Alright guys…I have some explaining to do. Apparently writing a chappie in the middle of the night makes ABSOLUTELY no sense. So here we go. Jasper is alive, and he's with Alice now. Bella saw them in the meadow and put two and two together. So if you have any other questions lemme know but I hope this chappie clears things up. Thank you for your reviews and I'm really sorry for confusing you… here we go.
Jasper.
I was so anxious. I couldn't believe she let me drive her car without any form of a fight. I had to do this right.
I turned and smiled when she whispered the words "I love you"
She had no idea how much of an understatement that was. Just her smile made my world go round.
So when her face changed and she started screaming, I saw the car coming. Does she remember me leaning away from the steering wheel to pull her into my arms?
I remember her calling my name.
I remember not being able to move…to reach out to her.
I'm alright, I'm okay. Can't you hear me Bella? Bella please! Please be okay…
"No! Leave me! Jasper, get Jasper! Why aren't you listening to me? I don't matter! Save him!"
Bella, you're everything. Save her, please…she means everything.
I remember them pulling me out of the car.
I remember the pain.
I remember waking up to a pair of gold eyes, and inky black hair.
"Jasper? Jasper it's okay. I'm going to save you okay? You're going to be alright."
Forget the pain of the accident, that was nothing compared to this.
After an eternity the pain lessened and I opened my eyes to see my savior sitting as still as that of a picture.
"Bella's fine. Don't worry about her. She lives. You however, will never be the same again. You are vampire now, I created you."
"Vampire? So, what I sleep in a coffin and burst into flames when the sun touches me?"
"Typical Hollywood. There are a few things you need to learn about vampires. First, be inconspicuous. If you make too much of a scene you die. Second, you must follow every whim of your creator. Meaning whatever I tell you no matter how painful…you have to do. If you don't… I have the power to kill you. But as it is…Disobey me and I'll kill her."
She threw a picture at my feet of a girl in a black tank top, and a red plaid skirt.
She had blood flowing from long cuts in her arms…the blood flow looked almost like wings if you looked at it right…
Flipping it over I read the back and all it said was "The Fallen Angel"
"Am I supposed to know who this is?"
Take a closer look. Don't speak, I know your mind.
My eyes traveled from her crossed ankles to her flat stomach, taking in every ounce of her beauty.
Past the mane of fire that was her hair.
To what looked like a perfectly sleeping face.
A song flowed into my mind when I thought that. But it wasn't me singing it. It was Alice, singing in my mind.
"I don't wanna close my eyes,
I don't wanna fall asleep,
Cause I'd miss you babe,
And I don't want to miss a thing."
Oh god, it was Bella…
There you go. I knew you'd remember.
A couple days passed and I found myself at her school, on Prom night. Fifty or so students gathered here to dance to mediocre music and to drown in lust. If she was here…I don't know what convinced her to go.
Turn, look into the gym. Ignore the beauty in blue…The guy she's dancing with? His name is Edward Cullen. My husband, and your new brother. She doesn't know.
I looked at Edward for a moment before he glanced up and smiled at me. I glanced at the girl he was dancing with, Bella.
She was gorgeous…In a navy blue floor length gown that accented her skin just perfectly. She had her face tucked into the curve of his neck just like she used to do, when I'd wake her from a dream.
I couldn't stand here any longer. One more turn and she would see me. Taking a breath I walked towards her locker. And if my heart could have stopped, it would have.
Forty different images littered her locker. Thirty of them had me smiling in the background. And at the very top was taken the night of the accident. Me turned towards her smiling…and just in the background you could even see the car that…that what? Killed me? Is that what happened?
It doesn't matter Jasper. She needs to move on. Tear the pictures. Leave only the fragments of her. She needs to get the message that she's alone. That she needs to say goodbye to you.
I didn't want to. But her warning retraced in my mind. I had promised Bella that I would do anything to keep her safe and alive. I had to do this.
I went overboard. I tore her locker door, threw her belongings, and finally glanced down at my wrist. Still bloody from the accident…I hung it in her locker, knowing she would find it. I had promised that the day I gave this back to her was the day that I would decide to move on.
Nice finishing touch…now quick! Run to the meadow. I'll meet you there.
When I got there Alice took no time in laying across my lap, instructing me to laugh and pretend to be in love with my creator. I knew she was there. Alice explained that I was an empath…I could feel other peoples emotions. And I felt hers.
Confusion,
Wonder,
Pain…endless pain.
And love.
I ran to her while she was looking down. And I stared deep into her eyes. 'I love you' I screamed in my head 'listen to me…I. love. You..'
Jasper. You know what you have to do. Get over here.
I wish I could tell you how much it hurt to walk away from her saying only that I was glad she was okay. I didn't want to do any of this. I just wanted to hold her, to tell her that I needed her. But I had to save her. So I did the most vile thing ever… I slept with the woman in front of my Bella.
I acted cruel and heartless towards her wishing that I could tell her I was saving her life.
I watched her stand up and walk away.
I felt her break, but she was pretending to be strong, pretending that none of this hurt her. Nothing could touch her.
Her heart gave her away.
If she had turned to look behind her she would have seen me on my knees holding my head in my hands…trying not to scream her name.
Wishing that I had died.
Wishing…
I glared when Alice said the fatal words that I didn't want to hear.
Good Job. She shouldn't be back.