"Oi Haruki…HARUKI! snap out of it and answer me damn it!"

I shook my head furiously and tried to erase last night memory from my mind. Maria stared daggers at me with wrathful eyes. I had missed my meeting with her to spend the night talking to Yuuki. The man I supposedly slept with. Although, that still lingered like a bad smell in my mind, there were plenty of other much more important things I needed to be thinking of right now.

"Why the hell didn't you tell me you couldn't meet me? I waited forever for you!"

She looked really upset and too right that she did. I have known Maria since first school and that would have been the first time seeing her since she left in middle school, to live in Tokyo. She had been my best friend for so long and I've let her down.

"I'm sorry. Its just I got lost and I walked into the wrong building and…"

As I said that a smile crept over her face like a spider over a web and she started to giggle. I just looked at her with questioning eyes and in response she opened her mouth to speak but know words came out. After some time she managed to calm down and stop laughing long enough to tell me what was on her mind.

"Don't tell me you walked into essence – the host club… AIMED AT WOMEN!"

I silently nodded and she burst out laughing again. Every laughing sound she made sank me deeper into the pool of idiocy. I was sure that at this moment in time now one felt as stupid as I did right now.

"Come on then, tell me what happened, you owe me at least that much."

She had gotten me with that. I did let her down and I did owe her, but what was I supposed to say to her? "Oh well I got dead drunk and I might have slept with a man I just met but I'm not quite sure!" That would make me sound like I was gay and I didn't want Maria to remember me as someone who is now gay. Wait. I have slept with a man (maybe,) but doesn't that make me gay. The fact that I was able to get with a guy. Does that make me gay. That thought struck me like a thousand needles. What if I really was gay. Its not like I every though gay people where bad or anything like that, its just I never thought that I myself would ever be one. I just don't see how love can work like that. It must have been because he was so thin and had such a feminine face he just looked like a girl. Yes that must be it. Anyway I have to tell Maria she a good friend I'm sure she will understand.

Seeing my face serious she mimicked me as I began.

"Well I walked in and they mistook me for a gay customer and they pulled me in and sat me with this guy called Yuuki. I told him that I wasn't gay or anything and he just asked me to stay and chat for a while since he was with no one else this evening. So I said ok. But… Well… I got very drunk as I forgot about time and I woke up next to him not remembering a scratch of last night."

Maria just stared at me in utter shock. Everything was completely silent as I sat there twiddling my thumbs hoping that Maria would say something to break the painstaking silence. For too long to count did we sit there in silence until finally Maria looked up at me and began to speak.

"Well… it's not like you wanted it to happen right. So its not like your really gay is it?"

I just looked at her. She was right. No mater what the reason it not like I wanted all this to happen. But why then couldn't I get him out of my mind. I thought about this for a vage second and just passed it off like everything else I never really wanted to know. So everything's ok. I will just have to rule it down and something stupid I have done or even a youthful indiscretion. As I thought that I gave a little snigger, since what I had just said made me sound like a old man, not a youthful 20 year old.

For the rest of the evening Maria made light jokes about the previous evening and we talked till late turned to early. As I said goodbye to Maria after this long night I felt glad that I had talked over that subject with her. She always had a tendency to make me feel better about anything serious that came up in my life. I climbed up the mountain of cold metal steps towards my apartment just thinking this. Anyway its not like I'll ever see him again. I've already forgotten his name.

"YUUKI!"

The short red-haired man was lingering outside my apartment and seemed to be waiting for me to arrive home. How did he know where I lived? Yuuki saw me and walked casually over to me like he was expecting me to smile like nothing had ever happened between us.

"Its rather late for you to be getting home isn't it?"