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Chapter 6

It's been a week since I've moved to Phoenix University, and I can honestly say that this is a truly amazing place. Slowly, the place became more crowded and more shops began to open.

I became very familiar with the campus and the dorms in this past week, and my favorite place is undoubtedly, the library. It had thousands of books and a gorgeous interior. I would have moved there if Alice and Rose hadn't dragged me back to the dorms every day.

Even better than my first love, books, which was something that brought me a lot of joy, nothing could compare to my new friends. Every single one of them had his own part in our group's dynamic, and I noticed that even if they did have friends outside our group, no one was really allowed to enter this little family so I felt really honored to be accepted so quickly.

Today was the last day of relaxation, as tomorrow our classes start. Right now, I was in my comfortable bed staring at the ceiling and telling myself that it's late and I really should get up, take a shower and call my dad.

The first part was quite easy to fulfill, but the second not nearly as much. Charlie had been trying to reach me all week, but I did my best to avoid him since I was scared of his reaction.

My dad never approved of my relationship with Jacob Black, the Hollywood bad boy, and when I broke up with him he was happier than I'd ever seen him. Now that I was out of the picture, the paparazzi were trying to find a good story to sell. Since they couldn't find one, they started to make up some. Even though Will had held a press conference saying that I was just taking a break.

The problem was that my dad actually believed that I was on some island with Jacob, and he was furious to say the least. My savior was Alice, God bless her, because she took all the calls I didn't dare answer, and assured my dad that I was at the university and not partying god knows where with- and I quote, "that good for nothing piece of shit."

The truth is Jake really isn't so bad, just misunderstood. I met him when I was still part of "The Children of Destiny". I was around seventeen, still new to "the Hollywood madness" and he was Hollywood's bad boy, as well as an amazing actor.

We met at a movie premier and since then we became great friends. After a year, Georgiana my band mate, decided to try her hand at acting and her co-star was Jacob. The two of them started to spend a lot of time together, which meant I was spending time with Jacob too as I was Georgiana's wing girl.

After their movie premier, which was a success, Jacob came to me and told me that he wanted to take me out. I was surprised, and after a few days, I accepted his offer at Georgiana's advice. It wasn't that I didn't like him, I just didn't trust him. I knew that once the mass media would find out, my life would be unbearable, and chaotic.

After a few secret dates, Jake began insisting we make our relationship public. As was expected, I couldn't even look out the window without someone taking my picture after the revelation. Jake was in the same situation as myself, only he rather enjoyed it.

I dated Jacob for about a year and a half, and even though we had our difficulties, which mostly stemmed from the fact that both of us were public faces, so lots of gossip followed us wherever we went, we tried to ignore the gossip and badmouthing. Still, it wasn't easy. In addition, our biggest problem was the fact that I always felt like he was holding back, as if he was hiding something, and in the end- It turned out I was right.

Flashback

It was the middle of March; I was in Beijing, preparing my songs for tonight's concert, the 222 concert of my world tour. I remember Will coming to my hotel room telling me that I could have the day off and that Jacob was in the city shooting for his new action movie.

I was thrilled to hear that. I missed him those past few months, but unluckily when I got on the set I was told that he had already went back to his hotel room. I took a cab and arrived at his hotel in ten minutes. I hadn't called, that was my first mistake thinking I could surprise him. I knew his room would be on the top floor, as he always took the room with the greatest view, so I hadn't asked for assistance at the front desk.

As I got on the elevator and stopped at the last floor, I recognized Jacob's bodyguards. They smiled at me and waved me forward. I entered his suite but he was talking on speaker with someone in the other room.

"….you know I can't just do that!"

"And why not, Jake? I'm sick and tired of this situation, you have to choose. Will it be me or her?"

"I'm sorry but it's impossible right now, she's on tour, and I can't just blurt it out. This needs to be discussed, I need to explain…"

"Do you love her? Is that it? Did you fall for her on the way?"

"I love her, but I love you more! You know how this started!"

"Yeah, yeah, you hooked up with her just for the fame- 'Bad boy conquers the sweet innocent Bella Swan', I remember! But you're forgetting that it was just a game! You said it yourself- you love her!"

"Like a friend, I love her like a friend!"

"Then dump her and come home, please, I love you!"

"I love you too!"

"Not enough!"

"Ok, I'll talk to her, and I'll be home in two weeks."

There was silence on the other line. I could barely keep my sobs at bay at this point.

"Tell me, Jake, that you love me and not her. Tell me that you feel nothing for her."

"I told you all I feel for Bella is…"

"Say it or you're not welcome here, just say it!"

Jacob sighed, and said the words that made my world come crashing down.

"I feel absolutely nothing for her; you're the only one I love!"

That was the moment when I ran.

End of flashback

After that conversation, Jake came to find me. He found out that I heard him from his bodyguards. He apologized, and told me that he hadn't meant to hurt me. Even if he had lied to me and cheated I couldn't help but forgive him. Still, I will never forget what he did. He used me in a horrible way, and even if he hadn't wanted to toss me aside, he still should have come clean at the very beginning.

I wish I could say that our friendship survived, but that would be a lie. Gone was that easy going friendship, and it was a shame but "C'est la vie". He tried to explain, but I just felt that I wasn't strong enough to listen. Who knows? Maybe one day…

Sighing, I took my phone, and dialed Charlie's number. I waited for the tongue lashing I was sure to get. After the third ring, someone answered-

"Hello?"

"Hi, Dad," I muttered with fear.

There was silence on the other line. I was expecting to hear him scream or at the very least use his cop voice that usually made me very nervous, but all I heard was silence. I even checked the phone to see if he hadn't hung up.

"Look, Dad, I know you're mad at me, but I just want to apologize for avoiding you the entire week. I also wanted to tell you that I'm not on a private island with Jacob. They just made that up and…"

"Bells, stop talking, and listen to me." Charlie said in a calm voice.

"I'm not mad, I'm disappointed. You're not the kind of girl that runs away from her problems. You always confront them, but lately I feel like I'm losing you and don't you dare tell me that's not true because it is and you know it. First Jacob, and now me…"

"Dad, he is no longer part of my life. I don't understand why you insist on bringing him up all the time!" I exclaimed angrily.

"I bring him up because you never told me what happened. You looked crushed, and it's normal to try and find out what…"

"Please, Dad, I don't want to talk about him, please!" I begged him with tears in my eyes.

"Fine, but this will be discussed. Not on the phone, but in person when you come home…You are coming home on Christmas, right? He asked, panicked.

"How could I miss Christmas, Dad? No promises on New Year's Eve though."

"I can live with that. Now tell me about Alice, how is she?"

"She's good, dad, she's out with Rose and Jasper."

"The twins?"

"Yeah, and there are also Emmet and Edward, Alice's brothers. All of them are amazing. I've never felt so connected to anyone, not even Sigrid and Georgiana. I mean I love them, but…I just can't explain, it's like I've known them forever."

"I'm glad to hear it, Bells, and I like Alice. If her friends and family are at least half as nice as she is, then I know you're safe."

"That I am, dad, I mean the boys even call themselves my knights in shining armor, saying that they'll protect me. How could I not be good?" I asked rhetorically, laughing at the memory.

"Well that sure is something. I want to meet these knights of yours."

"Ahh, we'll see about that, Dad."

"Alright, Bells, I get it I'll let you go. I need to go to work, but be good and call me!"

"I will dad, have a nice day at work."

"Thanks, Bells."

"Bye, Dad."

After I hung up on Charlie, I decided to take a shower. I let the hot water relax my stiff muscles and started thinking about the past six days. I never thought that I could feel so good being around someone, but with my new friends I didn't feel the need to think twice before speaking, or be scared that they were my best friends only because I had money. I'd missed this feeling. Only my girls, Sig and Georgia had been able to give me that, and now the whole gang gave it to me too.

Alice was a force of nature, unstoppable. She had so much energy that it made me dizzy. I always joked that the air around her felt like it was buzzing with her energy. Especially after she drinks coffee or eats chocolate. She has a good heart, always trying to help her friend, but also she has a scary part that usually comes out when things don't go her way. She decided to study fashion designer, something very fitting for her.

Rose was special. She was very beautiful and that made most people think that she was just an airheaded blond, but after talking with her for just a few minutes, you could see she's brilliant. Also, she's very strong, but more of an inner strength that makes her look like nothing can break her. Rose is very loyal, like the good version of Sigrid, and the nerdy one as she's engineering informatics. It's rather odd for the blond stigma but to quote Emmet its "hot as hell".

Emmet is Rosalie's other half, that's for sure. I can't see them with anyone else, they just complete each other. He is like my favorite teddy bear, the perfect brother that would fiercely protect you and play tag with you, even if he was having some alone time with a girl, just because in his eyes you always come first. He is funny and easygoing, it is impossible not to love him. He wants to be a lawyer in the future…Well we'll see. I can't imagine him in a suit.

Jasper is deep. It came as a surprise to me since he looks like a womanizer, and well, he is one. He acts like the brother that listens about your first crush and gives you advice. Always silent, he talks only if he has something with meaning to say. I believe that the moment when Alice and Jasper will be together, all of as will breathe more easily. He wants to be an executive.

Last but not least, there is Edward. He is the most gorgeous, sweet, caring, guy with a panty dropping smile that gets me every time. He is intriguing, and sometimes arrogant, and is constantly flirting with me. With him, a simple comment can and will, lead him to asking me out. Only he doesn't do so openly, rather hints at me, and tries to look indifferent every time I turn him down.

But I'm not completely immune to him, no matter what I'd like to believe. When he whispers seductively in my ear, I try not to react, yet usually, fail miserably. If any of our friends ever notice something, he plays it off as a joke.

I like him a lot, but it's obvious he's a player, and I'm not anyone's play toy. Not anymore. If he wants to date me, he has a lot of work to do, because I won't settle for anything less than perfect, after my latest relationship fiasco. Edward decided to follow in his father's footsteps and study medicine.

After my shower, I tried to call Alice but she didn't answer. I left her a message on her voice mail saying that I was headed to the music studio.

On the way, I grabbed something to eat, and once I got there I started to relax. Even if I wasn't aware I was tense in the first place. I missed singing.

Looking at the room, I realized that this wing of the school was like an apartment with more than one room. The first room was a recording studio. The room was split in two by a wall made of glass. There you could see a computer, microphones of various sizes, keyboards - Midi Controller or pianos, compressors, studio monitors, a mixer board, interface, signal processor and many other things that were needed there.

In the second room, you could find all kind of instruments- from a flute to a piano. And the third room was for history of music. That was my favorite room. You could find there stuff from classical music to hard rock, anything and everything around the world and surprisingly, I even found The Children of Destiny's discography. On the right, the room looks like a library or coffee shop with little tables for two or three people and papers for notes or inspiration. The walls were covered with shelves full of music sheets, albums, and CDs.

I took our last album "Destiny Fulfilled" and decided to listen to it. I put it in the computer that was on the left corner of the room, pressed shuffle, waited for it to play.

"Is she the reason" began playing in the background. That was an intense song, one that usually made me remember my past with Jake. Suddenly as the song was playing, my eyes began to water. I just didn't understand how he could have betrayed me like that. I guess I didn't really have the chance to think it through with the tour and college always on my mind, but Jake's betrayal suddenly really hurt.

I sighed and sat down at one of the tables with my head between my hands, as I was flooded with memories.

"What is it that got you so sad, darling?"

I lifted my head and saw the gang standing by the door, as if asking permission to get in. I looked at them all while they stared back worriedly back at me. Realizing they weren't going anywhere, I waved them in.

Edward was by my side in a second. He took my chin in his right hand and made me look at him. When my eyes meet his green ones, I felt like my heart was being crushed. I silently started crying while he tried to wipe my tears away looking completely desperate."Bad habit" was now playing in the background, and I recognized that my relationship with Jacob was just like the name of this song. That was when I began sobbing loudly.

Edward put his arms around me, and I felt like he was the only one that was keeping me in one piece.

When I lifted my head from Edwards's chest, I saw Alice silently crying with me while Jasper look crushed wanting to comfort her, but staying put. Rose was in Emmet's arms. The last part of "bad habit" was playing, and when Rose caught the lyrics she look straight in my eyes, and smiled.

She walked to the computer and changed the song. There was a pause, and "Free" began playing instead. Then Rose started singing along.

When she first sung, I cringed along with the rest of them. She sounded horrible, but that didn't bother her. With a smile, she beckoned Alice and I to join her.

I got out of Edwards's arms, and joined them. When I hit the first note, the girls stopped singing. The song brought me so much relief and it was as the lyrics said, "There's no feeling like being free, when your mind is made up and your heart is in the right place."

I understood that that was the time to look out for myself. With every single word I sung and every smile from my friends, I got closer to the peace I so desperately needed. The song was very accurate. Jacob needed to get out of my heart. I sang so strongly the last lyrics that the girls looked almost scared of me.

"NO, NO, NO get him out of here!"

"I don't wanna hear it!"

"NO,NO,NO get him out of here!"

"I don't wanna hear it!"

NO,NO,NO get him out of here!"

"I don't wanna hear it!"

After that, I could really smile!

A\N- Hi! I would like to apologize for the late update but as you guys heard I had a little problem with my email address so it had to be deleted so I could not reach my other account to update, sorry!

This chapter was a bit more serious then the others. I wanted to tell you people about Bella s past. Her relationship with Jacob made her quite untrusting so Edward has a lot of work to do. She is still hurting, but she decided to let Jake go. It would have been easier for her if she would let him explain but she is stubborn. If Jacob and also Sigrid and Georgiana will appear in the story depends on you people. I am waiting for answers in your reviews, should they meet the gang or not?

Next time we will have first day of college for our superstar.

Thank you for your time, patients, and special thanks for my beta Galgalatz.

Playlist Destiny s Child-Is she the reason

Destiny s Child-Bad habit

Destiny s Child- Free

Destiny s Child-If

Link on my profile for all playlist songs

See you next time xoxo