Chapter 19
It had been almost a month since Billy escaped from the hospital and it was as if he had evaporated into thin air. No one had seen him or heard from him. It was like he didn't exist. It put Lindsay at ease, which was good, but it put Danny into high alert. Things were finally back to normal (except for the police camped outside their apartment). Chris had gone home and Lindsay was back to work just like she wanted.
Crime Lab
Lindsay was sitting in her office when Jo walked in and noticed a strange look on Lindsay's face
"You alright Lindsay?" Jo questioned raising an eyebrow
"Yea, yea" Lindsay said with a wave of her hand "Just some back pain"
"Want me to call Danny?" Jo asked concerned
"For back pain? No" Lindsay said with a laugh "I've just been on my feet to long that's all"
"Alright" Jo said nodding "If you need anything just holler ok?"
"Yea sure thanks" Lindsay said and then Jo left
About an hour later Lindsay's back pain increased and she stood up slowly and noticed she was bleeding
"Oh god" she mumbled as the pain became worse she accidentally knocked over files and a lamp on her desk causing a crash and Adam walked in
"Lindsay?" Adam asked walking over to her
"Where's Danny?" Lindsay asked hunched over
"Still at the scene" Adam said nervously
"Hawkes?" Lindsay questioned, a doctor was the best thing
"He's with Danny" Adam told him "Do you need Mac? He's here"
"No I need to get to a hospital" Lindsay told him clenching in pain "Right now"
"Um-" Adam started
"Adam" Lindsay said trying to calm him down "I'm in a lot of pain and bleeding I need to go right now"
"Adam, Lindsay" Mac said walking in
"She needs to go to the hospital something is wrong" Adam told make nervously then Mac walked over to Lindsay
"You're bleeding" Mac said "Adam call an ambulance there's no time for us to take her, tell them it's urgent and we have an officer in distress"
"Got it" Adam said running out of the room
"I need to call Danny" Lindsay said as the pain increased and tears started to fall from her eyes
"I'll call him and have him meet you at the hospital, right now you need to sit" Mac instructed her
"I can't it hurts" Lindsay told him as she groaned in pain then looked at Mac "I'm scared, I need Danny"
"I'll get in touch with him" Mac promised grabbing one of her shoulders and lower back to try to keep her steady
"I can't be in labor" Lindsay told him "It's to early I'm only 27 weeks"
"We don't know what's wrong" Mac said to her
"It's not good" Lindsay said fully crying "I'm in pain, bleeding- the baby is going to die"
"Lindsay look at me" Mac said forcefully "We're going to do everything in our power to help you. You need to keep positive thoughts alright?"
"Ambulance is on its way" Adam said walking in and Jo behind him
"Lindsay" Jo said walking over to her taking over for Mac
"I'm going to call Danny" Mac told Lindsay walking out of the room and then dialed Danny's number
"Messer" Danny answered
"Danny meet us at the hospital" Mac told him
"What happened?" Danny asked him "Is it Lindsay?"
"Yea something's wrong" Mac told him "We don't know what it is but we called an ambulance that's on its way, she's going to need you at the hospital"
"Was it Billy?" Danny asked
"No it's the baby" Mac told him and he could hear Danny's intake of breath on the other line
"I'm coming there-" Danny started
"No go to the hospital, by the time you get here she'll already be gone" Mac told him "Have Hawkes or Flack drive you" then hung up that's when Mac saw the paramedics come in off the elevator "Over here!" Mac yelled waving them over and they walked in with a stretcher
The Hospital
Lindsay was being wheeled into the hospital thru the emergency room doors and Danny was already there. He walked over to her and was taken back by how pale she was.
"Lindsay" Danny said to her, but she has an oxygen mask over her face. She grabbed his hand as she was still being wheeled
"Sorry sir you have to wait out here" The paramedic told him holding Danny back as she was wheeled into another room
"That's my wife" Danny told him
"I know that sir but right now the doctors need to work" The paramedic said to him
"What happened? What's wrong?" Danny asked him anxiously
"I don't know but I'm sure a doctor will be with you shortly" the paramedic said to him then walked away
"Danny" Mac said walking over, Danny turned and saw Jo and Adam both following Mac
"What happened Mac?" Danny asked "Can someone tell me please?"
"She was complaining of back pains earlier" Jo started
"Then I walked by and saw she doubled over in pain" Adam said picking up from where Jo left off
"She was bleeding" Mac finished and Danny ran his hands threw his hair and over his face
"Must have been a lot of blood" Danny said to him "She was so pale"
"The doctors are going to do everything in their power to help her" Mac assured him
"I don't get it" Danny said to him "She was fine, she wasn't scared of Billy being out, she was happy to be back at work-" then Danny stopped himself "She shouldn't have been at work the doctor suggested she-"
"But the doctor approved her coming back" Mac cut him off "I read the letter, he signed off on it"
"I don't know anything, I don't know why-" Danny started rambling
"She just got here give them some time to asses what's wrong" Mac said to him "Why don't you take a seat-"
"I can't just sit around" Danny shot back "I can't sit around not knowing what's going on"
"Making yourself crazy isn't going to get you answers" Mac reminded him
"I don't care" Danny said with a shrug "All I care about is my wife and daughter and they're in trouble and all I can do is wait" just then a doctor walked out
"Mr. Messer" Lindsay's doctor said walking over to him
"Yea how's Lindsay?" Danny questioned
"its not great news Danny" The doctor started "Lindsay is suffering from placenta abruption"
"What's that?" Danny asked
"It's when the placenta partially or in Lindsay's case completely separates from the uterus before the baby is born. It deprives the child of oxygen and nutrients. Also the sever blood loss is dangerous to not just the baby but Lindsay as well" the doctor told him calmly
"Fix it" was all Danny said "You're a doctor- that's what you do right? You fix things"
"We're going to try" the doctor told him seriously "Lindsay is being prepped for surgery as we speak"
"Isn't it a little early?" Adam asked quietly
"Lindsay is 27 weeks, a child born at 27 weeks has a 90% chance of survival. But of course giving the circumstances-" the doctor started then stopped "We're going to do everything we can"
"Can I see her? Before you take her up?" Danny asked him
"I'm afraid not we're moving right now we don't have time to slow down" The doctor told him "I'll keep you posted" the doctor said then turned and walked away leaving Danny in shock
"Danny" Mac said to trying to get his attention
"I can't leave" was all Danny said to Mac "Lucy is at school-"
"I'll take care of it" Mac said to him "Why don't you take a seat"
"Yea ok" Danny said almost completely numb taking a seat and all the other's could do was watch
"What can we do?" Adam asked Mac in a whisper
"Wait" Mac replied then walked off
"Come on" Jo said placing her arm on Adam and leading him into the waiting room with Danny
"What are we supposed to say?" Adam asked her in a whisper
"Nothing" Jo told him "Because there is nothing to say" she told him back in a low voice "Just being here will help" she assured Adam as they both took seats next to Danny and sat in silence.
Over the next few hours Flack arrived with Hawkes. Mac had called Danny's mother who picked Lucy up and took her back to Staten Island (with police escort since Billy was still out there somewhere). And for the most part no one spoke everyone just sat. It was almost like time was frozen, people were getting antsy and walking around but it was Danny who seemed to be frozen place. His mind going from one place to another. What if he lost the baby? What if he lost Lindsay? What if he lost the both of them? What about Lucy? Why hadn't a nurse come out and given him an update? Was that a good sign or a bad one? What was Lucy thinking? Had anyone called Lindsay's family? If the baby was ok what were they going to do? They didn't have a crib or anything yet? And the most common question, why was this happening?
"Danny" Flack said but his friend didn't respond "Danny" he repeated and Danny finally turned and looked up towards him "You want to get some air or something?"
"Nah" Danny said to him "I don't want to miss an update. They wouldn't even let me see her before they took her in"
"They needed to get her into surgery quickly" Flack said to him coolly
"I didn't even call her family" Danny said to him but didn't look at him, he just kept looking straight ahead
"Mac took care of it, he contacted Chris would spoke to her mother" Flack assured him
"This isn't how I pictured today" Danny said still looking straight ahead "I thought when we had this baby it would be the same as having Lucy. Having a baby is supposed to be exciting and a happy occasion"
"It could still turn out that way" Flack told him taking a seat next to him
"I was so worried about Billy" Danny started "I didn't even think something like this could happen, you know? This is a natural thing that happened and it didn't even enter mind- not once. And it should have because pregnancy has the potential of being dangerous to both the child and mother"
"Not a lot of people think of negatives in the pregnancy Dan" Flack told him "Stuff like this just happens, there was nothing you could have done"
"What if I loose them Don?" Danny asked him "What if I loose both my wife and daughter tonight?"
"You just have to pray" Flack told him placing a reassuring hand on his friends shoulder
Across the room was the rest of the team
"It's been a long time right?" Adam questioned the group "Hawkes?"
"Yea it has been but that doesn't mean it's a bad thing" Hawkes told him "They're being real careful. This is a very dangerous procedure"
"Why haven't we heard anything?" Adam asked, Mac couldn't help but notice that Adam was like a kid with his innocent questions
"There is probably nothing to tell" Mac told him "Once they have some news they'll be out"
"This waiting is making me crazy" Adam admitted earning a smile from Jo who can see how close this team really is "I can only imagine what it's doing for Danny"
About half an hour later a doctor walked out
"Mr. Messer" the doctor said removing his surgical mask and Danny stood up
"So what's the word Doc? Is Lindsay ok? The baby?" Danny questioned
"The surgery was a success" The doctor told him and Danny let out a breath he felt he was holding since Mac had called him "Your daughter is 1 lb 5oz and she being set up in the NICU"
"That's small" Danny spat out "That's too small-"
"She is going to have some obstacles, probably be in the hospital for a while but I don't see why she wont make a full recovery"
"Where's Lindsay?" Danny asked
"She is being moved to recovery, she's still out she wont be up for another half hour or so" the doctor said to him "Would you like to see your daughter?"
"I don't think I can do that without Lindsay" Danny admitted
"I think Lindsay would have wanted that" Mac said behind Danny "Go see your daughter and I'll wait in Lindsay's room just in case she wakes up"
"Ok" Danny said nodding, he was clearly still in shock
"Follow me Mr. Messer" The doctor instructed and Danny followed him. He had to put on a hospital gown, mask and gloves then walked over to the tiny child that was hooked on oxygen. "Her lungs seem well the oxygen is just precautionary until we can run some tests"
"Right" Danny said mesmerized by the tiny child in front of him
"Sorry you can't hold her yet" the doctor said to him
"As long as she's ok" Danny said placing his hand on top of the glass
"Did you and Lindsay think of any names?" the doctor asked
"Yea" Danny said to him "But I want to wait for her just in case she changed her mind or something. She did all the work she should at least get to pick the name" with that the doctor laughed slightly
"That's true" The elderly man smirked
"Thanks for saving them doc" Danny said to the doctor
"It's what I do" the doctor smiled
In Lindsay's room
Mac was sitting next to Lindsay's bedside when Danny walked in
"How's the baby?" Mac asked standing up
"She's a fighter" Danny said to him "She's small though- I mean teeny tiny"
"She'll be bigger before you know it" Mac assured him "I'm sure Lindsay would rather hear from you" he said pulling the chair for Danny "I'm going to call your mom and give her an update"
"Thanks Mac" Danny said to him and he took Mac's seat and gently took Lindsay's hand into his own "Hey you really scared me today" he said to her "It was bad enough to think something was wrong with the baby but then you? When you wake up you have to promise me to do never do that again" he said with a smirk "Ah it wasn't your fault" he said waiting for her to respond "I saw our daughter she's so small but so beautiful. I think this one is going to look like you" then he sighed "I didn't name her because I wasn't sure if you wanted to change what we decided on. If you wake up right now I'll let you name her anything you want- Winifred even" Danny said then smirked "Or Mora, I know for some reason you liked that to" then Lindsay's eyes slowly opened "Hey welcome back" Danny said moving so was sitting on the edge of the bed but still holding her hand
"The baby?" Lindsay asked
"She's ok" Danny assured her "She's 1 lb 5 oz and I just saw her, she's ok" with that Lindsay closed her eyes and let the tears escaped and Danny kissed her hand
"I want to see her" Lindsay said to him
"I'm sure you can just not right now, you just got out of surgery" Danny told her
"Then you should be with her I don't want her to be alone" Lindsay said to him
"I'll go see her I promise" Danny said to her "How are you feeling?"
"Numb" Lindsay told him truthfully "I guess they gave me a lot of pain medication. Where's Lucy?"
"She's with my Ma" Danny told her and she nodded "Everyone is outside worried sick about you"
"I probably scared them" Lindsay sighed "I didn't mean to do that"
"You scared me" Danny said to her "That was the worst three hours of my life"
"I'm sorry Danny" Lindsay said looking up at him "I shouldn't have come back to work you were right"
"What happened to you just happens sometimes" Danny said to her "You couldn't have prevented it. And if this happened at home when you were alone you might not have been able to get help"
"Yea" Lindsay said nodding "I really want to see her"
"The doctor is going to have to check you out first" Danny said to her "And she's probably going to need a name" Lindsay smiled at that
"What happened to the one we picked out?" Lindsay questioned
"Well I picked it out" Danny reminded her "And I think since you had to call thru all of this that you should get to name her anything you want"
"That's sweet" Lindsay said to him "But I like Lily Messer"
"Good" Danny said "Because if I had to call my daughter Winnie-"
"Lily Maria Messer" Lindsay told him, giving Lily Danny's mother's name.
"She looks like a Lily" Danny said to her
"I bet she does" Lindsay smiled back at him
In the waiting area
Mac was talking to Jo, and Adam, Hawkes and Flack were in a conversation when two familiar people walked into the waiting room
"Can I help you?" Mac asked walking over
"Yes you can direct me to the doctor in charge of my grandchild" David Myers said to Mac
"You don't have a grandchild here" Mac told him
"This isn't the time for games" Linda Myers told him "We love that baby just as much as we love our own children"
"Let me ask ya, did you love your children so much you'd hide them out from the police?" Flack questioned
"I don't like what you're implying officer" David spat at Flack who shrugged
"Lindsay just went thru a very tough surgery and hasn't even woken up yet for all I know-" Mac started
"We don't need that girls consent to see that child" David sad to him
"Sure you do" Mac said to him "This isn't the time or place for this"
"We dropped that lawsuit against Lindsay to show good faith. We didn't want to upset her while she was carrying our grandchild. Believe us when we tell you we have that child's best interest at heart" Linda told them
"That child is not your grandchild and I am very sorry that you believe that" Mac said to them
"We're going to get a court order for a DNA test" David told him
"You do that" Mac said "But in the mean time I am going to have a talk with Lindsay and Danny and see how they feel about a restraining order and if you try to harass or come within 100 feet of them or their child then you'll be in jail. And I also suggest when you speak to your son you encourage him to turn himself in because we did not forget he is still out there and we will be bringing him in one way or another"
"You are very rude" Linda Myers said then her and David and turned
"I didn't think you were rude" Adam said seriously behind Mac
"I'd pity them if they didn't piss me off so much" Jo said to them "They are in straight denial"
"Or they're as crazy as their son" Adam added and Jo nodded
"Let's not mention this to Danny" Mac said and they all agreed "He needs to focus all his attention on Lindsay and the baby"
In Lindsay's room
A few doctors walked in and started discussing the Lily's health with her
"How is she doing?" Lindsay asked them
"She's small but strong" the doctor smiled "We're going to keep her here for a while, we want to get her weight up a little"
"How is she though?" Lindsay questioned as Danny still held onto her hand
"She's remarkably healthy" The doctor said to her "Her organs are working well, you both are very lucky"
"Can I see her?" Lindsay asked
"We would have to wheel you down there I don't want you moving around, don't forget you also had a major surgery Lindsay" the doctor told her
"I know that's fine" Lindsay said
"Ok" The doctor nodded
NICU
Danny pushed Lindsay over to Lily and she watched in awe
"She's so small" Lindsay said sadly
"She's small but tough" Danny reminded her "Like you"
"Are you making a short joke?" Lindsay teased lightly
"Nah" Danny smirked
"I can't believe she's here already" Lindsay said looking at her "I can't believe I can't hold her she needs her mother"
"You will soon" Danny promised
"I just want to take her home Danny" Lindsay said as tears fell from her eyes "She needs to be with her parents and sister"
"I know that" Danny said "But this is the best for her"
"She's going to think we a banded her" Lindsay said sadly
"She's not going to think that" he assured her as Lindsay just stared at her daughter
"You know everything we've been threw these last few months seem like nothing compared to this" Lindsay said to Danny "We could have lost our daughter today"
"But we didn't" Danny said leaning to give Lindsay a kiss on top of her head
"Thank you" Lindsay said taking Danny's hand
"For what?" he asked
"For giving me two daughters" Lindsay said looking up at him "For being here with me"
"I wouldn't be anywhere else" Danny assured her as they both looked at their small daughter together
A/N: Hey guys I hope you enjoyed the new chapter! Obviously this chapter centered around the birth of Lily Messer and I didn't want to overkill with too much Billy. But he's still around and still a problem (or at least he will be in up-coming chapters). Thanks for all the reviews and let me know what you thought :)