This Chapter is going to change from Bella's perspective to Edward's I'm sorry if that is harder to read or if some of you don't like it but this is necessary.

(BPOV)

"Edward?" i breath. This couldn't be happening! I was sure that the Cullens wouldn't be here or anywhere near Forks. Yet here he stood a couple of feet away from me looking at me with the darkest eyes i had ever seen. I also noticed the dark bruises under his eyes. He took a small step towards me. I took a step away.

He couldn't come anywhere near me. If he did he would use that against me. He would probably want to make me pay for hurting him and his family. He probably didn't even love me anymore.

"Bella" he said in a quiet voice. Even though his voice was quiet has a whisper it almost crumble me in pain. His voice held all the hurt i had caused him. I suddenly wonder if he would tear me to pieces and burn me. That would be better then seeing him this way.

"we need to talk" His voice was even but somehow still showed all the pain and hurt.

"there is nothing to talk about" i said harshly. I hated myself for talking to him like this but if he ever found out about my lie it would not only mean the end for him but for the rest of the Cullens as well. I just couldn't let that happen.

"yes there is" he snap

His eyes were wide and his nostrils flared its then that i noticed how weak he looked. I looked at him from head to toe. He hadn't hunted in a while i could see that. However there was more... it looked like it took most of his energy to even stand up!

"When is the last time you hunted?" i asked trying to not show my anger at him. How dare he? I had gone through hell so he wouldn't be killed yet here he was probably starving himself!

"that's not important" he said after a minute confused at my change of subject.

"It isn't important?" i asked shaking with anger "i didn't-" i froze i was about to say i didn't lie to save you and your family so you could starve yourself to dead (if that was possible for a vampire)

"you didn't what Bella?" i glared at him

"this conversation is over" i hissed turning around. My body and heart however told me to run into his arms and kiss him like i imagine doing so many times before.

"not until you tell me the truth" his words made me freeze where i was. I turn to him. Did he know? How would he? Was this the reason he was here? To tell me he knew of my lie?

"i don't know what your talking about" i whispered afraid he would laugh and tell me i didn't have to pretend anymore.

"I want to know the truth Bella...everything... no more lies no more excuses" he said through his teeth.

"you want to know the truth?" i asked taking a step towards him

"yes" he answer slowly

"then here it is... I used you and I'm sorry for that. I realize now that it was wrong. I never realized how much your family would hurt over my lie. I'm sorry if i hurt you but i wanted... needed to become a vampire... When i met you i knew that you were different... and i wanted that difference"

I had no idea where this was coming from. Did i want his forgiveness without having to tell the complete truth? Was this what i wanted?...

YES!i thought suddenly

"w-what?" Edward stutter. I ignored his question and kept on talking.

"Once i knew that you were a vampire i wanted it. You have no idea how much Edward but i knew that you weren't just going to give it to me! So i did what i had to do to get it."

Some of this was true. I knew the minute that i discovered that he was a vampire that i couldn't live without him. I needed to become a vampire to be with him. I knew his hesitation to turning me so i sometimes pressure him into giving it to me. I also didn't realize how much i would hurt the Cullens. Yes i knew i was hurting them but i always thought they would get over me and realize i wasn't worth their pain. And also i was sorry i was the cause for his family's pain.

"Is that the truth?" He asked not looking at me.

"yes" i said with a nod. He closed his eyes and nodded. When he open them there was nothing but grief in them.

"I understand but can i ask you one more question?"

"of course" the words left my mouth before i could even think about it.

"when we met did you ever feel anything towards me anything at all?"

I had to think about this. If i said yes then i had no idea what his reaction would be. If i said no then i would be hurting him even worst. It seem i was going to have to find the middle ground with this.

"There were...times...were i thought i did...but i was never sure..." i said trying to not say a complete yes or no. He nodded once and some of the grief left his eyes. I wonder if that was a good thing?

"Then tell me something Bella...would you have loved me if i wasn't a vampire?"

"probably" my hand shot to my mouth. What had i just done?... I hadn't even thought about it. The answer just flew out of my stupid lips!.

Edward seem to be in shock at my answer.

"I'm sorry" i said not able to think of anything else smart enough. He shook his head slowly.

"its OK you were only saying what you thought. There is nothing wrong with that" he said waving his hand dismissively. "i understand Bella" He finish with a sad smile.

"good bye" he whispered turning away from me. He started walking away toward the entrance.

"we could be friends!" I blurted out. I closed my eyes. Seriously Bella? Friends? Was today Bella Wouldn't Use Her Brain day? I open my eyes to see Edward staring at me with widen eyes my gaping. He was frozen where he stood. I walked towards him.

"Edward i may not feel the same way you do but...that doesn't mean we can't be friend...if you would like" I whispered. In truth this was the perfect excuse to be near him and talk to him without putting him in danger. This was perfect! Just as long as Aro didn't find out or freak when when he does.

"are you sure about that?" he asked through tight lips. I frown maybe this wasn't a good idea. Maybe he didn't want to be my friend. I had hurt him.

"yes" i answer anyways. He closed his eyes and took a deep breath. He open them in time for his phone to start ringing. He look at it and then send the call to voice-mail.

"then yes if its OK with you i would love to be your friend." he said smiling though it didn't reach his eyes. I smiled too a real smile this time. Though i dout it reached my eyes either. He frown and looked back to where i had been standing.

"I'm sorry about your dad" he whispered after a minute. That instantly erased my smile.

"you not the only one" i said through the lump in my throat. "do you know what happen to him?" i asked after a moment of silence. He took a deep breath.

"i heard from Alice that after giving up on your return he fell ill and died a few weeks afterwards."

A sob broke through my lips. I closed my eyes willing myself to control my emotions better. Edward's phone rang again.

"who is calling you?" i asked trying to get the attention away from myself and my lost. Edward frown sending the call to voice-mail again.

"Emmett a moment ago and Rosalie right now" he said quickly. He put the phone away and return to looking at me. I stiffen when i remember Jacob. He must still be looking for me. We had to move he could be close. I looked around to make sure but didn't see anything.

"what is it?" Edward asked looking around too. I shook my head.

"nothing but we should leave we don't want to catch anyone's attention. Not all the people that knew me are dead" He nodded and we walked towards the woods. His phone started ringing again. He send it to voice-mail and frown annoyed.

"you should answer it what if its an emergency" i said my eyes wondering everywhere. I was on alert i knew that if Jake found me with Edward and saw me as a vampire he would assume Edward had change me. That would mean Edward had broken the treaty and Jake was free to attack him. As soon as i spoke the phone started ringing again.

We had just exited the woods and were where i had parked my car. Edward followed my advised and flipped the phone open.

"hello" he answer annoyed. Not a moment later his eyes were wide and his nostrils flared. I knew it was not my business so in a flash i was standing besides the car with the door open. Edward's eyes snapped towards me. He took a step towards me but i held up my hand up stopping him.

"go with your family Edward...we'll see each other again soon...good bye" i said climbing in my car and speeding away from my love.

(EPOV)

Stupid phone! why hadn't i left it home? It was ruining my time with Bella...my friend. I had to admit that accepting her friendship was a good and bad thing. On the good side i got to be around her and talk to her. On the other side I had to be around her and not attack her lips. The pain atleastwas better it was manageable. We walked a few minutes. It was hard though, my strength wasn't the best because of how long i hadn't hunted. I was afraid to mention this and Bella leave me to hunt. Of course i had noticed her golden eyes.

I was just too afraid to ask her about them. Was she still the same girl that hated to hurt others. Is this why she hunted animals and not humans. Yes i knew that was the reason. My head didn't have a hard time finding an answer to that question.

My phone started ringing again.

"you should answer it what if its an emergency?" Bella spoke quietly in her musical voice. Her eyes were everywhere. It was like she was looking for something... I flipped the cell phone open and answer it with a harsh hello. I swear if this was a stupid joke from Emmett i was going to make him regret it!

"Edward its about fucking time you answer the stupid phone" Emmett growled at the other end. My eyes widen something was wrong i could hear it in his voice.

My eyes snapped to Bella by a car. I didn't even noticed the step i took until she held up her hand.

"go with your family Edward we'll see each other soon good bye" with that she got in her car and left. My eyes stared after her. Emmett's growls however brought him to my attention.

"Edward! i swear if you don't answer me i will stop thinking of you as my brother and rip you to shreds!" he threaten.

"Calm down Emmett" i said through my teeth. How dare he growled at me when he caused me my time with Bella!

"Don't you dare fucking tell me to calm down! My little girl is missing and you expect me to calm down?" He hissed. I froze.

"Bree is missing?" i asked stun.

"yes she is... Edward get your ass down here and come help us Alice's visions are no use because she can't see Bree. Jasper is everywhere trying to find out if any of his friends have seen her but his got nothing. Rosalie is a complete mess and i can't leave to look for my girl because Rosalie needs me"

"I'll be right there Emmett but i need to hunt first i need my strength back-"

"i know! just do it quick or else i will come get you got it?" he snapped

"yes i will be right there by sun rise tomorrow" i promise.

"you better" he whispered. I could almost see Emmett loosing his anger and goint into panic mode.

"i will just stay with Rosalie" i said as i took off running.

"i will" he whispered again. "and Edward?"

"yes Emmett" i said as i caught the scent of a deer.

"nice to have you back" he said befor he hung up. I almost smile. Yes i was back... I was back and ready to face on whatever life threw at me.

OK i am happy about this chapter i want to thank (((((Rozey113)))) for giving me the idea of Bella asking for forgiveness! You Rock!

I would have loved for Edward to push Bella into telling him the whole truth but sadly something needs to happen before that...

Can you guess what?

Here is a hint "BREE" and here is another longer hint "Bella's deal with Aro" Hope you like those hints cause that is all your getting till i post the next chapter!

If anyone has ideas tell me about them i always try to put them somehow on the story.

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