I didn't see Cas for three days after that. I woke up and we was gone. I tried not to read too much into it. It was one thing to sleep with a guy and have him vanish the next day but it was different when all I did was actually sleep. I told myself he had important things to do and I realised what a girlie girl I was been when I found my self think that he could have at least called me.

When he did finally show up I didn't get a moment to speak to him alone as Dean was there. He and Cas went off to impersonate FBI agents to try and find the location of an archangel named Raphael.

I was in my house where we were squatting and I was searching for omens on the internet to keep my mind off Cas when Dean called and told me to meet them at the hospital.

When I got there the three of us found Raphael's empty vessel.

"So this is what I'm looking at if Michael jumps my bones/" Dean asked

"No not at all" Cas told him "Michael is much more powerful. It'll be far worse for you"

"What's so important about this archangel anyway?" I tried to change the subject

"Didn't Cas tell you? He got wasted by a teenage mutant ninja angel?"

"What?" I looked from Dean to Cas

"He's the one who killed me" Cas told me "but this isn't about revenge. He may know where God is"

"OK" I said, that made as much sense as anything else that I had heard recently.

"I'll meet you back at the house" Cas told us and then he was gone

"I wish he wouldn't do that" I muttered to the empty space where he'd been stood.

We hadn't been back at the house long when Cas showed up with a Jug in his hand.

"Where have you been?" I snapped as I was getting irrationally worked up over the fact that we hadn't had a chance to talk

"Jerusalem"he told ignoring my annoyance

"How was it?" Dean asked

The sarcasm went over his head too as he replied "Errid"

"What's that?" Dean asked

"Oil, it's very special and very rare"

"Great we're going to trap Raphael with a nice vinegarette" Dean quipped.

"Sarah" Cas finally seemed to remember my existence "You don't have to come along for this"

"Just try and stop me" I replied stubbornly thinking he was trying to give me the brush off

"It's dangerous"

"And it's not dangerous for you or Dean?" I crossed my arms defiantly

"Of course it is for me, I probably won't live past tonight but Raphael won't harm Michaels vessel"

"What Cas is saying is that I'm his human shield, right Cas?" Dean half joked.

"Well I'm still coming" I told him

"Fine" Cas said in a way that told me it wasn't fine at all

"Fine" I repeated and sat down across from him.

"Wow last night on earth Cas" Dean broke the awkward silence "any plans?"

"I thought I'd sit here quietly" Cas told him.

"Come on, anything? Booze Women?"

Cas was silent so Dean continued to talk "You have been a woman before? Or an angel at least? You mean to tell me that you've never been up there doing a little cloud seeding?"

Cas avoided looking at me and he responded to Dean's question "Look, I've never had occasion okay?"

That's when Dean came up with the insane idea of taking Cas to a visit a prostitute so that he wouldn't have to die a virgin. He looked helplessly at me as Dean almost dragged him off. All I could do was follow.

We got 60 seconds alone while Dean dropped us off before parking his car.

"You're not seriously going to go thru with this?" I whispered

"I don't want to" his eyes pleaded with me

"Then don't"

"Ok I'll just tell him"

"Really?" I asked surprised that he would want to tell Dean about whatever it was between us.

What was it anyway? I asked myself we spent the night together and apart from kissing we didn't do anything? I let my doubts take over. What if it meant more to me than it did to him?

Before I had chance to say anything else Dean had joined us.

As we sat and waited Cas continued to cast me helpless looks but it wasn't until he was been led away by a prostitute that I finally did something.

"Where are you going? " Dean asked

"To stop it before it's too late?"

Dean looked at me and waited for me to explain.

"Me and Cas, we have something or a t least I hope we do but even if we don't I can't let him go ahead with this until he at least knows"

"Knows what?" Dean asked

"That I have feelings for him" I said as I ran after Cas hoping it wasn't too late.

I didn't get to him before I heard the prostitute shouting obscenities at Cas as she came running past me.

"What did you do? Dean asked

"I just looked her in the eyes and told her that it wasn't her fault her father Gene ran off. It was because he hated his job at the post office"

"Hey" I said awkwardly "I was just coming to rescue you. I told Dean that I have feelings for you so he won't make you do this again, unless that's what you want" I told him

"Thank you" he "said and no I don't want to do this again I only want what's right in front of me" he half smiled at me.

"Lets go Romeo and Juliet" Dean said and the three of us ran for the nearest exit.

Dean began laughing when we got outside

"What's so funny?" Cas asked

"Nothing, it's been a long time since I've laughed that hard"

"You knew that there was something going on with us" I accused "and you still did this"

"I was pretty sure" he admitted "I just wanted to hear you say it, You cut it a bit fine though"