Well here it is chapter 12 of My Sorry Life, I know it's kind of short but I've had a lot of things going on that and I just pulled my hamstring so all I really want to do is lay in bed, that and I'm working on Pepakura Halo Mark 6 helmet, and I just had a basketball game. SOOO yea a lot has been happening. Hopefully this chapter will be enough to tie some of you over for a while until I have the energy to make chapter 13.
What." Leah managed to choke out. The silence had been unbearable.
Bella shifted on her feet, putting all her weight on her right, and arms remained crossed at her chest. Electric blue eyes stared down at brown, Leah's eyes wide with shock.
Bella sighed and uncrossed her arms, " Jacob's not dead, he's just knocked out from blood lost... Not that I'm saying I didn't want to kill him." it was true and everyone knew the pure hate she had for the laying man.
"But I knew how much it would hurt you if I killed him..." Bella trailed off. She wasn't quite sure how all this was going to turn out, and really she couldn't bring herself to care.
A small smile tugged on Leah's lips and she took a step closer to Bella. Wrapping her arms around the girl in a hug, Bella stood stiff, and shocked but soon relaxed into the hug and wrapped her own arms around Leah's waist. Warmth spread through Leah's heart, Bella had listened to her. She didn't kill Jacob. She knew Bella wouldn't kill Jacob, but when she saw his chest stop rising, and his body go limp, she couldn't keep the anger at bay. Jacob may have been an asshole but he didn't deserve to die. But now that she was sure that Bella had listened to it brought a off sense of security to her, but it quickly vanished as Leah realizes that now they would have to talk about Bella phasing and how they would handle everything from here.
Bella pulled Leah in closer, and eyes flickered over to Caremon, and then to Jacob's limp body. Caremon quickly got the hint and walked back over to Jacob, lifting him up with the help of Peter they carried him inside, and into the living room. Caremon gave a sigh of relief as she finally dropped Jacob onto the couch, she moved to the love seat on the other side of the coffee table, the farthest from his stench. She was uncomfortable and wanted David by her, but bit her tongue and watches closely as David cleaned Jacob's wounds and bandaged them up.
It was minutes maybe even an hour until finally David stood and moved away from the limp form on the couch. A small smile came to his lips as he pulled Caremon into his chest, and they relaxed back into the couch.
Leah watched closely as Bella continued to pace around the garden. After Caremon and the others left with Jacob they had made their way to the garden in the back. They hadn't spoken a word to each other, both to nervous to bring up the elephant in the room. In a result of that Bella had started pacing in front of the fountain where Leah sat patiently on the stone bench. If she had thought the front of the house had looked beautiful the back was stupendous. It reminded her much of a rose garden. It was littered with all colors of roses and flowers, and the hedges created a maze, that Bella had easily lead them through. It was all indescribable.
Bella glanced over to Leah, and with a sigh she walked over and crouched in front of the female, taking her hand and bringing it to her lips so she could place sweet kisses on each knuckle. "Leah you have to believe me when I say I wanted to tell you a long time ago." Bella ran her hands over the back of Leah's hand. It was calming, but it was only hiding the obvious nervous flicker of her eyes.
Leah sighed. She knew Bella was telling the truth but that doesn't mean it healed the pain she felt knowing Bella didn't trust her enough to confess this to her. She looked to the setting sun and then back to Bella. Leah hesitated but let the tips of her fingers dance across Bella's cheeks.
"When did this happen? Why didn't you tell me sooner, what stopped you from telling me?" Leah whispered.
Bella fought off a smile, Leah was going to give her a chance. She took a seat next to Leah, her hand never letting go of Leah's. Bella looked Leah in the eye, her eyes calm, soothing, and dammit Leah was getting lost in them like she was in the ocean. If it hadn't been for Bella bringing her out of her daze she wouldn't have even noticed that Bella had began, and the sun had finally set. Casting a nice layer of orange, blue end purple into the sky, this only made the petals on the flowers grow a soft glow.
"You chose Jacob over me, I was going to tell you that night, but things..." Bella sighed in frustration, she knew that she wouldn't be able to explain anything without blurting out she loved Leah to death. "Things got complicated, and thought you would want your space from me, so I never got to tell you."
"And when did you find out you could..phase or whatever you guys call it?" Leah said, eyes briefly flashing away from Bella's.
"To tell you the truth I'm not even sure when I started phasing, sometimes I would randomly wake up in the forest naked, other times I'd just have no recall if what happened at all that night." Bella whispered voice suddenly gone hoarse.
"How are you exactly..." Leah trailed, hopefully Bella got the under meaning and wouldn't force her to go through this.
"You can only be a werewolf through hereditary, which doesn't make any sense because I'm sure both Renee and Charlie are not Werewolves or Wereleapoad." Bella said.
"Have you ever thought that maybe ya' know."
"Maybe what?" Bella whispered, jaw locked tight, as she waited for the words to leave Leah's lips. She what Leah was thinking, and she knew that it was possible, but she wanted to hear Leah say it. Hopefully it would snap her out of the dream world she was living.
"Maybe... your adopted." Leah said. She gave Bella's hand a gentle squeeze.
Silence filled the garden, not even a cricket dared to make a sound. It was as if the world had all together come to a stop. Leah looked to Bella. The other female had a face scrunched up in deep thought, and though she did realize it every second that ticketed by Bella's anger was slowly growing.
It wasn't that what Leah said made her angry, it was more of the fact that the possibility of it being true was very high. It angered her to know that if it was true, if it was true that she was adopted that Charlie didn't have the guts to tell her. Her hand went limp in Leah's and she could feel he worry through their connection.
"I'm not adopted." Bella finally said, but it came out more harsher than she intended.
Leah flinched at the harsh tone, and slowly but surely her hand slipped from Bella's. "I'm not saying you are, but there's a possibility that Charlie and Renee aren't your real parents."
"I'm not adopted!" Bella finally lost it, mind fogged over with pure hatred for the topic.
Though Leah saw Bella try to hide it she saw the shaking of her hands, and the way she gasping for air. Leah scooted closer, and wrapped Bella into her arms, pulling the female into her chest. Leah ran her hands through Bella's dark brown hair, massaging her scalp.
"Okay okay hey shh, your not adopted, it was just a suggestion." Leah whispered into Bella's ear. Trying to sooth Bella's fears, and tears.
They sat like that until finally Bella's tears subsided and the moon had taken it's rightful place in the dark sky; out shining every star there was to be seen. Bella had since laded down across the bench, her head resting on Leah's leg. They hadn't moved a muscle, both to absorbed in getting lost in the others eyes. Finally Leah broke the eye contact, glancing towards the house then back to Bella.
"I could look into if you want?" Leah said voice low almost a whisper.
It took Bella a few minutes to figure out what Leah was talking about, finally she tried to ended the discussion with a simple "No."
"But don't you want to know, what if Charlie, and Renee really aren't your parents don't you want to at least know who they are?" Leah watched helplessly as Bella shot up and stood to her feet.
Bella had her hands balled tightly, her nails piercing the skin of palm, and the blood in her veins coming to a boil. She was completely done with this topic now. For the sake of Leah's health, and to prevent from scarring the natives beautiful face, she didn't turn around.
"Leah, stop. The answer is no and will always be no. We're done with this topic." Bella hissed out.
Leah stood to her feet. Wrapping her arms around Bella's waist she allowed her head to rest on the back of Bella's shoulder. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to make you angry. I...I was just." Leah mumbled into Bella's shoulder. With a sigh Bella gripped Leah's hand. "It's fine I'm just a little sensitive on thus subjected."
"Just know when I say no, I mean it." Bella turned in Leah's arms, finally wrapping her arms around the shorter girl's waist.
"It's late we should get some rest." Leah said fingers once again finding their way back into Bella's hair.
Bella gave her grunt of approval, and pulled away from Leah. With hands intertwined Bella began to lead them out of the maze garden. She could only wish this was her chance to med both Leah's and her broken hearts. But she knew only time would tell her.
So what did you guys and gals think, review and let me know, so I'll know what I can change in the next chapter. Bless yo face, and if you sneezed while reading this bless you, peace out!