Chapter 19 - Time For A Fight

Paul and Jared got to the hospital as they got to the oncology floor. Paul found the nurse's station as an older nurse looked over the rim of her glasses, "Something I can help you with young man?" Paul nodded, "I need to speak with a patient here right now. Antonia Barlow." The nurse shook her head, "I'm sorry young man, but even if there was a patient by that name here, no one is allowed beyond those doors."

Paul growled, "I know she's here her brother told me she was. I don't care if you go back there and bring her out here or if I have to go back there and bring her out. I need to speak with her NOW!" The nurse looked down her nose at him, "I'm sorry sir there is no chance of that happening. If you know she's here then you know why she's here. We do not disrupt the patients while they are receiving their treatments."

Paul growled as he hit his hand on top of the count making the old lady jump in her stockings as he walked over and practically tore the doors off their hinges and Jared just scurried behind him, making sure he didn't do something he'd regret.

"ANTONIA!"

"ANTONIA!"

Toni opened her eyes as the wave of nausea hit her, she'd been getting yet another chemotherapy treatment. She thought she heard someone yell her name...Maybe she was just dreaming it. She closed her eyes again as she continued to control her breathing. As long as she controlled it, she could control the nausea.

"ANTONIA!"

Antonia eyes snapped open as the door opened and Kim walked in, she was close to four months pregnant now and was barely starting to show her baby bump. Kim giggled, "Guess who knows you're here?" Antonia cringed, "I don't want to see him right now. Just tell him to leave me alone. I have nothing to say to him."

Kim smirked, "He wouldn't hit a pregnant lady would he?" Antonia smirked, "Knowing Paul, Jared is with him and would KILL him if he harmed a hair on your head." Kim nodded knowing Toni was right. Kim left the room as the nurse came in and disconnected the IV from her port, "It seems you've got a visitor who won't leave until he sees you, he's already given security a bad time. You're finished anyways. Just relax and I'll tell him you'll be out soon." Antonia nodded.

Kim walked down the hall as she watched Paul growling and Jared trying to hold him back. Kim walked over, "PAUL REDSON! Stop that at once! I don't know what you thought you was going to accomplish by coming in here and acting like some psychotic fool, but it didn't help your cause. Antonia does NOT want to see you and you need to just leave her alone."

Paul growled at Kim and in turn Jared growled at Paul for growling at his pregnant wife.

Kim glared at both of them, "KNOCK IT OFF! Both of you! This floor is the chemotherapy and radiation floor. There is not one patient on this floor who gives a shit about your issues because they have their own to deal with right now. Paul you should already know Antonia doesn't want to see you. Though I can't say I honestly blame her." As Kim turned to her husband, "And you Jared Tinsel! You should know better than to act like that in public. You both need to leave immediately."

Paul calmed himself down as he looked down at the smaller pregnant woman, "I need to talk to her please Kim. I don't care if it's for 30 minutes or 3 seconds. I need to make things right." Kim shook her head, "No Paul. Not right now. She just finished her treatment and she's going to be puking soon. The toxin doesn't take long to filter through her whole system. She'll be home in a couple of hours and I'm staying with her while her father is out of town."

Paul frowned, "I'm coming by to see her later tonight...Please don't say anything. I don't want her to disappear trying to avoid me." Kim nodded, "Okay. I promise. I won't." Jared walked over and stood in front of Kim as she smiled softly, "Come with him. I'll talk with you then." Jared nodded a confirmation as he leaned down and kissed her cheek.

Later that night once Antonia had rested up from her treatments, she was sitting on the porch with Kim as they enjoyed the sound of the rain. Antonia frowned, "Don't you think you've punished Jared enough? He was so happy about the baby, I know he's got to be miserable not being with you." Kim rolled her eyes, "He needs to learn that not every time one of his pack brothers gets into a fight with their girl, that the brother is automatically right. He'll learn sooner or later."

Antonia watched as Paul's beat up blue truck pulled in the drive way as she sighed heavily and walked into the house. Paul and Jared both walked up the steps onto the porch as Kim pointed towards the house, she watched as Paul disappeared into the house.

Antonia was walking through the living room to the kitchen when she heard the front door close as she turned around and came face to face with Paul. Toni glared at him, "What are you doing here?" Paul frowned, "I wanted to talk with you." Antonia scoffed, "Why the sudden change of heart? Wait let me guess Brady paid you a visit and told you I was sick again right? Well I don't need your pity so you can pack it up and take off."

Paul walked over to Antonia in two steps as he gripped her shoulders, "Tell me right now, is what Brady said about what Tommy did to you true?" Antonia rolled her eyes, "Would it really make a difference? All of this should've been said nearly 2 months ago, but you didn't want to hear it then. What the hell changed?"

Paul growled he was getting frustrated, "I'm sorry Antonia. I'm sorry with everything in me and everything I am. I was stubborn and pigheaded and I wanted to believe it was easier to think you had cheated on me then to stop and listen to the truth for five seconds. I was completely wrong. I know I hurt you bad and I'm sorry. If I could take it all back I would. Sorry might not be enough but it's a start."

Paul watched as Antonia raked a hand through her hair and noticed it had started thinning out again. Toni walked over and sat on the couch, "You're right you did hurt me. I thought you loved me enough that you'd listen to anything I said and would know I would never lie to you." Antonia watched as Paul walked over and squatted down in front of her as his hands rested on her jean covered knees, "I know it was my fault Toni. I'm a dick, but I love you now just as much as I did when I first imprinted or even when we got engaged. I was so stupid for ever thinking you could ever intentionally hurt me like that."

Antonia looked at the ground as her eyes came back up and locked with Paul's she sighed softly, "You are definitely right about one thing. Sorry is definitely not enough...But it is a start."

Paul watched as Antonia leaned over and threw her arms around his shoulders as she buried her face into his neck. Paul carefully stood up gathering her in his arm as he moved and sat on the couch with her on his lap; just holding her close to his body as he felt her begin to sob into his neck. Paul warm hands rubbed small circles on her back as he tried to calm her down. Once she finally calmed down, Paul gave Jared his truck keys and send Jared to show Kim the house he'd gotten finished for their soon to be growing family.

Paul carried Antonia upstairs to her room and laid her in bed with him, she laid her head on his chest listening to his heartbeat. He held her as tight as he could without actually hurting her. Laying together like that was healing parts of them that had been broken since the split. Paul pulled something out of his pocket as he took her left hand and slipped her engagement ring back on her finger. He'd had it professionally cleaned, "Right where it should have stayed."

Toni looked up at Paul and he kissed her lips softly, "Get some sleep. I know you're tired. I'm not going anywhere I don't have patrol for a couple of days." Antonia nodded as she closed her eyes as she buried her face in his chest as his arms tightened around her body bringing her closer to him.

Paul was NOT giving her up without a fight. Not even to cancer. Not if he could help it.