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YAY! I didn't think I was going to finish this before I went to sleep. but I did it! Soo thank you for the reviews on the first chapter. I hope to see a lot more for this one.

I stormed into my house. I was so pissed at myself for letting myself fall asleep in front of Clare especially without taking my pills. What would she think of me now? How could I act so crazy? How could I be so stupid? I started walking up the stairs but my mom called me back down.

"Elijah, what's wrong?"

"I fell asleep at Clare's house." I sat down on the step I was standing on. My mom came and sat next to me.

"Oh no. Did you have a dream?"

"Of course I did! I didn't have my pills with me. I couldn't help it. It was an accident."

"Eli, baby, I know it was. Was your dream bad, I mean was it really bad?"

"It was pretty bad. When I woke up I couldn't stop shaking and crying. I even started talking to myself. Clare looked so scared. She looked at me like I was a different person." I hid my face in my hands.

"What was your dream about?"

"I dreamt that someone was hurting Clare. I dreamt that I couldn't save her. What am I going to do?"

"You should talk to her. She is probably very confused about what happened and she is most likely worried about you, not scared." I knew she was right. I shouldn't have just left like that. I have to make this right.

"Mom, can i-"

"Yes go on." I got up and ran out the door to Morty.

At Clare's house

I parked outside of Clare's house. It was almost ten thirty. Hope her parents don't get mad. I glanced across the street only to see KC sitting on the bench. I have had enough of this guy. I stomped over to him.

"What the fuck is your problem? Why are you doing this to Clare? Do you even realize how creeped out she is by you? You have got to leave her alone and get on with your life." All he did was look up at me and smile. "What could you possibly be smiling at?"

"It's working."

"What's working?" he was really starting to piss me off.

"My plan to win Clare back. You are starting to get mad at me about stalking her. Soon you are going to get mad at her for worrying so much about me and you're going to leave her. And when you are gone she will be vulnerable and who will be the one there to comfort her? I will. I just have to wait a little longer and she will be mine." He kept smiling and looked back at Clare's house. He just went too far. I grabbed the collar of his shirt and pulled him up.

"Listen, I will never leave Clare! I love her way too much! Now why don't you get your ass out of here and leave her alone, or I will make sure you never bother her again." I pushed him into the lamp post and he fell onto the cold concrete.

"Is that a threat Eli?" he asked smugly.

"No, it's a promise." I walked back across the street. I started to go towards her door but I decided to climb the tree next to her window instead. Once I was up I looked inside her window to make sure she was in her room. She was in there. She was sitting at her desk writing in a notebook. I sat on a tree branch, watching her for a couple of minutes. She looked so sad and heart broken.

I knocked on the window glass. She jumped. Her face was full of terror. She was frozen in fear.

"Clare, it's me." Her face quickly lightened up. At least she wasn't mad at me for leaving. She rushed over to the window and unlocked it. She stepped aside so I could climb in.

"You scared me. I thought you were KC." I gave her a weak smile.

"Only me. I'm sorry I left before. I just wasn't myself and I wanted to come explain."

"Eli, I get it. You have a sleeping problem. It's nothing to be ashamed of." I just kept my head down in silence. "Eli, what is it?"

"There is a reason I have these dreams." I lead her over to her bed and sat down. I looked straight into her beautiful blue eyes and scrounged up the courage to tell her the truth.

"When I was little I used to have problems. I would hurt myself without realizing it and I would say stuff without knowing. When my parents took me to the doctor, the doctor said it was because I had a tumor in my brain. I had to go into surgery right away. After the surgery I started getting these strange dreams that made me crazy and sometimes I didn't wake up for weeks at a time. The doctors gave me these pills that would prevent me from having these symptoms."

I stopped for a second to make sure she wasn't freaked out yet. When she nodded I continued. "These pills also prevent me from dreaming. But if I don't take the pills I could hurt someone. I already hurt someone because I didn't take the pills." My eyes were getting watery and it felt like I had a huge lump in my throat.

"Eli?" Clare put her arms around me.

"Remember I told you about my ex -friend Julia?" she nodded. "Well I didn't take my pills and I started walking down random streets. Julia saw me and tried to wake me up. I pushed her. She fell in the street. A drunk driver sped towards her. He didn't stop. Her scream woke me up." I was sobbing now and I was shaking uncontrollably. "I didn't mean to. I wish I could take back that night. It's all my fault she's dead."

"Don't blame yourself Eli. You didn't know what you were doing. You couldn't control yourself." Clare said comfortingly, stroking my hair.

"Clare, are you scared? I mean I could hurt you."

"Eli I am not scared. I would rather risk my life every day to be with you than be safe without you." She gave me a warm smile. I sat up and kissed her. She kissed me right back. We spent the next fifteen minutes kissing each other. It felt so nice to feel her lips on mine. It was even nicer that she accepted me. All of me. She pulled away. She yawned and smiled weakly.

"I should go and let you sleep." I got up and started to head for the window.

"Eli…"

"Clare, I have to go. Now get some sleep." I smiled at her and headed out the window. Before I started climbing down I whispered quietly.

"I love you." She didn't hear me. She never did. I have whispered this since the first day we have been together. But I will know when she loves me back when she hears me say it.

I climbed down and walked over to Morty. I got in and started him up. Before I drove away I looked at the bench across the street.

KC was gone.

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