Author's note: Back to La Push we go. Time for Jacob to say goodbye and maybe have some sexy times with Edward.

In another life the images before me might have been beautiful, but right now the only thing I can do is cry and squeeze Edward's hand to keep me grounded.

Edward and I rounded the corner to enter La Push and the breath was stolen from my lungs. 12 wolves greeted us at the border. Six of them sat on each side of the road parallel to each other. Their head's didn't turn to look at us, they stayed forward toward each other. Tears were flowing from my eyes endlessly as Edward maneuvered the car over the border. As we passed the first set of wolves slowly their heads bowed toward the car. As we continued through the precession each of the wolves bowed to the car. It was shocking to me and I would have lost it had Edward not been with me. They were showing respect for me 'The would be Alpha,' coming home to mourn the death of his father.

They may hate Edward and my choice to leave home to be with him, but they all respected me and my family within the reservation.

Edward lifted my hand to his mouth and kissed my knuckles gently. He must have read their minds and knew what was going on. He didn't say anything as we continued to drive toward my house. From the side mirror I watched as the wolves stood and disappeared into the trees. Sam said they would all be around to greet us before the funeral. When we pulled up the my house the whole pack stood in a long line behind Sam. They were in their human forms, and as Edward and I stepped out of the car Sam was the only one to step forward to greet us. Sam nodded his head quickly at Edward and stepped forward toward me. I was pulled into a brief hug then I stepped back into Edward's chest.

"Welcome home, Jake" Sam said. "I am so sorry about your father. We all looked up to him and respected him."

I nodded, unable to speak because of the lump in my throat. I was sad about my father, but as I stood there looking at my old friends and family it hit me how much I truly missed all of them. My old best friends Quil and Embry stood with the rest of the pack. Some of them I didn't even know. Sam turned to look at the pack and then back at me.

"Your sisters arrived yesterday morning and they are at Emily's house helping get the food ready for the bonfire. Um..." Sam looked over his shoulder again and back to me. He wanted to say something, but he didn't want to say it in front of Edward. I reached behind me and took his cold hand in mine. I refused to be without Edward while I was here and they were just going to have to deal with it.

"Jake...Quil and Embry want to speak with you..." his eyes flashed to Edward and back to me, "alone..."

"What do they want Edward?" I asked silently. They were my best friends, but I didn't know why Edward couldn't be with me. Edward squeezed my hand and turned my body toward him. His hand came up to my face and he looked deep into my eyes. Instantly I was calmer. He knew I was freaking out a little bit.

"It's OK Jake, They just want to offer their condolences and catch up. They aren't comfortable being close to me. I can wait for you in the house or I can sit in the car, it's up to you." Then he leaned very close to my ear to whisper, "Just remember Jake, they have no idea about Bella being changed. They still think she is missing. You can't tell them, or it could start a war."

He was right of course. I would have started telling them about my life, and Bella being apart of our lives has become so normal that I wouldn't even think twice about it. I would have to keep on my toes and not let it slip. I would tell them eventually, once Charlie had passed on, but now was not the time.

"I thought you said Edward had to stay with me at all times while we were here?" I asked turning to look at Sam again. He looked at Edward and back at the pack again briefly.

"I know I said that...but the pack really want to catch up with you and while I know that Edward wouldn't do anything to upset anyone, most of the pack are very young and have never really come in contact with a vampire. I don't want to test their control today. I just thought maybe Edward could wait inside for a few minutes and then we all have to head over to Emily's to get dressed for the funeral."

Edward squeezed my hand and stepped around me.

"Thank you Sam, for allowing me to be here for Jacob today. I promise you I will be on my best behavior. I know that Jacob misses his pack brothers everyday and I won't stand in the way while they catch up."

Edward turned to me and smiled, and then walked very slowly toward the house. The pack never took their eyes off of him as he walked closer to them to go inside. And then suddenly I was standing in the center of my brothers. I hugged my best friends and thanked them for being there for my father when I couldn't be. Sam introduced me to the younger wolves, who looked at me in awe. I could only imagine the stories that had been told about me. ' The rightful Alpha who turned away from his birth right, only to imprint on a vampire.' It would make for a great movie, if it wasn't my freaking life. Why did everything have to be so damn complicated?

An hour later Edward and I pulled up outside the only church on the small reservation. Families stood around talking and laughing, but as Edward and I exited the car and met at the front, taking hands, All conversations turned silent. All eyes were now on us as we made our way to the doors of the church. Inside soft organ music played. Most of the pack were now sitting in the pews with their families. They too were totally silent as Edward and I walked down the center isle to the front of the church.

My mind had been on so many things since crossing the border today that I hadn't had time to actually mourn. As Edward and I made our way to the front my heart was thundering loudly in my chest. My father had been cremated the day after his death and his ashes were now housed in a beautiful oak box. The carvings on the wood were so detailed that I had to lean in to see what it was. On the front of the box, carved right into the wood, was a small scene with trees and a small stream. As I looked closer I could make out a wolf figure sitting beside the stream with his muzzle raised to the sky as if he were howling into the night.

That was when I finally broke.

A choking sob shook my body, and my knees hit the floor. Edward was instantly beside me and his arm came around my shoulders to hold me. The grief finally took over and I couldn't stop the tears.

"Your father asked Sam to make this box for him." Edward whispered. "The wolf in the picture is suppose to represent you. You are the last living male in the Black family. You are now the protector of the black legacy." That only made me cry harder. Edward seemed to be getting information from someone in the pack. I wondered if he was getting pictures of my father giving the instructions for his urn.

The funeral was short. I sat in the front row with Edward holding my right hand and my sister holding my left. They both liked Edward and weren't afraid to be near him. They just wanted me to be happy. When the church service was over my sisters rode with Edward and I back to my father's house to change clothes. Everyone – minus Edward, changed into shorts and t shirts since the clouds had cleared and it was a warm sunny day. Edward changed into black slacks and a blue button down shirt. We were all ready to leave for the beach when we ran into a bit of a problem. Edward refused to leave the house.

My sisters stood in the living room trying not to laugh as Edward and I bantered back and forth.

"Baby, everyone knows your a vampire. What is the problem?"

"Jake, the sun has come out. Don't you think it might be a little shocking to see someone sitting on the beach glittering like a diamond?"

OK, I admit, even I couldn't stop my chuckle when I pictured that one. My sisters just smiled and kept watching us.

"Please Jake, just go and celebrate with your friends and family. I'm sure Sam won't care if I stay put here in the house. I promise I won't step foot outside until you get back." Edward pleaded with me.

"Edward.." I said in mock anger, "I am giving you ten seconds to get your ass in the car or I will be forced to make you." Edward's lip twitched a little, but he stopped the smile and set his face in defiance from where he sat on the couch. He knew I couldn't physically force him into the car, but what he didn't know is that I had other idea's that I knew would make him see things my way. Edward crossed his arms over his chest and smirked at me.

"I would love to see you try" he said. My eyes narrowed at him, and then I smiled sweetly. Both of my sister's giggled then. I reached into my pocket and pulled out the keys to the rental and tossed them to my sister.

"You ladies go ahead and head over. Edward and I are going to have a little talk and then we WILL be along shortly. Please tell Sam not to start with out us." I didn't take my eyes off Edward as my sisters quietly left the room and the front door opened and then closed. When I heard the car start and pull away I finally spoke.

"Last chance Edward, you can come with me willingly or I will be forced to make you see things my way" I said crossing my arms over my chest. He only returned his smug smile not moving.

"I'm not going Jake. Not until the sun goes down and I don't stick out like a sore thumb. Everyone already stares at me like I am a freak, what would they say when I am sparkling?"

wrong answer. I said in my head.

I walked forward never breaking eye contact, I sank down to my knees in front of him. I parted his legs and leaned forward to press my lips to his. Edward responded immediately to my kiss. His hand went to the back of my head and his mouth opened for me to taste his tongue. Once I had him distracted I brought my hand up to palm him through his pants. He made a shocked noise against my lips and tried to pull away but I pressed forward with my lips harder, trapping him in my kiss. My hand started kneading and stroking him in slow patterns. Edward whimpered and the hand that wasn't on my head came down and tried to pull my hand away. My free hand caught his and laced our fingers together at his side. He was helpless now. He was hard under my warm hand as I popped the button on his slacks and pulled the zipper down. His hips bucked unwillingly.

I reached into his pants and took his cock into my hand. He grunted against my lips and his eyes screwed shut. I started at the base and squeezed my hand as hard as I could, stroking him up and down very, very slowly. Edward cried out into my mouth, but I wouldn't relinquish his lips. His breathing was unsteady through his nose as I tortured him.

Come with me to the beach Edward. I said in my head. He shook his head no.

I made him whimper as I squeezed the head of his cock making his hips buck again. I would make him come with me if it took me all day. In on quick movement I pulled back from his lips and took him into my mouth, sinking all the way down to his pubic bone. Edward cried out again and his head fell back to the couch. His thighs were trembling around my body and I could tell he was really close to the edge. What he didn't know is that I wasn't going to let him come until he agreed to come to the beach.

I bobbed my head up and down on his cock, making Edward moan deep in his chest and whimper when I stopped and took a second to breath. When it was time to make my move, I reached into his pants and took his balls into my hand. I sucked his cock deep into my throat and swallowed at the same time as I tugged on his balls gently. Edward wailed and his body bowed off the couch almost knocking me back on my ass. I held on though and swallowed again, his legs were trembling and trying to close around me. His tried to pull his hand free from mine but I held his hand tightly. His head was whipping back and forth and I knew he was just about there. I gave one more tug on his balls and he froze.

"I'm gonna come" Edward yelled.

That was when I pulled away and stood from the floor.

"Sorry baby, but I have to go to the beach. You have fun and stay out of trouble." I turned and a smile broke out on my face as I almost ran to the front door. Edward was faster though and he beat me there. He was breathing like he had just ran a marathon. His eyes were flat black with anger and lust. Exactly what I was going for.

"You are not going anywhere" Edward said in a deadly voice. I think I gulped, but his voice made me instantly hard. Edward grabbed both my shoulder and spun me around, pushing me face first against the front door. His ground his hard cock against me though my clothes making me whimper.

"You think it's funny to tease me Jake?" his mouth was right next to my ear and I shivered. "You think you can suck me almost to orgasm and just stop and leave?" He was angry I could tell, but instead of being scared it turned me on. I was sure my cock was going to tear a hole in my shorts I was so hard.

"I think it's time to show you just who the Alpha is in this relationship" He almost growled. God it was sexy and I could do nothing but whimper. Suddenly my shorts were torn from my body and his cock was inside me hard and fast. I screamed because it hurt because he didn't prepare me, but fucking hell, it felt so good. He took both my hands and held them with our fingers laced together against the wall. His mouth was sucking on my neck as he pounded into me. Edward didn't need to breath and he would never get tired so his hips never faltered.

I'm sure it sounded like someone was being murdered the way I was crying out and screaming his name, but I couldn't help it. Every once in a while he would shift his hips and pound right into my sweet spot, making me cry out even louder. I briefly wondered how me teasing Edward turned into screaming sweaty sex, hard and fast against the door. That thought was quickly pushed away though as a tingling sensation started as my finger tips and my toes. As Edward continued to push inside me hard and fast, the tingling quickly made it to my center. My stomach muscles started to convulse and my balls started to tighten, and I knew I was in for a major, come to Jesus, orgasm like I had never had before.

"I want you to come for me Jacob. I want you to come hard. I want to feel you clamp down on my dick and I want you to scream so the whole fucking reservation can hear you. Do you understand me?" Edward growled

I couldn't speak. That had to be the fucking hottest thing Edward had ever said to me. Edward used his foot and moved my legs, that has been spread apart, together making me tighter and thrust inside hard and deep, pushing me against the door with a bang and I was done for. A wail erupted from my lungs sounding almost like a howl and my body was convulsing hard. Edward wrapped an arm around my body and held me while I shook and whimpered and yelled over and over again. Somewhere in the middle of my life altering orgasm I felt him spill inside me. It was cold, and Edward kept thrusting as his orgasm ran down my legs.

I don't know how long my orgasm lasted, but when I was able to start thinking coherently again, I found myself in Edward's arms, on the floor. Edward was kissing my neck gently and rocking me back and forth very slowly. My body was limp against his chest. My body had no energy left.

"Are you ready to go to the beach baby?" Edward whispered. I wasn't able to make my body move, even to nod. I was only able to whisper "I knew it would work" against his chest. Edward laughed loudly and helped me to stand on wobbly legs.

Twenty minutes and a fresh pair of shorts later, Edward and I walked down to the beach. I don't know if it was the life altering sex or just having Edward with me, but I was ready to face whatever was going to happen at the beach. There was no fear. I was sad sure, but I also found acceptance in my life and I wasn't going to let anyone make me feel bad because of it. I would say goodbye to my father and accept that he was with my mother in heaven. They were together forever and now I was free to have my forever with the love of my life.

The sun was just setting when we got to the beach and it seemed that the whole town was sitting around the bonfire. My sisters both hugged Edward and I as we joined in the circle. Edward and I still received strange looks as we held hands, but that wasn't going to change.

The elders of the tribe held the traditional Quileute funeral ceremony. It was beautiful even though I didn't know the words they were saying. When it was over, Sam held my father's oak urn and slowly walked the circle so everyone could touch it and say a few words. Sam skipped Edward and stopped in front of me. He placed the urn in my hands and stood.

"Jacob, your father wanted you to have his ashes. The wolf engraved in the oak represents you. He wanted you to know that he was proud of you every single day. As the last male member of the Black family you are now the protector of your fate and your family name."

My eyes filled with tears and I tried to blink them away. As I traced the wolf carving with my finger I whispered "Thank you"

The bonfire broke up and everyone stood around talking. My sisters and I sat together looking at the urn and they told me they were happy that I would be taking his ashes with me back home to Alaska. I told them about the dream I had of our mother and we cried together. At the end of the night Edward and I stood and said goodbye to everyone and then drove back to my fathers house. I knew that Edward had to be out of the reservation by the next morning, so when we got back to the house we packed the rest of my belongings into the rental car, along with a few of my parents pictures and mementos that I wanted to keep. My sisters would take care of the rest of the house. They were going to stay for a week and move the rest of my father's things to storage and turn the house over to the reservation before going back home.

I kissed my sister's goodbye, and they both hugged Edward. They both exchanged numbers with Edward so he could invite them to come visit our home sometime in the future. I would have to call them before that happened and tell them about Bella before they came to visit. I wanted my sisters to be apart of my family with the Cullens. I knew Alice and Esme would love them as much as they loved me.

The sun was just starting to rise as Edward and I drove back across the La Push border. The wolves weren't in formation this time but we could see them all sitting just inside the trees along the border. I didn't know if I would ever come back here, but I would miss all of them.

Edward and I drove back to forks to his old house. We were staying the weekend so we could go and visit Charlie. We couldn't tell him about Bella, but we promised her we would stop and make sure he was taking care of himself. Until then Edward and I had a huge empty house and two whole days alone. I wonder what we could do to pass the time?

End Note: Let me know what you think. Next chatper we will hear from Bella and what she has been going through.