Hey guys, my old laptop is on it's way to the laptop GRAVEYARD because I may or may not have….broken it. So I have a brand new dell so I hope his works better. So here's a new update ^.^ Sorry it's taken so long lol…

Jasper

Have I ever told you how beautiful Bella is when she sleeps? The little line of worry she carries on her forehead disappears… she finally looks at peace. Until a nightmare hits. They seem to getting better while she stays here, she seems to smile easier….she's finally becoming a beautiful creature completely free of pain…. Anyone with eyes could see that.

Right now she's in Emmetts room picking up his toys and I can't help but stare. Her shirt rides up just enough for the pale flesh of her back to stay exposed… her hips and back are scarred almost as bad as her wrists are. But the beauty of it is…her scars. Her scars to me prove to me what she has been through…and what she is STILL dealing with. And the fact that there aren't any new marks proves to me how much I've helped her through.

Everything about her is amazing, beautiful, remarkable, there isn't a word to describe her except the fact that she's…..Bella.

"You can stop staring at anytime, Jazz…." Her voice pulled me out of my endless train of thoughts and I smiled seductively.

"Why would I do that love? Your ass is impossible NOT to stare at."

Her blush made the moment perfect and I took a deep breath preparing myself to ask the fatal question when the little traitor came racing into the room.

"Beya, Beya!"

She laughed and held her arms out inviting him into her embrace. Yes, I was jealous.

"What do you need Bub?"

This child was definitely my brother. He curled up in her arms and fucking POUTED. If that sort of thing worked for me I would pout DAILY. She is a sucker for kids, and once they pout she will do whatever they want. This kid is a player. And he's only three.

"Momma says its nap time! But I don't wanna take a nap!" He even pulled of a lip quiver.

Anytime she moved to put him in the bed he would cry, so she just held him in her arms and leaned against the door until he fell asleep. In her arms. Lucky kid. She was about to get up when her phone rang, and her face fell. The caller ID said "Phil" but she couldn't answer because of bub, so I put it on speaker for her…and her face said she didn't want me to.

"You fucking cunt! Where is my money?"

Her face paled in confusion "What money?"

"Don't play stupid with me you dirty whore! The $3,500 you just spent!"

"Phil, I haven't spent any money! I'm at Jasper's!" She put Emmett on the bed and tucked him in before storming out of the room obviously not wanting me to hear the conversation. She turned it off speaker, but not before I heard him scream, "I know you're at Jasper's. You're always at Jasper's! I can only imagine what you're doing, fucking, drinking, smoking, You decided to spend all my money on drugs, you fucking BITCH!"

Bella turned to me and smiled she actually smiled. Had she lost her damn mind? This was amusing her?

"Jazz, it's okay, this happens sometimes. It's okay."

Now I understood. She was trying to be strong and play this off as "it's not bugging her"

Hell no.

I took the phone from her to try to calm the conversation down, and the moment I put the phone to my ear he screamed, "You fucking bitch, I swear to whatever deity you believe in, the next time I see your fucking face I'll pound it through a fucking wall! Do you understand me?"

Nope. My irritation level didn't raise at all….

"Hey, this is Jasper. What's going on?"

"Oh, now the bitch wants you to fight her battles for her?"

This argument lasted for about an hour until Bella slipped down to the floor and put her head in her hands. No, she didn't want me fighting her battles. She wanted me to put the phone down and walk as far away as I could, she never wanted me to speak to him…. And this was why. I don't quite remember what I said…but during the fight I told him to come up here and finish what he started. Bella didn't like that. And neither did Phil, he hung up…. But he never showed. She was quiet for the rest of Bubby's nap. Thanks to that one phone call…she had reverted to Ms. Fake Smile. And Emmett didn't see the difference.

Holding my breath I grabbed her wrist and led her to the living room and pulled her into my arms. "Bella, it's only been three weeks, and…well I feel like I've known you forever. I don't have a ring, but I already know who I want to spend the rest of my life with. I don't have the money to buy a ring for you but I promise once I do, I'll find the biggest rock I can find-"

She cut me off with tears in her eyes. "Jazz….It's not the ring that matters," she took her bracelet off of her right wrist and transferred it to her left. "But the promise"

I was the one who cried as I kissed her and did the same.

Hush little baby don't you cry

Listen to daddies lullaby

Save your tears

And hold your smile,

Daddy will walk you down the isle…