A/N: Here it is kiddies! At long, long last the complete and finale chapter of "Reckless". Dear Chuck, between the plot bunnies seriously not cooperating with me and IRL... I thought I would never ever get this done but as they say never say never. I'd also like to say thank you for all the reviews, alerts and what nots. Come on big fandomly group hug! Oh, and fyi: if anyone is wondering the title came from the Papa Roach song with the same name because I love, love that song!

...So cut me off-throw me down

Cause I'm reckless, goddamn son of a bitch!

I'm reckless

So reckless

God save me from this madness...

-Song: Reckless, By: Papa Roach

Chapter Five

Dean is quiet on the way back from Virginia, a little too quiet for Bobby's liking. Hell, he doesn't even have his music blasting. Something is up and Bobby has a pretty good idea on what's on his mind right now.

Cas.

And he's right.

Dean hasn't stopped thinking about Cas since they left. He doesn't like to leave him even though Sammy is with him. Still, they all can't sit around and play baby sitter to a fallen Angel. There is a world to be saved, monsters to be hunted, and an Apocalypse to be stopped. He's even called several times, but hung up on each one figuring that it probably wasn't a good idea because he knew that somehow or another that he would wind up fighting with either Sam or Cas and that's something that this lot didn't need right now.

"I'm all ears if ya wanna talk 'bout it," Bobby offers.

Then Dean gives him that yeah right look because Dean Winchester isn't the one who feels like sharing his feelings and crying on someone's shoulder. It doesn't help. Bobby knows this but dammit if he doesn't push anyway.

"Maybe we're doin' this all wrong," continues the older hunter.

"What'cha getting at Bobby?"

"I'm jest sayin' the way we're handling Cas, it doesn't feel right to me."

"Yeah cos we're experts on fallen Angels," grunts Dean.

"Which is why I think we should bring in some help."

"Oh, and who would that be?"

Thats when Bobby casts him that look, and all ready Dean is hating it but his mind screaming it.

"Geez Dean-o, no need to yell."

"SHIT!"

Gabriel is sitting in the back, it's all a sudden and it throws Dean off which makes Dean go off the road just a bit.

"I didn't call you." Dean is glaring at him through the review mirror.

Gabriel crosses his arms and smirking. "It's really nice that I'm the first one to think of. Really. Touching."

"Fuck ya Gabriel!" spats Dean. He glares at Bobby because this is all his fault. He was the one who suggested it first.

Gabe puts up a hand. "All in good time," he promises with a wink which only earns him a darker glare from the Winchester from behind the wheel. "And really, no need to point fingers at Bobby. I can hear you a mile away."

This was one of the cons of having dicks on your shoulders. They can peek through your head without warning. That's one thing that Dean hasn't missed about Cas falling. He couldn't read him anymore.

"I might not be able to kill but dammit if I can't toss yer ass out!" Dean warns. He's so not in the mode for Gabriel's mouth. He wants answers. He wants to know how or even if they can save Cas. Dean doesn't want Cas to end up like he did in 2014.

"Is that anyway to treat someone who is trying to help you?"

"I don't need help!" Dean reminds him. "It's yer brother who does!"

Gabriel sighs. "Are you so sure he wants help?"

"What?"

"Look, don't you think if he would have wanted some angelic assistance he would've called?"

Dean laughs. "Ha!"

"Don't be so fast to laugh Dean, you just did."

"Perhaps it has something to do you asshats bein' dicks. Ever think 'bout that?"

"I'll agree with you there, but only on that detail." Gabriel states. Hey, he'll be the first to admit that he has a family of full out dougebags.

"Ya fucks abandoned him when he needed ya most!" Dean continues, his voice raising and his hands clutching even tighter on the wheel because its the only thing from keeping him from turning around to grip his hands around Gabriel's throat.

"You really think I wanted to abandon my brother, because I didn't." Gabriel declares. "It's not easy to find an Angel once they have fallen."

Dean rolls his eyes. "Ya could've guess he was with us!"

Gabriel just smiles at him. "Besides, he won't need my help. He's in good hands all ready."

"Whose?"

"Your brother." And as soon as he came, he's gone again.

Sammy doesn't have Cas at the house. He had to drag his ass out of bed. Dean and Bobby won't make it back for another few hours which is great. It will give him time. There actually on the road in one Bobby's back up vehicles.

Sammy turns up the radio when one of his old favorite songs comes on. "Oh yeah, life goes on. Long after the thrill of living is gone..."

"Oh God, Sam. No. Just no." Cas takes all his will power not to toss himself out of this car. Unlike his big brother Dean, Sammy can't sing at all. Can't carry a tune in a damn bucket, no matter how hard he tries.

Sam laughs. "You don't like my singing?"

"No." Cas can not lie after all even now. "You didn't get me out of bed to toucher me like this did you?"

"Tell me how you truly feel Cas. Geez." Sam says.

Cas groans. "I'm sorry, I have a head ache and you're not helping."

"Whose fault is that?" questions Sammy.

"Mine like everything else is these days."

"Don't do that," Sam warns him. "Don't play the blame game. You're not good at it."

"My apologizes. I haven't mastered it like you two." Cas is thinking of Dean. "However, who knows I might be an excellent player before too long."

Sammy is shaking his head. The sad thing is that if he remains this way, it's a possibility, and he thinks Dean is bad. Cas might win The Blame Game if given the chance. Sam won't let him.

A field familiar pond comes into view. Cas knows this pond like the back of his hand. It's the one that Dean often dreams about. It's located not too far from Bobby's. It's the same pond where Bobby took them fishing when they had time too. All though, Cas doubts Sammy brought him here to take him fishing.

Cas follows Sammy out of the beat up loaner. He figures it's better than getting dragged out.

"I guess you know this place uh?" Sammy asks as he settles himself down on the dock.

Cas gives a swift nod with his head. "You're not going to try to drown me are you?" He's only half way kidding.

"No Cas, I'm not going to drown you." Sammy assures him. "I've just brought you out here because we really haven't talked to you about any of it, on what you're going through."

"You don't have the time," Cas reminds him. "There are more bodies to worry about then this vessel of mine. I understand."

"No excuse, you know you're more to us than a vessel or an Angel right?" Sammy questions. "I know we might not say it a lot but you're our friend Cas. We don't like seeing you like this."

"I don't like it either," Cas confesses. "I don't know how to deal with all these things, you call emotions that are running through me."

"Those are hard to explain," Sam admits. He knows that for a fact. He's only had 20+ years of experience to go on. "Especially when you feel like you're alone."

Sam sounds like he knows what he's speaking of and this has Castiel's attention because even though Cas has Sam and Dean, it's not the same without family.

"I've been there you know, where you are." Sam whispers. It's been years but dammit if it doesn't feel like yesterday right now. "It was right after Jess," And still to this day it's hard for him to speak it because Dean doesn't know about this one. This happened in between times, when Sammy had to play the good boyfriend and linger on for the funeral. Dean was who knows where, and he was alone even though he was surrounded by friends and peers. It was a fire accident sure, that's what every one believed. When it came down to it, it was all Sammy's fault. Why couldn't he have sticked to the original plan and not fall for anyone?

"Samuel, you do not have to-" Cas says but Sammy goes on, as he always does.

"Yes, I do," continues Sam. "I've tried to kill myself before."

This shocks Cas because out of all people Sammy is the least one he would ever thought to do that. Well, before he found out he was Lucy's vessel. Then that subject dawned and Sammy was always suggesting it. Dean wasn't happy about and neither was Cas. As he went on, Cas could understand. Sam didn't finish. He could be through with it all.

"Dad was the one who found me. He was mad as Hell me to. Dammit, you would think he actually cared about me."

"Sam," Cas warns.

"What? All fathers care for their sons, is that it?" asks Sam. "Excuse me for being doubtful Cas, but we don't all have the faith that you have in your dad."

"Then why didn't you...?" Cas trails off.

"After beating the shit out of me, dad reminded me that I did have something to live for. I had friends. Family. He never told Dean."

"I assume you wish that I keep this between us." Cas motions between them.

"Yes, if you don't mind. I would appreciate it." Sam says with a small smile. "The reason why I'm telling you all this Cas, is the same reason dad talked sense, some sense anyway into me. You have reason to live all right. You're not some piss poor excuse of a body or waste you here me?" And Sammy can hear his own father's speech ringing in the back of head. "We wouldn't be here if it wasn't for you Cas. We don't want to leave us like that ever again."

Sam is up and is back in Castiel's personal space. His eyes are dead locked on Cas' blue ones and for once Cas doesn't down cast. Damn Sam Winchester and those puppy dog eyes of his. Cas can fill them burning into him. If he has a soul, Sam found it because he can feel something that he hasn't felt for a long time.

It's forgiveness, love, all wrapped in one, and it scares him. It brings Cas to his knees and he starts to cry. Sammy takes him in his arms and holds him until he lets it all out.

"I'm sorry," he says over and over again.

It breaks Sammy's heart but he doesn't budge. He doesn't go anywhere.

In the distance, Gabriel is watching. Smiling at Sammy for a job well done. Yet, deep down, Gabriel wishes it had been him that Cas had called upon. That was the funny thing though: sometimes the least person you would expect to save you does.

END

A/N: (continued): I had to bring in Gabriel. Damn you, you Arch Angel you! I couldn't leave him out: TEAM FREE LOVE and all. :) Hope the ending is not too corny but I love corny happy endings! They make the world go round!