Warning: Sexual Themes (no lemon)

Chapter 13 – He Doesn't Look a Thing Like Jesus

"Jesus Christ Roxy!" I exclaimed as Roxas shoved me into my car and jumped into the passenger seat.

"Shut up and drive Axel!" He told me as he turned the key in the ignition.

"That's harsh." I said pulling out of the parking lot.

"Faster!" Roxas said.

"What?" I asked in disbelief.

"This car goes over two hundred miles per hour, drive faster!" Roxas insisted. Man I must have really pissed him off. I drove about twenty over the speed limit the entire way home. Roxas was out of the car before I could even get my seatbelt off. When he ripped open the door and saw me still buckled in he took it upon himself to free me. Then he pulled me harshly by the arm into the elevator and through my door. He then slammed the door closed and threw me against it.

My gods, he's either gonna kill me or give me the worst lecture ever. I was completely unprepared when he crushed his lips into mine, griped my hips forcefully, and dragged me towards the couch. We didn't make it. Somehow Roxas ended up on the floor with me straddling his hips and dominating the kiss. His hands quickly went to work pulling my coat and shirt off.

He was grinding his hips into mine in anticipation. It was amazing but I kept myself prepared for him to say 'no' again. I would understand that. I place my hands under his shirt, running them along his slightly toned muscles, as I deepened the kiss. He moaned in pleasure when my lips found his neck. Gods his sounds were beautiful, they fueled me.

Roxas' hands were finding their way into my pants when the apartment door opened. "Oooh…Zexy! Muffin and Pyro are making babies!" I heard Demyx yell and Roxas immediately stopped. Gods damn Demy. I grabbed an ugly vase Saix's parents had bought him and threw it at Demyx. Zexion's hand quickly shot out and stopped it, sending it crashing to the floor.

"What the fuck, Demyx!" I yelled as Roxas crawled out from under me looking incredibly pissed.

"I brought you your groceries." Demyx said holding up bags. "If if I didn't shop for you you'd never stock your fridge and never eat. Then you'd just be skin and bones and Roxy would never want to make babies with you." Demyx explained and walked into the bastard kitchen, maybe it'll eat him. I got up and followed him so I could yell a little more.

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"Oooh…Zexy! Muffin and Pyro are making babies." The world's against me that's all there is to it. For the second time since Seifer I wanted to have sex. And this time I didn't even care that it had hurt with Seifer. Goddamn you Demyx! I got up from the floor and sat disapointedly on the Sofa, while Axel ran after Demyx, probably to yell at him. Zexion walk past me to sit on the chair next to the sofa. "I'm sorry, I would've made him leave but Axel doesn't eat when there's no food in the house."

"Do you have any idea what he stopped?" I asked frustrated.

"The figurative making of babies." Zexion responded. Had I been in a better mood I may have laughed.

"No, the sex that may have made me think that not all sex is bad." I fumed.

"And why is that?" Zexion asked.

"Because I actually wanted it this time, not like the first time?"

"And how did you feel your first time?"

"You are such a shrink." I accused him as I sat up.
"Sorry." Zexion apologized. I plopped back down and waved my hand.

"Eh, don't worry. It means you're a good listener and I need to rant." I said and Zexion nodded, "The first time I didn't really want sex, I just wanted the drugs. It was incredibly painful, and I thought I'd never want sex again. Then I met Axel, and we got close to it but I remembered the pain and changed my mind. Last night, one of my dealers tried to rape me because I owe him a debt.

"Axel saved me, like I said, but he almost killed the dealer. I thought I would never look at him the same. But today he's been amazing. When I saw him take charge of this awful situation without violence…I don't' know. I would've gone through with it this time, but you and Demyx ruined it. Now I'm having second thoughts and may never have sex again. Thank you very much!" I finished.

"Roxas, you and Axel seem to have similar pasts. Now I'm not condoning you having sex before you're ready. However, I think you may like to know that Axel knows what it's like to be raped. He knows that pain and knows how to not make it hurt so much. But not until you're ready, Roxas, he'll wait." Zexion informed me.

"Thank you Zexion." I said.

"Anytime." He smiled that new smile of his.

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"You Jackass!" I slammed my palm into the fridge and it was now stinging in pain.

"Believe me Axel, I want the makin' of the babies to happen between you two. But look at this!" He gestured at my empty cabinets where he was putting the groceries away.

"It's been six month since Saix. Six months!"

"Well excuse me! Go fuck a hooker if you're so impatient!" You know Demyx is mad when he swears. But I didn't care at the moment, we always make up.

"I don't want a hooker. I want my Roxy. And I want him to want it. I have no way of knowing when he'll be ready again."

"Well then, patience young grasshopper." Demyx said calming down a bit. "Jack off like everyone else." I sat down and slammed my head into the table. I felt Demyx sit down next to me and wrap his arm around me. "You look exactly like Saix used to. First he would come to us saying 'I can't do anything, he's too young' then it was 'He's not ready, all he can think about is Xemnas'. He would always end up slamming his head into the table, or the wall. It was hilarious."

"I don't find this funny Dem." I said pathetically. "It took me forever to get over Xemnas, and I had actually had a few good experiences with sex, he hasn't." I sighed. "Roxas may never be ready."

"Do you love him enough to wait forever, jacking yourself raw."

I didn't even have to think about it, "Yes." Demyx nodded and began putting more groceries away. "Oh hey, Dem?"

"What's up Pyro?"

"Cloud, Roxas' dad wants me to invite you and Zex over to dinner tomorrow."

"Really, we get to meet the family? Like we're family?" Demyx asked excitedly.

"Yeah, so you wanna come?"

"Absolutely!" Demyx said before he yelled, which was completely unnecessary, to Zexion, "Zexy, we got plans tomorrow night!"

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After Demyx and Zexion left I made my way into the kitchen where Axel was sitting at the table with his head in his hands. I didn't really feel like cooking so I just put a pot of water on the stove for macaroni and cheese. "Are you okay Axel?"

Axel brought his hands away from his face. The bruise from the cereal making incident was now completely visible. "Yeah I'm good Roxy." He smiled sadly at me. Damn you Demyx!

"So what plans do Demyx and Zexion have tomorrow?" I asked.

"They're coming with us to your dad's."

"We're going to my dad's?" I asked confused. When did this happen?

"Damn, you really wanted me, huh?" Axel smirked.

I put my head down. That was some truly shameful behavior I had exhibited. "Sorry." I said, not exactly sure what I was sorry for. I just felt sorry. And I was pretty sure Axel's new mood was my fault, or Demyx's. Damn Demyx.

"I'm not sure what you're sorry for." Axel said. "The only person I'm a little bit mad at is Demyx, but he's just trying to help."

"Why did you give him a key?" I asked.

"So I wouldn't have to wake up when he brought my groceries over. It was after Saix. I did a lot of sleeping back then." I wrapped my arms around Axel.

"I'm sorry I'm not ready yet." I said sincerely.

"I don't mind Roxas. I already told you, I'd wait forever for you."

AN: There, not even a week. XD three days maybe.

I'm just that nice. Anyway, two days of very serious writing, I caused a few conflicts made it to Chapter 17, and decided I could start uploading again. But I'll be updating slowly, only once or twice a week.

I still don't have an ending but things are happening now. My chapters are a little shorter right now too. Sorry about that. I'm still working very hard on this, and devoting a lot of attention to it.

*I thought it'd be fun to have a chapter with Roxas pushing Axel around, even though nothing happened, and it didn't really add to the story. I don't really have a plan when I start writing a chapter, and this is what happened.

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