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"Bella we can figure something out but please stop going along with this insanity" Edward begged i took a deep breath "its not a sharade Edward i want to go" Edward shook his head glaring "no you dont you will be surrounded by monsters you wouldnt be safe Bella" he said his voice was fierce i could see in his eyes he wasnt going to let me go i frown knowing i wasnt going to just hurt Edward and myself but i was going to hurt the rest of the Cullens too

i tilted my head to the side keeping in check of the emtoions i displayed on my face

"whats the difference then between being with the Voltury and being with you Edward? I'm not safe here surrounded by monsters either" i said i tried not to show how much of a lie this was for years he had been telling me he was a monster that his family were monsters but ofcourse i would never hear of it the Cullens werent mosters it hurt and pained me to have to called them that

He suddently smiled but it was a twisted kind of smile the one you saw someone who had gone crazy... "finally you admitted it... tell me Bella what does it feel like to love a monster a creature who has killed time and time again?" he asked i frown hating how much ai was hurting him hating how much he loath himself

"i wouldnt know" i whispered... his twisted smile widen... "i always asked myself how someone like you-" suddently he was infront of me caresing my cheek "someone who was selfless smart beutifule sweet...warm could love someone like me" the smile dissapered abd he took a step back

"i guess by pretending... Did you really want immortality that bad Isabella did you really want to live forever that you would be willing to make a vampire fall for you?" i nodded once

He started clapping

"WELL CONGRATULATIONS you have achived you goal you will be a vampire by the end of the week by my estimates" he frown now thoughtful "you know your a better actress then Alice ever gave you credit for but tell me something how did you get past Jasper he seem to think you were inlove with me"

I open my mouth then closed it not knowing what to say i frown

think Bella think!

"evertime i was with you and he was around i would think of how my life would be when i was immortal i think that was enough happiness to convised him" he smiled once again but i could see the pain in his eyes he was beliving me he really was i wonder if he suffered has much when he left me...

"nice work i have to say im impressed you achived what no other human ever done before... you broke a dead heart" i took a deep breath trying to calm myself down he was infront of me again he gently touched my lips with the tips of his fingers i tried to not show any kind of emotion "you broke the heart of a vampire...you broke my heart" he dissapered then i felt the world press against me but i had to keep the facade the Cullens were outside with Jane Alec and Felix i walked out and looked at Jane

"im ready to go" she nodded smiling i wanted to punched that little smirked right off her face but i was still human i would deal with Jane when my heart was no longer beating

"you BITCH your will pay for this you will pay for hurting my brother this way!" Alice's shouts mixed with her sobbes and Esme;s filled my head...

"I knew you were a worthless piece of nothing" Rosalie said through her teeth i smiled she was right she was more right about me then anyone has ever been

"i know i am Rosalie goodbye" i said my voice craking i turned a tear fell down my cheek i could feel it i was loosing my mask Jane could see it too she picked me up and i felt the wind rushed against my cheeck just in time for me to passed out

I was thankful for the numbness that surrounded me thanks to the darkness i could escape to a worl where i hadnt destroid my happiness

A world where i was dead instead of being taken away from her love

A world where i was with my love my Edward once again...

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