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"Adrian" I yelled for him frantically into the darkness. Getting no response my heart was racing and I felt like I couldn't breath.
After a few minutes of frantically calling for him I finally pulled myself from the dream completely. Lissa and Oksana were sitting on the couch talking with a small lamp turned on. It took them a second to realize I was awake.
"You did it" Lissa said standing up walking to sit on the side of the bed.
"Adrian" I said sitting up only to realize he was still asleep. I grabbed his arm and started to shake him.
"What are you doing?" Lissa asked.
"He pushed me out of the dream and stayed. Adrian wake up" I yelled at him shaking his arm again before bringing my hand up to slap him.
"Rose what is going on?" Mark asked walking into the room to see me beating the crap out of Adrian.
I brought my hand up again to slap him when someone grabbed it. "Let me go I have to wake him up" I cried out knowing the damage Dimitri did to me and he was suppose to love me he would not care about killing Adrian and would probably enjoy doing it.
"Calm down Little Dhampir" Adrian said letting go of my hand opening his eyes to look at me.
"Oh my gosh did he hurt you?" I asked pulling his body to mine sobbing into his shoulder. The pain that I had just felt was unbearable, the thought that I could not save him and might lose him was worse than the day I watched Dimitri's life be sucked out of him or the day I stabbed a stake through his heart and watched him fall from the bridge. Adrian was the love of my life, the father of my child, my soul mate and I could not lose that.
"The only injury I have is where you just slapped my face" he said pulling my body closer to him rubbing my back trying to calm me down.
"What happened how did I get pushed out and you stayed" I asked pulling my face from his shoulder so I could look at him.
"Um well" he stuttered looking around the room at the four other people that were waiting for his answer.
"Adrian what did you do?" I hissed at him, my fear slowly turning to anger realizing why he didn't want to tell me.
"I don't know when he touched you and noticed your stomach I pushed you out of the dream before he could react" he said looking back at me.
"And why didn't you follow?" I asked by now I was fuming.
"I had to try. He figured out you were pregnant and if there was a way I could get him to forget that I had to try" he said trying to brush the hair that had fallen to my face.
"Don't touch me" I screamed at him jumping from the bed. My body was shaking because I was so angry. I tried to take a deep breathe to calm myself when I felt the baby kick.
"You guys should go" I said trying to lower my voice and not yell at them. Slowly they started to file out of the room.
"Will you be ok?" Lissa asked when she got to the door.
"I will be fine it is him you have to worry about" I said glaring at Adrian that had climbed out of the bed and was slipping a t-shirt on.
"Can you come into my dreams tonight?" I asked before she walked out of the door completely.
"Yeah" she smiled sweetly at me wrapping her arms around me to pull me into a hug.
"Breath he is ok" she whispered into my ear.
"Thanks" I said realizing that I still hadn't gotten my breathing under control. I was just so mad and frustrated and terrified at the same time.
Once they walked out I closed the door and turned to look at Adrian. He was standing at the end of the bed staring at me. I could see a small bruise forming on his cheek where I had slapped him. We stared at each other for a minute, I wanted to walk to him, wrap him in my arms, to feel the heat of his body next to mine and his heart beat beating along with mine. But I couldn't I refused to let myself move, I was so mad right now and I refused to let him be the one that comforted me.
His foot moved as he took a step closer to me.
"Don't" I said throwing my hand up letting him know not to come any closer.
"Little Dhampir" he said his voice low while his face showed sadness.
Again I was fighting a battle within myself to stay where I was and not run my fingers through his hair and pull his perfect lips to mine. Then I thought how I could have lost that, how he told me how he wouldn't try to use compulsion on Dimitri, how he lied to me.
"You lied to me" I said my voice cracking as a sob attempted to escape when I opened my mouth. "You told me that you wouldn't try that, you told me you wouldn't hurt me yet here we are" I said wiping the tears that had started falling from my eyes away.
"Please understand I love you and I need to protect you" he said running his hands through his hair looking down to the ground. "I love you" he repeated himself bring his eyes back to mine.
"Really because if you loved me you would have walked out of that dream with me. You wouldn't have stayed and attempted to do something you didn't know would work, risking your life while you did it. Gosh what were you thinking?" I screamed at him letting the tears fall freely from my face. "If something would have happened to you. Do you know how I felt waiting in the darkness for you only for you not to show up. Or the dread that tore through my heart when you wouldn't wake up" I turned away from him no longer being able to see the hurt my words were bringing him.
"I am sorry" he said while his hands moved around my back to pull my body to his. "I should have thought about how my actions would affect you" he said laying his head on my shoulder. A sob worked its way out shaking my body as I released it.
"Yeah I guess you should have" I said bringing my hands to his arms that were loosely hanging around my stomach. It broke my heart to do it but I had to. Slowly wrapping my hands around his arms I pulled myself free letting his arms fall to his side. I held another sob in as I walked towards our bedroom door.
"Rose" he said his voice breaking. The realization that he was crying was making this so much harder. I thought how wonderful the morning had started off and now we were both crying in our dark room.
"You lied to me, you risked your life when it was not necessary, and your utter lack of concern of how your actions would affect others is not the man I fell in love with" I said pulling the door open walking out quickly and pulling it shut behind me.
I walked quickly to the bathroom. No matter how terrified, sad, angry, or completely exhausted I was it didn't seem to stop the fact that I had to pee. I washed my hands and looked up at my face. It was an awful sight, my cheeks were red and tear stained and my hair was a mess. I quickly redid my hair pulling it into a ponytail and splashed water on my face. Once I felt a tiny bit better I opened the bathroom door. Part of me was hoping Adrian would be waiting, I hated fighting with him and after the dream I just had I wanted to wrap my body with his and feel the comfort he always brought me.
He wasn't waiting by the bathroom door or in the kitchen where I grabbed a bottle of water or in the living room where I laid down on the couch pulling the blanket off of the back to cover my body. The silent tears rolled down my cheek until the exhaustion took over and pulled me into sleep.
I was standing in the old apartment Lissa and I had stayed in before we were dragged back to the academy. I found myself standing at the window that I had stared out of seeing Dimitri's stiletto in the darkness. So much changed after that day, but I didn't question what my life would be like if he hadn't found us. It was pointless and the thought of not having Adrian in my life now was to painful to question what other path I could have taken, because a path that did not end with Adrian and I being together with this baby is not a path that I wanted to walk down.
"Why are we here?" I asked knowing Lissa was in the room without looking away from the window.
"I was going to ask you the same thing I didn't pick this location you did" she said walking up behind me attempting to glance outside. It had taken me a week to be able to change what I was wearing in my dream two weeks to change the location of the dream and a month to push Lissa out completely.
"Oh I am not sure then why we are here" I said letting go of the curtain letting it fall back over the window walking to the couch
"Are you ok?" she asked sitting down next to me resting her hands over mine.
"I don't know Lissa, I am still so mad at him but I feel this pull to be with him. I love him so much and the thought that he would risk his life so carelessly pisses me off and I don't know how to let go of the anger I feel towards him right now" I said burying my face into my hands.
"Rose" she said shifting her body towards mine and waited for me to do the same thing and look at her. Once I did she continued "I am your best friend and when we walk out of this dream I am one hundred percent on your side, but I understand where Adrian was coming from" she stopped gauging my reaction when I didn't say anything or yell at her she spoke again. "I know you and I know how far you will go to protect the ones you love and I just feel like it the roles were reversed you would have pushed Adrian out of that dream the second you got there and tried to kill Dimitri" she said before I interrupted her.
"You think I am overreacting?" I asked with my question laced with a bit of anger toward my best friend.
"No, not at all. I just think that you have to look at where he was coming from. He loves you and that baby more than anything and when he noticed that what Dimitri learned tonight could cause him to flip out he did the only thing he knew how to and tried to change that" she said so softly.
"He lied to me" I said wiping the tears that rolled from my cheek.
"I am sure he didn't have the intention of lying to you when he told you he would not try anything with Dimitri. I don't think it was preplanned before the dream it was just a reaction the only reaction he could think of at the time to protect you and this little one" she said laying her hand on my stomach.
My eyes followed her movement down to my stomach. I laid my hand next to hers and felt the baby kick. That one kick sent most of the anger away being replaced with gratitude that I had a healthy baby and the love of the most wonderful man I had ever meet.
"I was so mean to him" I said looking up at Lissa, she reached behind her handing me a tissue.
"Rose he understands, I am sure he is more upset that you are upset than the fact that you yelled at him" she said pulling my body towards hers hugging me tightly.
I started to thank her when the dream faded quickly I got one last glance as Lissa flashed me a smile before I was pulled out of the dream completely.
"Sorry I didn't meant to wake you" Adrian said shifting my body in his arms. "I will sleep on the couch, you can't get a good nights sleep out there" he said his voice was soft and full of love. He carried me silently to our bedroom before sitting me down lightly on the bed. He bent forward kissing my forehead "I love you" he whispered before turning to walk away.
"Stay" I said grabbing his hand before he could walk away. He didn't move until I pulled him back toward the bed moving over so he could climbing into the bed. He sat down leaning his back against the headboard while I laid my head on his chest wrapping my arms around him. The steady beat of his heart was music to my ears and I couldn't stop the tears that came.
"Rose" he said concern filling his voice.
"Don't you ever do that to me again" I sobbed into his chest inhaling his scent another reminder that he was here alive and well.
"I won't, I am so sorry that I worried you but you have to understand why I did it" he said rubbing small circles on my back trying to comfort me.
"I know why you did it because I would have done the same thing to protect you. But not knowing if you were ok was unbearable, so many things went through my head. Waking up each morning without you by my side, holding our baby knowing that you would never get the chance to, losing my soul mate" I said my voice breaking as I cried even harder.
"I won't ever leave you by choice or force. I will hold you every morning when you wake up, I will be there when you deliver our baby and we will watch him or her grow up. I love you so much Rose that just being away from you hurts. I can't imagine my life without you in it. When I first meet you I was willing to put my feeling for you aside because I knew you were happy with Dimitri. I know sometimes I would say and do stuff that you didn't like very much, but there were times where I couldn't control myself or my feelings for you. I will give my life for you and this baby if it means keeping you two safe. I know you don't like hearing me say it but it is the truth" he said wiping the tears from my face before lifting my chin so I was forced to look at him.
He was beautiful, a little bit of light filtered in from behind the blinds so I could see his face. He eyes were beautiful I could get lost in them. Then I saw a tear fall. I quickly brought my hand to his face softly wiping it away then returning my hand to his cheek.
"I never thought I could feel this way about someone after Dimitri but what I feel for you has surpassed my feelings for him so much that sometimes it scares me to realize how much I love you. I can't live my life without you in it because you are my life. I know you want to protect me but all that I am asking is that you don't put yourself in harms way to do it. I love you Adrian Ivashkov. Protect my heart that now belongs to you because it is not as strong as one might think" I whispered the last part bringing my lips to his. I needed to feel his warmth I needed to show him how much I loved him.
"I love you" he mumbled pulling his lips from me slightly. With the break of contact I quickly slide my hands into his shirt pulling it over his head. His hand worked eagerly, the tank top I had on was now being thrown to the floor before crashing our lips back together. My hands ran down his bare chest stopping briefly to run my fingers around the top of his boxers before slipping my hand into them. Adrian groaned when I took him into my hand slowly moving my hand up and down without breaking the kiss. One of his hands knotted into my hair while the other moved down my bare chest. When he touched my sensitive nipples goose bumps covered my body and pelvis jerked forward pushing my body into his even more. He pulled away allowing me to catch my breath, as he slowly pulled my hand from his boxers and then rolled me over so I was laying on my back. Hovering over my body so he wouldn't put any pressure on my stomach he started placing kisses down my collar bone and chest, stopping momentarily to slid his tongue over my nipple before taking it into his mouth. I moaned loudly thankful that Oksana and Mark's room was at the other end of the hall. When he bit lightly my hips arched forward as I moaned again. I opened my eyes to see Adrian smiling at me and the pleasure he was bringing me before moving to the other breast.
"Gosh Adrian I need you so bad" I said running my fingers through his hair as he started kissing my stomach only coming to a stop when he arrived at my shorts.
"These have to go" he said sliding his fingers into the hem working them down my legs. Once the were off completely he kissed his way back up my leg stopping.
"Is there a reason you are holding my head down here?" he asked a wicked grin on his face.
"What?" I stuttered not knowing what he was talking about just wanting his hot mouth back on my body.
"Your hands" he said gesturing to my hands that were now resting on his shoulders.
"Oh sorry" I said realizing that I was indeed preventing his movement up my body.
"If there is something you want me to do just tell me Little Dhampir" he said continuing to smile at me as my body wiggled under his, my leg lightly grazing over the ever growing bulge in his boxers. Adrian's eyes bore into mine lust filling them.
"Careful Little Dhampir or I might not be able to finish what I was planning to do" he said lowering his face back to my thighs.
"And what would that be?" I asked breathing heavy before letting out a moan as Adrian's mouth covered my hot center. Grabbing the covers I closed my eyes letting the pure ecstasy of what he was doing consume me. Trying to control the moans that were escaping my mouth every few seconds until I finally had to grab a pillow pulling it over my face muffling out my moans while my body jerked forward finally reaching my climax. I removed the pillow when my body stopped convulsing. Adrian was smiling down at me.
"Why are you hiding your face behind a pillow?" he asked smirking at me, before grabbing the pillow from my hands tossing it to the side.
"I like to hear you moan you don't know what that does to me" he said running his hands up my stomach and chest.
I would have said something in return but I needed to feel all of him. I sat up on my knees while Adrian mimicked my movement. Wrapping my arms around his body I pulled him to me crashing my lips on his. I felt him wince and quietly moan and it was not from pleasure.
"Did I hurt you?" I asked loosening my hold on him.
"Quite the opposite" he said pulling my body back to his, but there was something in his eyes and I knew he was not being completely truthful. As much as I wanted to finish what we were doing I wanted to know what was going on.
Moving my hands back to where the were I put pressure on him again getting the same response. He mouth stopped moving with mine and his eyes opened.
"Are you hurt?" I asked staring at him praying for his sake that he didn't lie to me.
"Hurt no, injured slightly" he said without letting me go.
"Let me see" I demanded wondering why he didn't go see Dr. Olendzki or have Lissa heal him before she left.
"It is nothing" he said finally letting go of my body so he could fall onto his back.
I got up from the bed not worrying about the fact that I was completely naked to turn the light on.
"Adrian let me see" I said walking back to the bed observing his chest, neck and the front of his legs. I had seen his face earlier and was pleased to see no damage done there. There was a small bruise on his chest but I was assuming that was from me. The rest of his body seemed to be without injury.
Walking to the side of the bed I stopped until I was hovering over him. "Roll over" I said looking him in the eyes to let him know I was not kidding. Finally he rolled to his side exposing his back.
"Oh my gosh" I said covering my mouth and trying to stop the tears that were threatening to come. Adrian quickly rolled back over into the sitting position in front of me.
"It is nothing" he said grabbing the throw blanket from the bed wrapping it around my naked body.
"Don't tell me that is nothing because that is clearly something" I said allowing him to wrap his arms around me pulling me to his body. He was still sitting on the bed so his arms were wrapped around my stomach. He brought his lips to my stomach kissing it.
"It will heal" he said looking at my stomach instead of my eyes.
"Don't do that."
"What?" he asked looking up at me in confusion.
"Don't act like this is nothing, don't brush it off like I shouldn't be worried about it" I said grabbing the blanket to pull it closer to my body.
"That is not what I am doing. I just don't want you getting upset about something that is not that serious" he said pulling my body to his until I was sitting on his lap.
"Tell me what happened" I said laying my head against his shoulder. I was exhausted but I had to know.
"I will tell you in the morning once you have had some sleep" he said kissing my nose then my eyes then my mouth.
"Don't try and distract me" I said trying to stifle a yawn.
"I do no such thing" he said kissing my lips again slowly pulling the cover from my body.
"Adrian" I started to protest until his fingers moved down my body making contact with my hot center.
"We will talk about it in the morning" he said into my ears before pulling the blanket off of my body and rolling us until I was hovering over him.
"Like I said I don't start anything I can't finish" he said positioning me over him. My worries disappeared as I looked at him moving slowly until I felt him inside of me. We moved slow then fast, soft then hard, me made love and we had sex. No part of me could get enough of him. Finally when I felt like I couldn't move anymore I rolled off of him. Adrian pulled my body to his until my head was resting on his shoulder.
"I never thought I could love you anymore but you seem to surprise me everyday" he said kissing me before I finally fell asleep.
He came into my dreams but refused to tell me anything.
"We agreed no serious stuff in the dreams" he said walking to the edge of the water.
"That is not fair" I protested.
"You thought it was fair when I wanted to tell you how I felt about you and you were not ready to hear it" he said before diving into a wave.
I knew he was right it was my idea after he keep wanting to talk about his feelings or Dimitri or the effect being shadow kissed was having on me. I had to worry about that stuff when I was awake I wanted a break to talk about stupid stuff like who Eddy was dating or what a douche Stan was when I was a student. Now I was kicking myself because I was dying to know what took place.
When I finally woke up I was still in the same position I was in when I had fallen asleep I slowly lifted my head to look at Adrian. His eyes were still closed but I could tell he was awake.
"You might as well stop faking, eventually you are going to have to talk to me" I said pulling the cover to my chest to cover myself from the morning chill.
He opened one eye looking up at me before opening the other one smiling. "You look beautiful this morning. Why are you hiding under those blankets?" he asked tugging at the blanket.
"I might have been weak last night but that is not going to happen this morning" I said slapping his hand away.
"You know I like it when you get a little rough" he said grabbing at the blanket again.
"Adrian if you know what is good for you, you will stop acting like a horny sixteen year old and tell me what happened last night" I said gripping the blankets to my chest.
"I was about to show you what happened last night" he said with a smug look on his face.
No words were needed to let him know I was not joking after one look at my face his smile faded and he sat up next to me leaning against the headboard.
"I guess I should start from the beginning" he said taking my hand into his. I nodded my head and remained silent waiting for him to begin.
"I followed you into the dream right after you fell asleep, but there was a problem when I got there I couldn't find you, I thought maybe it hadn't worked but I could feel you. I tried to think where he might take you when I realized we were at the academy. So I went to the gym first, then your dorm and his room I was freaking out I was about to wake up and just wake you up, when I thought about the cabin. I remember you telling me about it so I ran all the way there when I finally got there he had his hands on your stomach and I realized he had figured it out. I did the only thing I could think of, I pushed you out" he said pausing bringing out clasped hands to his mouth kissing my hand. I knew he was doing it to comfort me and I loved him all the more for it.
"And" I said after a minute when he did not continue.
"He was furious when he realized you were gone and I was there."
I don't usually do this but I thought it would be better to be in Adrian's shoes instead of him just telling the story. Hope it turns out ok.
"How the hell did you get into this dream?" Dimitri yelled at me his eyes boring into mine with a look like he was on the brink of killing me. I knew I should have been worried but the only thing I could think about was the fact that Dimitri knew that Rose was pregnant.
"Taking care of a problem that won't seem to go away" I said standing tall. I know I was only a Moroi but Dimitri only had a few inches on me and the anger I was feeling right now seeing his hands on Rose I was pretty sure I could kill him right now. There was only one problem I didn't have anything to kill him with. Well actually two problems Rose would be furious if I killed him and she thought he could be saved and I couldn't do that to Olena and her family so I actually had more problems than I cared to think about.
"I should have taken care of you when I seen the way you looked at Rose. You think because you are a Royal that you can take whatever you want, that may have worked before but not her. Not what is mine" he roared charging at me.
"Stop" I said attempting to make eye contact with him. Unfortunately he was not in the mood for making eye contact. His hands made contact with my chest throwing me a good ten feet into a tree. The hit took my breathe away and hurt like hell. I could hear him walking toward me so I decided the best plan of action was to wait until he got close enough before I made my move. He stopped until he was hovering over my body before I kicked my leg forward making contact with his knee causing him to lose his balance and falling to the ground. I jumped to my feet trying to ignore the pain I felt radiating up my back. He was attempting to get up when I lunged at him. The few inches may have not made a difference but the fact that he was a Strigoi and extremely fit did. I only went to the gym a few times a week to hang out with Rose and make sure she didn't push herself to much. Right then I was promising myself that I would start working out more when he barely moved when I lunged into him.
"Get the hell off of me" he said as we wrestled to the ground. I knew I should just push myself out of the dream but I could not leave without trying one more time. Unfortunately Dimitri was not on top of me attempting to choke me.
"She was never yours and she never will be" I said watching the anger spread to his face but bringing his eyes to mine.
"If you are dead she won't be yours either" he hissed at me.
"You will let me go" I said making sure he was keeping eye contact with me. And to my surprise it was actually working. He slowly released the hold he had on my neck, but didn't get off of me. The look in his eyes looked confused until it started to change to anger once again.
"What did you do to me?" he yelled bringing his hands back to my neck. Clearly the compulsion didn't last long.
"Get off of me" I said hoping that it would work again. He jumped off of me taking a step back. As soon as he was off of me I jumped to my feet knowing that it would not last long. I quickly closed the space that separated us. Making sure to keep eye contact with him the whole time.
"You will remember nothing from this dream, you will not remember Rose being pregnant and you will stop coming into her dreams" I said. When I noticed him nod I quickly pulled myself from the dream. Knowing that I was going to catch hell from Rose. Although I was a little surprised when I woke up to find her leaning over me yelling my name bringing her hand up to slap my already burning cheek.
"Calm down Little Dhampir" I said grabbing her hand before she could hit me again. Before I could say anything else she was pulling my body into her arms sobbing.
"Oh my gosh did he hurt you?" she asked. The sound of her voice broke my hurt realizing how worried and upset she sounded. So I did the thing I did the best, I tried to make light of the situation.
"The only injury I have is where you just slapped my face" I said bringing her body closer to mine trying to calm her.
"What happened how did I get pushed out and you stayed? she asked pulling her body from mine to look at me. I knew she was going to ask yet I had no clue what to say. I didn't plan on attempting to use compulsion on him but I did what I thought I had to.
"Umm well" I started to say feeling her body go tense diverting my attention from her I glanced a look at the others in the room hoping they would help me out. Unfortunately I was not getting any help from them.
"Adrian what did you do?" she hissed at me. I returned my attention to her realizing I just dug myself a very large hole and was not sure there was anything I could say or do to get out of it.
"I don't know when he touched you and noticed your stomach I pushed you out of the dream before he could react" I said hoping that being truthful would help me out.
"And why didn't you follow?" she asked and I could tell there was nothing that I could say at this point that was going to help me. She was pissed and was not making an effort to hide it.
"I had to try, he figured out you were pregnant and if there was a way I could get him to forget that I had to try" I said knowing I was fighting a losing battle but I wanted her to understand why I had to do it. I attempted to move the hair that had fallen over her eyes.
"Don't touch me" she yelled at me before jumping from the bed which she seemed to have trouble doing because of her stomach. It would have been funny if she wasn't so mad. She asked everyone to leave as I stood to the side letting everyone leave grabbing a shirt slipping it over my head.
I heard her mumble a few things to Lissa, I was assuming that someone else would be joining her in her dreams tonight. I knew she was upset, because I hated it when she went back into a dream to talk to Dimitri when she was in the hospital. When my mom called me and told me she had fallen asleep and was heading to the clinic my heart stopped, I hated that she was in her own nightmare not being able to go to sleep without someone being there and now that she was pregnant she had to sleep more. I decided to quit my job with my aunt when I realized how hard she had been trying to stay up until I got home she was practically dead on her feet when I got home. I spoke to Lissa to see if she could take over my job for a while until after the baby, she decided she would rather hang out with Rose than work with my aunt so we worked out a schedule so she could be there when I couldn't.
The door closing pulled me from my thoughts. Rose stood there the only light coming from the small lamp that someone had turned on after we had fallen asleep. I could see her face enough to tell that she was fighting her emotions. I wanted to hold her and tell her it would be ok, that I was fine and that I was not going anywhere. I took a step toward her before she threw her hand up.
"Don't" she said causing me to halt my movement.
"Little Dhampir" I pleaded to her hating myself for the pain I had caused her. She was the love of my life she was my life and the way she was looking at me was breaking my heart.
"You lied to me" she said before a sob she had been holding in escaped her beautiful mouth. Her words were tearing me apart I had told her one thing and did the opposite I promised not to hurt her and now she was crying because of me.
"You told me that you wouldn't try that, you told me you wouldn't hurt me yet here we are" she said trying to control her voice.
"Please understand I love you and I need to protect you. I love you" I said wishing she would understand.
"Really because if you loved me you would have walked out of that dream with me. You wouldn't have stayed and attempted to do something you didn't know would work risking your life while you did it. Gosh. If something would have happened to you. Do you know how I felt waiting in the darkness for you only for you not to show up. Or the dread that tore through my heart when you wouldn't wake up" she yelled at me the tears streaming down her face before she finally turned away from me. I wiped the tears that ran down my own cheek before I walked toward her wrapping my arms around her.
"I am sorry. I should have thought about how my actions would affect you" I said pulling her closer I needed to feel her body next to mine, I wanted her to calm down and forgive me.
"Yeah I guess you should have" she said bringing her hands to my arm pulling them free from her body. I did not protest I let her pull them free from her body dropping them to my side. Feeling the break of contact shot an awful pain through my chest. But watching her walk away from me was unbearable.
"Rose" I called out after her fighting an eternal battle trying to decide what to do. The tears that now covered my face I wiped away quickly realizing it was pointless since they were not stopping. She stopped in front of the door turning slowly to face me. I prayed to God she would stay.
"You lied to me, you risked your life when it was not necessary, and your utter lack of concern of how your actions would affect others is not the man I fell in love with" she said before walking out of the bedroom pulling the door closed behind her. My stomach clenched and I walked quickly to the bed to sit down before crying. I knew if Christian saw me right now I would never live it down but the thought that she didn't trust me or that I had disappointed her and caused her so much pain it was to much. Once I got myself under control I grabbed my cell phone.
"Please be sure to be there for her, I know she will not want to see me right now" I typed quickly to Lissa hoping she would still be up or would hear her phone. I could hear Rose in the bathroom then moving around in the living room. I debated going out there and found myself standing at the door a few times before returning to the bed. My phone started beeping with a new message.
"I am on it. Are you ok?" Lissa wrote back. There were times that I resented Lissa because the side effects that Rose got because of being shadow kissed with Lissa but I knew that Rose would rather be shadow kissed to Lissa than not to have her in her life at all. Plus she was a good friend and Rose wouldn't be here if it wasn't for Lissa so that resentment did not go to far or last long.
"I am more worried about her than myself. Just be there. Thanks" I typed quickly.
After thirty minutes passed I walked into the living room to find Rose sleeping on the couch. She looked peaceful, but I knew she would not be in the best mood if she had to sleep there all night. I quietly walked to the could bending slightly to lift her body from the couch. I was halfway to the room when she started to move.
"Sorry I didn't meant to wake you. I will sleep on the couch, you can't get a good nights sleep out there" I said kissing her forehead before walking into the bedroom. I had pulled the covers down before I had left the room so I laid her down gently. Kissing her head one more time I turned to walk out of the room to go sleep on the couch.
"Stay" I heard her say before I felt her hand in mine pulling me back to the bed.