Vampire Academy is owned my Richelle Mead. I just want to thank everyone that has reviewed this story or sent me messages about when i was going to update it. It really helps knowing that so many people have stuck with me and this story. I hope you enjoy and may start making smalled chapters but updating quicker let me know what you think.

DPV

"How is she doing? Did you tell her I sent my best?" I heard my mother ask as my sister entered the front door. I was on my way into the kitchen and froze waiting to her my sister's response. Trying to get my well over six foot body and two hundred pounds to blend into the wall.

"I don't know I didn't get to see her" my sister said her voice low.

"Oh I am sorry honey I am sure she is just not up for visitors, I am sure she will be glad to see you once she gets to feeling better" my mother said in her motherly voice she had used with me earlier that morning also talking about Rose.

"It wasn't that she didn't want to see me, Adrian had asked for no visitors until after eleven and I didn't want to push the matter. I know how wrecked he was when she was missing and I didn't want to intrude on their time together" my sister said.

My heart lurched in my chest no matter how many times I heard people talk about Rose and Adrian being together or the few times I had saw them together my heart and my brain could not accept it. It was all wrong we were suppose to be together, it was her and I that should be celebrating the birth of our first child even though it was impossible.

"The baby is gorgeous though" my sister said her voice light and happy.

"You was her?" my mother asked surprise ringing in her voice. Clearly she was as shocked as I was that Rose let the baby out of her sight.

"Haha yeah right" my sister snorted. " They had a picture of her and Adrian tacked on the board. I guess a lot of people were stopping by and wanted to see her, so Lissa gave them a picture she had snapped of Adrian and Abigail the day before Rose woke up. Mom I have never seen someone with such mixed emotions in a picture before."

"What do you mean sweetie?" my mother asked concern once again filling her voice.

"Adrian in the picture you can almost feel the love he has for his daughter, but at the same time you can see the pain and anguish he was feeling about what was going on with Rose. I have never seen anyone with such a look besides Rose when she came looking for Damitri. Her face lit up when she listened to old stories about him but at the same time it was like she was mourning for him. I don't know what to do for him Mamma, he is so lost right now" my sister whispered her voice breaking as she fought back a sob.

I couldn't listen anymore. I slid my body back toward my room and shut the door. My legs wobbled underneath me and I was sure I was going to fall. Before my knees hit the ground I reached forward grabbing the dresser regaining some strength and keeping myself upright. Recalling the words my sister said I couldn't slow my brain down all I knew was I had to see Rose. I knew it was insane and if Adrian was around he would most likely kill me if Rose didn't do it first. Even that thought didn't stop me from pulling my window open, didn't stop me from stepping on the ledge and leaping the two stories to the ground. The landing wasn't the best but as I stood and noted nothing was broken or throbbing with pain and quickly walked to the one place I knew I had no right to.

I sat in the shadows, waiting for what I had no clue but as I drew closer to the clinic my steps faltered and then stopped all together. I watched people enter and leave and was about to make my move when I saw Adrian step out of the building. The sun was high in the sky and I knew he had to be uncomfortable, yet here he was standing on the top step talking to the Dr. Olendzki. I tried to focus on what they were saying. I was able to catch a few comments about a car seat and if she was sure Rose was ready to come home. I knew that this meant Rose was getting discharged and this might be my last time to talk to her before she was back home and out of my reach.

Adrian walked quickly to his car a guardian that I have never met before walking behind him. She glanced around and for a second I thought she saw me, but her eyes keep moving and then rested on the SUV that was parked in front of them. They both got in and drove off, Dr. Olendzki walked down the stairs and walked toward the Administration building walking through the front doors without looking back.

I broke through the shadows, my head and face cast down toward the ground not that I was able to hide very well I was hoping nobody was paying attention. The halls seem deserted but they never seemed busy the few times I had been in the clinic when Rose had injured herself or another student. The thought made me smile, the first real smile I had in to long to remember the last one. I wasn't sure what room she was in and had no plans on stopping to ask, but as I got close I felt the last door on the right call to me. It was like something I have never experienced but my body was drawn to it. I quickly walked to the sealed door and brought my knuckles of knocking lightly before pushing it open.

She sat on the bed her hair a slight mess like she wasn't able to find a brush so she settled on running her fingers through it instead. "Come in" she called loud enough for me to hear without screaming it. I took a step forward and eased the door closed behind me. Her eyes were still cast down at the floor but as soon as she finished tying her shoes her gaze flickered up to acknowledge who had come in. As soon as her eyes meet mine something I had never seen happened. Her face paled, her breath caught, and a look that I had never seen was fixed on her face. It was a look filled with so much terror that I was tempted to glance behind me to see if the devil himself had followed me into the room.

"Roza are you ok?" I asked taking a step forward incase she passed out.

My motion seemed to pull her out of her minor coma, because before I knew she was up her body was next to the bassinet that was on the other side of the bed that I hadn't noticed until now. Her body crouched forward ready for battle. The look of terror disappeared and was replaced with a look of outright rage.

"I will kill you before you get any closer to my baby" she hissed at me her eyes darting back and forth clearly looking for an escape route or possibly something she could use as a weapon if it came down to a fight. I had no intention on fighting her and if she felt the need I don't think there is any part of me that would have tried to stop her. After all she tried to keep a promise she made to me and I almost not only killed her but her baby and made her life a living hell.

"Roza please, I am not going to hurt you or the ba" I started to say before stopped me.

"Don't call me that my name is Rose and you have no right to say it and you have no right to talk about my daughter not now and not ever" she cried out. I saw what my sister had seen when she looked at the picture of Adrian. Only it was not love and anguish I saw it was anger, fear, and even though my mind was laughing at me for thinking it I saw a deep sadness.

"I am sorry, I never meant to hurt you. This is not how I wanted it, you have to know that" I pleaded wishing now that I hadn't come because I had already caused her enough pain and now I was causing her even more.

"You are right this isn't how you wanted it Dimitri" she yelled her voice unable to cover the clear disdain she had for me when she said my name. "I don't have red eyes and the desire to kill people, so clearly I am not what you wanted. Sorry to have ruined all the screwed up plans you made for us" she hissed.

"That's not what I wanted" I practically whispered. I felt like the little piece of what I had left of my heart was falling apart. I knew it would never be whole again, but I was hoping to salvage the small fraction I had left. Yet with each word that escaped her mouth I felt another piece break off.

"I should go" I said stepping back allowing my eyes drift up her body to meet hers.

My hand reached up for the door knob before she spoke again.

"Tell me why" she said her voice breaking.

I knew I shouldn't turn around because I knew what I would see would be the death of me. And I was right. I didn't deserve it but I saw a flash of the girl that once loved me, her eyes were glazed over and filled with pain, her voice told me she was vulnerable by the way it shook but her stance in front of the bassinet didn't change. I knew then that no matter what I said she would still kill me if I came near her baby that was soundlessly sleeping behind her.

"Why what?" I asked.

"Why did you do this? Why couldn't you just let me be?"

"I couldn't, ever fiber in my body ached for you. I know I should have been stronger than what I became, but I wasn't and for that I am sorry. I know that doesn't change a thing, but please believe me when I say that I wish the sun would of ended it" I said realizing how much truth was in those words. I didn't want to be here any more I didn't want to go to sleep only to dream of the awful things I did, I didn't want to wake up knowing no matter what I did Rose would never be mine again.

"Why didn't it?" she asked.

I didn't know the reason for sure but I was had a pretty good idea, but it was the last thing I wanted to tell her but I knew that I wouldn't not tell her.

"It was the blood I drank" I said my voice now shaking.

"Mine" she said with confusion.

"No" I mumbled realizing she was in pretty bad shape that last day I was with her. Silently I sent a prayer to God that she wouldn't recall the events that lead up to her being saved.

The quick inhale of air she took let me know that my silent prayer had not been answered not that I thought I deserved anything from God.

"Abigail, are you telling me that my baby's blood saved your life?" she screamed hysterical now.

"It is all coming back to me now. You bite her, I begged you to give me my baby but instead of doing that you bite her" she cried out which was now mixed with a different cry.

I looked past her tear filled eyes to see two tiny fist flail in the air.

RPV

My heart was racing along with my mind. The flashbacks came quickly one right after another. I was balled up in the bed when I had a sharp pain in my stomach. Dimitri had company so I attempted to be as quiet as possible realizing I was in labor. Dimitri came in, the baby, Dimitri holding the baby, my pleads for him to give her to me, his mouth on her, and then blackness.

"It is all coming back to me now. You bite her, I begged you to give me my baby but instead of doing that you bite her" I yelled at him my voice breaking as my body shook. I heard the faint cry of a baby thinking it was part of my memory, but as it grew louder I realized it was Abigail wailing in her bassinet.

"Get out, get out now. I never want to see your face again and help me God Dimitri if I do I don't know if I will be able to stop myself from killing you. If it wasn't for your mom and sisters you wouldn't be here right now" I yelled my fury coming out.

He took a step back his shoulders and back hitting the wall next to the door.

"I am sorry, so sorry. I am leaving as soon as they let me and you will never see or hear from me again" he said before reaching for the door.

The handle turned before his hand reached it and was being pushed open with so much force that it caused Dimitri to lose his balance and stumble back.

Adrian's face was the last thing I saw before my world faded to blackness.

Reviews are always welcome. I would also like for people to tell me who they want the next chapters main POV to be from. Rose, Dimitri, Adrian, Lissa, Christain (who we have not heard from or seen lately).