I was born about 600 years ago. I lived in a small village at north. The village had separated itself from all the other youkais, so all there was ice-youkai. We were so isolated that we had no idea what was going on at the rest of the world.

I don´t even remember when I was born or who my parents were, as long as I remember I have always been alone. I lived always alone, bullied by everyone else, but still I didn´t complain, maybe because I didn´t know about anything better.

Then one day, some other youkais attacked the village hoping that there would be some strong youkais who would join their army. But our villagers were pretty hard headed so they just said no. The youkais left but after three days they came back and executed every last youkai. I was trying to stay hidden from them, but of course they found me.

"Boss! Look we got ourselves a coward!" One of the soldiers yelled as he pulled me from my hair.

"Well look at that!" The boss was big and he had a cruel face. He lifted me up with his hand.

"Do you wanna die, little girl?" He asked from me and his men started to laugh. I didn´t say anything and just kept my look at the ground.

"Are you listening to me?" He yelled to me and hit me to face and threw me to the ground.

"Huh, just kill her", he just said and walked away. Then something snapped inside my head. After that I don´t remember much, but when I came to everything around me was destroyed. I somehow realized that I was behind it, and started to shake from fear.

After a while some travelling youkais came and they took me with them. I lived quite a long time with them. They didn´t treat me badly but they kept their distance and treated me like an outsider, but they gave me food and clothes so that was okay. They were also from small village, but they said that they had an alliance with the Nura clan

I lived with them almost six years, when the Isana of the North came. I was then only 14-years old. Isana just came there to kill everyone, I didn't understand why. Then they found me and were about to kill me, but this time I was prepared and attacked them. I defeated them in a blink of an eye and Isana noticed my powers and approached me.

"So you are the child who destroyed the winter village, at north, aren't you?" she asked from me. She told me all about how she had been looking for me all this time. She told me that she was also from Ice clan, and that she wanted my powers. I was young and naïve, so I followed her obediently and went to work under her.

Soon I realized what her true nature was. She started to teach all kinds of different techniques and combat moves, and soon there was no one who could beat me. Then she put me on dangerous missions to kill anyone who opposed her. When I succeed she just gave me a new mission, but if I failed she punished me by almost killing me, even though I was much stronger than her and could have easily killed her. But I thought what good would that too, and then I would be alone, again. So far she was only who had not abandoned me.

So I just kept on working under her without thinking who I killed and why. Soon I realized that I had become completely emotionless. But then I met your grandfather. I didn´t think anything but just killing him, but then I saw his subordinates his Night Parade, and I envied him. He had people who would die for him and he would die for them. I let him live and just walked away, which I had never done before.

Of course when I came back Isana yelled at me and punished me severely. Out of pain and sorrow I left and ran until I couldn't move because of the wounds. I changed into my other form, which was exactly me, although many years younger. Then I sat to the ground and started crying. It started raining and the water made the wounds hurt even more.

I sat there long time crying about my life. Then suddenly the rain stopped and I lifted my face. It was Setsura, holding an umbrella on top of my head

"Why are you sitting here all alone", she just asked me with so gentle voice.

"Come I´ll give you something dry to wear, if you stay like that you´ll get a cold", she said and held out her hand. I reluctantly took her hand and she pulled me up. After that I didn't go back to Isana.

Setsura was so kind to me. She wasn´t mean, she loved and protected me. I was happy for many years with her. But it didn´t last long, soon Isana´s subordinates found us. And as expected Setsura protected me, but even though she was strong there was too many of them and they soon defeated her. Then they took me and got ready to kill her. But even though she knew they were going to kill her, she just looked at me and held out her hand.

"Run!" She said to me and then went berserk. I changed back to my original form and defeated all of them in a single blow, then I took Setsura and escaped.

After that I was sure that she would hate me and abandon me.

"So now you know, about me. And who I really am", I said to her with tears in my eyes.

"You don´t have to worry, when I leave you they will stop hunting you and…" I started explaining to her and I was sure that she would soon get mad and yell at me, but then she suddenly hugged me.

"All these years, why didn´t you tell me anything…" she said with sad voice.

"You could have allowed me to share some of your pain, cause that´s what parents do for their children", she said and I looked at her face, she was smiling to me. And without even noticing I turned back to my child form and started crying in her arms. She hugged me even tighter.

"Poor child, what kind of world made you like this?" She asked, but I knew she didn´t ask it from me. We sat there for a long time without movin.

But both of us knew, that Isana would come after us again. Setsura decided pay a visit to her old friend, Nura Nurarihyo. When we arrived at his home the atmosphere was very weird, everyone felt very awkward around Setsura I could tell. But Nurarihyo just looked at Setsura with dumb eyes.

"So, you have returned?" Nurarihyo asked.

"Not really, there´s just a favour I would like to ask from you", Setsura said with cold voice.

"Fine let´s hear it", Nurarihyo said and was turning around when he saw me. He was very surprised and looked then at Setsura.

"Is she yours?" He asked very surprised. I looked at her also, Setsura nodded very proudly and said.

"Yes, she is mine", she said and I felt her squeezing my hand tighter.

"Okay", he just said and started walking inside.

I was left to another room, as the two of them talked. Setsura came soon back and I ran into her arms, she had very sad face.

"What´s wrong?" I asked at her. She just smiled and kissed my forehead.

"Nothing is wrong", she just answered.

At that time I still had no idea what she was planning on doing. But I came clear to me sooner than I had expected.

After we had stayed at the Nura house a little over two months, she came. I and Setsura were sleeping in our room, when we heard a loud explosion. It woke both of us.

"What´s going on?" I asked and hold her hand. She stood up and walked to the door. She looked outside and came back inside.

"Listen to me, stay here no matter what I´ll be soon back", she said kissed my forehead and ran out. I couldn´t move my body was like frozen; I just hid under my quilt and closed my eyes. I don´t know how long I was hiding but eventually Setsura returned and petted my back. I stood up and looked at her, her eyes were filled with tears. I tried to wipe them away, but she stopped me and then hugged me very tightly.

"I wish we would have more time", she said to me and I tried to look into her eyes but her hold was strong.

"What do you mean by that?" I asked and she patted my back slowly up and down.

"I want you to know that no matter what, I love you", she just said with sad voice.Then she pushed me away and looked at my eyes. Her eyes were serious.

"You need to promise me something", she said and I nodded.

"Anything", I said hoping that would make her happier.

"Don´t ever tell who you really are and don´t ever again change to that from again, no matter what, do you understand" she said and hold me tightly with her hands, and she didn´t let go until I nodded. Then she let go and hugged me again, gently.

"I love you, Yuki-Onna", she said and kissed my forehead. Then she stood up and walked to the door.

"Wait!" I yelled and stood up, but she stopped me from going after her.

"No, don´t follow me, I´ll be back", she said without looking me. But I still noticed that she was lying to me.

"Just keep your promise do you understand?" She said and stepped out of the room.

"I love you, mother", I said tears in my eyes. She just rushed out and closed the door. After she had left I fell to the ground on my knees. It was the first and the last time I had called her mother.

Even though I was in my child form, I still had lived over 500 years, so I understood that she was lying to me. I don´t know how long I waited there alone, over six hours, I think. Then someone knocked to the door. I lifted my face hoping Setsura would be there, but it was your grandfather. He walked inside and sat in front of me. His eyes were empty.

"What is it?" I asked and tried to hold my tears.

"Your mother…she´s dead", he just said. I got completely dull and couldn´t move even a muscle. Even though I had anticipated it, it was still a shock and my entire body started to shake. And Nurarihyo noticed it. He put his hand to my shoulder.

"Little one, it´s alright to cry", he said and then I couldn´t hold it anymore, I cried entire night. Knowing that I had once again lost the place to belong…