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Jacob and I were waiting for our bags to come around and also waiting for Quil and Embry.

"I seriously hope they didn't fall asleep or something." Jacob said.

"Well its not like we couldn't get to La Push if we needed to. And in a lot less time." I said.

"True. But I really don't want to have to run all the way to La Push especially with luggage."

"Me either." I turned around to face the doors of the airport. Jake would watch for out luggage and I could watch for Quil and Embry. We had been waiting about ten minutes for our luggage.

"Looks like you have a fan club Ness." Jake said. I looked at him and he jerked his head motioning across the luggage pick up. Three guys were standing waiting for there luggage starring in our direction.

"Maybe they are starring at you." I said with a smirk.

"Right." Jacob said sarcastically.

"What they could-" I was cut off by to arms around me. If I hadn't smelled him first he would be in sever pain right now.

"Hey little monster." Said Embry jokingly. Giving me a big hug in the process. I laughed.

"Hey Embry." I said hugging him back. He let go and Quil came up behind him and gave me a hug.

"How have you been Ness?" Quil asked.

"Good. And you?"

"Great. I am glad you got to come down with Jake."

"Me to. I miss Washington."

"Well we will be sure to show you a good time while you are down here." Embry said.

"I am sure you will." Jacob said having grabbed our bags without me knowing.

"Ready?" Embry said. We nodded. We rode in a red four door SUV on the way back to La Push. Embry and Quil in front. Jake and I in the back. They
talked almost the whole way to La Push.

About all the trouble they used to get into and how much fun they had. I was quiet most the ride just enjoying listening to there stories. I was saddened in a way because I could tell how much Jacob loved it here. Being in Washington where his family was. And because of me he had to leave them. We stopped for gas about half way and also something to eat. I was looking at the sandwiches in the gas station trying to decide what to get.

"You have been awfully quiet so far." Jacob said coming to stand beside me. I looked up at him.

"Your not regretting coming here are you?" He said. I could see the hurt already spreading on his face. I was surprised he thought that.

"NO! Of course not. I am so glad I got to come home. I've been having fun listening to you three reminisce. That's all." Jacob's face lit up.

"Okay. Just making sure." He lifted his hand and pushed a stray hair out of my face. I smiled at him.

"None of that. None of that." Quil said walking up behind Jacob.

"We need to be getting on the road." Quil said. I picked out a Chicken Salad sandwich. Jake got the same. We got two big bags of chips to share and each got a drink. They we were back on the road.

"So Ness how is Bella?" Embry asked.

"She's good."

"She still a vegetarian?" Quil asked with a smirk. I smiled.

"Yes."

"Are you?" Embry said looking at me in the rearview mirror. He was smiling. Jacob slapped him in the back of the head.

"HEY! Watch it. I am driving." Embry said swerving a little.

"It's not like any of us can die... Well in a car crash that is." Jacob said.

"Yeah well this is Emily's car. And if we crash it I think we all rather be dead then have to face her."

"True. Sorry I will keep my hands to myself for now." Jacob said. The rest of the ride was uneventful. I talked more and listened to more stories that they had. Four and a half hours later we were in La Push pulling into Sam and Emily's. They had added an addition onto there house so it was a good size. They had to when they found out Emily was pregnant. They had a four year old name Skylar. When we got out of the car Emily was walking out the door with Skylar in her arms. She was a spitting image of Emily. So cute.

"Uncle Jake!" She yelled. Smiling big. Emily put her down and she ran to Jacob. He scooped her up and spun her around. Emily walked up to me and gave me a hug.

"Hi Ness."

"Hi Emily. Thank you for letting me stay here."

"Anytime. You are family. And your so pretty." She said pulling back to look at me. I smiled. She had seen pictures of me but I hadn't actually been back in seven years.

"Thank you. So are you. And your daughter."

"Oh thank you. Lets get inside. It's cold out here for some of us." I smiled and walked inside with her. Jake followed with Skylar with Embry and Quil behind him. They had grabbed my luggage for me. Jacob put Skylar down and she ran to play in her play area.

"You guys hungry?" Emily asked.

"Starving." Embry said. Emily brought out a pan of home-made brownies. We all took a piece and sat down in the living room. Sam came home about thirty minutes later.

"Hey everyone." He said kissing Emily then Skylar on the head.

"Hey Sam." Jacob and I said at the same time.

"Glad to see you two made it here safe. It's good to see you Ness. It's been a long time."

"You too. Thank you for letting me stay." Sam smiled.

"Your welcome." He grabbed on of the brownies left in the pan.

"I had better get to my dad's. He is probably wondering were I am." Jacob said.

"Okay." I said.

"Do you need me to patrol Sam?"

"Not tonight. But possible tomorrow. We caught a scent just a little north of here."

"Okay well just let me know."

"Will do." Jacob said. He kissed me on the forehead and pulled me into a tight hug.

"See you later." I said.

"Yeah. I will come back later." He said.

"You and Billy can come over for dinner." Emily said. Jacob nodded and said goodbye before walking out the door.

"I will show you to your room." Emily said. We walked down the short hall part of there new addition to the house and on the left was a nice size bedroom. Not near as big as mine at home but it was big enough.

"The bathroom is down the hall first door on the right. I will let you get settled."

"Thanks." Emily nodded and walked out of the room.
Later that night we were all sitting at the table eating delicious meat loaf and mashed potatoes. Emily was such a good cook. Jacob and I volunteered to do the dishes.

"So I was thinking you could come over to my dad's tomorrow. I can show you my old garage and we could just hang out."

"Sounds good to me." I said handing him the last plate. He smile and took the plate from me. We sat and talk with Billy a little bit but around nine o'clock he and Jacob left. I was really tired and went straight to bed. I woke up to the smell of bacon and eggs. It smelled so good. I got up and walked into the living room.

"Hey Ness. Hungry?" Emily said. I nodded and she made me a plate. I sat down at the table next to Skylar.

"Are you Uncle Jake's girlfriend?" She asked. I choked on the orange juice I was taking a drink of.

"Sky I told Jacob and Ness are just friends. Best friends."

"But Uncle Jacob loves her. Like you and daddy love each other." Emily sat down next to Skylar.

"Well sweetie sometimes a person can love someone and they not be together."

"But-but don't you love Uncle Jacob?" Skylar was looking at me waiting for an answer. I take a minute to answer. Trying to answer in a way that a five year old will some what understand.

"I do love Jacob but we are just friends. Best friends."

"But-"

"Sky you need to get ready to go ready. Grandma Sue will be waiting."

"Okay." She said and slowly got down out of her chair and walked upstairs.

"Sorry about that." Emily said.

"It's okay. I figured that I would have to answers questions about Jake and me."

"Jake says you have a boyfriend."

"He told you about that?" Emily smiled and sat down next to me.

"Yes. And I can tell by the look you had just now and when Sky asked you if you loved Jacob you feel a little guilty." I didn't say anything but she knew I knew she was right.

"It's normal to feel like that. I definitely felt guilty over having feeling for Sam for a long time. I know its not exactly the same thing but its similar." I nodded.

"I don't know what to do. I really like Chance. He is really sweet and nice and cute. But... I see what it does to Jake and I feel guilty and question weather I am doing the right thing."

"I don't know what is going to happen between you two in the future but I think you will end up being together. Partly because of the imprint. I know first hand the pull from it. But more so because I see the way you look at him...Ness please don't be with Jacob out of guilt. Be with him because you want to. It would hurt Jacob more if he knew that it was because of guilt."

"Thanks Emily." I said with a small smile.

"Anytime. You can always come talk to me. Have an insider to being imprinted on." She said smiling ran into the room with her pink back pack.

"I'm ready!" She said excitedly.

"Did you actually pack clothes this time or just toys?"

"I pack clothes in this one. My toys are in my suitcase." We all laughed.

"Okay. Well let me change and we will leave. Ness do you want to go? I could drop you off at Jake's."

"I don't think Jacob wake's up this early unless he is forced to."

"True. Well you can go with me to the grocery store. I have to get food for Thanksgiving and groceries for the week."

"Sounds good to me. I will go change."

A few hours later we were back at the house. Some of the pack was there so they helped carry them in. Sam,Paul and Jacob had been on patrol and seen us pull into the drive-way.

"Ready to go?" Jacob said sitting down beside me on the couch. I gave him a questioned look.

"To my house. I told you we could go there today and I would show you around."

"Oh yeah. You want to go now? You don't have to patrol?"

"No I told Sam that I had plans with you today."

"Oh okay. Well yeah lets go then." I said standing up.

"We'll be back later. I am going to show Ness my place." Jake told Emily.

"Okay. Have fun." She said. Jake and I walked out of the house.

"Race you?" Jacob said with a smile.

"Okay. I will even let you get a head start."

"I don't need-" He took off. i could hear him laughing. He didn't phase. Which meant it would be even easier to beat him. Only I didn't know the way to his house so I had to wait for him. It didn't take us long about five minutes and we were to his house.

"So this is it. It's small but its home."

"It's cute."

"Whatever you say." Jacob said.

"It is."

"Okay." We walked up to the house and went inside.

"So this is where you grow up."

"Yes." I smiled at the pictures that lined the wall. A lot of pictures of Jake, Quil and Embry. Pictures of his sisters and Billy. And in the very middle was a picture of the Black family. Billy,Rachel,Rebecca and holding Jake is his mom Sarah. He didn't talk about his mom much but I knew he didn't remember a lot about her since she died when he was so young.

"You mom was really pretty." Jake gave a small smile and looked away.

"Yeah. People who knew her say I look like her and some of the things I saw or do remind them of her."

"I wish I could have met her."

"Me too... Let me show you what used to be my room." I got that Jacob wasn't comfortable talking about it so I followed him to his old room.

"This was your room? How did you fit in here?"

"The only thing I did was sleep in here. That was extremely hard after I changed."

"Uh yeah. I can see why." We walked out of the room.

"Do you want to see the garage?" I hesitated for a second by nodded and we walked out the door. I wanted to see the garage because I knew how special it was to Jake at one time but I also knew a big part of the reason it was so special was because that is were he and mom became close again. And most certainly were he feel in love with her. When we entered the garage I saw the Rabbit sitting in the far corner. Jake had been here when the car finally gave out.

"Why do you keep that thing? I mean it wont run anymore." Jacob mocked looking offended and went over to the car.

"Don't talk like that. She will hear you."

"Did you just say she will hear me?" Jacob blushed a little. I burst out laughing. I had to put my hand the work bench so I wouldn't fall over from laughing so hard.

"Please,please tell me you did not name your car." Jacob turned away but I saw he was getting redder by the minute.

"If you must know her name is...Rosita."

"That a lovely name." I managed to get out before cracking up again. Jacob started to laugh with me.

"I have had a lot of good laughs in here." He said.

"I am sure." We heard a car door shut and heard voice.

"Jake might be here. I think he was going on patrol for Sam but he may be back."

"Well we have time to spare. The game starts at noon." The other person said. The other person just happen to be Grandpa Charlie.

"What's he doing here?" I said to Jacob.

"I don't know. I didn't think my dad would be back from Sue's until later." I had the urge to run out and throw my arms around Grandpa but I knew that wouldn't turn out good.

"Okay. Just go back to Emily's and stay there. I will come by later." Jacob said as he made sure the coast was clear before I walked out of the garage.

"Fine. See you later." He gave me a hug and pecked me on the cheek then ran up to the house. I was about to head towards Emily's when a thought occurred to me. I just cant let Grandpa see me. That doesn't mean I cant just see him really quick. I would make sure to not be seen and if I was Jacob would just make up some story. I snuck around to the side of the house and looked in the living room window. Grandpa sat closest to the window but his back was to me. I caught a glimpse of him when he turned to look at Billy. He still looked the same as the last time I saw him. Maybe a few more gray hairs but he still looked good. In the process of taking in Grandpa Jacob saw me. I looked up and saw his eyes were like daggers. I heard him say he would be right back and then I heard the door open and close. I started to take off but he was already there with a hand on my wrist.

"Are you crazy? Charlie could have turned around and seen you." He said ushering me away from the house.

"But he didn't. I just wanted to see him once. I miss him Jacob." Jacob's eyes softened.

"I know you do Ness. And I know he misses you. But we cant risk him seeing you."

"I know. It wont happen again. I will go straight to Emily's."

"Okay. I will see you in a little bit." He turned and jogged back to the house and I took off for Emily's.

By ten thirty that night he still hadn't showed up. I didn't think much of it. He probably was patrolling or spending time with his dad. Which was good. I knew Billy missed him a lot. I had my laptop open watching old re-runs of Seinfeld. The show was so funny. I jumped when I heard a soft tap against my window. I got up and pulled the curtains back to see Jacob standing there. I opened the window and he climbed inside.

"I knew Emily would be asleep and I told you I would come by."

"I would have understood if you didn't. Or you could have just called." I said walking back over to the bed. Jacob fell back onto the bed and grabbed my laptop.

"Oh this show was funny." I sat down beside Jacob and we watch a few episodes together. He insisted that we watch the one called 'The Contest'. So I found it on the internet and we watched it. Half way threw the episode I knew Jacob was watching me instead of the show so I looked over at him. He took his hand and put it softly on my cheek. I couldn't help myself from leaning into it. And that's all he needed. He leaned in and kissed me on the lips. I should have pushed him away. That would have been the smart thing to do but I found it hard to be smart when he was so close. It was soft and sweet at first but soon it became hot and hungry. Jacob push the laptop off me and I heard it hit the floor but I didn't care. Jacob was on top of me but he had to pull away because we both needed oxygen. He was still very close.

"God. I love you so much Ness." The reality of what happened hit me hard. I saw the bracelet Chance had given me. And guilt came pouring in. I pushed Jacob off of me and ran out of the bedroom and into the bathroom shutting and locking the door behind me. I dropped to the floor and started sobbing.