Soooo the first part in italics was written by me...nothing else... The remainder was written by the man himself! (not the twilight Jasper but MY jasper) anyway...enjoy! Beanacreede

I remember when your mom and I first got divorced...that last fight of ours. Your mom and I were screaming at each other about how I was mistreating her and didn't care about you. You thought I've only been drinking since I built the new house but... I've been an alcoholic since I was eighteen. I was drunk that night babygirl... She said very simply to choose either my liquor or you two.

Your arms wound their way around my legs trying to comfort ME. The one who messed everything up... I knew you were going to turn out to be just like your mother...I was so mad but I didn't mean it...I slapped you. I regretted it the moment you spat the blood out of your mouth but pride wouldn't let me apologize. So I made my choice...I left.

And I regret every second of it

Jasper
She was so scared, so nervous. Desperate to make a good impression. Every moment she seemed torn between some decision as if her life depended on that decision. Ever since the hospital her nicknames for me had changed from "Mr. Dirty Blonde" to "Idiot" and finally "Mind Reader". I thought it was hilarious how she seemed to think I could read her mind, what she didn't realize is that I've been memorizing everything I could about her from that first moment her eyes touched mine.

I knew her natural hair color wasn't black judging by her roots of her hair.

I knew she desperately wanted to be a mother just how she reacted around Emmett (A/N I'm going to be calling him "bubby" too lol) but it was as if she was scared to be.

I knew she loved my mother far more than she loved her own.

I knew her favorite colors. I knew everything in her eyes and I had only known her for a week.

I moved her to the living room with Bubby to watch Tarzan (I knew she loved that movie as much as he did) so mom and I could cook dinner. Not to long after my mom finally noticed the bracelet on my right wrist (A/N remember which wrist it's on it will be significant later I promise).

"what do the letters stand for?"

**FB**
when we made our bracelets we wouldn't let the other see what the message was. Mine was obvious, it was Bella's name spelled upside down and backwards...I told her I meant to do that.

Hers on the other hand I would have never guessed had she not have told me...
The bracelet consisted of what seemed like random letters seperated by random shapes...but she explained.
C= the cigarettes we both missed
A rose=her favorite flower
W= Wall-E the first move that began The Game... DAMN! I lost!
A sun= what she didn't see much of anymore
F= for fail...her favorite word
A star= what would be the use of the sun without the stars?
F= because two fails in a row makes it epic
A key= lack of freedom
B= Bella
A skull
J= Jasper
A circle= a promise
F= forever

She never told me what the skull was for, I assumed it was for the suicide hospital. She told me from day one we were both pretenders so I guess that made sense.
**EFB**

"it's her mom she gave me a piece of her I could carry with me."
She took the answer as acceptable and I went to check on Bella and Emmett. She was curled up on the couch watching the movie, with bubby napping in her lap. And like a lightning bolt it hit me. I wanted this. I wanted to see Bella curled up with her son, our son. It was WAY to early to start thinking that. I could wait...

Hours later Bella was getting ready to leave when bubby started crying. Guess who got to him before his own mother did? When we got there Bella was rocking him in her arms murmuring in his ear.

"mom?" she asked "can I stay with him until he falls asleep again?"

I glanced at the tears in my mothers eyes. She wanted this too. "how about you just spend the night dear?"

Bellas answering smile was all that was required as an answer.

It was midnight and I couldn't sleep so I decided to check on her. She had bubby wrapped in her arms and they both were tucked into a Cars blanket. Poor Bella, Bubby was OBSESSED with the movie "Cars". He had his sippy cup of chocolate milk tucked up under his chin...they were beautiful together. SHE was beautiful with her hair splayed acrossed her pillow, finally relaxed...she looked like an Angel.

Suddenly her face paled and a layer of sweat broke out on her forehead, and my mind raced back to the nights at the Hospital. I think the entire hospital was woken up every night at two am because of the screaming... No one ever told us who it was, but my watch read 1:48.

2+2 DOES equal four you know. I had to keep her from screaming. She would hate it. It would scare mom and Bubby...and I knew she wouldn't come back if she did...

Gently I eased her away from Bubby and into my arms on the floor. She grabbed my shirt so tightly that even the scars on her arms popped into clear view...

Her hands let go of my shirt and wound up to her own hair and she started whimpering "I promised, I will" over and over like a tiny prayer. I didn't know what I was doing but I kissed both of her eyelids
"hush now Bella, come back to me...it's just a dream"

Her eyes snapped open and she took a shaky breath finally noticing who was holding her. And she did the most unthinkable thing. Ever. I knew her so well and even I didn't anticipate this...

She kissed me.

Mom found us the next morning asleep on bubbys bed surrounded by bubbys toy cars...and woven protectively in mine and bellas arms was bubby.

We had no idea why she was crying when we woke up.