Authors Note:
Holy. Crap.
Two years since I've posted a new chapter? I only just started writing FanFiction again. I didn't even visit the site for a year and a half. How incredibly… not cool.
I feel like I owe you guys an explanation and major apology for why I haven't posted anything in so long. Granted, I do realize that most of you have forgotten about this story (( I know I have )), or it's been so long you simply don't care anymore. But I know that I feel confused when an author ceases writing a story and doesn't take the time to thank their readers or explain why they chose to discontinue. So I am going to explain myself to you guys right now.
First of all, if you guys are still interested in this story I hope you stick around. Because I would like to finish it. I have never not finished anything in my entire life. And it would suck to start now. I will probably just completely re-write everything and make it better.
So I started writing this when I was what… 14? 15? Somewhere around there. At that time I was just starting to really get into writing. And I had yet to find myself as an author. I was still testing the waters with the style that I ultimately liked best. Re-reading The Past, I couldn't help but cringe at the blaring grammar mistakes, the short sentences, and horrible story line. The thing is, I see everything in pictures. And it took a while to realize people don't see the same pictures as I do. So I wasn't describing anything clearly and for that I apologize. Based on the stories that I have since written… The Past is just not up to par. And I can't bring myself to revisit it because it's written so differently than my work now.
It was also extremely hard for me to continue because I had this whole idea planned out in my head as to who Jamie wanted to tell the truth to, and what that truth would be. But this was before I saw the earlier episodes of Ghost Whisperer. I then discovered that they basically had the same confession already. So I did not want to copy that. But then I couldn't think of anything else to write about. I had unfortunately developed a MAJOR case of writers block. One that still plagues me today. And let me tell you, it is not fun. Not fun at all.
I have lost inspiration to continue this story. Lately all of my time has been spent writing stories for Glee and nothing else. Those characters I get. I don't get Melinda. I don't know who she is anymore. And I fear that if I try to write her again it's going to come across as extremely OOC. More so than I usually write. I have become extremely critical in my writing over the years, and I am thoroughly disgusted with how I wrote The Past. And I can't bring myself to continue in that fashion. Which is why, if you guys want me to, I will try my hardest to continue the story and edit it to make everything sound better.
I just feel terrible that I have been doing everything in my power to please the readers of my other stories, and yet here I am ignoring you guys. This is not something that I am proud of. I can't begin to tell you guys how sorry I am for neglecting this story and what you have had to say.
Now, I don't know if any of you like Glee, or even One Tree Hill (( I have one, slightly poor, story written for that show )), but if you would like to see writing I'm actually a little proud of feel free to check out my newer stories. If you're too angry with me I totally understand. I don't deserve to have you guys still checking this story. When I saw that it was still getting hits, and then another review… I think my heart broke. I felt terrible.
I am so sorry. And if enough people want to see the end of this story, then I will do my best to please you. But if everyone has since forgotten its existence… I shall as well.
Thank you to all who took the time to read my story and review at every chapter. It really means a lot to me. Even though I hardly showed it. You guys were my inspiration to keep going with my work. Whenever I doubted myself I just looked at your kind words. You guys rock.
One more thing. If you guys have any questions about where this story was planning on heading, ask away. If you have hate messages telling me you're pissed I haven't updated in forever, bash away. I deserve it. And I will try to answer any and all questions you might have.
Again, I'm so sorry for this.
Sincerely
kempokarate12