I don't know how long it was before the darkness faded and I was surround by the brightest light I'd ever seen.
I struggled to get my feet and I helped up to someone I didn't know
He told me his name was Joshua, we were in heaven and that God had bought me back and restored my grace. I wanted to go back to tell everyone I was OK. He told me God had given him instructions to relay to me. I was prohibited from returning to earth or even watching for the immediate future.
It didn't sound great at first but heaven actually turned out to be OK. Anything I wanted usually just appeared right in front of me and I got to see my mum again. She seemed so happy that I no longer felt any guilt over her death.
I had only been here a short while when I got to see Dean and Sam again. They weren't here for long but I got to tell them that I was OK and it made it easier for all of us. Dean told me Jo had given up hunting and gone to college and Ellen was just grateful that her daughter was ok. So I told them to say hi from me when they got back and to tell Cas and Bobby I was fine.
Cas came back eventually too. He had died again but God had bought him back too...again!
Cas wasn't restricted to heaven like I was but I was OK with that to a point. If something was really important on earth he told me so at least I knew. He told me Sam had said yes to Lucifer and gained control of his body long enough to jump into hell taking Lucifer with him.
I searched all of heaven for Sam and he wasn't here and I didn't believe he deserved to be in hell so I knew he had to be somewhere on earth. I just hoped he was OK I knew I'd see him again someday and everyone else I cared about too but hoped it wouldn't be too soon.