Harley sat in the middle of Bruce's king size bed, papers spread out around her, her laptop in the middle of all the chaos. She had a general knowledge of her new patient, as he had kidnapped her many times, leaving Ivy to save her somewhere dangerous cause Joker wouldn't, she could count how many times he'd saved her on her hand, once! And only because he was close enough to stop her from sliding off the edge of a building. Ivy always came to her rescue and every time whoever had taken her would just get angry claiming they wanted Joker, and every time she would just say she told them so. No Joker never cared about her at all, he never had it was all just a façade to get her to break him out. Her newest patient had even gone as far as to threaten her life on TV and still only Ivy and Batman came to save her and when she got back to Joker all he had to say was that it was damn good TV. "Tea Madam?" Alfred's voice brought her out of her disturbing thoughts, "Yes thank you Alfred"

"May I ask what you are doing so late at night Madam?"

"Researching a new patient, I never had time to do it last week with all the stuff Joker stirred up. I just happen to have the best luck and end up treating all the baddies who tried to kill me to get Joker's attention" she sighed and sipped her tea "I might just tell Jerry I don't want this one, maybe take some time off and sit up here for days and read" she laughed "I think Dr. Arkham does it for you Madam"

"What do you mean?'

"Well if I may Madam, I believe Dr. Arkham has you treat these patients because you have experienced them before, already have a grasp on what makes them do what they did. Because it may help you understand why you did what you did, Madam"

"I know why I did all those things" she said softly

"Might I ask why?"

"I was blinded by pure, unforgiving obsession. When Joker was first brought into Arkham I was just an intern, but because no one else wanted his case it got pushed off on to me. I was stupid to think I could help him. Jerry said it would be my big break" she laughed, "He had no idea. After I broke him out all the things I did were to impress him, to make him love me like I loved him"

"Did it work Miss?" Alfred asked with a smile

"Doesn't look like it Al" they both laughed "he would beat me after every one of them, said I was trying to steal his show, so many times I tried to make him see different but it just ended in more abuse. The day Bruce took me to the hospital was the worst" she shivered "Joker had Bruce where he wanted him about to pounce, when my struggle with Dick distracted him just long enough for Bruce to get away, Dick quickly followed so the only one left to take his anger out on was me. He beat me for so long I didn't even know what day it was, once he got tired of beating me I figured he would just leave me there like he usually did, but no he forced me to stand up and pushed me towards the window where he proceeded to push me out. Forty foot drop straight onto my back, I laid there for I don't know how long until Ivy found me, she tried using her plants to heal me but none of it worked. She knew I was dying and was about to kiss me what Bruce showed up and took me to the hospital" tears fell from her eyes "I'm a horrible person Alfred"

"No I don't think so Madam"

"You would if you knew what ran through my mind almost everyday"

"And what is that?"

"That I still love him after all that, my heart still jumps at the mere mention on his name, I go to sleep at night thinking about his smile, his actual smile not the scars. I hate that I still love him, but I cant make myself stop" she cried into her hands before latching onto Alfred's outstretched arms "He'll kill us Alfred. He'll kill me if we call off the engagement or not, and then he'll probably come after Bruce"

"Shush Miss" Alfred tried to calm the young woman, after a few minutes Harley was able to stop her crying. She sniffed and looked up at Alfred "Thank you"

"For what Madam?"

"Letting my spill my pathetic life story to you and tell you things I cant tell other people. Also letting me get your suit all wet" she giggled "And not giving up on me like everyone else has"

"Never"

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