Ohmygosh! I am soooo sorry that i haven't uploaded in two months! :o

I apologise, i had exams for a while and then got extreme writers block :/

But here is an extra long chapter and i might even post another one in a couple of hours to make up for it! I am so sorry.

I hope you enjoy this chapter!

Chapter 16

Jake and Freddie left about five minutes ago and I was already pacing up and down impatiently. What could they be talking about? What are they doing? Where are they? All I know is that they are far away from the house because my dad can't hear them. I hope they come back soon; I am starting to get paranoid.

"Oh no!" I heard Aunt Alice gasp from upstairs. What - what's happened? Just then I doubled over in pain. I felt like someone was ripping my heart from inside my chest. I fell to the ground and curled up into a small ball. My mom came into the room and saw me on the floor. She must have been on her way upstairs to find out what was wrong with Alice.

"Edward! What's happening?" she asked, worry tinting her voice. My dad came running down the stairs at inhuman speed.

"Its Jake, he's left." He came over to me and started stroking my back, but I was shaking furiously. "When they leave their imprint it not only hurts them, but it hurts the item of the imprint as well." It made sense now. Jake had left. That's why I feel this horrid pain in my chest. I felt like my heart was literally ripping apart.

I had to force myself off the floor. I wasn't just going to sit there helpless and let the pain get to me. The sooner I found Jacob the sooner the pain would go away. I had to find him, for both of our sakes. Surely he can't like this pain anymore than me. Dad obviously reading my mind grabbed my arm once I stood up. I tried to keep walking but he had a tight grip on my arm.

"The last thing we need is you getting lost looking for Jacob." I pulled my arm back aggressively.

"Don't you understand dad. I have to find him. I can't live with this pain for much longer." I started running towards the door, but it opened just before I reached it.

Freddie stepped into the house. For some reason – even though I knew he was gone – I expected Jake to walk in behind him. I walked up to him and was about to hit him.

"Ness stop! It's not Freddie's fault. I just watched the whole thing in his head. Jake left because he wanted to." I turned to face him.

"Jake wanted to leave. He didn't want to be here…with…me?" I started crying uncontrollably. "I thought he loved me! I am his imprint how can he just leave me? We are meant to be together but now he's not here. He has left me." Mom came rushing up to me and hugged me so tightly.

"Of course he loves you. He didn't leave because he doesn't love you…right Edward?" she pleaded him with her eyes. But I didn't want dad to lie to me. I wanted to know the real reason Jake left.

"Dad, why did he leave me? Freddie, you should know. You were there. Why did he leave?" Freddie just looked straight to my dad. He obviously didn't want to say it out loud and was replaying it in his head for my father. "Well? Are one of you going to answer me?" I was getting impatient I need to know why Jake left. Did I do something wrong?

Dad shifted uncomfortably. Oh come on. It couldn't be that bad could it?

"Ness he left because…well…because-"

"Oh just spit it out will you!" I was become very aggravated. I didn't know how much longer I could wait for an answer.

"He left because he thinks your falling in love with Freddie." I laughed.

"Yeah, good one. Jake knows that would never happen. So what's the real reason he left then?" my dad looked at me with pain on his face.

"Ness, that is the real reason he left." I shook my head at him.

"No. NO. But that's ridiculous. Why would he think that?" I looked at Freddie. "What did you say to him?" I growled at him viciously. He looked at me all wide-eyed and innocent.

"I didn't say anything. It's not my fault he got the strange thought into his head." He started to walk towards me but I ran up to my room and locked the door. I shoved my dressing table in front of the door so that everyone got the idea that I didn't want anyone in here. Obviously it wouldn't stop them, but showed them that I didn't want to be disturbed.

I went and sat on my bed. The torturous pain still ripping through my chest. I cried and cried for hours on end. Then after about four hours I ran out of tears. But I still couldn't bring myself to leave my room. Jake had left me. I didn't want to see or talk to anyone. I just sat on my bed, not moving and lifeless.

I don't know how longs it's been. It could have been months for all I know. All I do know is that it has been a few days at least as the sun has risen and set numerous times. Nobody has bothered to come into my room, and I have not come out of it. In fact I haven't moved an inch since the day Jake left. I didn't even want to move, with fear that my body might collapse under my weight. The pain in my chest has made me very weak. And I hadn't hunted or eaten human food for god knows how long. Ever since I had locked myself in here I had heard my whole family whispering about me. There really was no point them whispering I could still hear them. They were all worried about me, they thought I had gone into to shock. Dad was the most worried because my mind was blank. I wasn't thinking anything.

I heard the front door open and then close. That's probably Freddie. He has come here everyday since Jake left. I don't know why thought, it was obvious I didn't want to talk to him. I heard mumbling downstairs. I normally don't bother to listen but something about my dads tone of voice made me listen.

"You are not going up there to speak to her. She doesn't want to talk to anyone. Isn't that a bit obvious." Dad mumbled.

"I know, but maybe if I talk to her it will make her feel a bit better about the situation. I really want to help Edward, please." I wonder why he was begging my dad so much.

"Okay, but if she tells you to go away or leave her alone then I expect you to do just that. Do not pressure her into anything." After that I heard footsteps coming upstairs so I was guessing that Freddie nodded to what my father said. Knock, knock.

I guess I could let him in. But I don't know if I will be able to talk. However I am a bit lonely so I guess…

"Come in Freddie." He pushed the door open. And the dressing table moved with the door. He walked over to me and sat on the edge of the bed. For a few minutes neither of us said anything. We just looked at each other. I wonder what I looked like. I have been wearing the same clothes for days.

"So how are you?" I just looked at him. How did it look like I was. "Okay so bad question. But what do you expect me to ask you Ness. It's been two weeks since Jake left." Wow, it had been ages. "I think its time you came out of your room. You need to hunt or eat. We are all so worried about you. Please, even if you just hunt then come back to your room we will all feel much less worried about you." I nodded. I really did need to hunt. I felt so week. Freddie stood up.

"Do you need help? Or can you get up yourself?" I didn't want any help from anyone so I decided to get up myself. As soon as I had planted my feet on the ground I fell. Luckily Freddie was watching me and caught me quickly.

"I think I will carry you." I just nodded. I didn't want to be in Freddie's arms. I wanted to be in Jake's. He ran down the stairs and everybody was staring at me. Now I was really paranoid about what I looked like. I looked at dad and saw him nod towards Freddie. He probably told him that he was taking me hunting. Dad then looked at me and nodded. He had an odd expression on his face. Oh it's probably my fault. My mind is still blank. Is it really worrying when I'm not thinking anything? I thought to him. He just nodded and then turned to face my mother. I didn't catch what he was saying to her as Freddie was already running through the forest with me in his arms.

I just stay there in his arms. Not moving or saying anything. Just watching the green blurs go past us. Freddie but me down next to a tree and then went off to hunt. He came back a few minutes later with a deer and put it in front of me. I didn't like the fact how he had to hunt for me but I had to admit that I didn't have the strength to do it myself. I crawled over to the deer and then sunk my teeth into its neck. Ah, it tastes so good. The feeling of the warm smooth blood flowing down my throat was just amazing. I hadn't even realised how thirsty I was until I finished draining the deer. Freddie was about to get up and get me another one but I shook my head at him. I wanted to do this myself now that I had most of my strength back.

I got up and let my sense take over. I heard more deer to the east of where I was. Two maybe three of them, one male, two females. I ran towards the male knowing that he would be the largest. I jumped on him then snapped his neck so he didn't have a long painful death. Then I sunk my teeth in and enjoyed the feel of the rich blood running down my throat. Once I had finished I just sat down in front of it staring at nothing in particular. My mind was blank again. There was nothing for me to think about. Freddie came up from behind me and sat down next to me.

"Ness, please say something. I haven't heard you talk for weeks. Apart from like three words earlier. You have to be hurting or something. Just let it all out." What was he babbling about now. See he doesn't know me at all. I really have no emotions left in me. I am hollow inside my heart and soul left when Jake did. I have nothing to let out. Then Freddie put his arms round me and turned me to face him. He just looked at me, I wonder what he saw. My face felt expressionless.

He started moving closer to me but I couldn't do anything. I was fixed to the spot. I still found it hard to do much. I was only able to hunt because of my thirst. His face was just inches away from mine now and I still hadn't moved. I guess it hadn't really clicked what he was probably about to do. Then his lips were on mine, he was kissing me quite forcefully but I just sat there not responding. When he was done he sat back and smiled at me. I just got up and walked away. I didn't even have a reaction to what he had just done. If I was my normal self I would have been hitting him with all the force I could manage. But I couldn't do anything. I continued walking until I reached the house. I stepped through the door and saw everyone standing there.

I showed dad what had happened and he was smiling until it got to the part where Freddie had kissed me. By the time I had finished showing him Freddie came through the door.

"Freddie, can we have a word outside please?" my dad asked him more politely than he should of. Freddie swallowed loudly and then nodded. I went over to my mom and put my hand on her cheek. I love you. And I'm sorry. If she could, she would have been crying right now.

"I love you too. And you have nothing to be sorry about. It's not your fault Ja- he left." I nodded. I place my hand on her cheek again. I'm going to bed now. Night. She nodded and then kissed me on the cheek. I looked round at everyone, who were standing there watching me and mom. I smiled at them all and then went upstairs' into my room.

I went into my bathroom and turned the shower on. I really needed this. I got in and liked the way the warm water ran down my body. Relaxing all my tensed muscles as it went. Once I had washed and washed my hair I got out. I felt much better and fresh. I put some jogging bottoms on and a plain shirt and then climbed into my bed. Just as I was getting comfortable to go to sleep there was a knock at my door. Freddie opened it and poked his head round. I nodded and he came in. For some reason I still didn't want to talk. I don't really think I had a logical reason for not wanting to. It just seemed like a bad idea for now. Once again Freddie came and sat on the edge of my bed.

"Look about earlier. I'm so sorry Ness. I just couldn't help it, I like you more than you can imagine." He looked down, obviously embarrassed by what he had said.

I put my hand on his cheek. It's okay. I forgive you. He looked up and smiled at me.

"I want to make it up for you Ness. And I think I know the exact way how. And you never know, it might even cheer you up a bit." He said smiling. He sounded really excited I wonder what it could be. I showed confusion on my face. The first expression it has held in about two weeks. "I want to take you to Italy!" He was squealing with excitement. It reminded me of Alice.

I once again put my hand against his cheek. That sounds great. I would love to go to Italy with you. I looked at him and smiled.