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Chapter 1

It had been 3 months.

3 months since the accident,

The accident that had taken away the love of my life.

Edward Cullen.

I'd tried to get over it, I really had. But life just seemed to pass by without me.

So after I'd heard things, things which gave me hope. I hadnt been able to sit around wasting my life anymore.

I'd had to try.

So I did.

As I lay here on the ground, I wondered if it had worked. If i'd been stupid to believe such things.

Okay so i'm not making much sense.

Let me try to explain.

It happened a couple of weeks ago.

I was curled up on my bed, hiding from the world, when the bang made me jump.

I sighed and sat up. Looking around the room I couldnt decipher where the noise had come from, until I noticed one of my wardrobe doors open with things spilling out at the bottom.

A box must have fallen from the top shelf.

I groaned and shoved my quilt aside.

I sat on the floor in front of the cupboard and began sorting through the junk that was now all over the place.

It was just random stuff i'd shoved in a box to get it out of the way.

I was putting back a book on myths and legends when a photo fell out.

It was a photo of me and Edward messing around in his back garden.

A tear slipped down my cheek as I looked at our grinning faces.

I shoved the photo in the box, and picked the book up to put back. I looked at the front cover and a vampire stared back at me.

I pushed the book in next to the photo and put the tub back on the top shelf.

I crawled back into my bed and sobbed, thinking about the day that picture had been taken.

I cried myself to sleep and when I woke up a few hours later, all I could think about was the book on myths and legends.

Suddenly I needed to read it.

I slipped out of my comfort zone and walked to the wardrobe to get the book.

Once I was back under the covers, I flicked through it.

I didnt understand why I'd had such an urge to look at it, it was just a load of old rubbish.

I sighed and threw it on the floor, running a hand through my hair.

'Bells!' Charlie called from downstairs. 'Bella!' he called again, knowing I wouldnt answer.

I hadnt spoken to anyone properly in weeks. Just a few grunts and mumbles here and there. Everyone told me it was no good to keep myself locked away, but I didnt care. With Edward gone, there wasnt much I cared about any more.

Charlie had even gone as far as to call a doctor in to try and talk some sense into me. I'd screamed at him that I wasnt sick and told them that all I wanted was people to leave me the fuck alone.

Charlie had stayed out of my way after that, still trying to get me to eat properly and making small talk but he'd stopped trying to get me out of my 'mope', knowing he was wasting his time.

I pulled the cover over my head and ignored him.

'Bella! You need to eat' he was outside my door now.

'Go away' I mumbled.

'Bella' he sighed. 'You cant go on like this'

'Your right there dad' I whispered to myself.

'I'll leave your dinner here, please just try to eat something Bella' he said gently before going back downstairs.

I decided to try to co-operate and pulled in the tray of lasagne and milk before locking my door again.

I walked back to my bed and nearly tripped over the book i'd discarded earlier. I went to pick it up when I noticed the page it had landed open on.

Immortality.

I shoved the food aside and sat cross-legged on the floor with the book in front of me.

I read through some passages.

Immortality can be given in many ways. Of course there are some of the more obvious ways, like being bitten by a vampire and forever living on blood.

I knew this was all a load of rubbish, but I felt something, something that compelled me to carry on reading.

If a human were to be changed into a human, vampires usually pick more vulnerable subjects. Say when a human is near death.

Could it be possible...?

This was ridiculous.

I threw the book away from me and put my head in my hands.

I was considering things that I knew were idiotic. Vampires are not real and Edward was dead!

I went to bed and tried to forget about vampires and immortality.

But my dreams were consumed with images of Edward as a vampire.

When I woke up I scolded myself for being so stupid.

Though it didnt stop me from reading more of the book.

And over the next couple of days I read more and more.

I learned that there was supposedly a group. Leaders of the vampires. The volturi they were called. I read that the volturi could change people, if they thought they were 'special' enough.

I knew it was ridiculous to believe these things, but with every page I read, the more I was pulled in.

I kept thinking of things that lead me to believe Edward was one of them.

Things like the fact, even though he'd been in the car with me, after the accident his body was nowhere to be found.

And how the photo i'd found of me and him had been found in this book.

Both coincidences...i knew that...but I couldnt stop myself foolishly hoping.

I started looking things up on the internet and after a couple of weeks I had made a decision.

To find out if any of it was true. And most importantly if Edward was still alive...well sort of.

Now as I lay on the cold, hard pavement I was about to get my answer.

'Your going where?' Charlie yelled, springing up from the couch.

'Italy' I shrugged as I started up the stairs.

'Wha...Bel...you cant...wait what?' he stuttered grabbing my wrist to stop me walking away.

'I need to Dad!' I told him.

'Why? Why do you suddenly need to go to Italy?' he questioned raising his eyebrow at me.

'I just have to, its just something I gotta do' I explained.

'Well who are you going with?' he asked, releasing my wrist.

'Erm...no-one' I mumbled quickly running a hand through my hair, hoping he wouldnt hear.

'NO-ONE?' he yelled.

Shit.

'Your going by yourself?'

'Its no big deal dad' I shrugged again.

'No big deal?' he repeated incredulously.

'Yeah' I agreed.

'Bella' he sighed before walking away and sitting on the couch, his head in his hands.

'Dad' I groaned, stepping down and sitting opposite him.

He looked up at me, the concern visible on his face.

'Dad, you've got no reason to be worried' I lied. If what i'd read was true, then I'd be coming face to face with blood sucking vampires. But Charlie didnt need to know that.

'Bella, is this because of Edward?' he asked cautiously.

'What?' I frowned, flinching at his name.

'Is this something you planned with him maybe? Before the accident?' he questioned.

'No' I muttered looking at my hands.

'Because if it is you dont need to do it right now, you have time...' he started.

'No dad' I repeated.

'Because Edward wouldnt want you to...'

'Edwards dead dad!' I cried fleeing up the stairs. I heard him softly call my name but I ignored him.

I threw myself on my bed and sobbed hard into my pillow. I dont know what had made me react so badly to Charlie's use of his name, but the tears just wouldnt stop. I howled into the cushion for what seemed like hours before I was finally reduced to snivelling quietly.

When I looked in the mirror the next morning I realised something needed to be done. And whether Charlie liked it or not, it was going to involve me going to Italy.

If there was even the slightest possibilty that Edward was still out there somewhere, I needed to know.

'Bella are you sure about this?' Charlie asked cautiously as I tossed my suitcase in the back of my big red truck.

'I'm positive' I nodded encouragingly.

Charlie didnt look convinced, but he knew i'd made up my mind. We'd had many long discussions about my wish to go to Italy over the past week and he'd made it perfectly clear he wasnt at all happy with the idea. But I'd told him I just needed to get away for a while, just to be on my own, away from Forks. I could tell he still thought it was a stupid idea but somehow i'd convinced him to let me go.

'Dad, i'll be fine' I said, unsure whether that was really true.

'Just take care Bells' he warned grasping my shoulders and shaking me slightly.

'I will, i'm only going for a week dad' I tried reassuring him.

He looked behind me at my truck and grimaced slightly. 'Are you sure you dont want me to drive you to the airport?' he asked.

'Dad, honestly i'll be okay' I smiled giving him a hug to which he responded with an awkward one armed pat on the back. 'I'll see you soon' I told him, loosening my grip on him.

'Call me when you land okay?' He ordered pointing a stern finger at me as I climbed in the cab.

'I will, see you dad' I waved as I backed out of the driveway. He waved back and as I pulled away I looked back at him in the rearview mirror. I saw him sigh before slowly walking back inside.

I made sure I kept an eye on him until he dissapeared because, I just wasnt sure when I would see him again.

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