Lure Lost Episode 18/?

A/N: also I spelt something wrong in the last chapter I used the wrong word (embarrassed face) it's not supposed to be 'indulgent' I forgot to change it but atleast you know I was trying to say :3

Luke was sitting down around the dinner table with a warm cup of coffee at the Snyder's farm. After he got in last night he tosses and turns in his bed unable to sleep. He was always happy to have somewhere he could get away to gather his thoughts. He didn't return to the apartment last night instead he spent the night sleeping with Reid. Felt like he was in high school again. Noah missed call on his phone and Reid's probably awake

He was confused, what was he supposed to do now? Luke couldn't believe how the short time Reid's been here he was falling for him all over again. His arrogance, rude, ill manners he was and he somehow missed all that…miss seeing him. Seeing him with that guy he couldn't contain his feelings, couldn't bear to see him with someone else yet he was with Noah. Selfish maybe he does love Noah, it was not fair after so long he was back in Oakdale.

He saw his dad and Ethan came down stairs. "Hey didn't know you were here"

"Yea, I got in really late" Luke explained walking over to the table to his little brother.

"Morning Luke" He smiled.

"Morning little guy" He said rubbing a hand on his little brother's head as Holden made a bowl of cereal for Ethan.

"…You and Noah had another argument?"

He slump his shoulders and sigh "No"

"What is it? I mean I'm not trying to be in your business-"

"Has to do with particular doctor" Luke said finally. It was funny how his father was oblivious to everything what was happening because of his own drama with molly and his mom. Since they gotten to sit down and talk about it, he was here trying to be supportive and concern. One of the few things he loved about him.

"Oh"

"Yup" then it got quiet for moment as they watch Ethan playing in his cereal making actions noises with the flake shape o's.

"You know…when Molly and I were together, as much I was convinced I loved Molly, I did loved her, different from your Mom but… Molly could see that Lily still had me" dazing off and fiddling with his wedding ring.

"You always chose mom..."

"We've shared our whole lives together, it's hard to separate and forget something like that with that person but even with Molly. I care for her but…wasn't the same"

Luke didn't say anything just focus expression on his face. "It's hard to let go …first love they represent your first steps…loving someone, the experiences…" Holden tried saying without saying too much. "But you have a journey out there waiting to explore sometimes they're there but time goes by people change and you realize that certain person was there for that reason"

Luke looked at his dad and ran a hand through his hair "Dad why can't I meet a normal guy with uncomplicated situations"

"Luke, since when is this family have been anything but normal"

"Yea, what was I thinking, it's in the gene"

"Dad we're going to be late" Ethan interjected, tugging the strap on his backpack. They got up.

"Your Mom is flying back tomorrow night. I'm happy everything worked out with the perfume company she's been so passionate about it" Holden said with a warm smile.

"Yea, I know she called"

"Your grandmother supposed to be coming to visit. John's away so she's taking the time to see us" Luke nodded and watched as they left.

He knew had something to do.

Luke open the door to his apartment and lazily peeled his jacket off and threw is on the chair. Looking through the mail, a yellow paper caught his eye that was near the door.

Dropping the mail on the table Luke picks the paper off the floor curiously and opens it. Reading the paper, his eyes large then serious as continue to read each line.

He planned to stay for a short time did what he was suppose to and head back to Dallas. Now he was here not sure what to think. Channing had left short notice to go to that had publicity all over it. As much as he hates to admit it but that was the first time in long while he slept peaceful. Before he had it all planned out the leave Oakdale and now… after last night. Everything happen so fast next thing he knew they were on the floor, all those frustration and longing have been released just to wake up alone. What an evil trick he thought. It was one thing longing for a something forbidden than getting it and now, tasting it once you crave for more. The conversation they had only left him questioning things more, what did this mean now? What was he suppose to think ? made his head hurt more trying to comprehend what So caught up with his thoughts he didn't hear Katie question.

"What?"

"So are you going to take up Chris on his offer?"

"I thought you came here to smolder your husband not to interrogate me"

"I'm not interrogating you I'm just asking what you plan on doing"

"I haven't given it much thought" He said continue eating his sandwich.

Katie rolled the cup in her hands feeling the warmth seeping through.

"What's with you? Everything fine in the oven?"

"Yes"

"How are you doing?"

"Me?"

"Yea" She dares to ask. "Have you spoken to Luke?" The sound of his name made his chest tighten, not sure if it was a good or bad thing.

"Should I?" He responded, thinking about their argument last night.

The look of concern written on her face. "If it doesn't concern me I don't want to know" he said resume stuffing his face.

"It does…" Reid stop and looks at her waiting to hear the rest of the sentence, what could possibly be of interest to him?

"Luke is going to L.A with Noah"

In the dark, the lamp light glows from the corner. Luke sat quietly with the light casting on his face, brows fro and face stern as he heard the sound of the door unlock.

"Where have you been? I've been trying to call you?" He said in a firm voice

"I know…"

"I got the tickets" He said simply and without looking at him. "You were with him weren't you?"

"Noah-"He tried to explain but Noah cut him off with response he wasn't expecting.

"Okay, listen it's okay we will leave and we can go and start over" he said to Luke. "We will soon be out of Oakdale and we can forget all of this"

"Noah-"

"Noah! Just stop!" He had enough got up "I don't think that ticket is meant for me"

Confused, Luke hand him the piece of paper. Reading the first line he knew running a hand over his head.

"It's not what you think okay"

"I think it's pretty accurate…" He said. "How long have this been going on?"

"I' don't care about Richard okay, I love you"

"Really?"

"Luke it's-"

"Can we stop pretending everything's fine?" Luke snapped and got up.

"We can still make it work! I know we can!" Noah said desperately holding unto Luke's arm. The blonde just stared at him.

"Noah-"

"I guess this is what you wanted!" He snapped, pulling away.

"what? No-"

"So you can be with Reid! Think I don't see him!" He shouted

"Don't you care about what we have?"

"Yes, would you sto-" with one motion he reach to grab Noah's arm when he flick his back hand connected below his eye.

"Oh my God! Luke I'm so sorry!" seeing Luke fall back into the chair holding the said of his face. Easing his hand away to see his pale skin was bruising red with a small cut. He quickly ran to the kitchen loading some ice in a kitchen cloth and placing it against Luke's cheek. Seeing how stupid he was Noah sigh and fell back into the chair.

"I'm sorry I didn't mean to-"

"I know" He said simply holding the cloth to his cheek. Two men sat in the dim room not saying another word. Not sure what to say than taking in the whole ordeal.

"I saw you at the balcony…" ran a hand through his dark hair. "kissing him.. I just wanted to make things right between us"

"What if we can't?" Noah sigh "that's all you can say?"

"What do you want me to say Noah" He said tiredly. "How long are we going to keep doing this to ourselves?"

"What are you saying Luke?"

"I'm saying our relationship died along time ago" He whispered. Noah couldn't respond, He knew it was true, the utter truth that could hear the strained glass shattered at their reality.

"Luke, I just don't know what to say, I mean I know we haven't been happy…"

"Noah, I think you're holding more to the idea-"

"You're all I've got Luke, our history you've been there I have no one else, that's hard to give up something like that"

"It's not forgotten Noah, I'll always be there for you" grabbing his hand. "Just go and be happy with Richard" squeezing his hand to reassure him. "It's okay"

"You should take him to L.A"

"I told him off the other day, the letter… he's given up"

"Not if you tell him what you really want"

Noah nodded slowly and looks at him. "Do you love him?" for the first time, Luke would admit it aloud to himself. The years running in his mind he felt his heart beating fast and simply word escape his lips.

"Yes"

Noah looks at him and smiled sadly, nodding in response. "Sorry again" touching his face. "I told Katie about us going to L.A. together, I'm sorry I couldn't help myself"

"It's fine, just go, make it right" Luke said Noah

"I will always love you" Luke said "me too" Noah responded, they stood sad that this was their goodbye. Sharing one last bittersweet kiss Noah turns and left.

Luke grabbing his jacket he had one destination and only one.