A/N: Hey, 'sup, reader? Thanks for all the reviews eveyone. I'm glad to see that you like the fic. Note to Kokyou Konran, sorry. one-sided 1859 because I already wrote this scene & I love it xD sorry. I'll try to add in some non-one-sided 1859 stuff later after I add in this crap I'm gonna have happen w/Gamma becuase needs more GammaGoku love. And eventually along w/that will come 8059, sooo... it'll just be an all-out three-way battle for Gokudera? Yeah, more Tsuna-loving will happen as well. What else...? Oh yeah, any questions, just ask and I'll clarify what you want to understand about the madararui world :)

WARNING: 1859-almost-rape xD

Story Thus Far: Tsuna finds out from a man named Reborn that the Vongola, a mafia familglia, wants him as their tenth boss because he is a Returner's to Ancestry. He also finds out the boss of an ally famiglia, the Cavallone, wants to impregnate him in order to save his dying species. Added onto this horrendous stream of information is the fact that Tsuna must pass tests in order to be officially accepted into the madararui world and keep himself from being taken by the government. Meanwhile, Lambo reveals some secrets to Gokudera, hurting his feelings and causing him to run off after beating on Lambo. The silver cat then finds himself stuck in a room with the black panther, the Disciplinary Committee leader, Hibari Kyoya…

Hibari had him pinned down against the back of the closed office door in a matter of seconds. Gokudera's legs felt numb, but he knew they were trembling. His hands were scratching furiously on the wood behind him and his jaw was clenched because of the rush of emotions the boy was feeling.

"What brings you to my territory, housecat?" Hibari asked with a cocky smirk that really made Gokudera want to punch the boy in the face.

"I-I," Gokudera stammered. Damn, he was embarrassed that he was terrified to the point of losing his voice. "I d-didn't mean to…" His voice trailed off.

"Is it possible that my aroma led you here?" Hibari asked. "It'd only be natural for you to be aroused by the scent of a Nekomata stronger than yourself."

It was at the moment when the intoxicating fragrance drifted into Gokudera's nose. No! he told himself. This guy is…

"Can you smell it?" Hibari chuckled.

Gokudera's face heated up and so did another part of him. His hands flew to his inner thigh as he tried to cover up his growing erection.

"You're a light-seed, right?" Hibari asked, though it was more of a reminder than a question. "Then you should be thankful that a heavy-seed like myself would take a liking to you."

Gokudera was now shivering with desire rather than fear.

Hibari stroked Gokudera's cheek making the boy flinch, then said, "A fertile light-seed like you would be perfect to have my children. Light-seeds are usually weak and often face problems giving birth, especially males, but I think you might be much stronger than any of your kind that I've met."

Gokudera's eyes shot wide open. "N-No! D-Don't touch me!"

Hibari let out a slight snicker before returning his expression to his usual discontented, blank look. "Of course, I'm not going to impregnate you right now, but you really have got me going." He kissed the top of Gokudera's forehead while his hand crawled underneath the other student's shirt. "I think I want to hear you purr."

Gokudera twitched as Hibari freely touched his body, playing with his nipples and kissing his neck. He hated himself for mewing and moaning. It was when Hibari bit at his neck that he decided he had to fight back and with all his might, he scratched at his attacker's face.

Crash! Gokudera was pushed onto the Hibari's desk, hands restrained above his head and shirt missing. Hibari was glaring down at him fiercely with his cheek bleeding from three thin lines.

"You must be out of your mind." He hissed.

Gokudera hated himself even more for crying. He was so scared. He was so helpless. He wanted to die rather than be raped by this guy. He couldn't stand the fact that all he could do was cry.

It was a swift punch that sent Hibari off of Gokudera and against a wall. The black panther immediately went into a battle position after colliding into the wall. "You…!" He growled.

Yamamoto rubbed his fist, laughing. "Ow, that kind of hurt!"

Gokudera ran to Yamamoto without thinking and hid behind him.

"Are you alright?" Tsuna asked Gokudera from the doorway. "Come this way."

Gokudera did as he was told with tears still gathering in his eyes. Together, the two crept away from view.

Hibari's tonfa came surging down about to connect with Yamamoto's head, but was stopped when Ryohei grabbed onto it.

"I'm your opponent too!" The boxer announced.

Hibari smirked and yanked his tonfa away from Ryohei's grasp. "Before I wasn't in the mood to deal with the both of you, but now I can't think of anything better to do."

The tears plopped down naturally. As Tsuna held Gokudera's hand and led him somewhere private so that they could talk, Gokudera didn't let out weeps or have snot dripping from his nose or anything. Silently, the tears just fell from his eyes. He was crying from humiliation. The lingering intense sensation of fear. The ardent fury. But mostly the humiliation.

"It's all right now. You're safe." Tsuna said. "No need to—"

"Why are you doing this?" Gokudera muttered.

"Huh?"

"Why?" The silver-haired student screamed. "Are you trying to make a fool of me? Is seeing me like this fun for you? Is that why you helped me, the one who hates you more than anyone?"

Tsuna smiled softly. "I can't just let someone go on suffering the way you are. It'd be inhumane."

"Inhuma… what kind of sick joke are you trying to play? Why won't you leave me alone?"

"Gokudera-kun, your heart is ill." Tsuna's eyelids drooped and so did the tone of his voice. "You hate without fully knowing why and you get so angry because you don't know what else to do. You get confused and scared when people are kind to you and hate the idea of depending on others. What's wrong? Maybe I can help—"

"Help me?" Gokudera snorted. "You are an idiot! There's nothing you can do to help me other than die! You thinking you could help is the most ignorant thing I've ever heard! Just stay out of my business and next time you see me getting assaulted, leave it! I don't need you to rescue me, I can handle myself! And later on don't try to act like I'm in your debt or something, 'cause I'm not!"

"Stop that!" Tsuna said. "You're being unfair to yourself by keeping the burdens of life inside. Unfair to others too when they have to put up with your incessant anger! If you let people know what's wrong and allow them to comfort you then things won't be so bad!"

"I'm not going to listen to you preach to me!" Gokudera roared, heading for the door to the room.

"Fine! But next time you feel unhappy, know that you only have yourself to blame!"

Gokudera paused with his hand on the doorknob and scoffed. He was about to open it up, but he could hear a voice outside.

"Gokudera!" Lambo called out into the halls. "Gokudera, where are you?"

The silver-haired boy gulped and kept himself from opening the door.

"Why aren't you leaving?" Tsuna asked. Gokudera gnashed his teeth and Tsuna understood. "This is what I'm talking about, Gokudera-kun. You don't want to be found by Lambo and have to see the wounds you gave him earlier. The wounds that are physical manifestation of your pent-up anger. You also don't want to tell him what just happened with Hibari. Not just because you're mortified, but you don't want to make him worry."

Gokudera fell to his knees, feeling a bit defeated. How did this guy see right through him?

Tsuna went on. "Though you put up a tough exterior, you're really kind, Gokudera-kun. I understand why you don't want to make others suffer by troubling them with your pains, but it's even more problematic if you keep them to yourself."

One sob came from Gokudera's mouth. Then another. And another. Until he was crying freely and openly with Tsuna there to comfort him.

After that, Gokudera poured his heart out. Telling Tsuna of his past, present, and future. Tsuna learned that Gokudera's dad was a very rich married mafia man who met Gokudera's mom and fell in love. His mom had him and they had to claim that he was the son of his father's wife since an illegitimate child would be seen as a stain on the purity of the family. As a kid Gokudera was allowed to see his mom three times a year, but one day on her way to see him, her car ran off a cliff and killed her. Gokudera didn't know what had really happened until when he was ten and heard maids laughing that the "accident" was actually a murder in order to get rid of his "bothersome" mother, his father's mistress. This happened on anniversary of his mother's death.

Gokudera ran away after that and found himself left out on the streets of Rome for some time until he was picked up by Dino. Dino trained and involved him in mafia-related things then presented him to the ninth boss of the Vongola as a candidate to be the tenth boss. He did this because Gokudera showed potential, passion for everything mafia-related, and the boy needed purpose. The one thing that Gokudera had been searching for on the roads of Rome was a meaning for his little life and The Ninth and Dino seemed eager to give it to him. After all, only a Nekomata or Returners to Ancestry with Nekomata lineage was accepted to be boss of the Vongola.

Gokudera and The Ninth's adopted son were the two candidates. Had the Ninth's son been biological, the boy would've automatically become the boss, but because he was not he was only a candidate. The Ninth's son and Gokudera had also come to the silent agreement that no matter which became boss, the other would be the right-hand man since being a candidate for the boss meant you were more than capable for being the right-hand. But then they found out that there's a retrograde with Nekomata heritage and then there was the rule that had overridden both candidates. Returners to Ancestry were first priority. They are destined to become the Vongola Boss before any others. Having his purpose taken away, Gokudera agreed to come to Japan with Dino in hopes of killing Tsuna and still being able to become the Vongola Boss.

"Wh…whoa," Tsuna grumbled to himself. "That's an intense story, I'm not sure I can…"

"You stole away my purpose and that's why I hated you so much, but I couldn't…" Gokudera's fist clenched.

Tsuna's eyes softened and he rubbed Gokudera's back. "You're not a bad person, Gokudera-kun. Of course you couldn't kill me."

"Dammit…" Gokudera muttered. "Everything that meant anything to me is gone. I even find out that the people who picked me from the streets have been lying to me all this time. I should've known I didn't have any real family."

"Gokudera-kun…" Tsuna bit his lip, wishing he had the words to say. Maybe Gokudera was right about him not being able to help. Tsuna couldn't relate or give him any advice. He didn't know what to do, then it hit him. "You made a promise with the ninth boss's son, right?"

"S-Sorta…"

"Make it with me now! I promise you, Gokudera-kun, that I will become the tenth boss of the Vongola and you will be my right-hand man! I swear!"

"Huh?"

"I definitely can't let you go on feeling that your life has no meaning. And I can't let you go on thinking you don't have any family so if you're the right-hand of a mafia boss, then won't you have both?"

Gokudera's eye shimmered as he stared up at Tsuna. "You…"

Tsuna stuck out his hand for Gokudera to shake it. "Promise? Promise me you'll become my right-hand man?"

Gokudera wrapped his arms around Tsuna's neck in a gracious hug. "Thank you so much… Tenth!"

"Huh, Tenth? I hope you calling me that was a one-time thing!"

"Tenth! Tenth! Tenth!"

Finally. I kind of dislike a Gokudera that hates Tsuna. It's just not a Gokudera if it hates Tsuna. :(