Dear diary,

I was supposed to get married today but I'm not...because of something really stupid. I can't help but blame myself. I mean, Stefan has always been there by my side to protect me and be by my side as we go through with anything. I can't believe I sided Damon yesterday but diary, since when did Elena Gilbert play softy? Part of me feels tired of being the kind of girl who sit in bed all day waiting for Mr. Greasy Prince Charming to show up with a bouquet of flowers. I'm tired of hiding and being locked up in the boarding house or…being isolated from the world we live in.

I'm on earth but somehow, I feel like part of me is being trapped in an enclosed area. It's like only exploring a cellar when you've got the whole house. I'm tired of the fact that Vampires, me in particular need to hide out from the rest. I mean, why can't people just know?

I sound insane now don't I. Of course people can't know. I'm supposed to be dead. Elena is supposed to be dead. Dead. Why does that word scare me so much. Why can't I accept the fact that I just am.

Everyday, I watch Matt – who's probably the most normal among us all, grow and fill in college applications. Come to think of it, I'm not going.

Although I wish I was. I remember talking about college back when Caroline and I used to be best friends. We dreamed of going somewhere big…somewhere city-like and not deserted like Fell's Church. Somewhere where we could party and hang out with cute boys. Everytime I think of that diary, I smile because…that's who Elena Gilbert is.

That's Elena Gilbert and Caroline Forbes. I miss those days. In fact, I miss being normal.

I couldn't imagine living on and on with the same man in my life because knowing that true love never lasts for centuries scares me. Stefan had a lover before and he's loving me now. Had he and his previous lover shared what we share now? Did they think they were going to last forever? I can't imagine not being with Stefan, diary. After our fight, just being away from him feels scary.

It's not losing him that's scary, is the thought that I gave my life up for Stefan because I thought we could be forever and ever but as I grow older, I realize things.

Love never lasts forever.

Even when we're both seventeen, how would years and years of being with Stefan feel like? Would we feel like an old couple stuck in a young high school couple's body?

I'm scared diary. I'm very scared.

I love Stefan but is it enough to last forever?

"Gone? What do you mean gone?"

Meredith's face was stricken when Elena told her about Stefan's absence when she woke up this morning.

"Gone as in he wasn't there."Elena repeated and took a sip of my morning Starbucks coffee. She felt weird sitting in an enclosed coffee shop with a pair of sunglasses on to hide her identity. She could have simply asked Mrs. Flowers to fix her a cup of coffee but after eating and drinking nothing but Mrs. Flowers' food, Elena yearned for a change.

"W..w…what?"She stammered in shock. "Elena how could he do that it's your wedding day today."

"Tell me about it." Elena took another sip of her coffee and rested her chin on her palm. "But I can't blame him, it's sort of my fault."

"Elena, you sided Damon because it was the right thing to do."Meredith pointed out and Elena watched her take a bite of her waffles.

"I didn't exactly hear the whole conversation. I only butted in towards the end."Elena admitted and took another sip of coffee without knowing the reason why. She was completely awake and hardly thirsty but it was a perfect way to blend in, as Damon would say.

"Yes, but it was the correct last point. Besides Stefan's been….mysterious."

Elena raised an eyebrow and took another sip only to realize her cup was empty. "He's always mysterious, what is that supposed to mean?"

"Nothing."Meredith quickly sighed and fished her cell phone out of her bag when it vibrated. Unlike normal people, Meredith did not fancy ringtones which was no wonder why she hardly answers her phone.

"How can you even hear it?"Elena questioned and watched as Meredith unlocked her phone. "I'm a vampire and I can't even hear it."

"Because you're a vampire who has been listening to too much rock music."Meredith teased and grinned at something on her phone screen.

"True."She paused and slouched in her seat. "You know besides the fact that I'm seventeen forever, I think my life seems pretty normal."

Meredith never tore her gaze away from her phone but spoke. "That's because you're only nineteen in human age. Wait till you grow thirty and watch us grow fat and wrinkled while you're still young and hot with the brain of a fat and wrinkled." Meredith paused and gasped, finally tearing her eyes away from her phone. "Gosh, can you imagine being a hundred but stuck in the body of a teenager?"

Elena squirmed and shuddered.

"Truthfully no." She murmured and sighed.

"You're not supposed to say that Elena."Meredith went on and placed her phone back into her bag. "You're supposed to get used to the truth. I mean, look at Stefan. He's lived for two centuries already."

"Meredith, what if I'm not ready."

"Elena, it's too late you're a vampire.
"Yeah but…I know this sounds weird but…I don't want to go on living and living for thousands or maybe millions of years and watch generations come and go." She paused and snatched a half bitten piece of waffle from Meredith's table and ate it. It tasted like nothing but plastic.

"You're saying you want to die?"

"I've felt death Meredith so what's the point."

"You tell me, Elena." A baffled looking Meredith insisted and picked her phone up again when it vibrated.

Sighing, Elena looked at her fingers and admired the encrusted diamond ring.

"The point Meredith."Elena looked up and clasped her hand together. "Is that being a vampire kind of reveals everything to you like, there's not surprise left in the world you know."She paused to think. "I mean, it's like all those adventures I wanted to have when I was…human, has been granted and I'm not happy because…Elena Gilbert wants adventure. She wants to discover things and just being a vampire kind of gave it all to me. Like I'm spoon fed when all I want is to be a normal person who makes their own food or perhaps grow some too."

Stefan shifted the heavy ceramic pot that covered the secret opening to the underground tomb and wiped his dusty hands against his faded jeans. He knew this was wrong, he knew by doing this not only would he betray Elena but Damon too. Still, what did they care? The both of them were beginning to turn against him and going here seemed like the best thing to do.

Stefan kicked the excess mud away to reveal the white ceramic stairs. He placed a foot on them, they were still as solid as they were a century ago.

Taking a deep breath, Stefan descended the staircase and into the dark room. The only source of light came from a dim lighted candle by the corner of the room. It wasn't bright but bright enough to show her face. Her beautiful, empowering face.

"Katherine…" His voice was subtle and low at first due to fear but when her head moved in his direction he felt warmth gush through his blood. Even after a century of being held captive and starved Katherine still looked as beautiful as ever. Her silky blonde hair was long and it fell over her smooth shoulders.

Katherine sat there in the dark and her porcelain skin glowed beneath the dim light. Her electric blue eyes looked up at him warmly and Stefan felt… home.

"How did you know I was here?" Her voice was like bluebells as she cooed. "How did you know I was alive?"

The truth was, Stefan had found out after taking a lonely walk last night to clear his head from Elena but instead, he had stumbled across a group of witches who were deep in discussion. They were talking about a battle and Stefan reckoned it must have had something to do with the witching heritage but when he heard the words 'Vampire Girl', he stopped to listen.

"What are we going to do with the captive?"An old witch with platinum silver hair spoke as she brushed her waist- long hair.

"Who? That vampire girl? "Another witch spoke and the younger witch with silver hair nodded.

"She's dangerous. She's a threat too all of our kind." The younger witch had gone then approached the tiny source of burning wood before enveloping the fire with her creamy hands.

Stefan watched in disgust as her hands began to melt like clay and into the fire. The fire devoured her hands until there was nothing left but thick creamy liquid.

Stefan strained his eyes to watch but then took a few steps back when a blue explosion erupted from the witches hands. The fire extinguished and he looked at the luminous yellow Crystal ball formed from the witch's spell. Her hands were secured and back again.

"She's a threat to her own kind now too!"The older witch spoke but the Silver witch quickly hushed her.

"Chose your words wisely Ingrid."The silver witch advised. "It's not right to say her kind anymore, she isn't a pure vampire now.."

"You're right."Ingrid spoke and pulled her black hood back. Stefan noticed that this witch, Ingrid had curly hair and tan skin but with her back at him, Stefan couldn't make out her face. "This girl is a threat to all of us. With the combination of vampire, witch and Powers blood in her, she's our biggest challenge."

"She just never dies now doesn't she?"The silver witch crackled and stepped away from the blue flame, this time giving Stefan a clear view of who it was and indeed it was Katherine. With her blonde hair and blue eyes it was no denying that the 'strong kind' both witches were currently talking about was Katherine.

"Where'd you keep her?" Ingrid questioned the silver witch, who's named turned out to be Azures, snickered.

"Underneath the church but she's harmless there. Without the combination of three antique blood she's completely dead."

"Antique blood?" Ingrid questioned, her voice was so low that it was nearly inaudible.

"Yes…" Azures licked her pale lips and extinguished the blue flame with Katherine's photo. "The blood of the silver Stallion and the blood of two other Vampire and Witch successor's from the heritages of our great rulers."

Ingrid looked lost and so was Stefan. He carefully crept closer to listen but Azures' face shot up immediately. Simultaneously, Stefan swiftly turned to escape her observation.

"What is it Azures?"He heard Ingrid whisper but Stefan had already disappeared before he heard her reply.

"I see. " Katherine nodded at Stefan's story. Of course, he didn't exactly tell the truth. Minus almost everything, he merely told her that he was out in the woods when he heard two witches talk about a powerful vampire being held captive underneath Fell's Church.

"I missed you."Her melodious voice sang as she drew Stefan closer towards her. Katherine pushed Stefan's tiny curls back and caressed his face. "You haven't changed at all…" She beamed and planted a kiss on his cheek. "I'm hungry…"She whispered, slowly lowering his collar only to see two prominent beating veins at his neck. "Stefan…." She held his hair back and planted a kiss on his lips. "Please…"She wheezed and gave him another kiss. When he nodded in agreement, Katherine punctured her fangs into his neck with satisfaction.

"So how is Damon?" She licked his neck to taste the sweetness of his blood.

That name was a bullet being fired at Stefan's face. Damon didn't need to know about Katherine. He couldn't know.

"Damon's dead."He muttered without thinking and felt Katherine's lips on his again.

I know I have been A.W.O.L

But things came up in RL so yeah.

I hope you like this though. Hopefully more updates up :D

R&R much appreciated.

Thank you xo !