Ok, here is chapter 19! I know, so soon??? The horrors of it!!! In case you are worried, Edward makes it up to Bella in this one, ladies, get ready to scream!!! Ok, I don't want to keep you too long so shout outs!!! Preciousfairymom80, my mind twin and long lost sister, I love you and you are the reason this story is here! Go check out her story Dusk and her one shot Real Good Man. Venomaddict, you are a kindred spirit and I thoroughly enjoy our daily conversations, you are one cool banana!!! Go check out her story Choices.

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Chapter 19

BPOV

"Bella, what happened?" Rose and Esme asked me after they had come into Alice's room.

"FUCKING EDWARD FUCKING CULLEN!" I said. "He is being unreasonable and an asshole!"

"But what happened?" Esme asked again.

"Didn't you all hear?" I asked and they shook their heads.

"Carlisle and I had stepped out of the house to give you and Edward some privacy" Esme explained.

"And Alice and I were shopping. Alice had a vision and raced us home. We walked in the door and heard you scream. That is when Alice ran and caught you" Rose said.

"Oh" I said softly, now anxious about telling them what had happened. I was hoping that they would have heard it so I wouldn't have to explain. "Did the guys hear it?" I was suddenly worried that they had.

"I don't think so" Alice said. "They weren't back when we got here. They showed up right after us."

"So…What happened? And don't say 'nothing' because 'fucking Edward fucking Cullen' wouldn't come out if it was nothing" Rose said and I giggled. Had I really said that? "So…Spill!"

"Well, Edward and I haven't, you know" I started.

"Had sex" Alice filled in and I blushed.

"Yeah, since the whole thing with Tanya. You all know Carlisle had forbid it while we were recuperating. Well, Edward and Esme walked in on Carlisle and I dancing..." I said.

"Why were you and Carlisle dancing?" Rose asked.

"I went in to apologize to him for yesterday and I am sorry, all of you, for my behavior yesterday. Anyways, I went to apologize to him and I asked him if he would teach me to dance for the wedding, as a surprise to Edward. Well, Edward and Esme must have heard the music and came in and saw us. Edward cut in and we danced and then he kissed me."

"And him kissing you caused you to get pissed at him?" Rose asked with a puzzled look on her face.

"NO!" I said, laughing at the look on Rose's face. "Edward kissing me led to the bedroom and when I asked him to touch me and to, well, you know…"

"Have sex with you" Alice said for me and I blushed again. Why couldn't I get comfortable talking about this with them?

"Yeah, when I asked for that he made up some lame excuse about hurting the babies. I just think it is the fact that he is disgusted by my body now with the scars and the belly. I mean look at it!" I said, pulling my shirt up and exposing my stomach to them. It looked a little swollen and there were faint scars across it from where Tanya had thrown me through the windows. The scars weren't just across my stomach; they were over most of my body. I didn't notice most of them because Carlisle had done such a wonderful job with the stitches, but there was a large scar running down my right side, one across my back, and one that zigzagged across my left thigh.

"Bella, Edward loves you and loves the fact that you are pregnant. I don't think that he is 'disgusted' by you. In fact, most men find pregnant women sexier than women who are not pregnant. There is the 'pregnancy glow' that appeals to them and believe me, you have it!" Esme said smiling at me.

"You really think so?" I asked, looking at Esme, Rose, and then Alice last.

"Trust me Bella, Edward regrets what he did and he will make it up to you. I can't believe he was so shallow to begin with but he is human and they always surprise me. How about this? Let's get out of here, go shopping, I have a feeling you will be needing new clothes quicker than normal since you are having twins, and let's have a girl day. We all could use it. What do you say?" Alice said while holding back a smile.

I bit on my lip slightly as I thought about it. It could be fun. My jeans were feeling slightly snug in the waist already. I smiled wide and looked at Alice. She squealed and jumped up, grabbing some clothes and throwing them at me.

"Here, wear this, you can't go in your pajamas!" Alice said. I looked down and realized that I was still in them. OH GOD! I had danced with Carlisle in my pj's. I quickly got dressed as Alice and Rose started making phone calls. I heard something about massages and manicures. What had I just agreed to?

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5 hours later I had been massaged, a pregnancy massage that is, had my hair styled, a manicure and pedicure, and had gone shopping. I even felt up to picking out my wedding dress. I can't believe it! I picked out my wedding dress and it was so perfect and covered my stomach. Alice said that I would have a few months before I would show in that dress just in case. I asked her just in case of what but she wouldn't say.

We got back to the house as it was starting to get dark. I hadn't heard from Edward all day and I wondered if he was pissed off at me. I got out of the car and headed for the house. I barely heard Alice, Rose, and Esme say goodbye and when I turned around I saw them disappear into the woods. What were they up to?

I turned back around and noticed that the lights were off in the house but that there was a faint glow through the windows. I walked up to the door and opened it. I heard soft music and gasped when I noticed that there were candles lit everywhere. The candles were on every table and they made a path up the stairs. I noticed rose petals across the floor and up the stairs too. Oh Edward! I was such a lucky woman.

I closed the door behind me and walked toward the stairs, slipping my shoes off at the bottom of them. I noticed a square of material folded on the bottom of the stairs and an envelope. I opened the envelope and noticed Edward's elegant script on the card inside.

Bella,

My love, I am sorry for my behavior earlier today and hope that you will forgive me. I acted like a fool and you did not deserve my actions. I plan to do everything possible to make this up to you and our children.

Now, if you would please indulge me, beside this letter is a garment I would be pleased if you would wear. If you choose not to wear the garment I will understand but it would give me great pleasure to see you in it. The choice is yours. I love you Isabella Marie Swan.

Eternally devoted to you,

Edward

I didn't realize that I had tears running down my cheeks until one hit the paper. I quickly wiped them away and picked up the 'garment' that Edward had chosen for me. My jaw dropped when I picked it up. It dropped even further when a scrap of material fell from the one I was holding. Edward had picked me out lingerie. Not just lingerie, this appeared to be maternity lingerie. Apparently he was planning for me to wear it for a while… The outfit was silk and was a deep aqua blue. It had an empire waist with small decorative trim along the waist. It pleated out from the waist and when the pleats were spread out, the top was see-through. The bottoms were also silk and the same deep aqua color. I couldn't believe that they were thongs. Now, to wear this or not to wear this…

I put the outfit on and hoped that no one was home to see me change in the living room. I didn't hear anything so I assumed that the girls had met up with the guys and were out for the night. I started up the stairs and made it halfway up before I was stopped by a single deep red rose and another envelope. I picked them up and opened the envelope.

Bella,

I hope you are in the outfit but if you are not then I understand, I will love you no matter what. Here is a single rose for you. This rose symbolizes the unconditional love and devotion I have for you. I will always love you and only you and nothing will ever come in between us. I am still awed by the fact that you chose me. Thank you. I love you Isabella Marie Swan.

Eternally in love with you,

Edward

This letter made me shed more tears and I noticed a handkerchief on the stair. I picked it up and noticed an E monogrammed on it. I smiled at the thought of Edward leaving his handkerchief on the stairs for me, knowing I would cry. I was falling more in love with him every step I took tonight.

When I was sure that the tears were gone for the time being I started back up the stairs. I had the letters, the outfit, the rose, and the handkerchief. I got to the top of the stairs and noticed another envelope on the hallway table. Beside the envelope was a black velvet jewelry box. I opened it and found the most beautiful necklace ever. It was white gold and the pendant was lined in diamonds. The pendant was a heart inside of a heart. I opened the envelope and read.

Bella,

I love you more than words can say. I will always do the most I can to show you my love and make sure that you feel it every day, in every breath you take. I carry your heart in my heart. I chose this necklace for you because it symbolizes the love I have for you and it is a way for you to carry my heart with you too. I would be honored if you would wear it. I love you Isabella Marie Swan.

Eternally yours,

Edward

I burst into tears and wiped them away as quickly as I could. I removed the necklace from its box and placed it around my neck, fumbling with the clasp. I finally secured it and looked at myself in the hall mirror. I cried again when I realized that I was carrying Edward's heart in mine and on me now. I wiped the tears away with his handkerchief and gathered all of my letters and gifts.

I continued to follow the rose petals and candles around the corner and came to our bedroom. The door was open and there were candles everywhere. The rose petals didn't stop inside the room. Instead they covered more of the floor and it looked like they were the carpet. I saw that red drapes had been placed over the windows to the room.

I looked everywhere in the room but I didn't see Edward. I was about to call out for him when I felt a pair of warm hands cover my eyes from behind me.

"Hello my love. I see you found my letters and tokens of love" Edward said low and soft in my ear. My breathing hitched at the feel of his breath on my exposed shoulders. "Do you trust me Bella?"

"Yes Edward, I trust you" I said in almost a whisper.

"Ok, close your eyes Bella, I need my hands for a minute" Edward said. I obeyed and closed them, my pulse quickening at the anticipation of what was to come. Edward removed his hands from my eyes and I kept them closed. I felt fabric lightly graze my shoulders and then I felt it over my eyes. Edward secured it behind my head and effectively blindfolded me. "Do you still trust me Bella?"

"Yes Edward" I said, my voice sounding uneasy. I felt Edward take my gifts and letters from my hands and then he was back beside me.

"Trust me Bella" Edward said and I felt his arms. One was behind my knees and the other one was just above my waist, against my back. Edward slowly and carefully picked me up and I felt him walking. The next thing I felt was myself being lowered. My body found the bed and Edward propped me up on some pillows. "Wait right there." Edward instructed; like I could go anywhere being blindfolded.

I felt the mattress shift beside me. "I am back my love. Do you still trust me?"

"Yes" I said huskily. My legs were beginning to tremble in anticipation of whatever was coming.

"Open your mouth please. I have something for you to eat" Edward said and I obeyed.

I felt something brush lightly against my lips and then against my tongue. I tasted chocolate but smelled strawberries.

"You can bite if you want" Edward said and I bit down. Oh my god! It was the best tasting chocolate covered strawberry ever!

"Mmmmm" I said while savoring the taste.

"You like my love?" Edward whispered into my ear. Goosebumps broke out on my skin at the sensation of his breath against my ear.

"Yes, it is delicious" I said after I had swallowed.

"Would you like another bite?" Edward asked and I nodded my head and opened my mouth. 3 bites later I had had enough of the strawberries. My stomach started to churn. "Would you like a drink my love?"

"Yes please" I said and started to sit up.

"You don't have to move. I have it taken care of. Here is a straw" Edward said and directed it into my mouth. I took a small drink first and smiled when I tasted the Diet Dr. Pepper. I drank greedily and then finally released the straw. I let out a small burp and slapped my hand over my mouth in embarrassment; I felt and heard Edward chuckle beside me. "I take it you are satisfied then?"

"Yes" I said with a sheepish smile.

"Be right back" Edward said and I felt the mattress shift again. A few second later I felt Edward's return. "Bella?"

"Hmmm?" I said.

"I am going to touch you now. Please keep the blindfold on ok?" Edward asked.

"O…ok…" I said with a shaky voice and then I felt Edward's hands on my thighs. He gently pulled me until I was lying down on the bed. I felt his hands slowly start at my feet and move up my legs and over my hips. They jumped from there to my fingers and moved up my arms, across my collar bones, and down my chest, skimming over my breasts. The feel of Edward's hands was magical. Every touch heightened the sensation on my skin and made my pulse quicken.

I jumped slightly when I felt Edward press his lips against my stomach. His lips lingered there for a moment and then I heard him speak.

"Bella, I need you to know that today was just because I was scared…" Edward began.

"Wait…" I started but was stopped when his hand pressed over my mouth.

"No, please let me speak. I need to say something and I need you to listen. You do not need to apologize or turn this on you in any way. Ok? Can you do that? Nod your head if you can do that" Edward said and I nodded. He removed his hand from my mouth and continued.

"Now, as I was saying, I was scared. While I have been through medical school and I understand that there is no harm to the babies, I still let my head get in the way" Edward said and paused to kiss my stomach again. I felt him shift and place more kisses across my body. Edward stopped kissing and spoke again.

"Bella, I want nothing more than to touch you every moment of every day. There is not a moment that I do not want my hands and my body against yours. You are right that it has been too long since I have touched you, so, I am going to touch you now Bella. Is that ok?" I nodded my approval and I felt Edward's hands slide up my sides and over my breasts. He pressed his hands against my breasts and rubbed them passionately. He was conveying his need for me through his touch. I moaned into the feel and arched my back against him.

I felt the mattress shift again and then felt Edward's mouth close onto one of my nipples. I moaned at the contact and my hands instinctively found their way to his hair. I tangled them up in his bronze locks and pulled him deeper into my body, desperately wanting his mouth to do more to me.

Edward broke away from one nipple and his mouth found the other one. My body arched into his as his lips devoured my breasts. Edward broke his mouth away again and he trailed his lips down my body. I moaned again when his lips nibbled at my hips and then gasped when his fingers looped into my panties and gently tugged. I lifted my hips and felt Edward slide them down my body and off of me. He shifted again and I felt his hands on the inside of my thighs, gently coaxing them apart. I spread my legs for him and felt him settle between them.

"Bella?" Edward said deep and low.

"Yes?" I whimpered.

You may remove the blindfold if you want" Edward said. I slowly lifted it from my face and then opened my eyes. The sight before me took my breath away. Edward was completely naked and kneeling between my legs, his face inches from my center. He slowly opened his mouth and lowered his face towards my body, his tongue slipping out. My body tingled in anticipation of his touch.

Edward's tongue made contact with my lips and slowly licked from top to bottom, parting my lips at the bottom and licking his way back up to my bud. My hips thrust up against his face and caused his mouth to make full contact with my center. I moaned and twisted my hands into the sheets.

"Bella, you taste so good…" Edward said before placing his mouth back on me. He slowly licked me within inches of my release and then, when I thought I couldn't take any more, he slowly inserted two fingers into me, releasing my orgasm onto his fingers and into his mouth.

Edward slowly removed his fingers and licked my juices off of his fingers. Then he shifted his body and climbed up the bed towards me. His mouth found mine and I kissed him greedily, savoring every second of it. While Edward was devouring my mouth I felt him lower himself onto me, still supporting his weight with his arms.

He broke the kiss and moved his lips to my neck, up my jaw, and nibbled on my earlobe. The sensation made my hips buck and I felt his erection against my core, seeking entrance.

"Make love to me Edward" I said, repeating my request from earlier today. This time Edward listened and I felt him slowly enter me, filling me up completely. "OH GOD EDWARD!" I moaned loudly. "Yes Edward, make love to me, let me feel all of you" I said before his lips reclaimed mine.

Edward thrust slowly in and out of me, his lips never leaving my body except to profess his love for me. He worshipped my body as I worshipped his. I began to match his slow, controlled thrusts and felt my release building. Each thrust brought me closer to my second release and I wanted to hold off until I was sure that Edward was there too.

"Cum with me baby" I moaned into his neck and he increased the force of his thrusts slightly. "That's it baby; let me feel you, let me feel you inside of me. Come on baby, cum with me."

"Oh god Bella, I…I…" Edward said as I felt my release spring to the surface, my walls clamping down on Edward and eliciting his release at the same time. He thrust into me a few more times before he rolled over and brought me with him, settling me onto my side with my arm over his chest and my head on his shoulder. "I love you Isabella Marie Swan."

"I love you too Edward Anthony Masen Cullen" I said softly and then drifted off to sleep.

Well? Did Edward do enough ass kissing to get back in Bella's good graces? Tell me what you think. He told me that he should do a lot more before Bella fully forgives him and want's to know what all you would like to read about him doing. So......what would you like Edward to do? LOL!