I wasn't tried by the time I got home and of course the house was completely silent when I pulled into the drive way. Deciding it would be better not to wake them I climes the tree to our bed room window. Pushing it open with skilled hands I slipped in. I thought I had been successful, but when the lamp turned on and I saw Leah sitting on my bed giving me a stern look I knew for sure, I wouldn't be able to deny it.

"Where have you been it's one in the morning." Leah hissed through her teeth at me. She stalked towards me and I shuffled around her never turning my back to her.

"I was out with some friends that's all." I lied through clenched teeth said, this had been the most I had talked to Leah the passed year, and I wondered why the sudden change.

"Really have you." she said questioning me, and I glared at her. I was in no mood to be challenged, and the animal in me was ready to show it's dominance.

"Yea, why do you care." I asked just as I was locked between her and me bed. Her face was so close I could smell the shampoo she used, coconut and strawberries. Jacobs favorite and now my own.

She raised an eyebrow but stepped back a little. My hand twitched as I stopped my animal side from gripping onto the girls waist and throwing her onto my bed. She had no clue of the danger she was putting herself into right now, I was much faster and stronger then she and the pack could ever hope to be. And when she leaned in again though this time lower and sniffed my coat I had to grip the sheets of my bed. I watched as Leah reared back, and I knew why the smell of smoke lingering on me was strong, thanks to my coat.

"Are you sure you where hanging with friends." she looked me in the eyes,"You weren't I don't know hanging around drug dealers, or at work a little to long."

I bared my teeth at her and gave a hiss as I pushed her back. Fear struck in her and she walked back as I towered over her, the tables had turned she was the one on defense and I was the one asking the questions. She only got to her bed before she fell back, leaning over her I let my hands rest on either side of her head. I couldn't help but realize how welcoming this position would be if the situation had been different, and the anger we were both feeling was gone. Leaning down I hotly but angrily whispered into her ear.

"You stay out of my business I'll stay out of yours." she didn't answer immediately and it was only then that I let one if my hands rest on her hip. Giving it a squeeze, but only hard enough to make her realize I wasn't in the mood to be challenged.

"You wouldn't dare." she hissed our noses bumping as I stared her in the eyes.

"Do you wish to try me and find out."
I said and before I knew what I had done I pressed my lips to hers.

The kiss had been everything I could have hoped for. My wolf gave a howl of approval, and I couldn't agree even more. She didn't kiss back at first but when I pulled her closer to my body, her legs wrapped around my waist and the heels of her feet dug into my back as her hands found their way into my hair. This only stoked my confidence and I deepened the kiss, running my tongue over her lips in a plead for entrance. She gasped and I took my chance, letting my tongue snake it's way into her mouth were we then began our battle for dominance.

I would have won if she hadn't grinded her self into me, making me release a moan. Though this was a small cut to my leopards pride it only became more aroused at having a strong mate. My shot open as the though finally entered my brain, Leah was dating Jacob. How could i have been so stupid to forget that, Leah was just using me right now, trying to win me over to make sure I didn't tell anyone what I had caught them doing. But it felt so good, to finally have her in my arms, how could I possible give this up.

"Leah..." I tried to pull out of her grasp but her legs kept that from happening, she showered my neck with kisses, "Leah ...stop."

As much as it hurt me and my leopard to say that it had to be done. She found a particular sensitive spot on my neck and sucked and bit on it, a moan came from me and I suddenly felt ashamed of doing this. A whimper left my lips without my command, and I felt my pride finally shatter.

"You.. won't.. tell anyone will you." she asked my and I felt my Heart shatter and break, I had nothing left, not my pride, my ego, or my heart.

She was doing this as a bribe. I let her pull me in for kiss, but it didn't feel the same, it burned, and made my chest ache. I pulled back and straighten up, unlocking her legs from around me,and pulling her hands from my hair. This isn't how it was suppose to be, I would have to learn that it just wasn't meant to be, me and her. I left her lying on the bed as I pulled off my coat and flung it onto my bed.

"You won't tell any one will you." she asked again. She was terrified that much of my knowledge, it broke me into even more pieces.

"No, I'll keep it secret." I whispered, she was oblivious to the pain that laced my voice, "Just stay out of my business."

Things just weren't looking up for me, first Edward leaving for Angela, then my realization for my love if Leah, and now this shit! I need to cool down. I didn't bother to grab my coat ad I walked out of our room and into the forest behind our house. Once I deep into the woods I proceed to strip hiding my things under under a hollow tree before letting my leopard take over. The phasing was faster bur still just as painful, but I would learn deal with it, just like I was going to have to deal with everything else.

I sprinted off towards the clearing I had first met another leopard. I didn't expect her to be there but she was, sitting by the stream staring, at me of course. I knew she wouldn't hurt me so I jumped over the river and trotted over to her. She licked my mouth, in leopard language of a kiss. I gave a huff and she gave one that sounded more like a laugh. It was relaxing but I could feel the rage still left in me, so I whimpered. She acted as if she hadn't heard it, saving what ever was left of my ego. Instead she tugged on my fur in a sit down motion, I snapped at her not really in the mood to be ordered around. But my anger was soon replaced with regret and even sadness when my teeth had actually managed to bit into her front paw. She gave no yelp or whimper but just stared at me, like she knew I had been having a bad day and was just agitated. She licked her bleeding wound a few times before tugging my fur again, this time I listened and sat down. She was smaller than me but I knew she was stronger. She licked my furry face and it wasn't until she liked behind my ears did I realize that she was giving me a bath. I gave a large huff and I knew she was smiling behind me. It was an embarrassing process but it was also very calming and relaxing.

By the time she had finished I was calmed down enough to ask forgiveness. It was accepted and then she laded back in the grass with a huff. But I wasn't having that I bit her ear lightly and tugged on it in a motion that demanded the she-leopard get up. She did nothing, but when when I gave a whine and a small roar she gave a huff before standing up. But she didn't run away like she usually did when she played but instead searched the grass and quickly spotted a rodent near by. She gave me a look that said 'watch and learn', stalking on her bully towards the small animal. She waited and hid her face in the grass before pouncing on the big rat. Biting it in the neck she was able to quick kill it painlessly.

She walked back over to me before dropping the animal at my feet she gave a look that obviously said 'now you try'. I accepted her challenge and began working on catching one of the rodents. I'll tell you this, it's much harder than she made it look.

Leah's Pov.

What have I done, what the fuck have I done! I basically just raped Bella but from the way she was moaning it sounded as if she was liking it. And when did she learn how to hiss like that! I blame this all on my fathers genes, if I had taken after mom more I probably wouldn't have ended up becoming a shape-shifter, fall for Jake, and maybe just maybe I would still be with Sam but there's a fat chance of that happening.

God my days are just getting stranger by the minute, next thing you know I'll be in love with Bella. I heard my wolf give a growl of disapproval at my thinking, it was knew because usually she just stayed quiet in the back of my head, just watching everything through my eyes like some reality comedy tv show. Jake wasn't going to like this, and I'm sure I won't be able to hide from the guys for long, maybe another few weeks or so but not long. I should have stopped it the second her lips touched mine, but it had felt so good, the way she was making me feel, it was nothing compared to how Jake does. Jake made me feel butterflies, but Bella oh god I think I died and went to heaven. She had been surprisingly gentle and took her time in make the kiss perfect, unlike Jake who's were always rushed, like we were going to get caught, and he only ever sought out for his own needs.

Holy shit! Does this make me gay now. I let a sigh out, my eyes had yet to leave the door that Bella had walked out of just over a few hours ago. She had been gone the whole night and had still yet to return, I could only hope that she wasn't dead under some tree. Which only made me realize that she hadn't answered my question. With a sigh I pushed off of my bed and walked out of my room and down the hall to Seth's room. Knocking on the door I heard him groan and then murmuring, and then a thump that was no doubt him falling out of his bed.

The door cracked open and I had to keep from laughing at his bed head, "It's time to wake up, we have patrol today."

"Fine, be down in a minute." he murmured before shutting the door in my face. I smirked at having gotten my brother up before walking down stairs.

So this will be my last post until after Winter Break so review and PM me if you have any questions. I posted pictures of some things for this story but there only minor things. As usual Mistakes are my own, but I think I might try and find a beta reader soon, so if you have any recommendations review or Pm me about that too.