Chapter 3

When I woke up the next morning, my own head hurt a little, but Deans was going to be... so very much worse when he came around.

I sighed lightly and got up, groaning at the light streaming through the sightly open thin cotton curtains that were a crappy shade of canary yellow. Huh. Couldn't motels at least get a decent color scheme-?

Probably not...

As I was brushing my teeth, a figure hurtled past me and I groaned slash giggled as Dean ran to the toilet, looking as if he was about to throw up.

I raised an eyebrow now, then raised an eyebrow and asked sweetly. "Would you like some pie for breakfast?"

That did it, and I left the room as fast as I could, half laughing, waking Sam up. He groaned and muttered. "Sapphy-? What's going on-?" I didn't answer as he got up and made his way sleepily to the bathroom, but I swiftly warned him.

"I really wouldn't if I were you."

Sams hand froze just inches away, then groaned and backed away, sitting back on the bed next to me, putting his head on my shoulder and nodding off.

When Dean came out, I had to stifle a giggle on how bad he looked. Sure, he'd had monster hangovers before, but this one totally trumped all the others.

He raised a hand at me and said weakly.

"You are not allowed to laugh."

But I still did. He lay back down on the bed now and closed his eyes once more. I let him- he had to sleep it off somehow.

I glanced at the time now- seven in the morning. Urgh... great...

Now I pulled Sammy back to me and went back sleep with my portable hot water bottle.

Dean was the one that woke me up later, brushing his teeth and dropping the plastic beaker onto the floor with a loud clatter, spilling water everywhere, where he swore loudly and woke me up.

"Morning." I told him, walking in. He turned to me now and frowned. "Hell what did I do last night-? My head hurts... we went to that dance right? I put some stuff in the-" he groaned and understood now.

He didn't... remember that kiss-?

Was I relieved or disappointed? I didn't want to say really...

Dean did frown now, then growl. "I remember that guy though..." I groaned now and gave up- he would remember that off all things. Half sober, protective big monkey of a brother was kicking in again.

But, to my utter surprise, he just groaned in defeat and just asked. "Please say you were sensible-?" but he stopped when he saw my guilty look, then just said. "Sapphire..." I rolled my eyes now and swiftly lied. "Yes I did."

Dean snorted, then glowered. "You can't lie to me sweetie. And I seriously suggest we don't mention this to dad. He won't react well to you just screwing a random guy without using anything."

I didn't answer, but knew he was right- I'd been stupid to let it happen so easily...

When I was in the bathroom brushing my hair through, Dean came in and shut the door behind him, then turned to me, a resigned look upon his face. "Saph... I'm sorry yeah? I was a freaking overgrown dick..."

I shook my head in confusement, putting my toiletries away when Dean walked forwards and added. "Something else happened... didn't it-?"

Now I just froze in shock- had he remembered, or was he trying to get the truth out off me by pretending?

"What-?" I just asked in mock confusement, doing my best poker face and he raised an eyebrow and his mouth twitched into that smirk slash smile he reserved for me.

"Oh? So I didn't kiss you then?"

Now my toothbrush slipped from my numb fingers, and I stooped quickly before he caught my gaze. But I didn't have to speak, as he just said in defeat.

"I'm really sorry. I didn't mean to... I don't love y-" but he stopped dead and hastily added. "I mean, not that way. You're my sister, that's all I can really see you as. Nothing more..."

I smiled and nodded, facing him again. "Chick flick moment?" I offered, raising an eyebrow with a grin. He sighed, then hugged me, saying into my ear. "You have some great boobs."

Yeah, I pushed him off now.

Dad arrived back by the time we had finished packing, and raised an eye at us all, then asked. "Any trouble?"

I saw Sams eyes dart a little to me and Dean, but he just said. "No. It went fine-" but now he smirked. "Dean had one monster headache though when he woke up."

Dad turned our gazes to us now, and I just rolled my eyes a little as he scolded Dean. Then again, he had warned his eldest son not to get smashed out his face.

Ah, this was life for you.

Everything was fine for years on end. But then things started to get worse...

Dad and Sam never stopped arguing. It was getting beyond the joke now. Sam wanted to go to university. Or college at least... weren't they the same thing-? I never bothered with that entire crap, but I was smart. As smart as Sam was. I'd gotten my diploma no problem. Passed with flying colors really.

I could get into a place dead easy.

Sam was eighteen now, me twenty one, Dean twenty two. I'd changed a lot in the last four years- my hair was longer, and now a deep dark caramel color. My sapphire eyes reflected my name even more now. Also, I'd grown taller, but nowhere near as tall as Sam was now. Jeez... 6'2 and still growing with no indications he was stopping anytime soon. Huh. Well I did promise him when he was younger and small that he was going to grow into a monster.

"Well you can't stop me!"

"That's right, but if you walk out right now, don't expect to come back!"

"Fine!"

The motel door slammed shut now as Sam stormed out, and I had tears in my eyes as I lept up and ran after him.

"Sam!"

"Go away Sapphy! You heard him!"

"You're not leaving!"

"Well I am! And you can't stop me either!"

"Sam... please..."

"Saph... I have to. I can't stay here any longer."

I had tears rolling down my face now as he stopped and turned to me, a tear sparkling in his own as he said softly. "Saph... go back. Let me go."

But I just shook my head and grabbed his hands and said through blurring tears. "No! I'm not... letting you go alone..." A stupid idea hit me now, and I hastily added. "I'll come too!"

"What-?"

"I'll come with you. Yeah? I can pass for your age... just about. I'll draft up some papers and we'll go together yeah? College or whatever? No one can stop us."

"What about dad and Dean?"

"They... can manage without me."

"Dean?"

"What about him?"

"Saph... you know what."

"No, I don't."

"We all know you're in love with him! You're just waiting for that day he realizes... well it's not going to happen! And you know it! So stop living in this other reality and face facts!"

I just glared now, my ego of sorts bruised- how was it possible that everyone except for Dean knew I loved him?

"Well fuck you Sam." I now said coldly, my eyes narrowed. Sam just sighed and met my eyes with sombre ones as he added quietly. "You're gonna get hurt... why- you're right. Come with me. Just us two."

I shook my head and looked down, mumbling a little as I said. "I can't leave them..."

Sam just out a hand under my chin now, making me look up and meet his eyes as he said softly. "Yo wee all for it a moment ago... Come with me... please?"

Now I didn't answer, but just shook my head, not knowing what I could do or say, but Sam spoke... or rather acted as he bent down a little and kissed me softly for a moment, catching me offguard. He raised his other hand now and placed them either side of my face and continued kissing me passionately. I raised my own arms now and put them around his neck, settling one of them in his longish hair, then let one slide down to the small of his back, kissing him heatedly in return. Where the hell did he learn how to do all this-?

I pulled away now and shook my head, eyes closed. "Sam no..." but he just said swiftly, putting his hands back either side of my face. "Dean might not love you... but I do. Please come with me now Sapphy. I- I don't wanna leave you... I love you."

The tears were back now, mingling with each other as they ended up on Sams hand as I said brokenly. "Sam... I don't- I don't love you in that way."

I saw him flinch a little now at my words which he knew held the truth. He sighed and let me go, and I saw that pain reflected in his eyes as he backed up a little, then asked me quietly, voice pained a little too. "You're not... coming-?"

"Sam... don't make me choose. Please don't."

"I just... please Sapphy. I've never begged or anything before, but I am now. Please come with me, Don't let me go on my own. You understand me.."

"Sammy, I'm twenty one! You're like eighteen!"

"Nearly nineteen remember. It's only two years, three maximum."

"Just wal-"

"Sapphy. Come with me."

I met his sincere eyes now, then I thought of my words just a moment ago- he was eighteen... I couldn't just let him walk out like this. Who would look after him-? Sure he could look after himself... but I didn't like the idea of him on his own.

Guess I loved him too. But in a different way...

I sighed and just said in defeat. "Ok. But only until you get settled in okay? I'm not joining that-"

"Stanford."

"What?"

"I got accepted at Stanford."

"Oh! Well... congrats!" I felt myself smiling genuinely and hugging him. But as I did, I sighed in his ear. "I'll come... but I don't love you in that way ok?"

Sam nodded in defeat and said quietly. "Yeah, I know..." then chuckled and added. "No harm in trying right?"

I just giggled a little into his ear, closing my eyes against his shoulder and sighed deeply.

"What are we gonna do with you Sammy?"

Dad didn't handle the news that I was leaving for a bit with Sam well at all. Dean gave me that look that said he understood my decision.

"You're leaving!" Dad growled now, his face red as a beetroot by now, furious at my decision. But Sam was stood next to me, his glare defiant as he said. "It's her choice dad. Just like mine."

But now dad growled and said to me. "I promised your father that I'd take care of you! And now you're running off as-'

"My dad huh? Well... he ran off! Then why can't I! Why the hell did he even leave me with you fucked up bunch! I never wanted to become a hunter! But now look- I'm a fucking-!"

Dad waited until my rant was over, then said quietly. "I knew your father very well. He wouldn't have left you unless he had a good enough reason."

There were tears in my eyes now as I just said quietly. "Then tell me why." Dad groaned and just said. "I don't know. Ok?"

I shook my head now and grabbed my bag, saying to Sam. "Let's go."

Dean stepped forwards now and just said, eyes pleading. "Sapphire..." but I left before his eyes made me stay. I loved him, I truly did... and I was leaving him...

But not for good.

As soon as Sam was settled, I was coming back.

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