AN: So I think you can kind of tell that I'm really just making up things as I go at the moment. Like I've said, I will never give up on a story, and generally after a little bit of writing with no idea where it's going to go I'll come up with an idea. When that happens the story may get better. Right now I'm just causing conflicts. Hopefully it's enjoyable anyway. I was okay with the chapter, even though I only vaguely know where the story's going. So enjoy, hopefully it doesn't sound bad.

WARNING: Cloud and Leon are probably very OOC. I've never played the game, (though hopefully I will soon) and I can't tell on my own if they're OOC, but from the other stories I've read I think they are.

Chapter 18 – He Doesn't Look A Thing Like Jesus

The first thing I noticed when I woke up was that the bed was empty. My warm redhead seemed to have wandered away. I sat up in the bed stretched my arms and legs, rubbed my eyes, and heard a whimper come from the bathroom. That's not a good sound to hear, especially after your boyfriend was raped by a maniac. I was immediately awake as I jumped off the bed, ran to the bathroom and ripped open the locked door, after some initial struggling. The sight laid before me in the now open doorway had me gasping.

Axel was writhing on the floor, his hands were practically ripping out his hair, his face was agonized, and I think he was trying to hold back screams resulting in the release of those miserable whimpers. I rushed over to his side and kneeled down in front of him. "Axel. Axel, I don't know what to do. How do I help you Axel?" I begged, but it was like he couldn't hear me, like he was in his own universe. All he did was pull harder on his strangely beautiful hair and keep his eyes glued shut.

I brought a hand down over his wrist and tried to pull it away from his hair. But as soon as my hand touched him his eyes flashed open and I saw fear and hatred as he shoved me away from him. "No, no, no. Leave me alone…" He begged in a desperate voice. Then he crawled, backwards, away from me, backing as far as he could into a corner of the bathroom. He brought his knees up to his chest and buried his head in them. His head started shaking and he was rocking back and forth when he let his voice be heard again. "You can't do this Xemnas. Stop…Leave him alone...stop!"

I was only somewhat relieved to know that it was Xemnas that he shoved and told to leave him alone. I was beginning to freak out. With no idea what to do, I ran out of the bathroom and grabbed the nearest phone. I quickly dialed the only number I could think of and waited for an answer. "What the fudging hell! It's four in the morning!" came Demyx's grumpy and tired voice.

"Dem, I need to talk to Zexion, right now!" I demanded. I heard some ruffling and a grunt before Demyx spoke, 'Zexy, Roxas needs to talk to you. Right now!' he mimicked my voice.

"Roxas, are you okay? What's wrong?" Zexion said urgently.

"I'm okay, it's…it's," I lost my composure as tears fell down my face and my voice became shaky. "It's Axel. I don't know what happened. He's freaking out, ripping his hear out, holding back screams, shaking, and… talking to an imaginary Xemnas. I don't know what to do. Zexion, he's hurting and I don't know how to help Zexion, what do I do. I-I…I…"

"Roxas, shhhh. First, I need you to calm down." Zexion said in a soothing voice, and I thought I heard the ruffling of clothes being put on. "Roxas, are you still with me?"

"Yes." I said in a much calmer voice, taking carful deep breaths and releasing them slowly.

"Okay, you are going to try to snap Axel out of it by making him realize who you are and where he is. Don't touch any of his injuries, use a soft voice, and soft reassuring touches. Try to get him to look into your eyes. Your eyes are very memorable. I'll be there in a couple minutes, okay?" Zexion said in a levelheaded tone.

"Okay."

"If you need me before I get there call my cell, alright?"

"Okay. A few minutes?" I asked.

"Yes." Zexion reassured.

After we hung up I walked back to the bathroom. Axel was in the same position still shaking his head, rocking back and forth, and letting out a few whimpers. I silently made my way to him and for the second time kneeled next to him. I reached a hand out and hovered it over him before I tenderly placing it on his back. Axel jumped at the contact and his rocking became more violent.

When Axel settled down somewhat, I ran my hand along his spine in a comforting manner. "Axel, Axel, it's me Roxas. Do you remember me?" I really hoped I was doing this right. I felt like shit knowing that Axel had been able to help me and I couldn't even comfort him. "Axel, can you look me in the eyes. Please?" I asked as I moved closer to him. His head was lifted from his knees but his eyes stayed averted. "Please." I nuzzled my face against his lightly, before gently pressing my lips against his. As our lips lingered together our eyes met and I saw realization cross those mesmerizing green eyes, causing a sense of relief to run through me.

The fear remained, but the hatred left as Axel brought his hands up to my face and depend the kiss. I opened my mouth to allow Axel entrance, but rather than his normal confident intrusion, he flicked his tongue out hesitantly before finally entering my mouth. Before I even had a chance to enjoy it he pushed me away. "Roxy, I'm sorry. I thought I could handle seeing it. I couldn't." Axel apologized and then his face turned horror struck. "I shoved you. I hurt you. How bad is it, what did I do?" Axel threw his face into his hands.

"Axel, it's okay. I'm not hurt, you didn't do it too hard," okay that was a flat out lie, he had shove me hard, but in this case, I felt lying was necessary. "Beside you thought I was Xemnas." When Axel still didn't seem to be convinced I pulled off the large shirt I had worn to bed, leaving me in just my boxers. "Look." I grabbed one of Axel's hands and placed it on my bare unmarred chest.

I sucked in a breath when I felt Axel's hand brush across my nipple and his mouth covered the other. "Ahn…Axel." Axel pulled me onto his lap and trailed kisses up my neck as he clung desperately to me. "Axel, mmm…Zexion's on his way over."

I heard Zexion clear his throat and both Axel and I turned to see Demxy in his blue flannel pajamas and Zexion wearing jeans and an unbuttoned shirt, quickly put on, standing in the doorway of the bathroom. "We're here." Demyx tried to sound enthusiastic but he was too tired to pull it off.

"Dem, go lie down." Zexion said and Demyx easily obeyed, disappearing into the bedroom. Zexion watched Demyx leave and I assumed he made it to the bed safely when Zexion turned back to us and sat down next to Axel. "So, are things under control?" He said with both eyes, surprisingly, on us because his hair was tied back. I shrugged and looked at Axel.

"Yeah, I think I'm okay, for now, but I'll probably have to have some talks with you. I'm sorry I woke you." Axel apologized again.

"Nah, Don't apologize Axel. I'm always here for you. Zexion responded as he wrapped an arm around Axel. "Come on. You two need to get more sleep, you can skip work today. And Axel, we'll have sessions every day." The three of us stood up and walked into the bedroom, only to find Demyx soundly sleeping under the covers on our bed. Zexion and I paused at the end of the bed while Axel continued to move forward. He lifted the blanket, pushed Demyx over some and crawled in. Then he patted the bed next to him, inviting me to join him. I didn't hesitate and made my way to the bed and under the covers, cuddling next to me tormented redhead. Out of the corner of my eye I saw Zexion shrug and join us in the bed on Demyx's side.

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"Who knew four men could fit in that bed." I heard Dad's voice say, amazed at the sight of four grown men in Axel's queen sized bed. My eyes were still closed, having just been woken by the whispering of our intruders.

"Well you know, Roxas is kind of small. It's more like three and a half men." Sora's voice responded and I heard someone, probably Riku, chuckle.

"Those two have really got to stop with the rough sex. I mean, hell, look at Axel. Your son's got a wild side." Leon spoke.

"Leon!" Dad scolded and I felt Axel's chest move up and down, under my head, as he started laughing. Then he hissed in pain and realized where my head was. I quickly moved off of him to help relieve some of the pain he'd caused his ribs by laughing. While Axel recovered himself I looked around the room and waved to Dad, Leon, Sora and Riku, who were standing next to the bed. When I shifted my eyes to the bed I laughed at seeing Demyx completely turned around. His head was now at the foot of the bed and Zexion was pushing his feet away from his face at the head of the bed.

Zexion finally gave up with a huff, and sat up leaving Demyx's feet in his lap. His normally emotionless face was plastered with a frustrated look. I had to clap my hands over my mouth to keep from laughing, though I could hear Riku chuckling, and Sora giggling in the background. The hair tie was barely keeping Zexion's hair tied back, and the many strands that were now loose were sticking up in every direction, which looked hilarious on the normally pristine Zexion. As Demyx sat up I saw that his normally gelled mullhawk was sticking up on one side and lying flat on the other side. I bit down on my knuckles when I couldn't keep my laughter back. I was pretty sure if Axel could laugh without causing himself pain he would be cracking up rather than holding his ribs and smirking at Zexion and Demyx.

Demyx pouted at my not so silent laughter, and Axel's silent laughter. Zexion glared at us before raising a hand, flicking us off, and dragging Demyx off the bed and into the bathroom. As soon as the door closed I let all of my laughter out, along with Riku, Sora, Leon, and Dad. "Well this has been a pretty entertaining morning." Axel said with humor in his voice.

"Tell me about it" I said recovering from my laughing fit.

"Afternoon." Dad interrupted.

"What?!" I asked in disbelief.

"It's one o'clock. We're here because we went to the music shop but you all weren't there. It hadn't even been opened." Sora explained.

"And how'd you get in?" Axel asked.

"Someone left the door unlocked." Said Riku.

"Which really isn't a good idea with the wild sex and orgies going on in this apartment." Leon commented, and Dad hit him in the stomach.

"What happened to you Axel?" He asked, "And if what Leon thinks is true, please, for the love of God, lie."

"I got tortured drugged and raped by my ex drug dealer to scare me away from Roxas." Axel confessed.

"Oh God, my son's wild in bed." Dad said, thinking Axel was lying, and hiding his face in his hands. I felt my face heat up as a blush started to form and buried it in the blankets that were still covering me.

"He wasn't lying, Cloud." We all turned to see Zexion and Demyx standing in the bathroom doorway. Zexion's hair was now fixed and he was working gel into Demyx's hair. And Demxy seemed to be enjoying the feeling of Zexion's finger's sliding through his hairs. His eyes were closed and I think he may have actually purred.

"Oh my God, really. I'm so sorry." Dad apologized.

"At least it wasn't the kitchen again." Leon muttered.

"Show some compassion." Dad scolded.

"I am. I'm sympathizing with his kitchen troubles."

"He was just raped tortured and drugged and you're thinking about the kitchen."

"No, he just got raped, tortured, and drugged, by someone who isn't any of us, therefore we can't do anything about what's already happened and I'm taking his mind off of it by bringing up the bastard kitchen." Leon explained, voicing more words than I'd heard from him in my entire life.

"My gawd!" Sora exclaimed, "You can talk." Everybody started laughing at this, even Leon joined in after glaring at Sora for a moment. The only exception was Axel because his ribs didn't allow it. As the laughter began to die down, Demyx ran and jumped onto the bed, jostling it, and causing Axel to groan in pain. Frustrated with his carelessness, I shoved him off the bed and cuddled with Axel again. Demyx crawled across the floor toward Zexion, who met him halfway and embraced him, all the while glaring daggers at me for daring to touch his lover.

"Hey, stop staring my boyfriend down!" Axel defended me.

"He hurt Demyx!" Zexion hissed.

"S'okay, Zexy. I hurt Axel first, and Roxas didn't actually hurt me." Demyx interfered. "Kiss and make up, Zexy, Axel." When no one moved Demyx stood up and walked behind Zexion. He then pushed Zexion across the room to stand next to Axel and me. "See, watch." Demyx said as he gathered me in his arms and nearly squeezed the life out of me. "I forgive you, and you forgive me, right muffin?" I nodded due to the lack of oxygen making its way to my lungs.

"Dem…air." I gasped and he quickly let go, smiling sheepishly.

"Now your turn." Demyx pushed Zexion into Axel, at which point Axel took Demyx's words seriously by grabbing Zexion's face and kissing his cheek.

"I'm sorry for yelling at you Zexy." Axel gushed, jokingly, while Zexion wiped the wet kiss off of his cheek.

"And I'm sorry for glaring at Roxas."

"This is almost better than TV." Riku commented and Dad, Leon, and Sora nodded in agreement. "By the way, why are Demyx and Zexion here?"

"We came over early this morning to take care of a situation. Demyx fell asleep so we decided to stay." Zexion explained vaguely.

"Situation?" Dad asked.

"Do you really expect there not to be trauma after what Axel's been through?" Zexion asked like the situation was obvious.

"Oh." Dad said realizing what he'd meant.

"Does that mean the music shop isn't going to be open today?" Sora pouted.

"Aw poop!" Demyx exclaimed, grabbing Zexion's hand and hauling him out of the room.

After watching Demxy and Zexion leave, Dad turned back to face Axel and me. "So are you okay, Axel?" He asked.

"I'm sure I'll be fine. One of my best friends is a psychologist."

"Well in that case, why the fuck was your drug dealer trying to keep you away from Roxas?!"

"Oh, um…" Axel looked to me and I shrugged not caring if he continued. "Roxas owes him money but he doesn't want money anymore, so he tried to rape Roxy the other day but I stopped it."

"Why was I not informed of this!" Dad shouted.

"I didn't really think about it Dad. Until recently we haven't talked much." I explained. "I didn't even tell Zexion right away."

"I guess that makes sense. I'm sorry we don't talk."

"Hey, as recovering drug addicts we should know it's not the past that counts, it's the present, and what we make of our futures." I reassured. "So forget about your previous treatment of me and make up for it by spoiling me and my boyfriend rotten." I got a laugh from him at that and a pat on my back from Axel.

"I've taught you well my young apprentice. Now help me up, I can't move." I quickly got out of the bed and helped to guide Axel, relieving some of the strain on his ribs, off the bed. Once he was standing he was able to walk himself to the bathroom.

When I was sure Axel was okay I turned back to my dad, "So how're you going to start spoiling us?"

"By taking Axel to a doctor." Leon responded.

"Though that's necessary it's hardly fun." I commented dully.

"We'll go out for ice cream afterwards." Dad compromised.

"That sounds good to me."

"Me too!" We heard from the bathroom.

"And later we'll use your and Axel's discounts at the music store." Sora added. "Now we have a day full of fun, minus the doctors, that's not fun."

"Sorry to burst your bubble So,"Dad started.

"But over half the day is already over." Leon finished.

"We still got all night." Axel said, smirking in the bathroom doorway.

AN: So, this was a long chapter. I finished my first notebook for this story and started a new one. The new note book is college ruled, and 8 pages of that is more than 8 pages wide ruled, which is what I normally do. I also wrote longer paragraphs than usual. So it's about 2,900 words.

I haven't even started to write chapter 19 so I can't tell you how long it will take to update. But I hope to have it up in less than a week.

If anyone cares, I got a fictionpress account, under the same name. I will update a story on there eventually (within the next couple of weeks); I just have to figure out which one I want to try first. The genre I write is generally Supernatural/Romance.

My final piece of news is that college starts in twenty days. This means my weekly updating will not happen anymore. I will do my best, but I put school first. Very sorry about that.

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