Zidane's Pov

He was lying underneath me looking vulnerable and yet, strangely enough, still strong. His blush is so… suggestive looking, I couldn't help it, I just had to smirk. I've loved this guy since kindergarten and that's an accomplishment. My eyes would stray from time to time but he'd always force them to land back on him.

I watched him nervously take a deep breath and soon we were kissing again. It was deep and completely and totally sweet just like I'd always imagined. When we were done I watched his eyes become slightly dazed as I could practically see all the thoughts he was currently having, Tidus is always overanalyzing things. It's going to kill him eventually but that's okay.

I'll be waiting at the end for him so that we can be together once more.

I love Tidus, I really do. I've always been impressed with him and how he can go off and accomplish his dream. I was there the day he beat his father and was the one he came to when he wanted to discuss his doubts with someone. Even when he hooked up with Yuna he still kept me close.

"Tidus." I whispered in his ear. He looked up at me and I saw that his eyes looked a bit watery. This isn't something he should be so nervous about. I'm good at this sort of thing. The only people I've ever had sex with were the best so I could learn from them and be good enough for Tidus. It's okay since he's new at sex in general, or at least… sex with men.

I doubt I was ever his best friend, but at the same time I don't want to be. If I was then this would be harder and he may not even be here with me tonight. Being his best friend would ruin my life, especially since this is my one chance to make him love me.

He frowned and started to squirm making me take hold of his wrists and place them above his head that way he could just let me take control of the situation. I kissed him deeply wanting to impress him with all the skills I have. When I opened my eyes his were tightly shut.

"Is this your first?" I whispered and flashed him an arrogant smile. He nodded making me laugh and kiss him once again, I love kissing Tidus, it's the best drug in the world. I started to undo his shirt and watched his eyes widen. Sorry but I'm not going to become bottom to you, not when I've loved Tidus much more than he's liked me… if he ever has.

"Please…" Tidus pleaded making me stare. Does he want me to hurry up already? We haven't done anything yet, or at least, not much. I watched him close his eyes and turn his head away. What's wrong with him right now? Too drunk? I smirked and began to grind against him ready to take the man in and keep him all to myself. This is my man, I've loved him for too long to let this be the end.

"Zidane please…" The boy whispered once again making my eyes widen. Wait… this isn't- He was lying on the bed in only his boxers, whimpering lightly beneath me. I think I screwed up. He broke his hands free and placed a hand on my cheek. Kissing my forehead he then whispered, "I'm sorry I just can't do this right now." That's when he gathered his things and left leaving me sitting down on the bed with tears trailing down my face.

He never noticed how much I care about him, but that's okay. I should have known as much and shouldn't have expected everything I did. Tidus isn't mine and I should never have pretended he was. In the end I was the fool, I was the one robbed and conned in this act. Tidus stole my heart and had me think I loved him. Accident or not… I've been bested and I don't know how I'm going to deal with that.

I guess I'm just not good enough for the star.