Chapter 10: My Rock

Our time together isn't ever quite enough,

When you and I are alone, I've never felt so at home.

What will it take to make our break this hint of love?

Only time, only time...

Saltwater Room- Owl City

I did exactly what Carlisle said. Once I walked through our front door, I went straight to my bedroom, without speaking to anybody. I lay on my bed, trying not to think, just trying to let my mind get lost. After so many years, shutting off most feelings, it wasn't so hard anymore. It wasn't long until I heard a knock on my door. When I didn't answer, the person just entered anyway.

It was Esme. Esme has always been my real mother. I went to her every time I had a problem throughout these years, and she always gave me the right advice.

She walked over to me, sat beside me, took my hands in hers and gave me a sympathetic smile. I hated that smile. It was her smile that made me feel guilty about what I had done, no one else's.

'Rose, Carlisle told me what happened today. Would you like to talk about it?' she questioned in her motherly tone.

I sighed and sat up; she wouldn't lose the grip on my hands.

'I just don't agree with this at all Esme. It is completely wrong and he is putting us all in danger, all of us, because of it. Like today, for example. I didn't think he would make his first mistake this soon, but he did as he was acting carelessly. Someone could have seen him, and then we would have had to move, yet again.'

Esme just kept her gaze on me, smiling.

'Are you sure this isn't about anything else Rose? You can tell me. Maybe, it is about Edward showing interest in this girl? I did notice, well we all did, that you two have been becoming a lot closer recently' she asked.

Not this again. She thought that I liked Edward, but to tell the truth, I don't, I never did.I was just never used to somebody not being mesmerised by my looks. Every guy that saw me couldn't take his eyes off me. I loved the attention though. They could look all they wanted, but they could never touch me. I was Emmett's. When Edward didn't act that way, I was shocked, and hurt. I thought there was something wrong with me. I guess I have held it against him ever since.

'No, of course it's not like that.' I said as I took my hands back and went over to sit on the windowsill.

'I love Edward as a brother, never any other way. We could never have been together. He hated me, even when I was human, and we both know that. I haven't been his biggest fan though either, until recently.'

Esme came up and stood beside me.

'You know, I've always wanted a daughter like you Rose. You're beautiful, strong, you stick through anything, and you are not afraid to speak your mind, although I have to admit, you do take it too far sometimes' she said as she chuckled.

I turned around to face her and she hugged me. Although she was cold, her hugs were always so warm.

'Give Edward and Bella a chance Rose. He is following his heart for once and not his head. He has waited so long for this. Edward deserves this happiness' she whispered in my ear.

Esme then kissed me on the head and left. I would say I felt bad, but I don't. I mean, maybe I felt a little bad, but not guilty. I never felt guilty, even when I killed Royce and his friends.

What I would do to him right now if I saw him. He ruined my life. He made me like this, a bitter hateful girl, with beauty from pain. I went back to lie on the bed once she had left.

There was another knock on the door.

It was Emmett. He didn't try to speak to me, or ask me questions. He just lay on the bed beside me. I put my head on his chest and he began stoking my hair as I curled into him.

I love him so much. He is the best thing that ever has ever happened to me in my life. Without him, I would have nothing. It is only because of him that I am staying alive, that I survive this life, as I know I will have my time with him.

The day of our first marriage, Emmett gave me this gold necklace with real diamonds. It was a heart and as he gave it to me he said 'You will have my heart forever.' I have worn that necklace every day since he gave it to me, underneath my clothes.

Emmett always knew what to do. He was my rock. If I could cry, I would, right here, beside him.

I don't know how long we lay there, but we saw the first glimpse of light after the rainy night, when we spoke for the first time.

'I know that you don't agree with Edward and Bella, Rose. I don't either though.'

I looked up at him in disbelief. 'How come you never said anything before now?' I questioned as I tried to sit up, but he gripped my wrist and pulled me back.

'Please don't be angry,' he pleaded, 'but I realised after today that you are right. She isn't one of us. But I don't think we should say anymore until necessary. I have already told him what I think, and he wasn't happy with it. We don't know how this will turn out; it will probably be nothing, just a silly fascination. But I wonder, if Edward would just kill her, it would save all this trouble.'

I took an unnecessary breath and looked at him.

'I just wanted you to know that you're not alone, I am on your side, and I'm quite sure Jasper is also' he said as he kissed my cheek.

'You don't know how much this means to me, Em' I said as I curled into him and more. I didn't have to look at him to know how happy he felt. He loved making me feel happy.

He kissed my head and said, 'just go easy on him for now, please?' He then realised the absurd request he was making and chuckled.

I was not one to go easy on people when they were acting like idiots.

We decided to go on a hunt, just the two of us, before school. Even then, we rarely let go of each other's hands. Emmett always made things look so much better. As long as he was at my side, everything was going to be fine.

So what do you think? Wanted to show just how much Emmett actually means to Rosalie, as we don't really see it in the books. Please review, so I know what to change in future. Also looking out for a beta reader, if anyone wants to join me?