Chapter 5

I started by going back to the park. It seemed to make sense giving the current situation. I picked up his scent straight away and followed it hoping to find his house. I knew it was way too early but he was the only person I wanted to talk to, he makes me feel well…special.

I followed the trail to his house but once I got there I realized that he had not actually gone inside. I continued to follow his trail and it appeared to go round to the back of his house. Then I saw him.

He had his back to me so I just crept up behind him and then sat down next to him. I saw him jump then take a deep breath.

"Nessie, you quite literally scared the crap out of me."

"Sorry, Nate." He turned to face me then.

"What's happened?" Funny how he knew something was up by just looking at me.

"Err, its just Jake, but it's alright now. He's gone."

"What as in he's left?" he asked with a hint of a smile on his face.

"Yeah, I told my mom to ask him to leave. So erm, what are you doing out here? You looked a bit depressed." I was truly curious. I mean it was very early for a human. On a school night.

"Err, I don't really want to talk about it. All you need to know is that I have a problem that I have to sort out." He used a hard tone and I was kind of scared about what his problem might be. I hope he wasn't in trouble or anything. He shifted his weight all of and all of a sudden he seemed very uncomfortable.

"Ness, I really, really like you. Will you be my girlfriend?" OH MY GOD! As if he just asked me that. Oh my god what do I do? I really like him too. I should just go for it. I want to. I can't, what about Jake? Wait, who cares about Jake.

"I would love to Nate." I said with a smile playing around my lips. He sighed a breath of relief.

"Great" he said with a massive smile on his face. Then he leaned in to kiss me.

Nothing felt more amazing to me than feeling his lips moving with mine. He put his hand at the small of my back to bring me closer to him, so that every inch of our bodies were touching. I put my hand at the back of his head to pull his face closer to mine to deepen the kiss. I could feel both of us getting carried away, but somehow I couldn't bring myself to stop. I just wanted to experience things.

Nate took his other hand and started to go under my top. I knew enough about this kind of stuff to know where his hand would end up. And sure enough he brought his hand up to my chest. I guess it was good I was wearing a good bra. I groaned in pleasure. What was I doing? I was going I bit far I only met this boy yesterday. It took every inch of my mind and body strength to pull myself away. He looked a bit hurt that I ended our encounter so abruptly so I had to explain.

"Nate, look. I like you. A lot. I just don't want to rush into things, I'm kind of new to this so please, can we just take it slow?" I sounded a bit shaky because my breathing was so heavy. Then again, his breathing wasn't much better.

"Sure, okay. I just thought you pulled away because you had changed your mind about being with me."

"No, of course not. But I really should be getting home. It's about 4am I said I would be back around this time. I'll see you tomorrow at school." And with that I kissed him once more then started to walk away.

In the distance I heard him say "bye Ness, I love you." Wow, he loves me. My life has become very interesting all of a sudden.

As soon as I was a fair distance away from Nate's house I ran like the wind home. Sure enough the whole family was waiting for me in our living room. Everyone was there. Except Jake.

Alice came straight up to me and gave me a hug. Oh I guess they all know then. At least Alice is happy for me.

"So you have a boyfriend now huh? Why don't you bring him round and I can show him some of your naked baby pictures." Emmett laughed at himself.

"Well first of all Emmett we don't have any naked baby pictures of me, so your hopes of embarrassing me are very tiny." I replied back smugly.

"You know I will think of something. I'm your uncle; it's my job to embarrass you." I ignored him and turned straight my mother.

"So you told him to leave then?" I asked her, I didn't think she would actually be able to do it.

"No I told him to leave but Nes-" Rose started but I cut her off.

"That's good, as long as he is gone. I'm going to bed now. Night." And with that I ran straight up to my room. I didn't want to talk about Jake I just wanted to make sure he was gone.

Then I saw him sitting there on my bed. I turned my bedroom light on. His eyes were all red and puffy. He had been crying.

"Jake, what are you doing here? I thought Rosalie told you to leave." I was soooo angry! What was he doing here? I didn't want to see him, why didn't he just get out of my life already.

"You don't want me here." It wasn't a question.

"No I don't, so can you please leave now." I was getting more agitated by the second. If he didn't leave soon I would do something I knew I would regret.

"Okay, I just had to check. They could have been making it up, you never know." He said, he seemed so depressed but I didn't care right now. The sooner he left the better I would feel about this whole situation. I mean I couldn't live with him if he kept trying to hit on me. He was like a brother to me. Nothing more, nothing less. It was just wrong.

He got up off my bed and walked straight past me and out of my room. I heard him go downstairs and shut the front door behind him. I lay down on my bed and cried. Why did it hurt me so much for him to leave? I asked him to leave because it wasn't right him being here. But now I wanted him back and he had only been gone for five minutes. What have I done?

"Ness?" It was dad he was standing outside my door.

"Yeah dad, come in." I said still crying. He came in and sat next to me on my bed. He started to stroke my hair.

"Nessie, you can always ask him to come back. If it hurts you so much just call him. I'm sure he would be happy to come back." He had been listening to my thoughts again. Damn.

"No dad. I don't want him to come back. I can't stand him living here when he is being like this."

"Okay hunny. Get some sleep now." He kissed my forehead and then walked out of my room. I fell asleep almost instantly.

I woke up the next morning feel irritable and groggy. Alice asked if she could dress me for school but I must have given her such a horrible look that she didn't even try to beg me. Today I rode to school with Rosalie in her M3. I didn't want to sit in a car with my mother and father. It would have been so awkward. At least in this car I still had Rosalie and Emmett acting like normal. Everybody else was acting like somebody had died, and seemed scared to talk to me like I would break down in front of them.

I couldn't believe it was only my second day of school. So much had happened in such a small amount of time.

I had trig first. I hadn't had trig yet so I wonder what it will be like.

I walked into the classroom and was not disappointed. The first person I saw smiling at me was Nate. I was so happy that he was in this lesson. He was sitting next to an empty seat so I went and sat next to him.

He smiled at me when I sat down and took my hand. "Hey" he said it was obvious it was happy. You could see it in his eyes.

"Hi" I said with a smile on my face.

"So I'm having a party Friday night, do you want to come?" He sounded hopeful. How could I say no, and besides parties meant meeting new people and I was definitely up for that.

"Sure." Just then the teacher walked in so we had to stop talking and get on with the lesson.

Nate was in all of my lessons that day, which did surprise me and at lunch I sat with him.

On the way home I was forced into the Volvo with mom and dad. I was just hoping that they wouldn't talk to me on the way home. But of course the opposite of what I want to happen would happen.

"Nessie, are you sure you don't want to call Jacob and ask him to come home. You have been very down since he left and he only left this morning." Dad asked me worriedly.

"I am not feeling down dad. I am fine, honestly. I've even been asked to go to a party on Friday at Nate's house. I said I would go is that alright?" I knew they would say yes. At this point I knew they would let me do almost anything as long as I wasn't moping around about Jake.

"Yes of course you can go darling." My mom said with a smile on her face. And that was all that was said on the way home. Thank goodness, I don't think I would have been able to take much more Jake talk. I was missing him like mad and he had only been gone a few hours like my father had pointed out. I feel like when Jake left he took a part of me with him. But I still didn't understand why it was hurting me so much that he had left.

Please review people! :)

And lots of thanks to people that have been reviewing my story.