Chapter 8

In the midst of Jonathon and my conversation, Trey texted me.

"Be ready in 30 minutes."

"…Why?" I asked.

I got no response, so I gave up and began to get ready. Half an hour later Trey showed up at my door.

"Let's go! We got to hurry!" He shouted, dragging me to the car.

"I'm not even gonna ask this time…"

He smiled as he started the car and sped off, "You're learning!"

I let out a small laugh and rolled my eyes. "Is it going to be like this every time? You surprising me with little visits and we go to God knows where and do things that I never thought I'd do before?" I asked sarcastically.

"Yep!" He laughed.

I rolled my eyes and laughed with him. We drove for a while before we got to a beach. I had never been to that beach before, and it was beautiful.

"What are we doing here?" I asked, getting out of the car. I started to walk onto the warm sand. It filled every crevice of my feet as I stepped a long, and it felt nice.

"There was supposed to be a dolphin migration this afternoon, I didn't want to miss it. I thought you'd enjoy it too." He said walking in front of me.

He led me onto the beach and we started by walking along the sand just talking. He continuously would look at his watch, waiting for the dolphins.

As we talked, I thought about Jonathon. Lately we have been drifting apart slowly. I could feel it, and I hated it. Every moment we talked was like precious gold to me; there wasn't ever enough of it, and I never wanted to let go when I got it.

What I also didn't like, was that Trey would make me forget about that. He would sweep me off my feet every time he took me some place new. He was exciting, he was new, he was refreshing, and he surprised me at every turn. I couldn't help but fall head over heels for him.

Don't get me wrong, Jonathon was still #1, but Trey just occupied a special place in my heart. He filled up that emptiness that Jonathon made by leaving for college.

My thoughts were interrupted, "Look!" Trey said, pointing me in the direction of the dolphins.

It was amazing. They skipped along the water like some sort of water ballet. I watched them jump and dive through the ocean when Trey slowly wrapped his arms around me from behind me. I was startled at first, but didn't stop him. He laid his chin my shoulder and we watched the dolphins together.

Thankfully, he brought the blanket again. It was getting cold and we decided to stay and watch the sun set. We laid it down and talked a bit before watching the beautiful scene unfolding before us.

When it began to get dark we laid flat and watched the stars, just like the night before. I began to slowly doze off, and so did Trey.

The next morning I woke up to realize what had happened.

I jumped up and began to race back to the car. Trey got up and chased after me. "Sam! Please! What's wrong! Where are you going?"

I turned to him, "Do you realize what we've done? What about Jonathon!"

"Who's Jonathon?"

"My boyfriend! Remember him? I can't believe I did this… He's never going to forgive me! It's my entire fault…" I said, regretfully.

"He doesn't need to know. I'm sorry, Sam. Please, calm down. Please." He said, grabbing my arm.

I jerked it from him, "Don't. I shouldn't even be here. I shouldn't have fallen asleep here. I should be home, talking with Jonathon."

He stopped chasing after me. I got in the car and sped off, knowing that he would have no way home. I didn't care. I was mad at myself, at him, at the both of us. He never should have taken me here and I never should have let myself fallen asleep with him.

What will Jonathon think? He's going to kill me… I am never going to forgive myself. I have been the worst girlfriend EVER the last couple days.

I knew the right thing to do was to confess to Jonathon. I needed to tell him all that had happened.

Maybe he'll be less angry because I actually told him instead of him finding out… Maybe… Hopefully…

"Babe… I need to tell you something." I typed slowly into my phone, wondering if it was the right choice. I gave in, and sent it to him.

"What's wrong baby?" he replied within seconds.

I held the phone in my shaking hands. I knew he was going to be mad, maybe even leave me.

I love him… I can't lose him…

"Never mind, it's nothing. I miss you." I chickened out. I couldn't find it in myself to tell him. I knew he'd be mad and I didn't want to take the risk of losing him.

"You okay?" He was probably confused. Never was I this guarded from him.

"Yea, I'm okay. I just miss you. I'm going insane without you!" I said, trying to cover the truth. I felt horrible.

He bought into my act and I decided that I would tell him another day. I needed to. It wasn't right for me to be off doing what I did with Trey, when Jonathon was so loyal and true to me.

"Okay, what's your problem? What was that about?" Trey had texted me. He was mad, and I understood why.

"Trey, listen, I'm sorry but I'm just upset about all of this. I felt so bad about what we did when Jonathon is relying on me to stay loyal."

I hope he understands…

"That's fine. I just had to hitchhike home, it was creepy. Some weird truck driver drove me home that had a strange Canadian accent. We're cool though, I understand. It's good that you want to stay faithful."

Thankfully, he recognized my regret and accepted it. I let Trey know that we could still be friends, but we can't do anything like we've done the past couple days. It was wrong, and he agreed.

Over the next week, Trey and I became closer friends, and Jonathon and I talked non-stop. I was in full and complete love with Jonathon. It was amazing and I never wanted it to stop. There was one thing I was afraid of, though.

I still hadn't told Jonathon about all the happenings with Trey at the beach. I was too scared of his reaction. The fact that I might lose him kept the secret safe within me. It caused much strain on me and every time that I would talk to Jonathon, I felt like a deceiving liar.

One day, I couldn't take that feeling any longer. I dialed Jonathon's number, and held the phone up to my ear. I was overcome by anxiety.

"Hello?" He answered.

"Jonathon… I need to tell you something." I said. It took a great effort not to give in to the nerves and hang up.

"What's wrong babe?" he asked with a soothing tone.

"I… I…" I stuttered and stammered.

"C'mon baby, you can tell me anything. You know that!" For once, he was wrong about this.

I hesitated a bit more, but then suddenly confessed "Me and Trey fell asleep together at the beach!"

I felt as if a weight had just been lifted from me. I felt so much freer, and guiltless. I let out a relieved sigh, but realized I hadn't heard anything from Jonathon yet.

"Jonathon? Are you there?" I pulled the phone away from my ear, and looked to see what happened.

He had hung up.