Disclaimer: I don't own Degrassi. ( I forgot to out this in the last chapter)

This whole chapter will be Eli's dream. Hope it's okay.

Clare's face was right in front of me. There was a really bright light behind her. It made her look like an angel. My perfect angel. But I was falling. Falling away from her. I wanted to scream but no sound would come out. Everything was getting dark. So dark. I kept falling like there was no end. I thought I was never going to stop.

Finally I felt my back slam on to the ground. I could feel my bones breaking in my body. The pain I was feeling was indescribable. I couldn't breathe. Couldn't call for help. I was lying there waiting to die. Alone. I saw I light speeding towards me. I turned my head slightly and saw a car speeding towards me. I closed my eyes and waited for the car to crush me. But it never did.

I opened my eyes and I was in a cemetery on top of a hill. I was standing next to a statue of an angel. The sky was gray. There was a small crowd of people at the bottom. I slowly made my down the hill. I could see a black casket surrounding by black roses. Once I was closer I could see that the people had no faces. I could make out a few faces though. My mom. My dad. Adam. Clare. Their faces were sad. They were crying softly looking at the casket.

I turned to look at it too. I wonder who was in there. I walked over there. I slowly opened it. I was lying in there with a suit on. I was dead. How could that be? I am right here. I felt someone tap my shoulder. I turned to see her.

Julia.

"Eli I have been waiting for you." She gave me a cute smile. Her hair was blowing in the light breeze. She was wearing a slim black dress that looked like it was a size too small. She had heavy black makeup on. The only color on her was her blood red lip stick. I couldn't say anything. "Aren't you going to say hello? It's polite Eli."

"Hello." I choked out. I still couldn't believe it was her. "What are you doing here?" I asked.

"Why Eli, I thought you would be happy to see me. Do you want me to leave?" her wide brown eyes looked disappointed.

"No. Of course not." I gave her a weak smile.

"What's wrong? You look upset."

"This is my funeral." I looked around. Clare was standing in front of my casket. She placed a pair of headphones next to me. The same headphones that I gave her. I looked away.

"Eli it's okay. It's your time. You have to move on. Now we can be together again." She grabbed my hands and looked up into my eyes.

"What do you mean my time? No." I yanked my hands away from her and took a couple steps back.

"Don't do this. It's time to move on. Just like I had to do." She hissed at me.

"That was an accident." I said backing away. But every time I took a step back she took another step towards me.

"You are the reason I had leave everything behind. It's all of your fault. At first I didn't know if I could ever forgive you. And now that I am here giving you a second chance you are turning me down? I have no one and you are going to leave me all alone? How could you? I love you Eli."

"Julia I loved you. But I'm with Clare now. I can't go with you. Clare needs me. You have to go." I said backing away more quickly. Her face grew angry. She ran at me. Before I could even turn to run she pushed me to the muddy ground and pinned me.

"I need you Eli. You are not in their world anymore. You're already gone. You are dead." She screamed in my face.

"No I'm not. I can't be dead." Tears filled my eyes. I could see Julia's face soften. She wiped away my tears.

"It's okay. I will be here for you." She stood and helped me up. "We should really go." She held her hand out to me.

"Can I say goodbye?" I looked over at Clare.

"Yes." I walked over to Clare. I knew she couldn't see or hear me but I still had to try.

"Clare, I know you can't hear me but I love you. I will always love. I'm so sorry." I went to touch her cheek but my hand went right through her. I turned away in tears. Julia held her hand out to me again. I was about to take it when I heard Clare's voice.

"I love you too Eli." I looked at her. She had the biggest smile on her face. I faced Julia. She was crying.

"I love you Eli. Goodbye bye." She disappeared in the air. I turned back to Clare but she was gone. Everyone was gone. I was alone. But I wasn't in the cemetery anymore. I was in my house standing in the middle of my living room.

"Hello." I jumped. I looked behind me only to see KC sitting on the bottom step of my staircase.

"What the fuck are you doing here?"

"I am here to see if you were okay. Dying isn't fun." I smiled.

"I didn't die. I'm fine. I'm standing right here aren't I? And what do you know about dying anyway?"

"I know nothing about dying. I just hear it's unpleasant."

"Well I'm sure it's not enjoyable. Now why are you in my house?" I sat down on the floor a couple of feet in front of him.

"I told you. I am checking up on you."

"Okay. Where is Clare?"

"I don't know."

"Well you should. You stalk her. I'm surprised you haven't kidnapped her by now."

"I don't stalk Clare. And I would never kidnap her. It would be rude. I want to be a gentleman around her."

"Well you should really leave her alone. You scare her."

"Eli I have already heard this lecture. But my feelings for her won't change. If you loved Clare but she didn't want you, could you really let her go?" I had to think about that. I wouldn't want to give her up but I would if it made her happy. Right?

"Just as I thought. You wouldn't be able to let her go." It was as if he read my mind. I stared at him hoping he would just get up and leave but he just sat there smiling.

"Why do you look so happy?"

"Well I just heard Clare is upstairs. I am so close to her. But I am afraid if I go up there and see her see will be scared so I'm just going to sit down here." He looked up the stairs towards my bedroom. I got up off the floor and ran up to my room. Clare was by my desk taking something out of the second drawer.

"Clare." I said, hoping she would hear me. She turned to face.

"Oh hello Eli. I was just getting you your pills. But since you are awake I guess you don't need them now." Her voice was unusually chipper. She put the bottle back in the drawer and kissed me. I pulled away.

"You aren't acting like yourself Clare."

"Eli, come here. I need you." This wasn't Clare. I backed up until my back hit the wall. She started coming closer to me. "Stay away from me." I said.

"Please Eli. I love you." I shook my head. She started cry. As her tears fell down her face, her face starting melting into something else. She was turning into Julia.

"Julia leave me alone." I shouted at her. I wanted her to leave me alone. I would say anything to make her go. "I hate you. I never want to see you again. You are disgusting and horrible. I could never love a monster like you." I was lying of course. I still love her and she's so beautiful and she was anything but a monster but I don't want her anymore.

"Eli!" she screamed. She pulled out a pair of red sparkly scissors. I knew those scissors. Before I could say anything she cut off a lock of my hair. I just stood there. What was she doing? She then cut off a lock of her own hair. She took out a black lighter. My black lighter. She lit the hair on fire and let it fall to the ground.

"Remember this Eli? When we burned our hair to represent our love. That as long as we loved each other that flame would burn forever. Do you remember?" she smiled. I remembered. Back in the eighth grade we cut off some of our hair and burned it in the woods.

"Julia that fire was gone a long time ago. It's time for you to go."

"No it's time for you to go." She said, about to cry again. She was the last thing I saw before everything went blank.

So tht part where Eli was at his funeral, he actually died but u know doctors brought him back. And then the last part where everything went blank, clare had finally brought his pills. Just to clear things up.

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