So this is the new chapter 10 of My sorry Life, not much to say so, go on and read.

Leah's Pov.

I shook my head and pulled Bella's pillow closer to me. The thoughts going through my head had been enough to make me bed written. I guess the guilt had gotten to me so much I had come down with the flu. Charlie and mom were worried about me, and the pack was constantly checking up on me, but I didn't want to see either. There was only one person I wanted to see and she was gone. Moving on with her life, something I should have done a long time ago.

Bella had packed her things and moved in with her 'friend' Lucy. My stomach did flops at the very thought of the memory.

What the hell. That was the only thought that could run through my now dole mind. When I had asked
Bella to leave I didn't know how much it would effect me, effect the family. I couldn't believe I had asked Bella to leave, can't believe I had sided with him. I don't know if it was worth hiding. Well everyone in the pack knew I liked Bella as well as Jake now though, the only problem was that they didn't know she was also my imprint.

I should have listened to Sam when he gave me that 'it's imprinting' speech, it would have made going through this much easier. But nothing I think would have prepared me for what I saw when I walked into our room, this must be how she felt.

Boxes, that's all I saw. I heard the sound of hangers being thrown onto the ground and then others being taken of of the rack. I paid no attention to it though. My mind was only focused on the image of the multiple boxes sitting on the floor and on Bella's bed. What the hell was going on. I walked to the bed and looked inside, clothing was staked nicely in them. Bella's.

My mind exploded with ideas as I figured out what she was doing. My heart clenched to the point it actual hurt and drawer a gasp from my lips. The sound coming from the closet stopped and I heard someone take a deep breath. I was close to hestrical when Bella finally walked out of our closet.

I lifted the pair of sweats, "What's going on."

She shrugged and pulled up another box that was half way full and put in the clothing she held in her hands. " just some packing."

"Why?" hesitation evident in my voice, she looked as if she didn't want to answer but forced herself to anyways.

"I found a place of my own." she said.

Was I the cause of this, had my actions yesterday cause her to leave, was I pushing her away? I wanted to cry but I held them back, this was my own fault, I had brought this upon myself. I had been to harsh on her, I hadn't acted much like a step sister, or a sister at all really.

"Bella if this is about." I tried to think over what to call yesterdays events, "Yesterday, I didn't mean you had to leave, this is your home."

She shook her head, and gave me the slightest of smiles. I hated it when she did that, covering the obvious pain I had caused, and not lashing out on me when I deserved it. She has been so selfless, even

when it came to me, she left the doors wide open and it had been up to me to chose which one was the right one. It seems I just have bad picking.

"Bella please, you don't have to leave." I begged, I was disgusted. Look what I've come to, none if this would be happening if I had made the right choice. The choice I knew I should have taken.

I stepped over the box keeping her from me and wrapped her into my arms, she went stiff. "Please don't leave me, don't leave Charlie, don't leave Seth and Sue- us. Please."

My words were choked out and I had to bite down on my pride, it always got in the way. I had used her so much, hurt her so much, maybe it was time I let her have the life she's always wanted. My thoughts came to a halt though when she kissed my forehead and then she nuzzled the crook of my neck.

She kissed my pulse and my heart skipped a beat. She can't do this to me right now, not after she just told me, she was leaving.

"I'm not doing this to hurt you," she whispered, "I just need some space, some time to think over where I'll go from here."

I shivered at the memory, it still felt like it had happened just yesterday, when in fact it had happened no more than a two weeks ago. After that day I could barely do anything. I was pulled from my dreadful thoughts when there was a knock at me and b- my bedroom door.

"Go away." I managed to groan out.

I didn't want anybody to see me like this, it would hurt to much, not that I didn't deserve it. I had become thin over the two weeks, no food could do that to you. If I couldn't stand the sight of myself why would I let someone else see me.

"Leah it's me." her voice was clear and like no other, Emily.

She was probably the only one that I would let it but it was a battle to think on it's own. She gave another knock before opening the door, she was probably the first to even check if I had locked the door. The others had just knocked and when I didn't answer would just walk away. Much like I had done with Bella. My heart clenched and I felt tears were on the verge of free falling.

"Dam you look like shit." I heard Emily whisper. She closed the door behind her and locked it.

"Thanks." I mockingly said. She was holding something but the tears were blurring my vision.

"Sue wanted me to bring you something to eat." she said lifting what I guess was the plate of food before setting it down on my dresser.

"Lee-Lee what's wrong?" she sat down on my bed and ran her fingers through my hair.

"Nothing, just not feeling well."

She raised an eyebrow before shaking her head, "See that's what got you in this mess."

My face scrunched up. Emily never was one to beat around the bush, instead she would cut that route in half by 75 percent.

"Your pride is always keeping you from having what could make you happy." she whispered, "You and I both know Jake's not what you want."

I could meet her stare, I turned my head looking at the flashing numbers on my clock. Her words were true and hurt like a cut. She was trying to show me the light, but I was to comfortable in my dark corner. The dark corner that would get me no where and forever be my handicap.

"Em I don't want to talk about this right now."

"Then when do you want to Leah, after Bella's moved on, after you end up marrying a guy you font really love."

"Any time is better than the present."

She shook her head disapprovingly, "There's no better time then the present."

"Em please-"

"No, I'm done being nice Leah." he hands stopped running through my hair, and the next thing I know she's turned my head towards her. She had a perfect view of my teary eyed face, "Isn't this enough pain already."

"Leah it wasn't your fault."

"Em what are you talking about."

Acting childish had always been my way of escape, of leaving reality behind. But it obviously wasn't a option today, I would have to face this head on, and work through it.

"Leah we both know your father wanted you to date Jake, and we both know that it wasn't your fault he's dead."

She was right. I thought that since he was dead I should do something to please my decaesed father, and since had had always wanted my to date Jake, hell maybe even marry him and start a family, I was forcing myself to do it. But I had killed him, if I hadn't phased like that, if I wasn't a shape-shifter maybe he would still be alive, maybe he and mom would still be married.

"Leah, you deserve a better life than anyone else in all of Forks."

"Em-"

"Let me finish." I nodded and she continued,"If you think that wallowing away in your room is going to help achieve that though your wrong, there are somethings that will need to change, like that pride of yours, and the way you've been treating Bella."

I paled. I knew I had been treating Bella pretty bad, but I don't know how to change that. Emily was right though my pride was standing in the way, and for a good reason. It was my protection, it kept me from ending up like I did when Sam dumped me, it was there so -I- didn't get hurt not others.

"Em I know. Okay I know I've been acting pretty childish, that I've be en doing wrong with Bella, but it's hard and I don't know where to start to change it." I was full out crying now. Emily pulled me into a hug, a awkward one, but a hug nonetheless.

"I can help, but in order for me to help you. You have to something in return." she whispered and put a kiss on my forehead, I nodded and let myself sink into her shoulder.

"First you have start eating again and get the hell out if this room, it's not healthy for you." I gave a small laugh, of course the first thing she asks of me is to eat, "Secondly you have to promise to try and make things right with Bella. I know how you guys feel about each other, but let's face
It you guys are hopeless without my help."

"Also, you have to answer my next question truthfully." her face went from playful, and goofy, to serious. I nodded for her to go on, "Is Bella your imprint?"

Out of all the questions she could have asked this one was unexpected. I could lie, but that wouldn't help with my situation at all. Or I could say yes and find the outcome and probably have everything go nice and dandy.

I didn't trust myself to answer so I just nodded, it would be a while before I got use to being so open about somethings. Her reaction shocked me too.

She gave a squeal and then hugged me tighter, cutting off my air way. I gasped for breath, and even gave a wheeze as I tried to get her attention. Finally she let me go just before I blacked out and a rush of air filled my lungs. God it had never felt so good to breath.

"See I told you, you wouldn't be imprint-less."

After that we eat and thought over what to do to set my life back on track, to apologize to Bella and to get back into her good graces.

I knocked on the door to Jake's house, slightly more stiff than usual. The door was opened instantly and Billy greeted me with a smile.

"Hey Billy, is Jake home?" I asked.

I looked down to the handicap man and I noticed that he seemed tired, and much more older than his energetic self. He nodded and then wheeled back into the house and it was minutes before Jake came to te door. His face was stone cold, and his eyes looked dater than usual, like he had lost himself to the darkness.

"Leah," he pulled me into his hug and gave me a soft kiss, "what is it, what's wrong, Bella didn't hurt you or anything."

I wanted to growl at his words but I didn't, he would feel much more hatred than this when I was finish with him. I took his big muscled hand in mine and tugged on it. He followed silently, not asking a question as I dragged him down to the beach. I stopped by the log that Bella would usually sit at.

I turned to Jake, confusion was written all over his face. No beating around the bush, "Jake, I don't think it's going to work out between us."

He was shocked at first before anger flashed onto his face and quickly disappeared ,"What do you mean."

"I mean that it's over." I whispered, he was shaking that much I knew, "Jake honestly did you think that it would work between us. I was forcing myself into dating you because my dad always wanted us to be together, not me."

"Impossible, he promised you would be mine!" he screamed at me in anger.

I stated shock, I had never seen Jake so angry, and bloodlust. Where had this Jake been, what had happened to my happy go lucky Jake? Gone that's for sure. Finally after so long I noticed the crazed look in his eyes, and the bags under his eyes.

"This is because of Bella isn't it, that bitch has converted you!" he said, directing all his anger at Bella now. That's what he seemed to be doing most days now, blaming her for his problems.

"Jake Bella has nothing to do with this." I said calmly. He crossed his arms over his chest, and raised an eyebrow, "Okay that was a lie, she does have to with this but she had no control over it."

He was breathing deeply, and looked as if he was trying to calm down. But nonetheless I saw his muscles tense and his be rocked by small tumors. Finally he sighed and uncrossed his arms, only for his jaw to lock up.

"And how so?" he asked, or well hissed out at me. I flinched, I wasn't prepared to tell him this yet, it would kill him, and me.

"Bella...Bella is my imprint." I managed to blurt out after minutes of silence.

His anger was back up end before I knew it he was gone, dashing from the beach, with incredible speed. There was only one thing, going through my mind as I ran to my car: he's going to kill Bella.

So what do you think... not sure eat a slice! Mistakes my own, Not happy about it well eat a slice. So yea a full Leah Pov chapter for once. BYEEEE