How Long is Long Enough?

Rima POV

This is more nerve-racking than ever! If he does know than I have to run away again and if he doesn't know I can stay…right? Maybe I've out stayed my welcome back. I had the perfect plan it was so simple:

-Runaway

-Live with freedom

-Be normal

-Be rude, cold and distant, don't get close

How did Nagihiko change the course of my plans? Why did I let him in, why am I now kinder to everyone all around? The last time I let someone know the real me they were punished for not revealing my identity.

Flashbacks

"Amu why are you leaving? Stay with me please? You're my only friend!" I'm on my knees begging

"I'm sorry Rima Chan, I have to move away from America now, I'm sorry I have no choice I want to stay here with you though, I want to stay with you too," she says with a sad smile.

As she walks away two and two click and I yell but barely anyone hears me, the airport is too noisy, but I knows she heard me cause she turned around gave me a forced smile and waved bye.

My exact words were, "Amu this is because, of Stupid Tokyo Isn't! Don't leave America, because of me! If you leave, I'm going back, I can't be here baring all our memories. I'M SO SORRY YOU GOT INVOLVED!"

After that I packed up and left, knowing Amu's father had also called my parents. They'd be in America to find me soon, so I had to move faster. But where this time? I than got a brilliant idea. Tokyo! They'd think I was to smart to go back. I than ran to the airport and hopped on the plane, promising myself never to get involved with another innocent person…like Amu"

End of Flashback

I now know what I must do, I've got to stay away from Nagihiko, because if he knows, I don't want to find out. I spent all morning hiding from him, at recess I kept hidden in the washroom, but than I realized he could pose off as Nadeshiko to talk to me. He had told me his secret, because we were best friends but that's beside the point now. Everything was going according to plan until we had drama class.

"Everyone will act out something dramatic, they'll pick a piece of paper with a word on it, and act out that emotion,: my teacher said loudly while smiling.

I got the emotion: hurt/sad

I was than pushed on stage, everyone's eyes were on me, including Nagi's, I took a deep breath and than closed my eyes. Sad/hurt I feel this every second of my life, I can do this! When I opened my eyes words just started coming out.

"This perfect little princess,

No one sees her pain,

The way she bottles it up inside,

She'll most likely go insane.

She has everything she could want,

There is nothing else she needs,

How could she feel so unhappy in the perfect life she leads?

She has all the material things, she can even get the guys,

But she's searching for internal happiness,

In this perfected life of lies.

If only people knew, the thoughts that go through her head,

Maybe they'd reach out to this princess, before she ends up dead. Luckily she's afraid of death,

The thought of never awaking again, hopefully this fear stays with her,

So her life does not come to an end.

Everyone sees the small things,

They don't make the connection,

If they were to look at the big picture,

They'd see it's all an…illusion of perfection." I finish slowly (where'd that poem come from?) tears start forming so I begin to wipe them away as fast as possible.

I than hear his voice its always causes my heart to skip a beat or two., his voice is so calm. I than look up at him, as he repeats his words. "Your hurt and sad, you need comfort…stop running" his eyes look serious and his usually smile is gone. This takes me back a bit.

Our teacher than asks, "Rima Chan did Nagihiko San guess correctly?" I just nod a bit dumbly still in shock.

My teacher than walks up to me, saying I'm quite the actress that I might be in the next school play, after all auditions are over.

She than yells "Dismissed!"

I quickly grab my things hoping that I won't have to speak to Nagi, it's home time, and maybe I'll be able to continue to run. I'm just about to leave the drama room when a hand is placed on my shoulder and someone whispers in my ear slowly and soft, "Stop running away, Rima Hime."

My reactions are now quicker, I turn around causing his hand to be slapped away and our eyes meet. Like a starring contest, both of us looking for something in the other person. His violet eyes so intense…I than snap out of his lock.

i quickly gain my composure again and say happily with fake joy and excitement. "I'm not running away from anything Nagi, I'm just getting ready to go home." I speak as if I'm full of pep. The room is empty, its just us, its so quiet.

He gives me the saddest expression. "Rima Chan, I told you my secret, I told you I was Nadeshiko, so now are you going to tell me who you really are?" His eyes looking directly into mine again.

Those words cause me to cover my ears and scream, "I don't know, what your talking about." I keep repeating so I block out his words. Pretending what he's saying is non-sense.

He embraces me from the back. He's hugging my tightly as tears start falling from my eyes, I'm still desperately blocking out his words as best I can. He than says, "Rima Hime of Tokyo, tell me, tell me why you didn't trust me?"

It's silent for over 5 minutes

My hands drop to my side, my eyes aren't forced shut anymore, I look at him desperately. "How'd you find out?" My voice emotionless.

He releases me from his grasp and he takes a step closer, we're face to face as he whispers his reasoning in my ears. The reason he found out.

My eye's get huge, in realization. His sad/angry look is gone, now he's just looking at me concerned.

As I speak more to myself than anyone, "Damn, how could I have been so…so careless. I should have known" causing myself to giggle quite a bit.

***I don't own this poem, its from chicken noodle soup for the teenage soul I just thought it'd work out, its real name is "Illusion of Perfection." :DD