My Soul, My Life Chapter 4, a gakuen alice fanfic

It's here… the Christmas Ball… 3 songs you can choose to listen to when reading, The Click Five- Just The Girl, B.o.b (Feat Hayley Williams) – Airplanes and Ellie Goulding- The Writer. Regarding the song- Airplanes, Yeah, you can just pretend that Natsume's not really rapping but well singing in his own hot way or something. I don't know. But if you don't like it well…. Yeah just use your imagination.

Thanks for all the reviews my wonderful people! And thank you too you shy lil silent readers! ;)

Lanel- yeah, I almost wanted to add that if you couldn't imagine Natsume screaming the verses you can just pretend that he didn't scream and just sang :)

I do not own Gakuen Alice or

The songs in this Fanfiction

Enjoy…

Tears ran down Mikan's cheeks as her head leaned on Natsume's shoulder. Natsume looked down on the girl's head. His eyes softened.

"It's my entire fault…" Mikan continued sobbing on Natsume's shoulder.

Chapter 4

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"Mikan! There you…What are you doing to her?"

Natsume, with his poker face on just stared at the 15 year old.

"Forget it jerk." Katie grabbed Mikans hand and her guitar together and brought her back to the dorm, which by that time she had already woken up.

"Mikan, we need to get ready. It's already 5 and the Ball starts at 6! Robin is already getting ready. She has already prepared everything."

"Sakura Mikan! You are so damn late I tell you I could chop your head off right now!" Robin screeched when she saw Mikan with Katie opening the door.

1 Hours 5 Minutes Later

The doors of the main hall in Gakuen Alice opened reviling three middle school students in their extremely beautiful dresses. The oldest of them, aged 15, in the middle with the other two at the side. They had made it in just in time catch the starting of the first event.

"Ladies and gentlemen! Please welcome on stage for out first performance for to day, Hyuuga Natsume, singing a self-composed song!"

The Click Five- Just The Girl

She's cold and she's cruel,

But she knows what she's doing

She pushed me in the pool

At out last school reunion

She laughs at my dreams

But I dream about her laughter

Strange as it seems she's the one I'm after

Cause she's Bittersweet,

She knocks me off of my feet

And I can't help myself

I don't want anyone else

She's a mystery she's too much

For me but I keep coming back

For more

She's just the girl I'm lookin' for

She can't keep a secret

For more than an hour

She runs on 100 proof

Attitude power

And the more she ignores me

The more I adore her

Want can I do

I'd do anything for her

Cause she's Bittersweet,

She knocks me

Off of my feet

Cause she's Bittersweet,

She knocks me off of my feet

And I can't help myself

I don't want anyone else

She's a mystery she's too much

For me but I keep coming back

For more

She's just the girl I'm lookin' for

The way she sees it's me

On her caller ID she won't pick up the phone

She rather be alone

But I can't give up just yet

Cause every word she ever said

It's still ringin' in my head

Still ringin' in my head

She's cold and she's cruel,

But she knows what she's doing

Knows just what to say so my day is ruined

Cause she's Bittersweet,

She knocks me off of my feet

And I can't help myself

I don't want anyone else

She's a mystery she's too much

For me but I keep coming back

For more

Cause she's Bittersweet,

She knocks me off of my feet

And I can't help myself

I don't want anyone else

She's a mystery she's too much

For me but I keep coming back

For more

Oh I keep coming

Back for more

She's just the girl

I'm lookin' for

Just the girl I'm lookin' for

I'm lookin' for (x3)

Just the girl I'm lookin' for

The entire school applauded for Natsume's performance. Half of the girls had already fainted while the other half were either not bothered, mainly Mikan Katie Robin and Hotaru, or drooling.

"Let's move on to the next part of tonight's events. So tonight, before we move on to the next performance, we want all you guys to walk up to that special girl and invite her to this dance."

The guys who already had couples walked up to their girlfriend and brought them to the middle of the room to dance. Natsume, who was already also in the ballroom, was looking around but couldn't seem to see Mikan anywhere.

Outside the Hall

"Mikan, can you tell me please? What really happened to Kei? We all know that he didn't die. It was something else, something that concerns them." Katie said circling the hall with Mikan.

"Katie…I… I'm…You remember that thing I talked about with all of you? About Kei…not really being one of us and how I would have to end up…well, you get the point don't you?"

"Everything here is happening way too fast Mikan. I don't think that we can cope."

"Katie… I'm sorry but… everything will be fine okay? I promise."

Katie sighed just as the back door to the hall, where they were standing, opened.

"What are you two doing here?" A monotone Natsume asked.

The two girls took a glance at each other then walked back into the hall full of students. Before Mikan could enter, Natsume grabbed her hand.

"Care to explain what that was about?"

"I'm sorry but all that was before those last two sentences that you heard is confidential."

2 Events in the Ball Later

B.o.b (Feat Hayley Williams) – Airplanes

Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)

Yeah
I could use a dream or a genie or a wish
To go back to a place much simpler than this
Cause after all the partyin' and smashin' and crashin'

And all the glitz and the glam and the fashion
And all the pandemonium and all the madness
There comes a time where you fade to the blackness

And when you're staring at that phone in your lap
And you hoping but them people never call you back
But that's just how the story unfolds
You get another hand soon after you fold

And when your plans unravel
And they sayin' what would you wish for
If you had one chance
So airplane airplane sorry I'm late

I'm on my way so don't close that gate

If I don't make that then I'll switch my flight
And I'll be right back at it by the end of the night

Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)

Somebody take me back to the days
Before this was a job, before I got paid
Before it ever mattered what I had in my bank

Yeah back when I was tryin' to get into the subway
And back when I was rappin' for the hell of it
But now a days we rappin' to stay relevant

I'm guessin that if we can make some wishes outta airplanes
Then maybe yo maybe I'll go back to the days
Before the politics that we call the rap game

And back when ain't nobody listened to my mix tape
And back before I tried to cover up my slang
But this is for the Cada, what's up Bobby Ray

So can I get a wish to end the politics
And get back to the music that started this shit
So here I stand and then again I say
I'm hopin' we can make some wishes outta airplanes

Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)

A thunderous round of appluase came from the audience. Even louder then the first. Everyone was enjoying themselves.

"Kaze neko, you have a mission tonight. After the Ball you are to go to the AAO and kill Keitaro Masuki."

"…What if I do not agree?"

"You can say goodbye to Robin Huggett and after her one by one they will all disappear. We need the boy dead and we need him dead tonight. When the AAO invades the academy, if he is still alive with them, you know what could happen." Persona appeared behind Mikan as they continued their convosation.

The choir sang a few songs to entain everyone and then the Christmas cake was distrubuted.

"Students and teachers of Alice Academy, we are sad to say that the night is coming to an end but before we end this wonderful night we've just had, we would like to invite to stage, Sakura Mikan!"

"I hope you've all enjoyed your night so far. Please listen to this song I wrote." Mikan's monotone voice in the air.

Ellie Goulding- The Writer

You wait for a silence
I wait for a word
Lie next to your frame
Go unobserved

You change your position
You're changing me
Casting these shadows
Where they shouldn't be

We're interrupted by the heat of the sun
Trying to prevent what's already begun
You're just a body
I can smell your skin
And when I feel it
You're wearing thin

But I've got a plan
Why don't you be the artist
And make me out of clay
Why don't you be the writer
And decide the words I say

Because I'd rather pretend
I'll still be there at the end
Only it's too hard to ask
Won't you try to help me?

Sat on your sofa
Its all broken springs
This isn't the place for
Those violent strings

I try not to smile
And I aim it at you
You must have missed it
You always you do

But I've got a plan
Why don't you be the artist
And make me out of clay
Why don't you be the writer
And decide the words I say

Because I'd rather pretend
I'll still be there at the end
Only its too hard to ask
Won't you try to help me

You wait I wait
Casting shadows interrupted (x3)

You wait
I wait
Casting shadows

Why don't you be the artist
And make me out of clay
Why don't you be the writer
And decide the words I say

Because I'd rather pretend
I'll still be there at the end
Only it's too hard to ask
Won't you try to help me?

Why don't you be the artist
And make me out of clay
Why don't you be the writer
And decide the words I say

Because I'd rather pretend
I'll still be there at the end
Only it's too hard to ask
Won't you try to help me?

"Thank you." Mikan left the stage leaving the hall speechless.

Claps and call for an encore was heard but Mikan just shook her head and disappeared into thin air.

As Mikan was walking to the dorms, she could tell someone was tailing her.

"Kei, what do you want? Can't this wait till I have to go after you?"

"We both know what's going to happen Mikan. You're going to kill me. Because of something I did years ago."

"Bloody hell. You're with the AAO Kei. What do you want me to do? I knew something was wrong when I first saw you but I let it slide and tried to enjoy myself as much as I could. I guess letting everything come back at once wasn't a very good idea eh?"

"Mikan, you don't know what happened 8 years ago you don-"

"Oh, I know Kei. I know that you saw your own parents get killed. I know you say that it was the acaddemy's fault. I know that you think that you're doing this for them, for your parents but face the facts Kei, it's not the academys' fault. You just cant face up to reality. You thought, what could a school of bratty little kids do to me anyway? So you choose to join the AAO it's right in your face and you just won't accept it."

"Shut up! You have no idea what you're talking about!"

"Getting tempermental will help no one Kei. You'll just end up hurting yourself and you know that. Plus, how old are you? Five? Because the last time I checked, a normal alice could keep their own alice in control."

Keitaro gritted his teeth.

"I'm right, aren't I?" Mikan sighed and continued walking back to the dorm. Keitaro grabbed her wrist and kissed her with compassion. Mikan pulled away as fast as she could.

"Masuki Keitaro! You knew from the start. We can never be. It's over."

"Why… why do you hide everything you know inside until you have no choice but to say it out loud?"

Mikan had her bangs covering her eyes. "I guess that's just me, ne? Wanting to enjoy myself to the fullest…it's kind of selfish if you think about it though." She smirked and walked back to the dorm.

"Mikan, I want you to know that what I said the day befre Hyuuga's birthday, it remains the same. See you in the battlefiled, kaze neko."

Cool. Three songs… I'm sorry I had to cut shot the story because of the songs. I just wanted to keep all the in one chapter so I could just get over the songs quicker. Oh well, review please?