BPOV
"Oh, look at you! You're tan!" Alice exclaimed pulling me into a bone crushing hug. "Now tell me why you never once called me the entire time you were in Florida." She demanded pulling me away so that she could look at me face to face. "I was the one who called you and when I did you were rushing me off the phone." She pouted.
I just laughed and pulled her back into a hug, "I missed you Ali." I said chuckling, "Now let's get my bag and I will explain everything on the drive home." I promised.
Alice huffed but followed me over to baggage claim where I found my bag sitting alone on the Conveyor Belt. How long were we talking for? I quickly grabbed it and followed my best friend as she led us out of the Airport and to her car.
"Oh Christ," I muttered, "You brought the Porsche?"
"I didn't want to be late picking you up." She defended herself, "You know Edward's Volvo won't go over a hundred. Stupid pussy car." She muttered under her breath.
I laughed and got into the front seat grabbing on to the 'Oh Shit' handles above my head. With Alice driving there was just no telling. The girl was a maniac driver.
"Now." Ali said getting into the Driver's seat and starting up the engine, "Start talking."
I clung tighter to the handles as the tires squealed out of the parking lot and onto the little side road.
"One second." I told her pulling out my phone from my pocket and turning it on. I heard Alice grumbling under her breath again but I ignored her and pulled up my text message inbox. I found a recent text from Peter and sent a reply letting him and Jasper know that I landed and I was on my way home now.
As soon as I closed my phone Alice hounded me again, "Now who were you messaging?" She asked annoyed.
"Okay Ali," I said leaning back in my chair and getting comfortable, "I met someone."
"You met someone?" She questioned doubtful.
"Two someones." I corrected.
"As in two...women?"
"No!" I yelled exasperated, "I'm not swinging my door that way...yet." I teased her.
"Okay, so you met two guys?"
"Men." I said without thinking, "They were all man." I sighed.
"Oh God." Alice laughed, "Did Miss Bella, 'I fuck with no connections or limitations' meet her match on this trip?" She asked.
"No," I whispered looking out the window not really seeing the world fly by us, "I fell in love. With two men."
At that moment my phone beeped alerting me that I had a new message. I hastily opened the text knowing it was from Peter and Jasper.
Glad that you made it safely. We miss you. Call soon. -P and J
Upon seeing those words I could feel traitorous tears fall down my cheeks. I missed them more than I cared to admit, but this was for the best. I was not the settling down type of girl to one man, much less two and they deserved someone who wasn't as tainted as me. The rest of the trip was spent with Alice asking questions and me giving her one word answers until she stopped altogether. She knew that I would come around on my own time, but right now I just wanted to be alone.
As soon as we reached our new home we were greeted by Edward who was standing by the door.
"Welcome back Bella." He whispered pulling me into a one armed hug.
"Thanks," I sniffled, "I'm a little tired, so I'll catch up with you two tomorrow." I said making my way inside.
"Your room is up the stairs, first door on the right." Edward called out from behind me.
I waved my hand behind my head acknowledging that I heard him before making my way up the stairs. I had to admit that this was a cute little house that Edward picked out. It seemed like the perfect place for us to settle into for the next four years.
Stepping into the room the first thing I saw were boxes everywhere. I could barely make out my bed that was set up in the center of the room. I quickly pulled off the boxes that were littering the bed and pushed them to the floor. I would deal with them tomorrow. I set my duffel bag down beside the bed and lay down onto the cold mattress. There were no sheets on the bed just yet, but I couldn't bring myself to care.
I rolled over onto my stomach and let the darkness overcome my muddled brain. I didn't want to think, I didn't want to feel. This is why I had one night stands of meaningless sex. There were no feelings involved. Feelings only got in the way. The only people I truly had feelings for were my dad, Alice and Edward, but even with them my feelings were reserved. I didn't love them, hell I didn't even know what love was, but I knew that I would do anything for them. Was that love?
Renee ruined love for me. I thought that a mother's love was never ending and experienced the moment she conceived or some shit like that. What a fucking joke. Love was a joke.
Then why did I hurt so bad inside? Why did my heart feel like it was being ripped in two? If love wasn't real and it wasn't true then what was I feeling now?
I sighed and balled up my fist by my side, rolling over onto my back. There were so many questions without answers and I knew the only way I was going to move on from this would be to start living my life again. Live like this summer never happened and continue on my way of fucking and dumping.
The rest of the week and a good part of the next week were spent shopping and getting the house ready for us to live in. I finally got all the boxes unpacked from my room and we even got the living room set up and cable and Internet ordered. Alice must have tipped off Edward because he didn't ask how Florida was and for that I was grateful. No one talked about it and I did everything I could not to think of Peter and Jasper throughout the days. But I would be lying if I said I didn't. I was constantly checking my phone for messages or missed calls from them but it always came up empty. I know that the phone works both ways but I just couldn't bring myself to calling them or even texting them without the fear of saying something stupid or looking desperate.
It was the morning of our last day of summer vacation when Alice barged into my room at an un-godly hour announcing that it was time to shop for our first year of college. Apparently it was the beginning of the rest of our lives. The rest of the day was spent shopping and exploring all over our new town some more. Even with all the excitement though I noticed that not once did Jasper or Peter text or call me. But then again it wasn't like I went out of my way to try to contact them either.
Maybe I really was just a summer fling to them. The way that they should have been one to me.
"Snap out of it Bella," Alice hissed in my ear as we were standing in line to get our movie tickets, "Those guys are staring at you."
I looked over to where she was looking and saw that, sure enough, there were two guys staring back at us. One had dark skin and dark hair like he was of a Hispanic descent while the other was the complete opposite at pasty white with long brown hair.
"I'm guessing they are looking at you." I told her moving forward in the line and looking backing to the front.
"Even if they are, I'm sure that one is interested in you," She countered, "If one of them were to come over and talk to you would you talk back?" She asked.
"I don't know." I shrugged, not really caring, "I'm not looking for anything right now."
"Bella," She laughed, "Since when are you ever not looking for something more than a casual fuck?" She asked, still laughing.
Since five weeks ago, I thought bitterly to myself. Those guys weren't even here and yet I still couldn't get them off my mind. They were completely killing my want and need for other physical contact and they were a whole state away. It was ridiculous.
"Hey," A male voice said from beside me causing me to jump slightly, "What movie are you seeing?"
I turned to see the pasty white guy with long hair standing directly behind me with Alice glaring daggers into his back.
"Excuse me?" I asked trying to be somewhat polite.
"Mind if I join you in your movie?" He asked again.
"Actually I do." I said reaching behind him and grabbing Alice's arm and pulling her back to my side, "I am having a girl's night, no testosterone allowed. Sorry."
Alice laughed as we ordered our tickets before making our way inside. Even if I wasn't hung up on my two boys I would have never given that guy the time of day. Anyone who couldn't respect my friends was not worth even trying to have a casual fuck with. I checked my phone again for what seemed like the hundredth time only to see that no one had called or texted. And when I say no one I really meant Jasper and Peter. I couldn't help but feel let down and it made me angry. They had this hold over me and I was determined to break the spell. Acting on instinct I grabbed a napkin and scribbled down my phone number. Looking up I saw that the pasty guy was standing off to the side still watching me. Creepy. I rolled my eyes internally, not believing that I was actually going to go through with this.
I left Alice in line for our drinks and made my way over to him. "Here's my number," I said standing directly in front of him, "Call me if you want to hook up." I said giving him the quick glance over and emphasizing the words hook up.
"Will do doll face." He said with a smirk. I cringed slightly at the lame nick name but quickly masked my disgust and smiled at him seductively.
"Good. Talk to you later then." I told him, walking back towards Alice.
I knew that probably wasn't the smartest move I ever made but at the same time it was the only thing left to try to get the guys out of my head and hopefully out of my heart.
"You're just setting yourself up for failure." Alice said shaking her head at me sadly before walking away to the movie.
Yes I was. Because failure was better than loving someone who didn't love you back.
After the movie was over Alice and I made our way back to her car. Before I could get into the seat I heard someone yelling. I stood back up and peeked over the top of the car to see that same guy from earlier calling for me and gesturing for me to go to him.
"What a fucking stalker." Alice muttered getting into the driver's seat and slamming her door.
I stood with one foot in the car and one foot on the parking lot gravel, as if undecided what I should do in this case. By going with him I could forget about my boys- no my past fuck buddies- and get a quick fuck in the process. I could look at this as a positive thing. The plan was fool proof right? Except that somewhere deep inside me I knew that this wouldn't solve anything. I quickly pushed those thoughts to the back of my mind and stepped completely out of the car.
"Bella, get in the fucking car," Alice hissed, "You can't be serious."
I shut the door and leaned down as she rolled down the window. "I have to do this." I told her, quickly walking away from her car before she could protest any more. I needed this. I had to get them out of my head and out of my heart. They didn't belong there. No one did. My heart was black, and they deserved to be somewhere else.
It felt wrong to even try to have some kind of claim on them, or even wanting to have some kind of claim.
"My place or yours?" Creepy, long hair guy asked as I walked up to him and the bike he was straddling.
"Motel." I replied, standing off to the side of him and looking over his features a little more.
"Hop on." He chuckled holding out an extra black helmet to me.
I gingerly took the helmet in my hands and with one last look to Alice, who was glaring daggers at me, I put on the helmet and climbed onto the bike behind him.
"Hold on tight doll face." He said revving the gas.
I rolled my eyes before wrapping my arms around the middle section of his body just as he sped off into the night. I squeezed my eyes shut and silently sent up a prayer to whoever might be listening that he wouldn't crash. God Bella, how stupid can you fucking get? My inner voice scolded me. Getting on the back of some dudes motorcycle? Really?
I shook my head slightly and concentrated on the sound of the wind whipping past us as he continued driving at insane speeds throughout the streets of Tyler. After what seemed like hours later he pulled us into a Best Western.
"Is this classy enough for you doll face?" He asked, stepping off of the bike.
"Y-You know, I think I changed my mind," I stammered, "Do you think you can give me a ride home instead?"
"A ride home?" He scoffed, grabbing my hand and pulling me into a darker part of the parking lot, "I don't fucking think so. You teased me all fucking night and now you are going to follow through." He hissed, his grip on my arm tightening painfully.
"I didn't tease you." I whispered, afraid of the crazy look in his eyes.
"Don't play coy with me." He snapped back, "I know what the hell you were doing and now you are going to give me what I want."
And with that he pulled me roughly to him, crushing my body painfully against his. His hands fumbled with my shirt and for a moment I couldn't figure out what he was trying to do. I couldn't move it was like my body shut down on me and instead of being involved in this I felt like I was watching from the sidelines. It wasn't until I heard the ripping sound of my shirt did I snap out of my daze and start to fight back.
I struggled against his hold, screaming at the top of my lungs until he clamped down his hot and sweaty hand onto my mouth. I managed to lock his finger in my teeth and bite down as hard as I could tasting the metallic, salty taste of his blood in my mouth.
"Ahh! You bitch!" He yelled, moving his hand away and pushing me away from him.
I saw him raise his other hand but suddenly it wasn't there. It wasn't until I felt the stinging on my cheek and my head forced to the other side did I realize he had slapped me.
"You fucking slut." He hissed, slapping me again.
With the force of the hit I was immediately dropped to the ground, hitting my head on the pavement. "I ought to fucking kill you." He yelled, kicking me in my stomach and causing me to curl in on myself to protect myself the best I could.
I took a deep breath in again and screamed as loud as I could just praying, that someone would hear me. My scream was short lived though as he delivered another swift kick to my ribs effectively cutting off my scream.
"What the hell is going on?" I heard someone ask.
I barely registered footsteps running in all directions around me. The only thing that I did realize was that creepy-stalker guy was no longer hitting me. Instead of lifting my head I kept myself, on the ground not sure that I could even move or if there was even anyone around. Pain was coursing through my body and I just wanted to sleep. I wanted to submit to the darkness that was threatening to take over.
"Miss, can you hear me?"
I felt something poking at my head.
"Wake up for me Miss, help is on the way."
Who was talking? And why was he helping me?
"Just let me sleep." I whispered, not opening my eyes.
"I can't," I heard him say, though he sounded as if he were talking through a tunnel, "You might have a concussion, I need you to stay awake for me."
Those were the last words I heard before the darkness finally pulled me under.
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