Chapter 20
I was in the forest. Running. Why am I running? Oh, I'm racing Jake. I stopped when I got to a clearing. Jake was sitting in the middle of it. He had already phased back to his human form. Wait; was he even in his wolf form before? I walked up to him and he stood up. I smiled at him then gave him a massive hug. Suddenly, there wasn't soft, warm arms wrapped around me anymore, they were cold and as hard as stone.
I got pushed to the floor and struggled to get up. I felt a strong force on my face and realised that I had been punched. I looked up, vision blurry, to see Freddie staring at me with a smug look on his face. The last thing I felt before I fell in to utter darkness was something pulling at my jeans.
I woke up gasping for air. "Ness, Ness are you alright?" Jake was holding me in his arms with a worried look on his face.
I sat up looking around. I'm in my room. Wow, I must have been really tired; I don't even remember getting off the plane. I looked to my left to see Jake still sitting there with a pained look on his face. I realised that I still hadn't answered him.
"Yeah I'm fine, I just had a bad dream." He frowned but didn't push it any further. "It was about Freddie." I stated. I watched as he tried to hide the anger on his face. But his hands started to shake. He took a deep breath and the shaking ceased.
"It's fine, he's gone now. He isn't coming back." He said trying to calm me. He went to kiss me but I cringed away from his touch. He got a hurt look on his face.
"I'm sorry; it's not your fault. I just can't." I apologized and then got out of my bed and walked out of the room. He just sat there staring at me as I left. I walked down the stairs and was heading for the door but everyone was in the living room. I was hoping that dad would just tell them everything that was going on. I could feel everyone looking at me but I just walked straight to the door and then outside.
I walked into the forest and when I was far enough that I was sure dad couldn't hear my thoughts I stopped and sat on the ground. The look on Jake's face pained me so much. I don't mean to hurt him and yet I do, constantly. But I couldn't let him kiss me, not after the nightmare I just had. It was so realistic like I was actually there and Freddie was going to hurt me again. I couldn't let Jake touch me after that. Yeah I can hug him, that's fine. Freddie and I never really hugged. But would we ever be able to do anything more than just hug? I wasn't sure. This event has scarred me. And in result things between me and Jake may not be the same any more.
Short chapter, i know. I'm not really sure where i am going with this story any more so this will have to do for now. I'll try and update again soon :)