I kept walking not caring that i had enter the woods i walked and walked not stoping even though my feet were killing me i finally fell hitting my head on the ground i rolled over and stayed there not caring anymore. My tears had dried out but the feeling of crying hadn't.

I had just spilled my guts to Edward and he had acted like i was talking about a boring tv show!

I lost count of time for a while when i looked at the sky again it was dark and a few stars could be seen through the clouds i was surprise by the sight but i was even more suprise that Alice or the rest hadn't come for me yet. I sight when i realize that they were already here and letting me suffer in peace i turn my head to the right but i didn't see anyone i turn my head to the left and didn't see anyone they must be keeping their distance too.

"you can come out..." i said quietly to whomever had come for me

Of course i didn't hear him/her come so when i saw Rosalie (i wonder how they manage to separate her from the baby?) standing a few feet away from me i had to say i was really surprise i had to laugh this was so ironic they had send the only Cullen who had never liked me to keep me safe!

safe...

The word echo in my head was i really safe anymore? i had the Victoria not to mantion the Voltury the "police" of the vampire wolrd after me not to mention that without Edward's love i really didn't have anything to loose if they killed me so why keep or try to keep myself safe anymore why not be reckless like before with Jake? why not atleast try to forget Edward? he had obviously done a terrific job at forgetting about what we had why couldn't i do that?

Maybe i will go to La Push tomorrow and ride my bike with Jacob or i could finally cliff dive with Embry or Jake or anyone who would do it with me? i wonder if it would be warm enough to do that?...

"why are you laughing?" Rosalie asked frowning slightly

I looked at her then back at the sky. "this may be the first time i see the stars in Forks" i mumble thinking out loud and avoding her question she wouldn't be able to understand so why waist energy trying to make her understand

She frown at my words but didn't say anything. I didn't talk either but Rosalie's next words shocked me even more then i would have expected

"he's lieing to you..." i sat up

"excuse me?"

"Edward... he is lieing to you when he pretendes he doesn't love you...-" she chuckle shaking her head "only you Isabella Swan can be so blind to his emotions its actually sad he loves you but he keeps or tries to keep it from you with pityful attempts"

"i think your the only human in the world dumb enough to belive him"

i shot up "what are you talking about Rosalie?" i asked my voice shaking

she sight rolled her eyes at the sky and mumble something under her breath she then looked at me.

"don't you notice that he can't help himself when you come over how he has to see you even if its through a window? how he gets when your in any little danger even coming from a baby? why do you think he came back when Alice saw you being attacked by Victoria? Alice and Jasper could have handled it Jasper alone could have handled it even considering his amount of control towards humans but oh no! Edward just had to see himself that his love was alright!"

She was crazy sure i was aware that Edward was always there looking down at the mayhem when i came but i hadn't thought much about that actually i had been a little hurt by him keeping his distance and i hadn't really thought about the whole danger thing coming from a baby i just thought that he didn't really like the idea of giving the Voltury another reason to kill all of us! i wasn't his "love" anymore or else he wouldn't be treating me this way...

She waited for me to say something but i couldn't she frown

"you seriously didn't notice?"

i slowly shook my head

She sight and sat down on top on a boulder she patted the place next to her i walked over and sat down surprise at her friendliness.

"when Edward saw how much danger he was putting you in by taking you in to our world he...he freaked and asked well order us to start packing his exact words were 'i am done putting Bella in danger' Alice Esme and even Jasper tried to changed his mind i actually understood him you were always pressuring him to turn you in to a vampire and so was his entire family except for me... you don't... can't really understand

how much pain you put him trough when he left you he couldn't stand being close to anyone i have to admitt we didn't make it any easier we tried to pretend like nothing had change like everything was like it used to be he got tired of it and left us he started tracking Victoria i think it made him feel better that he was atleast doing something to protect you without him actually having to be near you then he came on his monthly visits and Alice had a vision of you and Victoria they rushed to Forks and well you know the rest"

her voice was full of hatred i really couldn't handle it.

"Rosalie why do you hate me so much?" i had to know what did i ever do to her that made her hate me!

"Hate? i don't hate you... i don't particularly like you but... you have a choice Bella i didn't... none of us did... you have a choice and your choosing wrong!." i flinched

"i don't have a choice anymore Rosalie don't forget that" i said through my teeth

"and who's fault is that? YOURS! you could have walked away Bella you could have said no to Edward...to us...haven't you even heard a person say 'thanks but not thanks' whats wrong with saying that! but NO its always 'whatever you say Edward' with you isn't it?"

i couldn't say anything to that. it is true that i never did anything that might anger Edward except for hanging out with werewolves and i had stop doing that recently was it true then? was what Rosalie saying the truth?

"don't be such a hypocrite Rosalie" i whispered it was my turn now...

"you say i do anything Edward wants me to do well look at yourself before you go and judge people!" i growled at her "how can you say that i pressure Edward in to making me a vampire when you MADE Carisle turn Emmett you didn't even give Carisle an option you just order him around like it was the easiest thing!"

"it was the hardest thing i have ever done Bella!"

"don't you think that choosing to become a vampire hasn't been hard? i had chosen to be in your family yet HE decided to run away how the hell am i suppose to believe you when you say he loves me when he did that? i loved him i still do..."

"but?" she said quietly

"but things change OK maybe he did leave to keep me safe but maybe his feeling towards me changed on the process" she shook her head and picked me up starting to run it took us a few second to reached my house she put me down on the edge of the Charlie's lawn i turn and started walking away

"Bella?" i turn unwillingly towards her

"just remember this vampires are like rocks when we change any kind of change physical or... emotional we can't just stop or erase those feelings or emotions Bella so either Edward still loves you or he lied to you all this time" she disappeared then.

I walked into the house in a trance i didn't notice Charlie watching a game i was like a zombie i took a shower and brushed my teeth i walked towards my room...open the door... and froze.

"what are you doing here?" i hissed