Disclaimer: I don't own Degrassi, sadly…

A/N: Woo! You guys really like this story! I'm glad :) Anyway, not much to say about this chapter, but it's going to be in Clare's POV! So, yeah, here you are. Oh and there's going to be a very important announcement about Alibis at the end of this chapter!

This story is inspired by the song Get Up, Get Up, Get Up by Barcelona.

Crawling on Ashes

Summary: It was, Clare rather thought now, those two last words—"even me"—that had sent her feet walking out of the room without her even realizing it. Was he so promiscuous? More importantly, was she really so undesirable?

Chapter 5

"Clare are you going to tell me what happened at school today?"

I glanced up from my phone and reached up to tuck my hair behind my ear. I watched as my mother took a seat next to me on the couch after I moved my legs. I sighed heavily.

"Mom… yesterday I didn't stay the night with Alli to study," I started. I turned to her and stared at the floor as I continued my short story, "I went to a party last night… and I slept with someone…"

"Clare you—you did what?" My mother practically screamed.

"I had sex with someone mom and I thought it was going to be okay! I thought he had returnable feelings about it, but he didn't he used me." I began to cry heavily. My mother seemed to forget that I had told her I had sex with Eli, well she doesn't know exactly who I had sex with, but that's not the point, she pulled me into her arms and I sobbed freely in her shoulder.

"Clare I'm not happy about what you did, but… I understand how you must feel right now. It's going to be okay… who was it?"

Should I tell her?

No.

"You don't know him mom, you haven't met him yet." I responded as I pulled away.

"Oh, that's unfortunate. Well Clare, I'm going to make you something to eat okay?" Mom got up from the couch and I watched her move into the kitchen. I sighed shakily and placed my legs back up on the couch.

I reached up for my phone, after it started blinking and vibrating.

I opened it and checked the text that I had missed.

Where are you?
Adam

I quickly responded to his text and placed my phone back on the coffee table, and then I grabbed the remote and started to flip through the channels. It didn't take long for Adam to respond soon after. I read his text and blinked a few times.

Well I'm coming over to check on you okay?
Adam

Of course that was a bad idea…

Eli is coming over after school. If he sees Eli here, he's going to get suspicious, and probably beat him up or something. I tried not to laugh at the mental thought. I text Adam back, telling him that he shouldn't come over, that I'm fine and he doesn't need to worry. I closed my phone and glanced at the time. It's almost time for school to be let out, and this means that Eli is going to be coming by soon…

I tried to think or remember how or why I agreed to him coming over.

I didn't need him!

Hell, I don't think I even need to listen to his plea! Eli is such a jerk! I mentally slapped myself and my mother soon came in with a plate of instant mac and cheese. I smiled and thanked her. She stood upright and narrowed her eyes. I glanced up at her with the fork in my mouth.

"What is that noise?" She asked.

I pause the T.V. and stared blankly at nothing as I listened to the screaming music that was playing outside. Of course…

"Mom my uhh… friend said he was going to stop by and check on me, I'll go outside to see him." I said.

"Oh, is it that Eli boy?" She asked with a hint of slight excitement in her tone.

I arched my eyebrow and just before I could get up, the doorbell rang, and my mother walked to the door and opened it. I continued to eat my meal, pretending not to pay attention as Eli walked into my house. He stood next to me. I glanced up from my macaroni and cheese and smiled faintly at him.

"It's good to see you again Eli." Mom said.

"Thanks Mrs. Edwards, I really just came by to see how Clare is doing. She gave everybody a scare with disappearing earlier." Eli stated, his sentence directed towards me. I smiled faintly yet again and started to eat again.

Eli walked around and he tapped my legs, and I moved them from the couch and I placed my plate on the coffee table, and nervously shifted in my seat. Mom disappeared in her room for a brief moment, leaving Eli and I sitting alone. He said, "Aren't you going to look at me?" I scoffed and crossed my arms across my chest.

I turned to him and asked, "What do you want?"

Eli turned around, checking something. I pinned my eyebrows together and he said, "Look I'm here to clear things up with you." I blinked a few times and narrowed my eyes at him.

"What?" I asked.

"I'm here to clear things up with you. Yesterday after you left the party, you didn't give me a chance to explain. You kind of took off. You took what I said the wrong way to be blunt about it." Eli said as he rubbed the back of his neck.

I stared at him confusedly. I took what he said the wrong way?

"Eli what are you talking about? You practically made it clear last night that you didn't want me." I said silently.

"Like I said Clare, you took everything the wrong way. You were probably still a little bit buzzed." Eli explained.

"Eli I wasn't—

"Clare you were drunk last night… practically wasted, you kind of threw yourself at me." Eli cut me off.

I dropped my arms from across my chest and my mouth fell open. I shifted my eyes and turned to face Eli. He pressed his lips to a line and nodded. Before we could continue, my mother had walked out of the room, slipping a wrist watch around her tiny wrist. I blinked a few times and she said, "Clare I'm going to step out for a few minutes. I'll trust that you two won't be doing anything. I'll be back in thirty minutes or so."

I glanced at Eli and he flashed me a small smile.

"Mom you can trust us." I muttered.

"Good, I'll see you two later." She placed a kiss on the top of my head and I watched her leave out the front door after grabbing her keys. I suddenly felt a cold chill run up and down my spine. I shuddered and the moment the front door closed, Eli pulled me to him.

I squeaked and he held my arm, keeping me close to him as he reached up and cupped my face; his lips ghost over mine softly.

"E-Eli, what are you doing." I asked stupidly.

"It's kind of a stupid thing to lie to your mother isn't it? Making her believe that you and I won't be doing anything; thirty minutes should give us plenty of time." Eli crushed his lips over mine and I whimpered and pushed him away.

"Eli! You came here to talk! Not to… to—

"Play with you?" He finished.

I blushed and turned my attention away from him.

"Clare, you have to believe that what I said wasn't what you thought. I don't like relationships… I hate relationships, relationships mean commitment to one person, and I'm not really fond of staying together with one person and one person only."

"Yeah because you're such a slut." I hissed.

Eli chuckled.

"Is that what you think of me Clare?" He retorted. I shrugged my shoulders and got up, walking to the kitchen to put my half eaten mac and cheese in the microwave. I felt someone's presence near me, and when I turned around I was soon trapped between Eli's arms, his body was dangerously close to mine.

I looked up at him with slightly scared blue eyes.

"Do you really think I'm a slut Clare?" Eli purred. I looked away and whispered, "Well you sleep with a different girl almost every week, why wouldn't I think that?" Eli pressed his lips into mine and I whimpered, clenching my jaw.

"Would it make you feel better if I was sleeping with you every week? Just only having sex with you?" Eli questioned.

I tried my hardest not to roll my eyes. Of course that's not what I want…

"Clare-bear." Eli stated with a chime in his husky tone.

"What?" I hissed.

"Such a cold frosty tone, I like that." Eli purred, his hips thrust up against mine. I gasped and he did it again. I clenched my jaw and bit my bottom lip, refraining myself from giving in and moan to his ministrations. Eli reached down and he grabbed the backs of my thighs and hoisted me up on the counter. I tried to move away but Eli leaned up and kissed my neck.

I stiffened and he smirked.

"Clare-bear do you want me to be yours?" Eli purred, his teeth grazing up and down my neck.

"N-no… I don't want you… anymore." I managed to say through clenched teeth.

"Liar." Eli hissed. He grazed his hands up and down my naked thighs. I mentally cursed at myself for changing into shorts, knowing that the biggest pervert was going to be coming by to see me after school.

Eli continued to slowly ghost his fingers up and down my thighs, inching closer and closer to my center. I whimpered when his fingers grazed directly over the spot between my legs. Eli whispered, "Your body is rejecting you… do you want this Clare?" I glanced into his intense green eyes as he continued to move his fingers up and down.

"I don't want th-this." I responded.

"You're so wet Clare, are you sure you don't want this?"

"I'm n-not…" I stammered. Eli pushed my shorts and panties to the side and he didn't hesitate in shoving two of his fingers inside me, easily. Eli slowly thrust them deep inside me, and then pulled them out. He brought his fingers up to our eye level and he smirked devilishly saying, "Proved you wrong, you're drenched Clare."

I blushed when Eli brought his fingers to his lips and he licked them clean.

"So, I ask again Clare bear, do you want me to be yours, and only yours?"

"Eli I don't want you… Now would you kindly let me down?" I responded.

"Don't lie to me Clare, you were wanting me yesterday, asking if we're together after we fucked, so why change your mind now?"

"Eli you said you don't like relationships! Why should I even bother?" I responded while I pushed him back and hopped off the counter. Eli arched an eyebrow and grabbed my wrist, forcing me to turn around and face him. Eli wrapped his arms securely around my waist. Our eyes gazed into each other's and Eli said, "I'm willing to make an exception for you Clare."

My lips quivered and I licked them.

"But on one condition." Eli added.

"Wh-what's the condition?" I asked, slowly giving in to him. Eli smirked and he leaned into my ear and whispered huskily while his hand reached up and cupped my neck, "You let me do whatever I want with you… no complaints to whatever my demands are."

I gasped.

Eli moved his hand from my neck to my breast, where he cradled it gently and gave it a soft squeeze.

"Eli I—

"Yes or no, Clare." Eli interrupted me.

I moaned breathily as his hand groped my breast, keeping his body close to mine as possible. I swallowed hard and closed my eyes, whispering, "O-okay…"

End of Chapter 5

Hm, just you wait and see what's going to happen in the next three-four chapters. Clare bear is in for some crazy schemes.

Anyway about Alibis, I'm going to answer the one question that I get PM'd about, NO, I haven't gotten bored with that story. I currently have nine chapters typed out for that story, well four. My beta-reader has all four of them and well… I'm just waiting for her to return them. Most of you know what's going on, so you should know how I'm feeling about this right now.

So yeah, I haven't lost interest in the story, I promise you that.

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