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Smooches
Wrapping the towel closer to my body I laid my head on my knees. I wanted to be happy and for once I finally was, but there was always something that would get in the way of complete happiness. I love Adrian and the thought of him not being in my life was unbearable, but would it be better to let him go now than for him to realize in a few years that I was nothing but a guardian and that is all I will ever be.
The light knock on the door pulled me from my thoughts, but knowing it was Adrian on the other side sent a pang of pain through my heart.
"Rose" he said lightly knocking on the door again. "Come on Little Dhampir open the door."
I slid away from the door and moved my body to lay my back against the tub. Adrian must have heard my weight shift off the door because he slowly started to turn the handle. I was staring at the floor not wanting to see the pain that I had caused him from the lack of my words when he just told me that he wanted to spend the rest of our lives together and raise a family. I could tell that he had slipped a pair of jeans on but his feet were still bare as well as his chest.
He knelt before me "I am sorry if what I said upset you, that was not my intention. I need you to understand what I said is what I hope for but every relationship there has to be compromise. If I don't get everything I hope for I can get past that as long as I have you" he moved his hands to lift my face off of my knees. "I love you, no matter what you decide for the future that won't ever change."
I stared at him wondering how I had gotten so lucky to have two wonderful men fall in love with me. Then I realized that my brain was fighting my heart because I was afraid. "Adrian I love you too, and everything you said sounds wonderful but after what happened with Dimitri the thought of making plans that include us getting married and having children terrifies me. Not because I don't want it, because I do but look what happened to Dimitri. We started to make plans and then he was taken and now he is a Strogio that I couldn't even keep my promise to" I sobbed shoving my face back into my knees.
"What happened to him is awful, but you can't hold back because you are afraid. I will do everything in my power to never leave you, to never hurt you. If we have to take this relationship one day at a time then ok, if making plans for the future is something you are not ready to do then we won't. I want you to be happy, and I think I can make you happy" he said placing his hands on the side of my legs next to my face.
I moved my head to look up at him, I could see sadness but his love was overpowering. And I believed every word he had said. I shifted my body so that I was now kneeling with him. "I love you, I can't promise you a family but I can promise you that my heart is yours. I can promise there will be no more running because the thought of not being with you when you are here is so much worse than the thought I could spend the next twenty years loving you, only to lose you" I moved my hands so they were lightly touching his face. We stared into each other's eyes making silent promises that we were not perfect but we would do our best to make our relationship work.
I closed the space that separated us, my lips molding to his. Wrapping my arms around his neck I pulled him closer. I pushed my towel clad body to his, his arms engulfed my body. He moved his legs to stand up pulling my body up with his. The movement caused the towel to drop, but instead of stopping to pick it up I pushed him through the open door toward the bedroom. Our lips still together my eagerness caused me to accidentally push him into the corner of the living room table.
"Ouch" he said releasing my lips from his to see what he hit.
"Sorry" I said giggling as he gave the table a death glare.
"Oh you think that is funny?" he asked turning back to me.
"Well I am sure the table is terribly sorry that you hit it, but I don't think you need to intimidate it with your death glare" I said giggling again.
Before I knew what he was doing he had my naked body thrown over his shoulder.
"Well Little Dhampir for a future guardian you seem to have a slow reaction time when it comes to me" he said slapping my bare butt.
"Oh you are going to pay for that" I said slipping my hand into the back of his pant and giving his butt a squeeze.
"I thought you were hungry, if you keep playing like that you are going to have to wait to eat" he said walking into the bedroom dropping my naked body onto the bed while standing in front of me staring over my body.
"I think that hunger can wait, right now I have a craving for something else" I said blushing with my boldness. Then I leaned forward looping my finger through his belt loop pulling his body toward me. I quickly unbuttoned his pants and pulled them free from his body. Apparently he was in a hurry to put pants on because we was lacking an essential clothing item.
Adrian smirked when I looked up to him. "Do you normally walk around with no underwear on?" I asked pushing myself higher onto the bed pulling him with me.
Instead of answering his lips came down on mine, one hand was caressing my breast while the other went to work down below preparing me. I let out a moan and he picked up his pace. My hands were wrapped around his body, I trailed my fingers down his back stopping on his perfect butt. I grabbed it pulling it further into my body.
"Adrian now" I said panting while his mouth showed my breast some much needed attention. He kissed his way back up to my neck.
"I love you Little Dhampir" he said moving his lips back to mine before I felt him enter me. My hips arched up allowing him further entrance. Last night it was sweet and slow but today was about a need for the both of us.
His thrust became harder, while my moans became louder. I kissed down his jaw bone to his neck. Sucking and biting along the way. He would moan when I did something he enjoyed so I made sure to make a mental note for the future. When I felt myself coming closer I wrapped my legs around his waist while he drove into me a few more times sending me over the edge to bliss, I felt him follow right after me. His movements slowed while he trailed kisses all over my face.
He rolled over to his side pulling my body with his.
"Wow" I said snuggling my head into his chest.
"You are amazing" he said rubbing circles around my back.
"You're not so bad yourself" I said placing a light kiss on his chest where my head was laying.
If I didn't want to get out of bed earlier I definitely didn't want to go anywhere now. We sat there holding each other until my phone started to ring. I sighed and rolled over to grab my phone on the nightstand. The caller id showed a picture of Lissa.
"Hey" I said answering the phone.
"Don't hey me, Adrian promised he wouldn't keep you locked up in his room all weekend. You already missed breakfast but I better see you in ten minutes to eat lunch with me" she said no joking in her voice.
I looked over to Adrian a thin layer of sweat covering his body, his hair looked like it usually did which was a mess, his eyes were closed but I could tell he wasn't asleep.
"Lissa I don't think" I started to say when she interrupted me.
"You are not getting out of lunch unless you want me to kidnap you all day tomorrow" she hissed at me.
"Fine we will see you in ten minutes" I said hanging up the phone. Adrian had opened his eyes and was staring at me.
"So we are going to lunch?" he asked rolling his body toward me rubbing his hand over my bare stomach.
"Yeah and you better stop that or we will miss it and Lissa has already threatened to kidnap me all day tomorrow if we do" I said watching him pull his eager hands away from me and leap out of the bed.
"Do we have time for a shower" he called from his closet.
"No" I mumbled. Realizing I had no clean clothes. I grabbed the soft shorts and started to slid them on when Adrian grabbed my arm.
"I had Lissa grab you an outfit for today, it's in that bag over there" he pointed to a white bag sitting on the floor next to the door.
"Were you that sure of yourself that I would be sleeping here last night?" I asked walking over to grab the bag.
"I was hoping you would sleep here, but if I remember correctly we did a lot more than sleep" he said winking at me.
I grabbed the bag and placed it on the bed to see what she had brought me. I smiled recalling the memories from the night before and this morning. This was the happiest I had ever been and I couldn't help but smile knowing that my feelings were no longer a secret as well as my fears.
I ran a brush through my hair that was not looking to hot and applied some lip gloss and told Adrian I was ready. We walked out of his room hand and hand and walked toward the cafeteria.
A few people that clearly hadn't been in the cafeteria yesterday during our PDA looked at us with their mouths open. Adrian chuckled while I gave them the death glare until they looked away. Lissa was standing in front of the cafeteria with Christian when we walked up.
"Hey" I said giving her a one handed hug since Adrian was still holding my other hand.
"About time you showed up" she said grabbing my other hand before grabbing Christians pulling all of us toward the door.
Adrian and Christian walked off to the feeders while Lissa and I got in line to get food. She had been to the feeders that morning and said she wanted to have some one on one girl time.
"So tell me everything, start from the beginning" she said grabbing a salad and apple.
"I still can't believe you helped him and didn't tell me" I said grabbing spaghetti with a side salad and water.
"He would have been so mad at me and I think in the long run you would have been upset too" she said walking to our table. She had a good point, I would have been upset especially because I knew how hard he had worked to get everything right.
"So give me the details and you better not leave anything out" she said flopping down in her chair.
"Well you seen the outfit, he had me meet him at the lake the one a little ways behind the gym. There was a table set up where we ate all of my favorite foods under candlelight. I am sure Christian told you about the candles in the lake" I said looking at her face I had assumed wrong. "Well he had a bunch and when I say a bunch I mean like over two hundred floating candles in the lake, that is where Christian helped. Then we danced and watched the sun rise together" I said taking a bite of my food.
"I never pegged Adrian as a romantic. And I think you are leaving some very important details out" she said staring at me trying to get the bond to work in her advantage. I smiled knowing no matter how hard she tried it wouldn't work.
"I don't know what you are talking about" I said shoving another bite of my food into my mouth. I figured if my mouth was full I couldn't talk.
"Don't try and lie to me, I might not be able to get into your head but you are still my best friend and I know when you are trying to hide something and you are definitely trying to hide something" she said dropping her fork down onto the plate.
When I didn't answer her I could tell she was growing frustrated, it was a bit funny we never talked about her sex life we never had to since I had seen plenty on my own.
"If there is nothing else to tell me then maybe you want to explain why you have sex hair? I have had enough sex to know what it does to your hair and you definitely had sex" she practically yelled from her frustration.
"Oh what did we miss?" Christian asked pulling the seat out next to Lissa to sit down, while Adrian pulled the chair out next to me.
"Hey" he said giving me a quick kiss. Christian was still looking from Lissa to me. "Like I said what did we miss?" he asked again focusing on Lissa.
"I was just asking Rose what she did to her hair, it is a new look for her don't you think" she said giving me a wicked smile. Christian pulled his eyes from Lissa to look at me.
"Oh" he said laughing.
"Hey guys" Eddy said walking up with his plate of food. Christian was still to busy laughing to acknowledge him.
"Hey" Adrian and I said.
"Ok what did I miss?" Eddy asked looking around the table waiting for someone to answer. By now I was so uncomfortable I was attempting to smooth my hair down. Adrian glanced at me with questioning eyes.
When Christian stopped laughing he gave me a smirk before turning to Eddy.
"You better not" I threatened Christian.
"We were just discussing Rose's new hairdo. What are they calling that look now a days Rose?" Christian asked.
Adrian was finally catching on. "Are you upset you never leave Lissa's hair looking so good?" Adrian asked attempting to help me smooth down my hair.
I could see Christian and Lissa's annoyance and couldn't help but laugh with Adrian.
"Oh, that is wrong you guys. I am trying to eat" Eddy said finally realizing what Christian was talking about. We all sat in awkward silence.
"Do you guys want to come to my dorm tonight and watch a movie?" Adrian asked breaking the silence.
We all agreed to meet at Adrian's dorm at two.
"That was embarrassing" I said laying my head on Adrian's shoulder as we walked.
"I am sure it is more embarrassing knowing you are in Lissa's head while they have sex" he said making a good point. I had definitely seen more of Christian's body than I had ever wanted to.
We stopped by my dorm to grab more clothes and then headed back to his dorm to take another shower. We hung out in his dorm until everyone showed up at two. The guys started playing video games while Lissa and I sat back watching with amusement how into the games they were. After a while it started to get boring.
"You want to go on a walk?" I asked Lissa, she agreed. We told the boys and they barely registered us leaving, you would think we were dating eight year old boys the way they were yelling. Adrian gave me a smile as I closed the door.
"You never told me what happened with you and Christian" I said once we walked outside.
"He told me what you said and I wanted to thank you for that. He was just holding so much in and I am not sure if he would have ever said anything to me if you wouldn't have given him that extra push" she said wrapping one of her arms around my waist pulling me into her side. "He would have eventually came around" I said hugging her closer to my body.
"Well I realized how selfish I was being, I was making plans for my future thinking he would just follow me because he loved me. Not once did I ever stop and ask or even think about what he wanted to do with his future. He really enjoys helping other moroi learn to use their gifts and he has even spoken to Kirova about being a teacher here after we graduate" she said pulling me over to a bench to sit down.
"What are you going to do?" I asked her, realizing how much what she did affected Adrian and my life as well.
"We are going to stay here after we graduate, for a little while. I want to give him the chance to do what he wants and I am just not ready to be at Court full time. I am not sure what you want to do, with me staying here you won't really have to be my guardian for a while since the school is protected. Maybe it will give you some more time to try out some new hairdos" she said smiling over to me.
"Yeah maybe" I said thinking about what I was going to do at the academy for the next year if not longer. Christian had a good idea training the moroi, I knew Kirova was not my biggest fan but she knew I was a good fighter and I had a lot of knowledge maybe she would let me stay here and teach a class. It was kind of funny thinking about teaching since I hated going to class ninety-ninety percent of the time. But I actually felt excited about the prospect of doing something for myself before I had to protect Lissa all of the time.
"Rose are you ok?" Lissa asked shaking my arm.
"Yeah sorry I was thinking about what I was going to do after we graduate" I said giving her a reassuring smile. When I really thought about it I was with Christian I did not want to be stuck at court anymore than he did.
The next few months flew by, graduation came and went. Eddy and I were assigned to Lissa but only when she left the academy. Kirova agreed to let Eddy and I teach a defense class to the younger dhampirs. She had warned me if I didn't take my job seriously she would not tolerate it. If I remember correctly her words were "Guardian Hathaway I will not put up with you influencing these impressionable students with your lack of respect and control. If you can not maintain some control I will be forced to end your classes, do I make myself clear?" Eddy told me that she had a meeting with him telling him that we were a pair if I messed up it was on him as well, so he better keep me in check. I had to laugh at the thought of Eddy keeping me in check, but knew I wouldn't do anything to mess up not only for him but myself as well.
Adrian was excited when he found out we would be staying and that I would not have to be Lissa's guardian just yet. After I graduated I moved out of the student dorms, I was offered a guardian room but Adrian insisted that I move in with him. Since I had spent every night with him and I agreed. Lissa and Christian were also sharing a dorm down the hall.
"Little Dhampir it is time to get up" Adrian whispered in my ear kissing my neck.
"No, there is no way it is already morning" I said turning my body so I could snuggle my face into his shoulder.
He wrapped his arms around my body pulling me onto his chest. I snuggled my head into his chest. His hands moved up and down my back. Then one shifted directions moving down to my thong clad butt.
"Adrian if we don't have time to finish what you are attempting to start then I suggest you stop" I said feeling my body react to his touch. He flipped my body so he was hovering over me. "Then I suggest you better get out of this bed because what I want to do with you would definitely make you late for your class" he said shifting to roll back over.
I grabbed his arm stopping him. "Kiss" I said watching the smile build on his face. He lowered his body so our chest were touching our breathing in sync with one another. When he lowered his face my tongue outlined his lips, then I pulled his bottom lip into my mouth sucking on it before pulling his lips to mine. My tongue invaded his mouth running over his fangs, Adrian moaned pushing my tongue from his mouth while invading mine. I was enjoying myself so much when I was pulled into Lissa's head.
She was sitting in the attic above the church with Christian, candles were covering almost every surface. Why were they still having sex in the attic when they had their own room, I thought annoyed that they interrupted a very good moment between Adrian and I. But there was something different, the look on Christian's face was not a man that was about to have sex. He was nervous, and I could feel Lissa's happiness but also her anxiety.
"Lissa there has not been a day since I have meet you that I didn't know that I wanted to be with you. Through the good times and the bad I knew that I loved you, you have taught me how to love beyond words. How to feel without holding back and how to give without wanting anything in return. I want to spend today, tomorrow and forever with you. Will you make the happiest man alive? Will you marry me?" he asked dropping to his knees in front of her holding out the prettiest ring I had ever seen.
I knew I should not be here but I had to see if she said yes. Who was I kidding I knew she was going to say yes but feeling love and excitement flow through the bond was intriguing me to stay.
"Yes, of course. I love you so much" she said letting him slip the ring on her finger before falling into his arms. When they started kissing I knew it was definitely my time to go.
Slipping back into my head, I was greeted by Adrian's curious stare. He had seen me slip into Lissa's head plenty of times, but he always found it fascinating. "So what is Lissa up to?" he asked.
"I can't tell you, I am sure they will tell us when they are ready" I said rolling out of the bed so I could jump into the shower.
"That's not fair" he hollered after me.
When I made it to the bathroom I turned the water one when a thought hit me. I grabbed my towel wrapping it around my body and walked back into the bedroom. Adrian had his eyes closed so I silently walked to the edge of the bed grabbing my pillow. And hit him in the head with it.
"What is going on?" Adrian sat up quickly looking around.
"You knew" I shouted.
"Knew what?" he asked his trade mark smile plastered on his face.
"Last week when you went shopping with Christian you said it was for a new video game and a few CD's for me" I said realizing how giddy they both had been acting for a CD. I should have known something was up.
"You knew" I brought the pillow back to hit him again when he reached up grabbing my arm and pulled me onto his lap.
"I didn't say that is all we were buying and would you have been able to keep it from her if I told you?" he asked pulling the pillow from my hands.
"Yeah" I said but it would have been hard to hide my excitement knowing my best friend was going to get engaged.
"So what did she say?" he asked pulling the towel away from my body.
"Look who has the secret now" I said pulling the towel back to my body and climbing off of his lap.
"I doubt I really need to ask" he said throwing the pillow at my back.
I laughed and kept walking. Showered and dressed I kissed Adrian grabbed a banana and yogurt and ran toward the gym. Eddy was already in there with a few students. When students heard that I would be teaching, the class filled up immediately. The first day was rough they wanted to ask a thousand questions about what it was like to fight and kill strigoi. I quickly put their questions to an end, we ended up running five miles that day. The next day they didn't ask one question.
"Hey" I called over to Eddy as I sat down against the wall to eat. After the banana and yogurt I was still starving but my hunger would have to wait until lunch.
We broke the class up and had a mock fight Eddy's team against mine. Generally Eddy and I would join in the fight but I was not feeling to well so we agreed to coach from the sidelines. When lunch came around I had two hours before my next classes started. I practically ran back to the dorm to eat and thought maybe I could take a quick nap.
"Adrian" I called opening the door throwing the keys onto the counter. When he didn't answer back I walked to the fridge to make a sandwich. He was helping Christian with some of his students but I assumed he would come home for lunch. I made myself a sandwich and Adrian one as well. I ate mine quickly and left his on the counter. The bed was calling my name so slipping my shoes off I walked into our room and laid down. Pulling the covers to my chin my eyes started to flutter shut.
I couldn't remember the last time I had gone to sleep without Adrian. It was weird and almost lonely. Then it hit me the last time I had gone to sleep without Adrian and it was now to late to stop my mind was drifting into rest.
"Roza."