Sorry this is so late everyone I was having a hard time coming up with this chapter and i was working on getting one of my stories in the making of being published. But anyways here it is chapter 7 of My Sorry Life. This part of the story will have up to two parts or maybe three at most.

Bella's Pov.

"Of course this is only a one time thing." I said just as Leah finished dressing again.

"But don't try and act like you didn't feel it." I said. She froze and I stood to my feet.

I walked up behind her, my bigger body, and more muscled body looked monstrous compared to her's. I grabbed her arm gentle but in a firm hold. I leaned down and let my face find its way into the crook of neck. I took a deep breath, this just very well could be the last time I ever got to touch her.

"You felt it" I whispered into her ear, "the burning passion, the love I have for you. Don't try and fool your self into thinking he could ever mount up to it."

She shuddered against my body and I turned her head so I could press our lips together one last time. After this I would leave and keep my distant, I wouldn't talk to her, I wouldn't help her unless she was in a life threatening danger. After this I'm putting all her safety into Jacob's hands. God I hope I'm doing the right thing.

As I pulled back I stared into her dark chocolate brown eyes. They held both pain and love, for what reason I knew not and didn't want to know.

"No one can match the love I hold for you." I pulled away all together now, picking up my shirt, and pausing at the door to say a few last words, "il mio amore per te potrebbe schiacciare le montagne e divinità."

And then I was gone, putting on my shirt as I walked out if the house and to the drive way were a black avalanche truck was pulling in. Caremon sat in the drivers seat. Today I would be branded, becoming part if the Jackson's pack. Of course though I was nervous about getting the forever permanent tattoo of the pack. Finally allowing me to talk to them mentally and from afar and to be included on any matters that could very well change the lives of everyone in Forks and in the pack.

The drive was silent but short, Caremon seemed to have the same problem as me. The need for speed. My heat had been thumping loudly through the whole ride and it wasn't until half way through the short drive that I couldn't take it anymore.

"I had sex with her." I suddenly said.

It must have shocked her because we swerved and almost ran into a tree. This of course did not help to calm my wrecked nerves anymore than I thought it would.

"With Leah?" she asked. She wasn't looking at the road, but at me. One of her nicely done eyebrows raised.

"Yup."

"With Leah Clearwater the girl you like and just so happens to be your stepsister."

"Yup"

"Lea-" I cut her off.

"Yes that fucking Leah!" I yelled angrily.

I didn't mean to take my anger out on her but I was still trying to process the whole dam thing myself. How could I have been so stupid to go along with her acts, in letting my beast take over though Leah never noticed.

"Dam Izz way to go!" she was laughing and had a big smile on her face, that was becoming contagious. Soon I was smiling.

"Did you work that Swan magic or was it all just prince charming riding in." she asked. She was looking back at the road now, putting my life that much closer to being safer than it had been before.

"Actually she came onto me." I said. And it had been true, I had just stood there as cool as ever and suddenly we were having sex.

"Where? Kitchen, bedroom, the forest but than again your to clean for that one to be true."

"Bathroom." was all I said.

"What, tell me everything, I want all the details, and don't you leave a thing out." she said and seemed to step off the gas a little so I had time to explain everything in the length of time until we got to the large manor house.

Though it had been weird I knew this was her way of consoling me. Making me laugh, acting as if this was just a small drop of water in that big lake. It helped me relax and soon I was able to think only on the tattoos I was about to get, how excited yet nervous I was. Finally we pulled up into the garage and Caremon lead me around to the back of the house and into the small separate house they had in the garden.

The small black painted shack turned out to reveal a hidden compartment of stairs when you opened the door. It was dark and I couldn't help but wonder why.

"We keep it dark so that just in case we have any wanders finding this place they chicken out and run out of the place, you can't tell where your going unless you have werewolf or werelepoard in Lucy's case eyesight." Caremon explained as she pulled open the door and then the unlocked door that was made into the ground revealing the stairs.

My eyes quickly adjusted by dilating and suddenly I had that night vision you would see on the animal channel when they're recording things in the dark. Our spices must have come a long way for me to still have color vision while doing this. As we walked further door the stairs it became more bright. Finally reaching the bottom I no longer needed my dilated eyes to see.

The room I was in was more like a waiting lobby, we walked through another door on the right. Upon entering I was engulfed in a hug by Lucy and then a firm hand shake from Peter. David was by a chair that looked like something from a dentist's work place, but the needle machine, mountain of cotton balls and bandages reminded me that I was in fact getting a tattoo job done.

Now don't start thinking I just suddenly joined their pack, no over my days in the hospital Lucy and the others had come to see me multiple times and we had thought this over hard and long all together, thinking of the positives and negatives of it and what I should be allowed to do and what I shouldn't. In the end we had decided that since I was still a pup I would just come on the occasional hunt gathering, sit in on some meetings, learn the basics of werewolf culture, how to control my emotions; since they triggered my phasing, go on a few patrols and other shit like that. I don't know about you but that all sounded quite fair to me.

"Well Izz you ready for this. " David said as he patted the chair, I laded down getting comfortable on my stomach so my bare back was getting nipped by the cold air. It was where they would make the first of the three tattoos, " I'll be sure to make it as painless as possible, don't want to hurt the poor little puppy."

"I'll show you a puppy, you giant fur ball." I growled out.

With that I heard the machine start up and I just took a deep breath as he started to but the layout of the tattoo onto my back.

Leah's Pov.

Something came over me as the past events hit me. I leaned against the wall taking deep breaths my body shuddering as I did so. I gasped, I could still feel her body on me. My hand without command covered my mouth and I slide to the floor. Fuck I couldn't hide it anymore. No matter how much I wanted to deny it, or wanted to forget it. But the way I felt at total peace in her strong arms that held me ever so gently, or when she made that moment completely about me. I was in love with Bella Swan.

Sam had been right you can't fight it, god I'm such a hypocrite. I'm doing exactly what Sam did to me to Jake. My silent sobs where interrupted by knocking on the front door. I hope it's not Jake, I don't think I would make it looking at him right now.

Getting up I walked to the door, door bell still ringing hectically. Pulling it open I whipped my face of tears and put on a fake smile.

"Hey Jake what's up." fuck I can't just get a break! My smile started to slip and before he could notice I pulled him
into the house.

I don't know why in my current emotional state. I could have slammed the door in his face, or better yet not have answered it at all. We walked into the kitchen, and I almost vomited when he wrapped his arm around my waist. As we talked it slowly started to slowly make it's way down to my ass.

"Jake please, not now." I said my voice was filled with pain but he seemed to be oblivious to it, just like I had done with Bella.

I've hurt her so bad, even though she agreed to the sex as a one time thing I knew she wanted it to have been more. I wanted it to be more than that but I'm a coward. I've hurt her more than need be and I would only break her heart more.

"What's wrong you've been avoiding my fir the past few weeks." Jake whimpered and leaned in closer to me.

His nose scrunched up, "why do you smell like Bella. "

I froze. Shit I forgot to take a shower. I leaned away, and I tried to jeep the thoughts of Bella out of my mind but the more I tried the more my wolf pushed thoughts of her into my head. Through hooded eyes I looked up at Jake. He had a frown set in place and his eyes where begging me to let him in.

But when I looked into them I only saw Bella's light chocolate brown ones. My heart clenched tightly in my chest and I shook my head.

"Its nothing I was helping her take a shower that's all." I whispered but the look in his eyes still didn't seem to go away.

"Leah whatever the problem is it's hurting you, and driving us apart." he said in a low voice, " I just don't want this to come between us."

"Jake there's nothing to worry about."

"Then why do you smell like Bella. "

Bella's Pov.

It took two hours for David to finish up the first tattoo on my back, a pair of wings. Peter said it was to symbolize our freedom; and how we had won our freedom from the vampires long ago during the years of the first world war, the second one was a very artistic done balance scale placed in the center of chest, it had been embarrassing at first what with my shirt off as well as bra I was bare to them all, the scale was to symbolize the balance we had to keep in our lives and that though we are werewolves we are also human and only together do we make one being. Lastly we had on tattoo of our choice I had picked to go with a poem to lay over my heart, a poem of ever lasting love. It read though:

A Single rose of love
A Single rose of devotion
A Single wish upon my lips
A Single thought of you
A Single desire to be granted
A Single moment of careless bliss
A Single love never to be broken
A Single rose for one last kiss.

I had to repeat this poem over and over out loud so David could get the words right and then to add his own special touch he put it in cursive and had it inked a dark brown to match those of Leah's eyes. After wards her used a cotton ball to clean up the extra blood and then bandaged me up so that it could heal properly and not get infected in the process.

So after that we all had gone back into the house where I now sat talking over what to do in my current love situation with Lucy and Caremon. I was to preoccupied with finishing my sandwich and bottle of Dr. Pepper. I had made no plans to return back to Charlie's house just yet, and I knew both me and Leah would need space for a while. Who was I to ruin her relationship with Jacob, who was I to keep my ex-best friend from finding true love? Well I'm Isabella Swan of course but I'm not going to ruin something because I had been caught up with some stuck up vampire.

"When will I start my training?" I finally asked breaking up the argument that had been bound to come between the two females.

Lucy seemed a little skeptical at my sudden question, but as usual gave a gentle smile nonetheless, "When ever your ready. Though I recommend after you get your cast off. Our training can get a little bit rough sometimes."

I nodded and let the two females go back to arguing about my love life. Life was slowly turning for the better, I felt it.

Leah's Pov.

Bella didn't return that night or the night after that or after that one. It made my heart clench. How was it that even when I'm not trying to, I'm hurting someone I love. Me and Jake were slowly drifting apart, but I couldn't bring myself to care though.

Today another bonfire was happening and I wasn't expecting to see Bella there, hang out with Jake, and no get glares from Sam and Edward alike. I dressed simple a pair of my shirts and a tank top along with sneakers. I ride with Charlie and mom to La Push, since not only did Bella take her keys but not the car, and there was enough room in the back now since Seth was already down there running patrol.

When we arrived there everything just went from boring to even more boring. Jake was ignoring me and since I usually talked to him and sometimes Bella, I had no one to talk to.

Then suddenly my heart clench, she must be near. I looked around and it wasn't until I did another whole 360 did I see her coming out of her mustang. She looked different though, and it wasn't the new clothing she wore, or how she now stood to be a foot taller than me putting her at height with Sam if not taller. No she looked calm, in control, and her cast was gone. Her bright blue eyes locked on with mine as she walked past me and towards her usual seat on the log by the ocean. She was soon joined by Alice and a few other Cullen's much to my displeasure. It seemed as if everyone but myself could be around her, but then again I guess that's my own fault.

Cliff hanger...again but this time i didn't mean to. I really wanted to get this part of the story out since it's been what almost a month or so since I've updated. anyways I hoped you liked it and any mistakes are my own. Please Review.

il mio amore per te potrebbe schiacciare le montagne e divinità.= My love for you could crush mountains and gods. (Italian)