Author's Note: Prepare for some E/J loving. I also mention god in this chapter. I am not a religious person but I thought it fit for this chapter. Enjoy.
Jacob POV:
Bang! Bang! Bang!
"For the love of god Edward, will you two give it a rest. Jasper is looking like he is going to eat me and the girls are all out shopping." Emmett screamed from outside our bedroom door. I started to laugh, but my breath was quickly turned into a moan as Edward pushed inside me. His lips stole mine for a toe curling kiss and my hands quickly tangled into his soft auburn hair.
Edward has been insatiable since we got back to Alaska. Most days he wouldn't leave my side for one second, always asking me if I was OK or if I needed anything. I knew he was trying to make up for the way he treated me, and I loved him for that. I tried to tell him to back off a little-that he was being a little to clingy, but he wouldn't listen. The most embarrassing thing was when Edward was in the mood. I could be sitting on the couch talking to Bella and Alice, and suddenly I would find myself flat on our bed, and my clothes were being torn off my body. I would try to protest or be angry, but the things he could do to my body...
"Fuck...Edward, harder" I gasped into his mouth. You would think I would be embarrassed that Edward ravaged me on a daily basis in a house full of super hearing vampires, but when his hands were on my body and his mouth was connected to mine, I tended to forget about anything.
"Goddammit Edward, Jasper is going to rape me if you two don't knock it off. This is the third time today." Emmett continued to shout through the door. Edward didn't listen though, and his hips continued to snap into me. When Edward hit my sweet spot I cried out and pulled his lips back to mine.
"Jasper, stay back. I will rip your arms off"
"Fuck, Jake, I'm gonna come" Edward whispered in my ear, and then sucked the skin at the base of my neck.
"Jasper, I said no dammit"
"Ed..." I was so close I just needed a little more. "Baby...Just...a little...more..."
"NO!! Jasp..." Emmett's voice cut off.
"Oh god, right there Edward" I screamed, and my back arched off the bed as I hit my peak. My body trembled and my hearing stuttered as my orgasm ripped through me. Somewhere far off I could hear Edward roar with his orgasm, and then I felt him let go inside me. I started to come down from my high slowly and felt Edward collapse on top of me. His head buried in my chest. Both of us were breathing hard trembling with aftershocks.
A few minutes later a loud crash came from outside the bedroom door. Edward raised his head to look at me, and then he dropped his head back to my chest laughing loudly. I started to ask him what happened when the shouting started.
"I'm going to fucking kill you Jasper" Emmett shouted.
"What happened?" I whispered to Edward, who just shook his head and continued to laugh.
"I...I'm sorry Emmett, I couldn't help myself" Jasper said sounding embarrassed.
"You couldn't stop yourself from kissing me Jasper? How the fuck does that happen? I am going to give you five seconds to run, and then I am going to chase your scrawny ass down and kick your ass."
"Emmett..."
"One...Two..."
Then, silence.
"Edward...did we just make Jasper kiss Emmett?" I asked the top of his head. He could only nod his head. I burst out laughing so hard I had tears In my eyes. Jasper was never going to live that down.
A few hours later I finally convinced Edward that I needed a rest. When we came downstairs after a long shower the whole family was sitting in the living room. Jasper was laying on the couch with his head in Alice's lap and Emmett was sitting next to Rose pouting and occasionally shooting daggers at Jasper. I snickered and walked through the living room into the kitchen, where Bella stood at the sink putting flowers in a vase.
"Hey Bells, whats up?" I asked walking to the fridge. Edward had worked up my apatite and I was starving. I pulled out the carton of milk but stopped before It reached my lips, because Bella was now leaning against the sink with her arms folded across her chest.
"What?" I asked, looking down to make sure my zipper hadn't come down.
She laughed and shook her head smiling. She turned back around and finished putting the flowers in the vase and then turned and set them on the center island in the kitchen. I pulled an apple out of the fridge and hopped up on the counter watching Bella gracefully walk around the kitchen. I smiled quietly to myself as I remembered watching Bella cook for Charlie back in forks. She would trip over air and then blush tomato red when she caught me laughing.
I sighed deeply remembering the old days. Everything had changed so much. The pain in her eyes after Edward left her was almost too much for me to bare. After she gradually started to smile again, I found out just what it was about Bella that Edward loved so much. She was extremely smart, and witty and truly one of the sweetest people in the whole world. I wanted to curse god or whoever it was that kept giving her love and taking it away.
Edward and I were part of the supernatural world that she got tangled into. We were born enemies and she was caught in the middle. She had loved us both and neither one of us were worthy enough for her. Or maybe I wasn't looking at the bigger picture. Maybe the soft, warm, human Bella was born to bear the weight of the supernatural world on her shoulders. Much like I was born to be an Alpha, maybe she was born to bring peace to two worlds that had been enemies for far too long.
Edward was the love of my life, but at one time we both had been in love with Bella. Two dangerous beings forced to coexist with each other because Bella somehow knew that we were suppose to be in each others lives.
I had to wonder what what destiny had planned for her.
"What are you thinking so hard about over there?" Bella asked bringing me out of my revere.
"Oh, just Life, Love and the whole crazy thing." she smiled sweetly and came to stand against the counter across from where I was sitting.
"You really love him don't you?"
I sighed and smiled stupidly. "Yeah, I really do."
"I really am happy for you both Jake. I can't think of anyone better for you to love. You two balance each other perfectly."
I blushed and hopped down and pulled her into a hug. When we pulled back, both of our heads turned to the doorway where Edward stood watching us.
"Good morning Edward" Bella said sweetly. Edward didn't respond though, and that was when I saw his eyes were black. I knew he didn't need to feed because he had just hunted yesterday.
My heart rate picked up as I watched him watching me. He had that look again.
Oh shit.
I backed away toward the back of the kitchen holding both my hands up facing him.
"Edward No" You cant be horny again already.
He simply smiled and started after me very slowly. I knew that look and If I didn't get away, he was going to drag me back to the bedroom again. Bella watched us amused as I rounded the island with Edward fallowing right behind me.
"Bella, help me" I pleaded coming to stand right behind her.
"Jacob, I just want a kiss" Edward said standing in front of Bella now. His eyes were smoldering, and my resolve was wavering.
"Sooo, look at the time. I need to hunt" Bella said trying to escape.
"No" I almost shouted, holding onto her shoulders so she stayed between Edward and me.
"Baby, Please can I have just one kiss" Edward pleaded with his velvet voice. Bella started giggling and brought her hand up to cover her mouth.
"No, you may not have a kiss. As soon as you get close enough you will drag me back to the bedroom. The last time that happened, Emmett almost killed Jasper for kissing him."
Bella started full out laughing then, and Edward just smiled.
Turns out Jasper did run from the house, with Emmett fallowing. Now, just to give you a mental picture of how funny it actually was, picture this. Jasper running from the house frantic trying to dial Alice on his cell phone. Emmett 100 yards behind cussing about being kissed by an emo empath.
Jasper ran circles in the Forrest for almost 4 hours before Alice, Bella and Rosalie made it home to calm Emmett down. Edward relayed the events to me from the bed where we still laid. We laughed and made love until the family finally got home.
"Edward dear" Esme said walking into the kitchen. "Would you mind playing your piano for a while? It's been so long since I have heard you play."
My lips turned up into a smug smile, and Edward narrowed his eyes at me. I knew his plan was to drag me back upstairs, but he wouldn't deny Esme a chance to hear him play. I stepped around Bella and leaned up to give Edward a soft kiss. "Have fun baby, I'm gonna go hunt with Bella."
Bella and I left through the back door and I phased as we took off into the Forrest. I didn't like eating raw animals so I watched as Bella quickly caught a small bear. It was very strange to see Bella so small catch a wild animal and kill it. I decided to stop near a small river and phase back while Bella fed. I had seen Edward catch and eat thousands of animals, but it was still a little gross to watch.
I always made him carry mouth wash when I went with him to hunt. I shivered as I remembered the first time I watched him feed. He took down a mountain lion and then came over and kissed me. The taste of blood was still in his mouth and...lets just say he was never allowed to kiss me after feeding until he brushed his teeth.
Bella finished hunting and joined me next to the river. We watched the water and took in our surroundings in silence. The Forrest was beautiful, it made me miss La Push and running though the dense trees with the pack. I missed my friends, and my father. The Cullen's had taken me in and made me apart of their family, but I still missed all of the friends that I grew up with. I missed seeing my father's smile.
It took me a while to be able to admit I missed my father. The day I left to go find Edward after the whole wedding mess my father found me in my room packing a few clothes. He knew where I was going and he begged me to stay. He made me feel guilty that I was leaving him alone while he was confined to a wheel chair. When the guilt trip didn't work he started throwing insults at me. He told me I was shirking my duties to the pack and I was turning my back on my heritage. As I walked out the door to my house he told me how much of a disappointment I was.
The whole pack stood outside my house and watched as I climbed on my motorcycle and drove away from my life. Tears fell from my eyes as I left everything I had ever known to go find the one person who would make me happy.
"What are you thinking about?" Bella asked softly. She had turned her body to face me and I wondered how long she had been watching me.
"I was just thinking about home. Do you ever miss forks?"
She sighed deeply and nodded her head looking down.
"Everyday." she said sounding very sad.
"I hate that I left charlie without even a goodbye. I never once called him from California. I knew he would make me feel guilty for leaving and I would end up back in Forks."
I nodded as I picked up a twig, turning it over and over in my hands.
"He left me voice mails on my cell phone everyday for months. I always deleted them because I knew I wasn't strong enough to listen to them and not go crawling back home."
I stayed quiet and listened, but briefly wondered if she had told Edward any of this during their three day phone call.
"The day I met Stephen was the last day Charlie called me. I decided to listen to his message and then wished that I hadn't. He was crying. He said he missed me and that my mom was a mess."
She looked far off in the distance and I wondered if she was going to continue. When she did finally speak again it was only a whisper.
"I went to see him a few months back"
My eyes widened in shock.
"I told Carlisle that I just needed to see him. I wanted a proper goodbye even though he wouldn't be awake to hear it. I went to the house during the night when he was asleep and used my key to get in."
Bella laughed as she told me that Charlie was passed out in the chair with the TV still on.
"I thought about carrying him to bed, but I remembered how cold our skin is to humans, so I let him sleep. I sat on the couch and watched him sleep for an hour. When it was time for me to leave, I wanted to leave something behind to let him know that I had been there, so I found some paper in the kitchen and wrote 'I love you, Dad' and I left it on the kitchen table with my cell phone. I knew that was the last time I would ever see Charlie."
I didn't mean to make her sad, but I wanted to be her best friend again. I wanted to help her, like she helped Edward and I get back together.
"Tell me about Stephen...I mean if you want too. If it wont make you too sad, I would love to hear about the guy you fell in love with."
Bella smiled, and If she was able to blush she would have been tomato red. Then she got a wistful look in her eyes.
"He was wonderful Jake. He wasn't extremely beautiful or built like a body builder, he was plain just like me. Most girls would probably consider him a geek..." she chuckled. I smiled.
"He had black hair and the bluest eyes I have ever seen. The first two times he asked me out I just wasn't ready to be with anyone yet. Slowly though he became my friend. He made me laugh when we had our conversations about philosophy. Eventually I told him about Edward, and you. I couldn't tell him the wolf/vampire secret, but I told him how much I loved you both. I told him how I planned to spend my life with Edward."
Here come's the guilt again. I knew how guilty Edward felt for leaving her at the wedding, but I was the one who had taken him away from her. It must have shown on my face because she scooted closer to me and took my hands.
"Jake, please don't feel guilty. You fell in love with Edward, I don't blame you for that. It took me a while to realize that you were meant to be with each other. Stephen and I had many conversations about religion and the belief in god. He helped me to realize that god had a plan for me. He made me strong enough to endure the pain. His plan for me was to bring you two together."
I was speechless for a few minutes, but when I looked into her eyes I could see that it was the truth.
"It doesn't seem fair though Bella. Why would god give you Edward only to take him away, and then give you Stephen and take him away too? How is that fair?"
I felt my eyes starting to burn with unshed tears for my friend. Nothing about our life was fair. How could I be gloriously happy and in love, and she be left with nothing?
"I don't have all the answers Jake, I wish I did. After Stephen died I knew that I wanted to be apart of this family. When I finally went back to Forks and saw that Edward had been asked to leave I was angry. I decided that I would ask Carlisle to change me and then I would bring you and Edward back home where you belonged."
The day progressed into night as we talked. I was a little shocked Edward hadn't come out to find us or drag me back to the bedroom. I was starting to miss him and after Bella fed one more time we headed back to the house. Edward met us at the back door and gave Bella a hug before she went inside. Edward smiled his crooked smile that I loved and held out his arms for me. I walked forward into his embrace and wrapped my arms around his waist.
"I missed you" I whispered into his chest.
"I missed you, too. How about we to take a nice long bath and get you in bed ,you look tired." I nodded against his chest as he pulled me toward the house. We said a quiet goodnight to Jasper and Alice on the couch and made our way upstairs to our room. Edward stepped into the bathroom and started the bath while I found some pajama pants to put on before bed.
I smiled as Edward wrapped his arms around me and kissed the side of my neck. "The bath is ready baby" I hummed in contentment and turned in his arms to kiss him. Edward took my hand and led me to the huge tub. He stepped in first and sat down and then held out his hand for me to step in and sit between his legs. The scalding hot water and his cold skin felt wonderful. I felt myself relaxing as Edward's soft fingertips made lazy circles on my chest.
Eventually Edward took the bottle of body wash and lathered up his hands. When he placed his hands flat on my chest and started gently messaging me I was almost purring. My eyes closed and I laid my head back on his shoulder. I could have fallen asleep I was so relaxed, but that was until his hand made contact with the head of my cock.
I flinched and my eyes flew open, but his other hand came up to lay over my heart and he started gently kissing the side of my neck.
"Relax baby" he said against my neck as his hand wrapped around me and started gently stroking up and down. I closed my eyes and dropped my head back to his shoulder with a low groan.
"I love you, Jake" he whispered as his hand sped up a little. I was too far gone to say anything, I could only whimper. He chuckled and when he licked up the side of my neck to just behind my ear,my body shuttered.
"You like that baby?" I could only nod. Edward knew how to touch my body in ways to drive me insane with pleasure. When Edward started sucking really hard on the skin behind my hear, my back arched and I started thrusting into his hand. My heart was pounding and I was sure I was moaning loud enough for the whole house to hear, but I didn't care.
"Baby...I..." My breaths were too shallow for me to continue. I could feel the muscles in my lower abdomen start to tighten and I knew that I was going to come really hard. Edward's free hand came up and turned my face so he could press his lips to mine. I whimpered and moaned into his mouth as his hand gripped me tighter and sped up his strokes on my cock.
When Edward's tongue invaded my mouth, I felt a sharp jolt of pleasure from head to toe, and I let out a keening desperate cry into his mouth as my body finally let go. Edward moaned as my hips bucked wildly against his hand. He slowed the speed of his stroke, but kept the pressure until my body finally fell limp against his.
My mouth broke apart from his finally and I tried to catch my breath. Edward held me until I calmed. My body felt boneless. Edward had to help me stand up and dry off. I could hardly keep my eyes open as he led me to the bed and pulled back the blanket for me to crawl inside. My eyes closed and I was only able to register Edward laying beside me and telling me he loved me before I drifted off to dream land, very satisfied.