Chapter 23 – He Doesn't Look a Think Like Jesus

"What a noble thing to do Axel." Xemnas taunted as he walked towards me. I however, wasn't listening. My eyes were still glued to the door, and my thoughts were with Roxas. I hoped he was getting in my car and driving away right this minute, but there was no way for me to know for sure, and if I knew Roxas at all, I'm sure he wouldn't leave me. I was immediately snapped out of my thoughts when Xemnas' teeth scraped across my neck. "Mm, I have missed you. That's why I was so rough with you the other night. Sometimes….I just can't contain my fondness for you." His hand pulled at my hair, forcing me to give him my neck as his lips made their way across my jaw and glued themselves to my lips.

I could feel his tongue force itself in and a million different memories of this same position from my past flooded my mind. "Kiss me back, like you mean it, or I'll go find Roxas again." I hadn't complied with Xemnas' commands in years but today I was listening to every word. If it kept Roxas safe, it was worth it. So when his lips captured mine again, I played along. I thirsted my tongue into the cavity of his mouth pressed my body against his, and wrapped my arms around his back, one hand threaded through his hair. " Ah, yes…This is what I want."

His hands started tearing desperately at my clothes, disposing of my shirt quickly, which I allowed as long as it kept his hands off my pants for a moment longer while I pondered quick plans. But his actions made me wonder what went so horribly wrong in his life for him to turn out like this. He shoved me to the ground and pushed me up against the cold unforgiving wall before he started running his hands over my chest, and biting roughly at my chest. "Tell me you want me Axel, tell me." He hissed against my chest.

"I want you so much Xemnas. I know I've been bad, but I want you back." I lied through a soft moan, giving him as much as I could give him while concentrating on my plans.

Xemnas' teeth left my chest as he started to work his way up my neck and nipped my ear. "I'm going to have to punish you."

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My fingers fumbled inside Axel's jacket searching for his keys. I knew I shouldn't have left, I didn't want to leave, but I did. I just walked out that door. How could I do that? Tears were pouring out of my eyes when I found the keys and unlocked the Lambo's doors. Axel came to save me; I would do the same for him. There has to be something I can do.

I began frantically searching Axel's car for anything, anything at all I could use to help him. Then my hand felt something. Discarded in the passenger seat was Axel's phone. I picked it up and dialed nine-one-one before I thought it over and dialed a different number. Zexion's number.

"Axel? Did you kill the bastard yet? Did you find Roxas?" I heard Demyx's voice and knew immediately that Zexion was alive. There was no way there would be so much life in Demyx's voice if Zexion was gone. It was so good to hear someone familiar, someone who might be able to help. Before I knew it, the tears poured out and I cried hysterically in to the phone. "Oh my God! Roxas, my little muffin? Where's Axel, are you okay, tell me something?"

"I left. I left him Demyx, alone with Xemnas. I don't know what to do, but I know I have to go back for him. Demyx help me!"

"Okay, okay, breathe with me Roxas, in, out, in, out. Do you have any weapons?"

"I don't even have clothes!"

"Stay calm Roxas, Axel can take care of himself and Xemnas won't kill him, at least not right away. Check around Axel's car, does he have any weapons?"

"I already checked Demyx. There's nothing, just a little bottle of kerosene on the ground. He brought everything else in with him.

"Oh really? Kerosene?"

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As Xemnas continued to lick and tease at my exposed chest, I reached out with my right hand, as inconspicuously as I could, for the key component for plan W. At some point Xemnas began to notice my attention wasn't completely on him, so I wrapped my free arm around him and began caressing his back. With one final stretch my fingers grabbed the previously abandoned needle, and I wasted no time in jamming it into Xemnas' neck before he could stop me, or even notice what I had done. His breathing on my neck hitched as his shocked eyes me mine. "Axel?" He whispered and I saw his eyes getting heavy, clearly trying to ask me how I could do such a thing to him.

I quickly brought my arm back before landing a punch directly in his face, watching him fall on top of me limply. Having hit him hard enough to knock him out I shoved his heavy body off of me. Then I crawled across the floor, grabbing my shirt and pulling it on, before standing up and looking around.

Then my eyes landed on the man I'd allowed to torture me for so many years, and it was almost shocking. The way he was helplessly lying on the floor made him almost human, it was so unrecognizable. His usually hard expression had gone soft, he was not at eye level, nor was he in control. Right now he was completely powerless. And I didn't feel one bit guilty.

I patted at my pockets until my hand landed on one of the bottles of kerosene. He would not touch Roxas again. Not if I have anything to do with it. With quick precision, I made my way through the entire mansion covering it in one long line of kerosene so I knew the fire would spread, leaving everyone, including me, little room to escape. Once I was sure I'd covered every surface I could with the small amount of liquid I had between the three bottles, I joined Xemnas again in the other room and took great care dousing his body with the remaining kerosene. Then I made my way to the door and opened it, allowing the sun to spill onto Xemnas. Truth be told, if he hadn't touched Roxas, I might actually regret doing this. But for now, I'm quite enjoying it.

I Pulled a match box out of my front pocket carefully lifted a match out, and watches as Xemnas looked up at me, terror, helplessness and shame, filling his eyes. Then with a smirk on my face, and my eyes connected with his, I struck the match and tossed it to the floor, throwing the rest of the box at Xemnas. "Later Xemy." I spoke, watching the flames engulf the doorway.

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"What does that matter Demyx!" I cried into the phone. Honestly, how could he be thinking about that? "How am I going to help him using a small bottle of gas?"

"Oh…" I heard a dark laugh come from the phone, "Axels pretty crafty with a box of matches and I can guarantee there used to be more than one bottle."

"And…?"

"Okay, let me explain it like this. When Axel gets angry, his brain starts working crazy fast to come up with a plan. And that plan, experience has taught me, is rarely pretty, and always involves fire. Axel protects the ones he loves, and he went in there with a plan. Okay? Now what did he tell you to do?"

"He gave me his key and told me to get away as far as I can."

"He didn't tell you to wait?"

"No."

"Oh, well that's not good."

I couldn't help it more tears poured out of my eyes and I struggled to pull a breath in. He'd come to my rescue, risked his life, even gave his life for me, and I couldn't help him. What kind of boyfriend sits in a car crying while his boyfriend is in a house with a psychopath?

Demyx was still cooing in my ear, telling me to breath, and attempting to calm me down when I heard the car door open, and felt a cool breeze rush over me. My body immediately went into convulsive shivers and I curled into a ball, for protection.

"Move over Roxy, we have to get out of here." At the sound of his voice I whirled around and attached myself to his neck, kissing his face in every imaginable spot. Tears continued to fall from my eyes, but they were tears of relief, of happiness. He was still here. He was still with me. Our warm bodies are pressed together, his long arms wrapped around me, his mouth finding its way to mine, and kissing me deeply. My Axel is okay.

"Mm…Roxas…" Gently using his hands against my chest he pushed me back into the car. "We really need to get out of here."

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Part of me craved having Roxas all over me, but then that other half, remembers what I did. What I consciously chose to do. I had allowed that other mans filthy hand to touch me, I allowed his tongue to enter me and now I'm holding Roxxas. My dirty mouth is on his, my infected tongue is dancing with his, and my tainted hands are sneaking under the coat he's wearing. And he trusts me. And that's not even mentioning the murder I just committed.

So, as politely as I could, I pushed Roxas back into the car, looked back at the house that was starting to smoked, then back at him, "We really need to get out of here." I climbed into the car after him, and turned the key that was already in the ignition. "You ready?"

A warm smile spread over his we face, "With you here."

A small smile tugged at my lips. I never expected him to leave without me. The light that filled his face when he'd seen me sent warmth throughout my body. I knew exactly what he had felt. We hadn't been separated long, but in that small time, it had felt like half of me was missing. And in the room with Xemnas we had been so close, yet still so far away. It didn't feel like we were truly back together, until the moment his watery eyes had locked onto mine. In that moment we were a complete again.

I couldn't bear to hurt him. Not when he felt so good. Lies were okay if they kept someone happy right? He never has to know that I cheated, he never has to know that I killed someone. All he needs to know is that I love him. That's what's important. I promised Saix I'd move on, and I did that with Roxas. I'm not about to lose him too.

With an eye on the rearview mirror, watching the mansion disappear in smoke and flames, while Roxas rested his head on my shoulder and closed his eyes, I floored the Lambo, and left my worry and lies behind. No one's perfect, and I'm certainly no Jesus.

End

And it's finished.

Yes, I'll probably do a sequel, and even if I don't have a sequel, I'll have an epilogue of sorts and closed up any loose ends I may have missed.

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~Sammy-Dee