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Chapter 8

I woke up in my room. What? Why was I here? I need to get back to the hospital, I need to see Jake, even if he is…

I heard dad from downstairs, "She wants to go back to the hospital and see Jacob."

"Should we let her, she might not be able to take it." Mom replied. Great, they would even go and let me see my best friend. I ran downstairs a little light headed.

"You don't have to take me. I want to go on my own, Carlisle is still there anyway isn't he?" Dad started to interrupt but I continued. "Please, I want to do this on my own. I don't want you all standing around me expecting me to be upset. Mom, dad, I need to do this. Please." I was almost begging to see Jake, and he wouldn't even know I was there. I thought to dad, please dad. I need to see him. He was my best friend. He took his life to save mine, and I think I might - maybe I – no don't worry about that actually. Just know that I cared about him a lot. And I need to see him. Please. I begged one last time. He nodded and then let me run free.

I heard mom start to ask him what I had thought to him, but he didn't answer. Thank you, please don't tell anyone. I thought to dad, I was still quite close to the house so I knew he would be able to hear me.

I took dads Volvo to the hospital to give me more time to myself. I would get there to quick if I ran. I needed to prepare myself for what I was about to see. My friend, my best friend, Jake, and he was…it was hard for me to even think the word let alone say it out loud. I arrived at the hospital about 10 minutes after getting in the car. I still got there too quick, but I wasn't going to turn around now. I walked up to the big hospital automatic doors and just stood there for a few minutes.

I then took a deep breath and walked in. Carlisle was right by the door as soon as I stepped in. he must have smelt me coming or something. He gave me a look to say 'do you really want to do this'. I just nodded in reply. He walked with me to Jake's room and then stopped outside the door.

"If you don't mind Carlisle, I would like to do this on my own. Just please make sure no one comes in here." He nodded and then gave me a quick hug. I braced myself and then walked in.

There he was. Lying in that horrible hospital bed, not moving. I was crying but not making any sound, I didn't want Carlisle to come in.

"Jake, I'm so sorry." I sobbed to his body. "You said you would always be here for me." I said to him my voice breaking. I heard a machine beeping, must have been coming from the next room.

"Why did it have to happen to you? I'm so sorry Jake." I heard that annoying beeping sound again. "If I knew you was going to jump in front of that bullet, I would have jumped in front of you." There was that beeping sound again, it was happening like every 10 seconds now. I continued to talk to Jake anyway "I would have taken that bullet for you." Something beeped again. Okay this was starting to annoy me now. I looked up from Jake's body to go out the room and see where the beeping was coming from. And then I noticed Jake's machine. The heart rate line had zigzags in it. Like his heart had been beating recently. Then I heard the beep again, and jakes line went up again.

I must be imagining it I thought to myself. But I wasn't. The beeping was happening about every 5 seconds now. I went over to Jake's body and but my ear to his chest. Then I heard it: the sound I would have given up everything to hear again. It was Jake's heartbeat.

"Carlisle." I said very quietly, I knew he would hear me though. I was still trying to collect my thoughts together when Carlisle came in. When he did all I could do was point at Jake's machine. Then I watched Carlisle's eyes bulge out of their sockets.

"Carlisle, is he-?" I asked, I couldn't even finish the question, it didn't make any sense to me.

"Yes, I – I think he is." Carlisle answered.

Soo i know that wasnt a very long chapter .. and if your confused then just be patient it will all be explained in the upcoming chapters :)

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