AN: Thank you to all my reviewers, I try to reply to all the reviews but if yours somehow gets skipped I want to say THANK YOU. The reviews make me want to write and when I want to write you get another chapter. Though the bad news is that I now work 40 hrs a week with night classes M-TH so updates will continue to be on the weekend.

~Chapter 14~

Edward POV-

"Edward how was your day?" Carlisle said turning his complete attention to me. I stumbled to find words knowing that I had to tell him about taking too many pills but not meaning to overdose. I wanted to tell him I was sorry for doing that and that I wouldn't ever do it again, but I couldn't tell him all that. I knew Esme would have told him everything and I sat there waiting for the punishment I knew I would have to endure now that it was just the three of us alone in their house.

"I didn't mean to do it. I'm sorry sir I won't do it again…" I stammered out when I realized he was still waiting for my reply to his question. My body was starting to shake as I held in my tears. I knew the tears would just make the punishment worst. Elizabeth and Phil always got angrier at me whenever I would cry. I remember Elisabeth slapping me, telling me to stop being a baby and stop my crying, I was only 6 at the time.

"Edward you are not in any trouble, I just got worried when I heard about what happened." His voice was soft and slowly I raised my eyes to his. I'm sure surprised shone through my eyes as I noticed the only emotions I could see from him was love and concern, and I think that it was directed to me. He continued when he noticed I wasn't going to say anything. "I don't want you to hurt yourself Edward. You are not in any trouble son, I love you."

I didn't know how to reply to his seemly simple statement. Of course he had told me that he loves me, he had said it to me ever since I showed up in Forks. When I didn't say anything back to him he let out a soft sigh.

"I think I'm going to head to bed. Do you need anything before I go?" He asked as he stood from the table.

"No, Dad I'm fine I don't need anything." He smiled at me as he turned to leave. "Dad?" I said so softly I wondered if he would have been able to hear me. "Thank you." I said when he looked at me. And then like that he was gone.

After thanking Esme for cleaning up our mess I grabbed my crutches and slowly made my way up stairs to my room, figuring since I wasn't really tiered that some reading might be nice. Making my way to my bookshelf I noticed a book sitting on the little table by my bed. I walked over to it confused because I was almost positive it wasn't there yesterday. I noticed a note on top of the book and picked it up.

Edward-

This is one of my favorite series and I made sure Esme got it for you; maybe if you read it you can one day tell me what you think about it.

-Jasper

His handwriting was neat I noted as I placed the note back onto the nightstand and looked at the book. Full Moon Rising ( Riley Jensen, Guardian, Book 1) By: Keri Arthur. Reading the back of the book I shrugged as I crawled onto my bed and opened to page one. Three pages later I was hooked and completely entwined into the book as I read late into the night. As I finished the book and closed it I realized that it was almost midnight and that I had been reading for almost four hours, though this shouldn't have surprised me seeing as I finished a 416 page book.

Stretching I grabbed my crutches as got out of bed, heading toward the bookshelf to put the book away. I still couldn't believe how many books I had as I looked for the Riley Jensen series. I found them at the far left of the bookshelf after noticing that they had been alphabetized by the last name of the author.

The next day as I was making my way down the stairs when I noticed all the family pictures hanging on the wall, I stood there frozen when I saw pictures of me intertwined with their family photos. Though where theirs showed them growing, mine was of me as a baby leading up to when I was ten. Carlisle always made sure to get pictures when he would come to visit me two times a year. I continued my decent down the stairs and there at the bottom was a frame with a collage of pictures. The pictures were of Alice, Emmett, and me. On the frame under the pictures it read Out Children. I couldn't help the smile that spread across my face as I saw it, even as I pushed him away, Carlisle mixed me with the rest of his family. He made me a part of him family, he made room for me in his home and he loved me.

The rest of July passed quickly.

We would eat dinner as a family almost every night, though Dad would miss some nights because he would have to work. Our conversations were that of everyday stuff, seeing as I was still refusing to tell them what exactly had happened. I was still trying to adjust to this new life and found myself usually in my room with my nose in a book off in some far away world. I still had Jaspers note, though I hadn't seen him since that day. There was something about the blonde stranger that intrigued me. Emmett has been spending a lot of time at Jaspers house along with Rose, Em's girlfriend. Though I preferred to stay away from the family and be in my room I did observe everyone, how they acted and how they interacted with one another. Alice was busy hardly staying in the same place for ten minutes. I found the only time that she would sit still was when challenged in a chess match. I had learned two weeks after coming home that no one in the family would play Alice at chess, claiming that she must be clairvoyant or something. That's when we started to play, sometimes I truly believed she was clairvoyant, but she also liked to tease me calling me a mind reader at times because I seemed to be able to block her moves sometimes. Emmett and I would play on his PS3 this game called SoulCaliber 4, I was starting to realize how competitive both of my adopted siblings were. While I had never owned a PS3 I found that it was quiet easy to learn to play and found that I enjoyed playing SoCal.

~ Today was August 13th it was 11:00 a.m. ~

I was sitting in my room like I normally do when there was a knock on my door. The entire family had a habit of knocking before entering and I was finding that I liked that. I liked being able to know if someone is coming in.

"Come in." I said with slight authority in my voice. Something I had been working on, I didn't want to be a scared little kid any longer.

"Edward I was hoping that we could talk." Carlisle said as he entered my room. I must have had a slight look of fear on my face because Carlisle quickly continued. "I would like you to consider going into a counselor. I know in the past you refused, but I would like to take you off sleeping pills and the last time we did that you had nightmares. I believe that it would benefit you if you took the time to talk to a professional a few times a week. But the choice is up to you."

He let the conversation fade as he waited for me to process the information he just gave me. I logically knew that it would be best to tell someone, holding it in could cause damage to my future. I knew I had to talk to a professional like the one Carlisle wanted me to see, but I wasn't sure if anyone should know the hell I've lived. I nervously ran a hand through my hair as I thought about this.

"Dad when is my first appointment?" I said unsure if I was doing the right thing by agreeing to this. He gave me a reassuring smile.

"I haven't made an appointment for you but I'm sure I can get you in this afternoon if that wouldn't be too soon for you." I nodded knowing he was happy with my agreement.

About five hours later I found myself in Carlisle's car on our way to Forks General Hospital. Dr. Greenway said that she would see me at 4:00. We didn't talk much during the ten minute ride, though Carlisle made sure that I knew I didn't have to continue going to Dr. Greenway if I decided that I didn't want to or that I wasn't ready.

4:00 on the dot I walked through Dr. Greenway's office and found myself sitting in a chair across from a young woman with short red hair.

"Mr. Cullen, how are you doing this afternoon?" She said with a smile.

"Edward." I automatically corrected her. "Please call me Edward. I'm um doing ok this afternoon I guess."

"Ok then Edward, I would like to ask you some questions. Would that be ok with you?" Her voice was soft as she talked and I wondered how much of my past she already knew.

"Yes, that would be ok." I replied to her.

"Will you share with me the first time that your mother abused you?"

I was sitting in the living room of our new house; my mom was in the kitchen drinking something that always made her act strange. I was five and still didn't understand why my mom and I had left but my dad didn't come with us. A loud bang from the kitchen caused me to tip over my glass of water.

Elizabeth chose that time to come into the living room, I didn't understand then but I soon learned to tell when she was drunk.

"You stupid boy." She yelled when she saw the glass of water now soaking into the carpet. "Look at what you did!"

I didn't understand her anger as she slapped me. I started crying, why was my mom so angry all the time? I wondered as she continued to yell at me.

I told Mrs. Greenway about being told that I was unloved and how much it hurt to hear my mother's words. By the time our hour long appointment was over I was in tears about reliving some of my nightmares. I didn't tell Mrs. Greenway or Ann which she told me to call her; I didn't tell her about Phil and about what he did. We stuck with the subject of Elizabeth; we talked about my "relationship" with my mother.

Carlisle was waiting for me when I got out of my appointment.

"How did it go son?" He asked as I hobbled over to him. Yes I am still in these stupid crutches.

"It was ok. I have an appointment Monday the 16th at 2:00." We let the conversation drop as we went to the car.

That night at dinner was nothing special as we started our normal conversation.

"Edward, I'm taking Emmett and Alice to get ready for school tomorrow. Would you like to come shopping with us, Carlisle has to work tomorrow." I could tell she wanted to add that she didn't want to leave me home alone. Ever since I joined the family either Esme or Carlisle would stay home with me, I only left the house to go to the hospital, even then that wasn't often.

"I would like to come with you." I said still slightly unsure of my choice. Alice and Esme both looked extremely happy by my choice and I started to wonder if it was a bad one.

Later that night I was heading up the stairs when Emmett called out my name.

"I wanted to ask you if it was ok for me to have Rose and Jasper over tomorrow night. It's kind of a tradition we do the Saturday before the first day of school." It took me a moment to understand that he was asking me for permission to have people over to the house.

"Um… yeah that would um… that would be ok." I stuttered out.

"I don't have to have them over if you would be uncomfortable." He quickly said noticing my nervous reply.

"No that would be fine." I said struggling to make my voice stronger and sound surer of what I was saying.

"Thanks." He said as he ran down the stairs.

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